When Chen Yuxin heard this, he suddenly "giggled" and laughed. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Xiao Zihua asked: "What are you laughing at?" Chen Yuxin said: "It's you who like her, and it's not your father who likes her, why is it difficult for your father to face her father?" Xiao Zihua also smiled faintly and said: "Yuxin, you are still young, and some questions don't understand yet." We live in a material world, and everyone's life needs a certain material foundation. And when a person is a minor or just an adult, it is the family that provides him with the material foundation. Unless you can survive independently of your family, you can't do anything beyond what your family can bear. Including when you choose your love.

"It is not difficult for a person who has just come of age to support himself. It is not so easy to provide yourself with a better material foundation than your own family. Different material bases will bring different concepts and lifestyles, and these habits are difficult to change. Only those who are similar in these aspects can be united. So, Yuxin, you have to remember that no matter what your ideal partner looks like in your heart, and no matter what kind of person you meet, the person you choose in the end is often the one that your family can accept. ”

Chen Yuxin's heart sank, she didn't want to accept Xiao Zihua's conclusion, but she couldn't refute it. After a moment of silence, she continued to ask, "Then what are you going to do? ”

Xiao Zihua sighed and said, "If only I had known what to do at that time." Although I was forced to pursue her due to the gap in family background, I really couldn't give up in my heart. Although I reacted normally to her enthusiasm, I did not completely refuse. It took a long time, maybe a year, maybe two years. Her passion for me has not diminished in the slightest, but has grown day by day. One day she came back from shopping for groceries. She parked her bicycle in front of her small courtyard and carried a bag of cabbage down from the car. I happened to pass by in front of her house. Seeing her struggling, I couldn't help but say, 'How can you carry such a heavy thing, I'll help you carry it.' She was very happy to hear this, and said cheerfully, 'Thank you!' and I helped her carry the food into the kitchen, and she greeted me happily. First she fetched water for me to wash my hands, then a broom for me to sweep the dirt off my body, and finally took out her father's cigarette for me to smoke. She was so enthusiastic, which scared me a little. I'm afraid that when her family comes back to see this scene, then the secret in our hearts can no longer be hidden. So I hurriedly refused her invitation and hurried out of the courtyard. When I turned around and waved at her before leaving the door, I saw her standing straight under the poplar tree in the courtyard, but the smile on her face froze. I suddenly felt very bad in my heart, and I walked away in a daze.

"A few days later, I heard from the people in the hospital that something had happened to her. It is said that she fell from a height of two floors. Broke a leg and was admitted to the hospital. When I heard the news, I felt that something was wrong. I'd love to ask someone for details, but that's all we know in the hospital. Her family didn't say the details, and no one dared to ask. I didn't see her again for the whole winter. But I have been thinking about her in my heart, and I don't know if she is seriously injured or how she is recovering.

"I didn't see her again until the following spring. When I passed by the gate that day, I saw her standing at the door of her courtyard with a cane. When she saw me coming, she beckoned, 'Brother Xiao, do you want to go out?' She called me Brother Xiao, and her attitude was bolder and more straightforward than before, and she did not hide her love for me at all. I had no choice but to stand and ask her, 'Are you better?' and she said happily, 'Much better, thank you, Brother Xiao.'" She talks to me like that, and I can't go. How can you leave a person who loves you, she is suffering, but her frank confession makes me very disturbed, and if others see me, I can no longer deny my love. At the time, I was really afraid of people knowing because I couldn't afford it. So I had to leave as soon as possible. But she was reluctant, and I couldn't go.

"I was really in a dilemma, and finally I said anxiously, 'Go back and be careful of catching a cold outside.'" Actually, the weather was fine that day, the sun was shining warmly, and there was not a single wind. When she heard me say this, her expression became very disappointed, and she said slowly: "Brother Xiao, you go and get busy, don't worry about me." With that, she turned around slowly, and walked towards the courtyard with great difficulty, holding on to her crutches. Speaking of this, Xiao Zihua was silent again. He looked into the void, as if he was watching a person walk slowly, his face full of pain and helplessness.

After a long time, Xiao Zihua turned his head, raised his hand and wiped it vigorously on his face, and then asked Chen Yuxin: "Do you think I'm useless?" Chen Yuxin was stunned when she heard this, she didn't expect Xiao Zihua to suddenly ask her like this, and she didn't know how to answer for a while. Xiao Zihua didn't wait for her to answer, and said: "Later, when I think about it, I think I'm really useless! A girl gave you such a sincere love, but you didn't dare to accept it, it's really useless! I was very uncomfortable in those days." The whole person seems to have been hollowed out, and he has lost his soul all day long. Whenever I have time, I wander the streets. One day I saw a group of children on the street teasing a homeless puppy. The puppy's front legs were broken off an inch long, and he walked bumping up and down. The children first chased it and watched it jolt around for fun. Then he drove it down to a hole in the wall and made it drill through the hole again and again. When the children got tired of playing, they dispersed. The puppy was at a loss from the children's teases, and he looked up but didn't know where to go. It stood like that for a moment, before staggering forward, apparently aimless.

