Hearing Zheng Jiayue suddenly say such words, I was stunned, I was stunned for a moment, and then I reacted, it must have been Zheng Jiayue who saw the appearance of me just now, and the performance between us asked like this, right?

Originally, I didn't tell her about beating Lu Mao just now, and Jiang Ziyun wouldn't tell Zheng Jiayue, but I still look quite embarrassed now, so Zheng Jiayue must have seen it before saying so.

Thinking of this, I could only sigh, looked at her again and said, "Uh... Well, I just had a fight with Lu Mao, and I beat him up.."

Of course I can't tell Zheng Jiayue that I was almost ruined by Lu Mao, otherwise it would be too embarrassing, and second, I wouldn't be domineering at all.

Zheng Jiayue frowned immediately when she heard me say this, she looked at me and said, "Ah, did you fight with Lu Mao?" I knew that Mr. Chen deliberately let us go away and said this matter, if you beat him, he will definitely retaliate against you, Xiao Xiaoming, why are you so impulsive!!

Zheng Jiayue still rarely blames me or anything, I looked at her, and could only explain embarrassedly: "Eh, how can I say this, when I saw him make Li Xinran look like that, I didn't hold back for a while, but it's okay, don't worry, there is Mr. Chen, besides, he doesn't necessarily dare to do anything to me."

Although I said that, in fact, I have no bottom in my heart, but I definitely can't let Zheng Jiayue worry about me, otherwise it will be very embarrassing.

Zheng Jiayue sighed when she saw that I said so easily, she was silent for a while, and finally spoke again: "Okay, indeed... I can understand your feelings, but it's still not good, Xiao Xiaoming, you'd better not fight... And Lu Mao's position in the company is so high, if you go against him, it will definitely not be good~"

Zheng Jiayue also said this because she was worried about me, I nodded, and said: "Don't worry, it's okay, I'll pay attention to it in the future, anyway, I'm not fine? Besides, Li Xinran was paralyzed by him, she didn't look for him, he came to retaliate against Li Xinran, do I want me to stand by and watch? I definitely don't want to, so even if I breathe a sigh for Li Xinran, she should leave anyway, and when she leaves, we will return to calm and work in the company well."

I'm just calming Zheng Jiayue's emotions for a while, mainly because I'm afraid that she will think about something, Zheng Jiayue nodded after hearing me say this, and she said again after a while: "Okay, I know, then..." Xiao Xiaoming, you must be careful, by the way, you haven't eaten yet, right? Why don't I go out and buy something for you to eat, you can look at Li Xinran first."

Originally, I wasn't too hungry, but when I heard Zheng Jiayue say this, I was immediately hungry, so I nodded and said to Zheng Jiayue: "Okay~ Thank you then.."

Zheng Jiayue pouted at me and muttered, "Thank you for your size~ idiot.. Gone.."

After saying that, she turned around and walked outside, and I saw Zheng Jiayue go out, and then I returned to the ward.

Li Xinran was still sleeping at this time, so I didn't disturb her, but sat quietly and watched her.

She slept very soundly, it should have been the most soundly slept in the past two days, I didn't expect that things would be resolved like this in the end, she didn't get anything, and it became like this.

I found out that Li Xinran is the strongest one among the people I know, and she is still a girl, not to mention being someone else, I am estimated to have collapsed, she can behave like this, it is already very powerful.

Thinking of this, I sighed again, and watched her quietly for a long time, before Zheng Jiayue bought something and came back.

After that, the two of us chatted quietly on the side, and when it was almost evening, Zheng Jiayue was sleepy early again, and I signaled to her who would be next to her..

And Li Xinran woke up not long after Zheng Jiayue fell asleep, and after waking up, she looked at me, and then looked at Zheng Jiayue who was asleep on the side, and did not speak immediately.

I saw that she woke up and hurriedly stepped forward and asked her if she wanted to help or something, but Li Xinran just shook her head, and after a while, she suddenly looked at me and said, "Do you have the phone, Wang Ming.."

I nodded and said, "Take it, you want to.". Did you call?"

Li Xinran nodded his head slowly, and quickly said: "But I want to go out to fight, can you push me out.. It just so happens that I want to take a break too.."

I was stunned for a moment when I heard Li Xinran say this, but after thinking about it, I nodded and said, "Okay, you can wait for me.."

