21. Have you ever loved me?
When my dad came to see my mom with a bowl of freshly boiled porridge in his hand, he happily walked up to me and asked me to see how it looked.
I looked at him suspiciously, and he urged me a little embarrassedly, "You hurry up and taste it." ”
I took a small bite and found that it tasted very good, and I was about to scoop the second spoonful with a spoon, but my father quickly protected the bowl of porridge from under my paws, and said reproachfully, "I boiled this for your mother, why did you eat it alone." ”
I gave him a strange look, he was a little embarrassed by me, scratched his head, and quickly entered my mother's hospital room with his bowl of porridge.
I was standing there full of the smell of preserved egg porridge, and my appetite was great.
Suddenly I laughed like that, and stood outside the door and saw my dad in the ward with my mother for a while, and when my mom woke up, my dad was serving around the bedside with his bowl of porridge made by himself, for fear that my mom would be a little unsatisfactory.
He fed one spoonful, and my mom ate one spoonful.
What is love, time pours in, gray hair, old faces, but we can still walk through the endless years.
Although we were no longer young at that time, you no longer had the appearance of my love, and I did not have the beautiful and moving body you fell in love with at first sight.
But this does not prevent me from loving you and joining hands with you until I grow old.
My dad had a lot of fights with my mom in my memory, the two of them stood in the Civil Affairs Bureau three times to pull the divorce certificate, and my mom once gave him three slaps in the face.
He never fought back, many people probably think that a man who was slapped by a woman is cowardly and useless, and he is ashamed to be a man, but what I admire most in this life is my father.
He is a man who stands up to the sky in my eyes, as evidenced by the fact that my mother slapped him three times and he didn't fight back.
He disdains to be reckless in front of women, and a man who will only be reckless in front of women is really cowardly and useless.
He probably understood something, and during this time he spent the shortest amount of time doing things that my mom had never done before.
I stood at the door and looked in, my heart was very low, and I thought of myself, and I felt that life was really a failure.
I went to Lin's house to pack all my things as soon as I went back, and Lin's mother was coming back from my morning exercise outside, and she stopped my luggage and asked me what I was going to do.
I glanced at her, pulled the luggage back from her hand, and said, "Mom, the reason why I still call you Mom now, I never thought that I would end up with Anhang, but now, you know everything, Susie and I have been friends since childhood, not to say who is right and who is wrong in this matter, but there must always be a solution, whether you want Susie or me, you just need to call me, but my only request is that if you still want me to be your daughter-in-law, the child and Susie I hope they never existed." ”
I confessed directly, Mother Lin grabbed my luggage again, and said with an embarrassed face, "Wen Jing, it's our family Anhang I'm sorry for you, you are pregnant with a child now that you should not walk around, you are also very tired during this time, my mother will definitely give you an explanation for this matter, okay?"
Mother Lin assured me that I didn't say anything, the two of us had been entangled there for a long time, and Father Lin also came back from outside, and when he saw me dragging my luggage and running away from home, he immediately came over and persuaded me with Mother Lin.
But no matter how they persuade me, I, Song Wenjing, am no longer the person who used to be laughed at when others said a good word, and I will never forget Mother Lin's indifferent and mean face in my family.
They had a dry mouth and told me a lot of truths, what family and everything is prosperous, marriage is like a machine, if there is a problem, it should be repaired, if the problem is abandoned, it will only expand the problem more and more.
The people of the Lin family are all people who have read books, and Lin's father and Lin's mother are both retired professors from the university, so they naturally speak in one set.
I listened to it for a long time, and when they saw that I didn't waver at all, Mother Lin asked Father Lin to stop me, and immediately said, "Don't get excited, I'll give Anhang a call." ”
I said, "Mom, you don't have to call him, what he likes is Susie, I really don't want to force emotional things, it's not that children in this society can't live without their fathers, and I thank you for taking care of me for so many years." ”
Mother Lin immediately raised her eyebrows and said, "Wen Jing! Why are you so stupid! No matter how much Anhang likes that Susie named Susie! But don't forget, you are married to Anhang Mingmei, and our Lin family only recognizes you." Even if Susie is happy with Anhang, we will never agree!"
Mother Lin said very surely, but that night when Lin Anhang said that Susie was also pregnant with my child, her fading momentum really made me want to laugh at this time.
This is just forcing everyone to make a decision, Lin Anhang likes Susie otherwise why would he be so hesitant when he sent me back to the hospital that day.
We chatted for a while, and I only had one request for him, that is, with Susie without me, with me, Susie and the children could not stay.
He was silent for a long time and then gave me a sentence, "Give me some time." ”
After that, we all ignored each other, and I also understood that if it dragged on like this, the child in the belly would not wait for anyone, and many things had to be cut through quickly, it was he and Susie who were sorry for me, don't blame me.
Lin Anhang, what does it feel like to kill your own child with your own hands?
