Chapter 36, let go of the past.
As I stood in the room that had been set up, it was like I was in a dream, I never thought it would all come out in front of me so quickly.
Pan Ying has taken her children out to live since she divorced Wang Jian, and the house here was also arranged by Brother Pan, and Brother Pan also told me that he would move in after getting married.
But I just nodded and didn't say anything, but I didn't expect it to be the eve of marriage in a blink of an eye.
"When are your mom and dad coming?"
Brother Pan walked up to me and suddenly asked me, and I was a little speechless for a moment, because I had never planned to call my parents, and even if they did, I didn't know how to explain it to my parents.
How so?
Tell my parents that I already like my father's grandson, let them hold the child who is not related to me, and then affectionately call the daughter-in-law of the woman who has no relationship with me at all?
Now Brother Pan's direct words made me stunned, and I didn't know how to answer.
"My parents are not here, they are in my hometown, it's too far away. β
I made up such a lame reason myself, and I began to wonder if I was mentally retarded. Pan Ge looked into my eyes and sneered.
"Isn't it your parents who don't show up for such a big thing as getting married?
I clenched my fists, and a rush of fire swelled in my heart.
"Such a big thing, isn't it just that you decided it in one sentence, and such a big thing, doesn't it also mean that it was advanced in advance?"
Throwing off this sentence, I walked away, Pan Ying entered the room and saw that Pan Ge and I were not looking good, and she was a little panicked in an instant, and immediately came over to give us a round.
"Come and see, are these guest lists correct??Your people..."
"I don't have anyone at home, I'm the only one. β
Originally, after the quarrel with Brother Pan just now, my heart was already very unhappy, but now Pan Ying's words are undoubtedly the fuse, which makes my mood almost collapse to the extreme again.
Brother Pan seemed to let out a vague smile next to him, as if he had been extremely patient with me, but because of Pan Ying's face, he didn't directly tear his face with me.
I don't have the energy to take care of his mood now, the only thing I want now is to finish this wedding quickly, and it is best to finish the rest of my life quickly.
Brother Pan saw that he was almost unable to communicate with me, and he didn't bother to care so much, and he was angry at Pan Ying.
"Look at who you like, whatever you want, just be happy. β
After Brother Pan threw this sentence at Pan Ying, he immediately turned his face and left, completely ignoring the rest of the situation. Although Pan Ying was also aggrieved and panicked, this was her own choice.
"Why don't you just let me go, let us go of each other? We won't be happy together. β
"How do you know if you're not together?
Pan Ying smiled at me.
"Zhang Luo, I really love you. β
Pan Ying said as if talking to herself, she and Wang Jian were together completely because of this child, and all their feelings were consumed over time in quarrels and domestic violence.
"Since I met you, I realized how naΓ―ve my original self was, and I understood what is called heartbeat and what is true love. β
After listening to Pan Ying say this, I suddenly felt that Pan Ying sounded really pitiful, yes, yes, very pitiful.
She may have been married and had children. But I have never experienced happiness and joy. I thought so, the person in front of my eyes was Pan Ying, but all I thought about in my head was Pan Hui.
Didn't she herself have true love, and wouldn't allow others to pursue true love? I laughed, laughed at her shamelessness, laughed at my cowardice.
When I promised her, I thought I had let go of everything, but now I feel that I haven't let go of anything, I'm just angry with Xiaohui. But now it's too late, and I'm powerless, and I don't want to.
Pan Ying confronted me in front of me, tears were already flowing down my eyes, in fact, I always knew that she was moved by me, in the end, she was also a poor person.
Hearing her say these words, I don't know how to answer, it looks like I'm a fool, so it's better to be a fool
"Okay, we're getting married tomorrow anyway, let's go to bed early. β
I don't want to continue chatting with Pan Ying, my whole person is in the stage of emptying, so tired, I feel that I haven't been awake for long, why am I tired again, and the heavy tiredness makes my eyelids can't open.
After saying this, I habitually wanted to find a place to sleep, only to realize that I was not in my own home, today Pan Ge and Pan Ying originally wanted to talk to me about marriage, but they didn't expect it to be like this, and they probably didn't expect my attitude to be so uncooperative.
But if there is really no emotion, don't force me to have feelings, and expect me to be so enthusiastic about marrying Pan Ying, I don't have that consciousness at all.
Now all I want to do is get through it quickly and get through it all.
"I'll go back first, what time is it tomorrow morning?"
I looked at the bag on the sofa and asked Pan Ying if this was the clothes I had prepared for tomorrow?
Pan Ying nodded, and then told me that Brother Pan would pick me up from my house in the morning tomorrow and let me get up early, and then looked at me uneasily.
"You're going to be there, aren't you?"
"I promised you, and it will be there, don't worry. β
I don't have any other thoughts about Pan Ying now, but since I have promised to get married, I don't want to cause trouble to others anymore, and it's good to be close to each other, so I comfort myself in my heart.
After all, the entire wedding has been managed by Pan Ge and Pan Ying, if I make them ugly now, I will not only be sorry for Brother Pan for saving me, but also slap them in the face, I still understand these simple truths.
I didn't see Xiaohui at Pan Ying's house today, I can probably know that Xiaohui should feel uncomfortable, obviously she and I are in love, but she can only watch me marry her sister.
Later, I learned that weddings are all about rehearsals, and that day Pan Ge and Pan Ying came to me for rehearsals, but I was too careless at the time, and Pan Ying was also a second marriage, so I didn't make a big deal of it, so I simply omitted some steps.
It's just that Brother Pan loves his sister and hopes that Pan Ying can be happy and be blessed and recognized by everyone, so it is so big, and the general second marriage is just passed secretly.
Lying in bed, I almost didn't fall asleep at night, and I kept thinking about what would have happened if I had caught Xiaohui when she was about to leave that day, and what it would have been like if I had been able to keep her when Xiaohui came to me that day, or if Pan Ying wasn't here.
But it all had become a fantasy now, and I smoked a lot of cigarettes and sat alone in the living room all night until the next morning.
Early the next day, Pan Ge knocked on the door and asked me to pick up the bride.
I wore dark circles under my eyes, shaved my beard, and changed into a gown, and maybe this time was a goodbye to the past.
When I followed Brother Pan downstairs, I saw Yang Hao waiting for me at the door.