After saying this, I turned around and went out to find a wheelchair, and put Li Xinran in the wheelchair, at this time I saw that Zheng Jiayue was sleeping soundly, so I didn't wake her up, but pushed Li Xinran out of the door of the hospital building.

There is a small garden behind the hospital, which is probably a place for patients to walk, but there are very few people here at such a late hour, and the weather is a little cold...

I was worried that Li Xinran was freezing, so I asked, "Are you cold?"

Li Xinran shook his head, and suddenly stretched out his hand to point to a street lamp in front of him, and said, "You push me there, I want to make this call myself.."

I thought about it for a while, but I still pushed Li Xinran to the street lamp... After putting down Li Xinran, I handed her the phone, then turned around and walked out of a distance, I could feel that Li Xinran didn't want me to listen, and I really didn't want to listen...

I'm afraid I can't stand that sad tone, this kind of thing, no matter how you think about it, will be very sad...

At this time, I looked at Li Xinran from a distance, her figure in a wheelchair looked particularly lonely under the street lamp.

Her shadow was stretched long, and looking at it made people feel uncomfortable in their hearts.

———— heard Yu Qian say something like this... I was stunned...

I looked at her in front of me and felt as if something in my heart was beginning to decay.

yes, that's how it feels...

Is that how it feels?

When I expressed my affection for Qian, wasn't it just like she is now, in this situation?

When I expressed my affection for Yu Qian, I knew that she was with Lu Mao, not even me, but the whole company, so I didn't take into account her mood at all, I just felt that Lu Mao was not worthy of her, and she shouldn't be with Lu Mao.. But now that I think about it, isn't my situation the same now?

It can be said that it is the other way around... I am with Zheng Jiayue, and I also feel Yu Qian's good feelings, although I am very eager to enjoy this indescribable feeling, but I will not give up Zheng Jiayue at all...

Presumably Yu Qian was under the same pressure as me at that time.

She has also been secretly entangled in countless nights.

Thinking of this, my heart seemed to be missing a corner all of a sudden, and countless sorrows kept surging out from that gap...

I looked at Yu Qian like this, and it took a long time before I spoke

"Hmm.."

"I see... Now, there it is.."

My answer made Yu Qian raise her head and look at me again, she stared at me for a long time, and finally moved again.

I saw her break free of my hand and stumble out the door a little.

I stood in the bathroom for a while before walking out again...

After going out, Yu Qian was already lying on the bed, she was lying on her back, her eyes were tightly closed, and she seemed to be resting.

I feel that Yu Qian really drank too much today, even if she didn't drink too much, at least she was not in a good mood...

So after looking at her for a while, I still spoke

"If you want to sleep, put on the covers, I..."

"I'll go back first."

I didn't mention what happened just now, I just think that it is a good choice to leave by myself now...

As a result, I didn't expect that as soon as I finished speaking, Yu Qian's voice came...

"Don't go.. Stay with me.."

"Stay with me... One night.."

Although the sound was small, I could hear it clearly.

I was stunned, I never thought that Yu Qian would say this...

Do you want to stay with her all night?

Although I wanted to crook for a second, I quickly understood what she meant...

After all, it's not safe to leave her alone to stay here at night... And it's so foggy outside, it's not convenient for me to go home, and I can't hang up on the way and become a ghost or something...

So at this time, I looked at Yu Qian again, and then asked tentatively

"Is it convenient? There's only one bed."

Yu Qian immediately opened her eyes again when she heard me say this, and she seemed to be really much more awake after she vomited. She struggled to sit up again, then looked at me and said

: "Previous... Didn't you do the same?"

"So, there's nothing inconvenient about it.."

Yu Qian's words reminded me of the fact that I went to Yangtian Mountain with her, and that night, we did spend the night in the hotel bed.

Thinking of this, I didn't say anything, and finally nodded at Yu Qian...

Seeing me nodding, Yu Qian rubbed her eyes, and soon she looked at me again, and then spoke

"Let's just sleep in bed, I'm a little uncomfortable, so I'll sleep first, one and a half.."

After saying this, Yu Qian walked to the other side of the bed again, she took off her shoes, took off my coat and her own coat, put it aside, and then the whole person got into the bed...

I saw Yu Qian's move, so I thought about it again, and then walked into the bathroom on the side...

After I went in, I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror, I actually felt that I was not like myself anymore.