I sneered in my heart, Mother Lin immediately called Lin Anhang, and the two communicated on the phone for a long time, and I took advantage of Father Lin's concentration to listen to Mother Lin and Lin Anhang talking on the phone, and pulled the luggage out of his hand.
turned around and dragged his luggage away, and Father Lin chased after him tremblingly and crookedly.
I casually stopped a car downstairs, pulled the car door and sat in, looking at Father Lin who chased out from the entrance of the building, I opened the window and said to Father Lin outside, "Dad, don't chase, go back quickly, I have to take care of my mother in the hospital during this time, don't worry about it." ”
Father Lin said, "Wen Jing! Things have come to this point, we parents are all worried about it, but I just want to tell you one thing, no matter what things turn out, you will always be a good daughter-in-law in my mind." ”
I said, "Thank you." ”
As soon as the car door closed, everything was cut offOn this rainy night, I looked out the window in a daze, the neon lights outside were many times clearer than usual under the rain, and different colors of light and shadow were refracted on the window.
Xu Shenlin's face suddenly appeared in my mind, and I shook his face out of my mind vigorously, and then looked out the window again at the rainy night.
When I got home, I had my suitcase in my hand, and the echo of the wheels in the alley was like the sound of sharpening knives, noisy and annoying.
The potholes under the ground are shiny and silvery, and it is a little lonely to walk alone, I took out the key to open the door, the house is quiet, only my sister's room has a light.
I left my suitcase in the living room, and then I knocked on my sister's door, and found that she was not in the room, only a notebook was open on the desk.
She often didn't see her at night, and I was used to it, so I turned off the light in her room, closed the door and turned back to my room where I had been absent for a long time.
It's still the same as it was at the beginning, and even the furnishings in the room haven't moved.
After packing my suitcase, I went to the bathroom to take a shower and planned to sleep for a while, and I went to the hospital tomorrow morning to see my mother, and my phone rang before I could lie down.
I directly pressed the answer button, and my sister's drunken voice came from the other end of the phone, she said, "Song Wenjing, where are you now, come and pick me up." ”
I said, "Where are you drinking?" ”
Song Lian shook off directly, "It's good if you come directly to Hongda Bar, hurry up!"
After she finished speaking, she hung up the phone.
I sighed, so I had to change out of my pajamas and go to Hongda's to find her.
Hongda is a famous money-burning kiln in the city, when I went to pick up Song Lian, but it took a long time to find her in the box, when I went in, Song Lian was surrounded by a bunch of men pouring wine, she drank pale face but still had a smile on her face.
The moment I pushed the door open, the noise inside gradually quieted down, and all eyes looked at me.
I didn't even look at them, I walked over and dragged Song Lian, who was surrounded by people, out of the crowd, and said in a high voice, "Song Lian, Mom is still in the hospital, why are you still drinking here, go back with me." ”
Song Lian immediately understood my intentions, and said with a pale face to those big bosses, "I'm really sorry, my sister came a little suddenly, there are some things in my family, I can't stand the bosses today." ”
A few men with wine glasses immediately walked over, seemingly refusing to let Song Lian go, I was also surrounded in the middle, Song Lian saw that I was also involved, and his face was also very bad, "Bosses, this is my sister, she is still pregnant, I will send her back first, and then I will accompany the bosses, okay?"
The bosses smiled and said, "What's the matter, since it's your sister, it's a few drinks when you come." ”
Several men hugged and pulled at Song Lian, and I was surrounded in the middle, and there were even a few people who were crazy and wanted to eat Lao Niang's tofu.
I was anxious on the spot, Song Lian was more anxious than me, she simply didn't care about any face, and smashed the cup in her hand to the ground, and the sound of breaking disturbed the chaos at this moment.
Song Lian had a cold face, protected me behind him and said, "Bosses, forgive me for not accompanying Song Lian, there is something at home, if you are dissatisfied, you can go to Mr. Jiang, I will not accompany this wine lady!"
After speaking, she pulled me and rushed out of the private room, and I was trembling and crooked by her.
Her steps were particularly unpaced, and even in a hurry, I was dragged by her and bumped, if it weren't for the balance, it was estimated that the child in the womb would be brought out by Song Lian tonight.
She dragged me out of this drunken place, and the first thing she did was pull a cigarette out of her pocket and take two puffs in some irritation.
After less than two sips, he immediately reached out and pinched off the cigarette butt.
I just wanted to speak, Song Lian was stunned as soon as he pinched his cigarette, and immediately saw a black car not far away, in the bustling city, the body was covered with a layer of light.
She threw the cigarette in her hand to the ground, and despite me standing behind her, she picked up her bag and walked up, kicking the car that looked so expensive.
After kicking me and feeling that it was not enough, he stretched out his hand and looked at the car window door fiercely, and scolded excitedly, "Jiangnan City! You turtle king son bastard! You threw me into this place where you eat people and don't spit out bones today, what do you think of my old lady! I have come to this point for you! I have been following you since I was in my twenties, and I have been consumed until now! What do you think of me!"