Which self am I?

In the end, in my heart, what kind of thoughts do I have about Qian, and what do I think about Zheng Jiayue?

I took a deep breath at this thought, then turned off the light and walked out of the bathroom.

When I went out, the lights were still on in the house.

The rooms in this hotel are very good, at least worth the price.

I turned off the lights and soon it was pitch black...

I fumbled in the dark for a long time, and finally crawled to the side of the bed.

I don't know when it started, sleeping in the same bed with Yu Qian has become so easy...

Perhaps, this is a feeling that Lu Mao has never experienced, right?

At this time, I suddenly had such an impulse, an impulse to ask Yu Qian clearly, what was going on between her and Lu Mao, to ask her if she knew Li Laogou, and to know what she had always disliked Lu Mao and being with him again.

But this thought only swirled around in my head a few times, and then I rejected it again...

Because even if I ask, Yu Qian may not tell me, and she is estimated to be in a state of half-drinking now, so it is very likely that she will not say anything I ask, but it will make her more nervous and concerned, and there will be less chance of knowing in the future.

Thinking of this, I still sighed lightly, and then opened the corner of the quilt and gently got in...

After lying down, Yu Qian next to me was facing away from me, she didn't know if she was asleep, but it was quiet and motionless.

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her, and after a while, that feeling in my heart returned.

Obviously, she was always so close to her, but she couldn't shorten the distance by a little bit.

Obviously, many times as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch her, but because of various reasons, you can't do so...

Perhaps, this is the so-called fate without separation... Perhaps, it is destined that Yu Qian and I can only stay in this distance.

Thinking of this, I was sad again, and finally closed my eyes, thinking that it would be better to sleep.

When I wake up from sleep, I guess everything will be fine, Yu Qian will return to normal, and her trembling heart will calm down again.

However, such a thought did not stay in his mind for long, and suddenly he felt that Yu Qian turned around again.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that she was looking at me too.

Although it was pitch black, my eyes and her eyes seemed to be intertwined in the darkness.

It was a very subtle feeling, it was a feeling, there are no good words to describe it.

Lying in bed and looking at each other with the girl you liked, or rather, the girl you once liked...

Obviously, I can't see each other's faces clearly, but I don't want to look away at all.

At this time, I couldn't help but start to guess in my heart.

What kind of thoughts does she have now?

What was she thinking at this time?

Is it the same thing as what you think? Or is it that you are not looking at yourself at all, and you are just thinking too much about it?

Such thoughts were racing in my mind, and suddenly Yu Qian moved...

Her face became clear in her field of vision.

As soon as my back stiffened, I felt it.

There was a temperature in front of him, and the face slowly leaned towards him.

Before I could come back to my senses, I felt a hand gently placed on my waist.

And in his arms, a petite body, leaned over...

My head buzzed, and my eyes turned into a white expanse...

My heart sank rapidly at this moment, I lowered my head, Yu Qian's face was hidden in the darkness, but her eyes were clearly shining brightly.

After a brief pause, her thin voice came from her arms

"Just one night.."

"Just give it to me. Such an evening ...

Her voice sounded so small, but it seemed to explode in my body, and the sound resounded in every corner of my body. This voice, down my veins, slowly rushed towards my heart...

I don't know why, I can't speak anymore.

Zheng Jiayue's smiling face flashed in front of him, but it was only a short second, and it disappeared.

What reappeared was Yu Qian's lonely figure, Yu Qian... That heartbreaking figure...

That's how I started it, and I don't know where the strength came from.

hugged her tightly in his arms...

The moment he hugged Yu Qian in his arms, a feeling that he had never felt before poured into his heart.

It seems to be the first time, the first time to hold her tight like this...

For the first time I felt her mood, and then, with her consent, hugged her tightly...

I can't describe my mood now, and I can't find a good word to describe this excited and insecure mood now...

Yes, it is very exciting to be able to lie on the bed and hug Yu Qian tightly.

At the same time, I am a little uneasy, I don't know where this uneasiness comes from, but it should be because it has something to do with Zheng Jiayue...

Because I was still thinking about Zheng Jiayue in my heart, I felt a little guilty, and I felt that I was very sorry for Zheng Jiayue for a while

..

But he couldn't control it, and hugged the person in his arms tightly.

I hugged Yu Qian tightly, completely from the bottom of my heart, and hugged Yu Qian tightly.

Maybe it's because of the kind of liking I used to like her.,Or, because all along, how much unwilling...

In short, he hugged her tightly, as if he was going to use all his strength.

And Yu Qian leaned on my arms like this, her head was tightly pressed against my chest, and there was no sound in her mouth.

The two of us just lay on the same bed, hugging each other tightly.

The two of us, like a couple, leaned on each other tightly.

Seriously, in a way, I kind of enjoy it.

Because this gave me an illusion, an illusion that I was already with Yu Qian...

A long time ago, being able to be with Yu Qian was almost one of the things I looked forward to the most... But nowadays, that feeling isn't so good...

I know that I can't be with her, even if I know that she doesn't like Lu Mao at all, even if I know that she has a good impression of me, but I still can't be with her.

Because, I already have Zheng Jiayue, I already have Zheng Jiayue, by my side...

This is an important thing and there is no way not to think about it, I have no way to betray Zheng Jiayue's liking for me, and it can also be said that for so long, my liking for Zheng Jiayue is not such an easy thing to give up...

However, my current actions are completely sorry for Zheng Jiayue, but I have no way to control myself, maybe just like Yu Qian said, only tonight, it is special, only tonight, it belongs to her, between me...

So at this time, I could only hold her tightly, there was no thought in my brain, a blank piece, and my body kept holding Yu Qian...

Yu Qian was motionless in my arms, she also hugged me tightly, I could still feel the temperature of her hand around my waist, her hand was gently on my waist, her head rested on my arms, tightly pressed against my chest.

I can't think of how I can describe my feelings at this time.

In short, there is a warm feeling in my heart, I don't know if this warmth comes from Yu Qian's body, or from the feeling in my heart.

In short, at this moment, I am snuggling up to each other like Yu Qian... Neither of us said anything more, as if the voices of the world had all disappeared...

Later, I don't know how long it took, and Yu Qian in her arms heard a thick breathing sound.

It seems that Yu Qian is asleep, she leans on my arms, breathing steadily...

This made me can't help but look at her in my arms, only to see Yu Qian's eyes tightly closed, she seems to be asleep, as if she doesn't know what the situation is now.

I just looked at Yu Qian's sleeping face quietly, looking at her, with a quiet face.

For the first time, look at her like this.

For the first time, with such a mood, such a form, looking at her.

Yu Qian slept soundly, as if no sound could wake her up.

I just watched her quietly, and after a while, my eyes couldn't help but fall on her lips.

Although it was pitch black, Yu Qian's red lips could still be seen.

That color is hard to describe, but in my mind, I still have the gentle kiss of Yu Qian some time ago...

At this time, an idea suddenly popped into my mind...

That is, if I go to kiss her.

What would it look like?

At this time, Yu Qian shouldn't reject herself, right?

At this time, she just expressed her affection to herself, she shouldn't refuse, right?

However, if he did kiss her, what would that count?

What is the kiss between me and Yu Qian?

Between friends? or. betrayed Zheng Jiayue, a kiss only for his own selfish desires?

Thinking of this, I felt a bad feeling in my heart, because Zheng Jiayue's face appeared in front of my eyes again...

I suddenly came back to my senses and realized that everything I was doing now, as long as Zheng Jiayue knew about it, it would hurt her heart very much...

This made me pass for a while, and finally sighed, hugged Yu Qian motionlessly, and slowly closed my eyes.

I can't let go of her now, so I can only do what Yu Qian said.

Just give her a night out...

Such a night can be regarded as for her, and it can be regarded as for herself..

Thinking of this, the guilt in my heart finally decreased a lot, I took a deep breath, and hugged Yu Qian in my arms a little...

At this time, the brain finally became calm, and all thoughts disappeared.

I began to enjoy it, to enjoy the illusion of this moment, of bliss.

It turns out that people are like this.

People are all and cannot be satisfied.

Those people you think you have forgotten, things that you think, have completely discarded...

When it reappears in front of your eyes, it will still be remembered, it will still be, so unforgettable...

We live in such a world that no one can escape the constraints of this world...

Those so-called insistence on self-consciousness are worthless in reality.

Later, I don't know when I fell asleep...

All in all, I slept very soundly.

I had a dream at night, in which Zheng Jiayue turned her back to me, no matter how I called her name, she was still unwilling to turn her head.