My sister kicked and scolded, kicked out her high heels, and finally opened the windows in the black car, and I couldn't see who was sitting in the car from a distance, only a vague silhouette of him.
The sound was pleasant and magnetic, but it sounded a little cold.
"Song Lian, I have told you countless times that there is no possibility between us, friends can do it. ”
Song Lian shouted loudly on the side of the road, "Jiang Nancheng! I have never been a friend! Last time your wife went to my house and smashed the door! Why didn't you become my friend! Jiang Nancheng, you want to dump me halfway now! Let me tell you! There is no door. ”
Song Lian sprinkled there, and the man sitting in the car seemed to be a little impatient, and closed the window ruthlessly, and the door at the other end was immediately pushed open, and it was the driver who was driving.
Where he and Song Lian pulled, it seemed that he wanted to pull her away, Song Lian was shouting like a madman tonight, which attracted the attention of many people in the dark night.
I can't be angry in my heart, for such a long time, we only know that Song Lian has fallen in love with a married man, but we have never seen that man, and Song Lian doesn't tell us much about the crazy man she loves.
Now it's really surprising to be mad and block him halfway.
But listening to Song Lian's words just now, it is not difficult to hear that the man wants to clear up with her.
I immediately rushed to the side, dragged Song Lian, who was going crazy, behind me, kicked the driver hard, and said cruelly, "Don't pull and pull me! Don't think you're something!"
The driver didn't expect me to come so suddenly, he took a few steps back, Song Lian got rid of the driver's restraints, and immediately opened the car door to find trouble with the man.
I just wanted to stop.
The closed windows were opened, revealing a smiling face inside the car.
He glanced at me, then at Song Lian and said, "This is your sister?"
Song Lian said, "What's your business!"
The man teased at my sister, "Your sister looks quite individual." ”
When Song Lian heard this, his angry face turned pale and he was about to stretch out his hand to hit Jiangnan City, but he was directly stopped by the man.
"It's not good for a woman to hit someone. ”
I never thought that the man my sister liked for so long was actually the best among the scum, and she liked it for so many years.
He grabbed Song Lian's hand and didn't let go, Song Lian was about to slap him with his other hand, he suddenly pushed the hand that was clamping Song Lian hard, and Song Lian sat directly on the ground and fell to the ground.
The moment Song Lian fell to the ground, I didn't think about anything, rushed over and grabbed the man's hand before he had time to retract, opened his mouth and bit him hard.
The man I bit was probably in pain, and his arm was about to push me away as soon as he could do it, but before he could move, a cold voice suddenly came from behind him.
"Mr. Jiang, a man who beats a woman is even worse. ”
He was stunned, but the force was sent out, I was still pushed by him, and the person behind me caught me in his arms, and my body was not stable, he directly hugged my waist.
After I stabilized, Xu Shenlin, who was holding me, stood there with a smile, there was a royal blue car parked behind him, he didn't look down at me, just looked at Jiang Nancheng in the car and said, "Mr. Jiang, women are used to hurt." ”
Jiang Nancheng's face flashed with astonishment, but then his eyes recovered well, he tidied up his suit in the car, pushed the car door with a smile on his face and walked down.
Standing in front of us, he smiled politely at Xu Shenlin, "Mr. Xu is so coincidental, I didn't expect to be able to meet you here, Mr. Xu's battle on the day of the bidding was really beautiful." ”
Jiang Nancheng stretched out his hand to Xu Shenlin, but Xu Shenlin stretched out his hand but fell on his messy hair, he casually stroked it twice, and said to me, "Is there anything uncomfortable?" ”
I shook my head in a daze, my head already starting.
Jiang Nancheng's outstretched hand was embarrassed to stalemate, he looked at us with a sinking gaze, and immediately looked at me as if he thought of something, and said, "I didn't expect that Mr. Xu actually knew Song Lian's sister." ”
Xu Shenlin said, "I have known each other for many years. ”
Jiang Nancheng looked at Song Lian, who was still sitting on the ground, and said with a little blame in his smile, "Song Lian, this is your fault, if you know that your sister and Xu are always old acquaintances, we don't have to be so ugly today." ”
Song Lian sat on the ground, embarrassed, her long hair covering her face, and she couldn't see what her expression was at this time.
Song Lian didn't answer him, Jiang Nancheng didn't feel embarrassed, and said with a smile, "Since Mr. Xu knows him, then I'll make amends here today, after I finish speaking."
Looking at me without a hint of insanity, I immediately glared back.
The corners of his mouth provoked a smile, turned around and opened the car door and was about to bend down to enter, Song Lian, who had been sitting on the ground and had not spoken, spoke in a hoarse voice, and at the moment when Jiangnan City bent over, she asked, "Jiangnan City, have you ever loved me?"
Jiang Nancheng, who was stretching out his hand to open the car door, froze, did not look back, and indifferently gave a simple answer, two words, "No." ”