"I watched the puppy walk away across the road. I really want to help it, but what can I do for it? Can I bring it home, give it food, and help it heal? My family won't agree. Watching the puppy go away, I suddenly thought that I was actually the dog, and I couldn't even guarantee my own survival, so where could I take care of anything else. Even now, looking back, I feel like I was right. Without any life experience, no social experience, no stable job, and still need to rely on parents to gain a foothold in society. If you leave home, you will be a stray dog. So later, when I heard that there was a lover who was originally in love, but was forced to break up due to the opposition of the family. I can understand them. There's really no way around that!"

Chen Yuxin didn't want to listen to this, she really couldn't accept that beautiful love was forced to give up under the pressure of survival. So she interrupted Xiao Zihua's words and asked, "What happened to you later?"

Xiao Zihua asked rhetorically: "Later? We didn't come later." That day, in front of her small courtyard, we saw each other for the last time. Then I got a new job, which was far away from home, so I didn't come home often. It was during this time that her father divided the new house, and the family moved out. We haven't seen each other since. ”

Chen Yuxin said suspiciously: "No, right? We are not big here, even if we move, it won't be impossible to touch once, right?"

Xiao Zihua said: "Really, we have never seen each other again." Because she's dead!"

Chen Yuxin was stunned for a moment, thinking that he had misheard, and asked, "What did you say?"

Xiao Zihua said: "She died." ”

Chen Yuxin asked in surprise, "Why? How did she die?"

Xiao Zihua said: "It is said that she committed suicide. ”

Chen Yuxin exclaimed "ah".

Xiao Zihua was silent for a moment before he said, "It was also a long time before I heard the news by chance from one of our former neighbors. I don't know exactly how she died, but she did commit suicide!"

Chen Yuxin exclaimed again with an "ah" and asked, "How can this be?"

Xiao Zihua shook his head and said, "I don't know." In fact, I had an ominous premonition that she broke her leg that time, and I vaguely felt that she fell off by herself. Now it looks like she really fell off on her own. ”

Chen Yuxin also paused before asking, "What's her name?"

Xiao Zihua said: "Her name is Tianhong. What a rainbow in the sky! It appears so briefly that all that is left is memories. I really shouldn't have helped her get that bag of cabbage back that time. It would be nice to make her think that I don't care about her at all. Maybe that wouldn't have happened. ”

Chen Yuxin saw Xiao Zihua's preoccupied appearance, so she comforted him and said, "Don't blame yourself too much, maybe she has encountered another situation." ”

Xiao Zihua said excitedly: "No matter what the situation is, you shouldn't take this step." She didn't want to think about how her mother could just leave her when it was time for her to repay her kindness? How could she be so ruthless? Although emotionally I had failed her, I still had to blame her for this matter. It is normal for a person to experience some setbacks, some grievances, and even some hardships, and he cannot give up his responsibilities because of this. Even if you're completely right and everyone else is wrong, then you should be more tolerant of others, right? I was too lacking in courage and too afraid to take responsibility. But that's what every young person has to go through. When people are young, as if they have just entered the society, because they have no life experience and no ability to deal with the world, it is inevitable that they will not be able to do the wrong thing. But she didn't give anyone else a chance to make corrections.

"After I moved away from her house, I thought about her a lot. Later I also realized that missing her was the biggest mistake of my life. I always think that although we can't be united in this life, if I can meet her again, I will definitely be good friends with her for life. But I didn't expect her to be like this, can't she live if she can't be combined with her ideal lover?"

Chen Yuxin saw that Xiao Zihua became more and more excited, for fear that his emotions would get out of control, so he comforted her in a hurry: "She also made a mistake because she had no life experience, you should also forgive her!"

Xiao Zihua wanted to continue, but he was speechless when he heard Chen Yuxin say this. After a pause, Xiao Zihua said slowly: "In the past, I just thought that she shouldn't do this, but I never thought about whether she encountered an unsolvable knot. It seems that deep down I just want to alleviate my own sins, not really think about her. I'm too selfish!" Chen Yuxin didn't expect Xiao Zihua to admit that she was selfish so frankly, but she explained for him: "No! I don't think you can bear to see her end like this, which shows that you are kind-hearted." ”

Xiao Zihua didn't answer her words, and said thoughtfully: "She must have buried something in her heart and refused to tell it, and finally suffocated herself to a dead end." People, if you have a depression in your heart, you must say it, don't keep it in your heart. Now that society is so progressive, people can express their anguish in many ways, so why suppress themselves. There was once a girl who had a boyfriend. She put all her passion into love. Unexpectedly, her boyfriend was a person who lacked literacy, treated her as his personal property, and forbade her to have contact with other members of the opposite sex. Once she found out that she was in contact with other members of the opposite sex, she was actually punched and kicked. She wanted to leave him, but the boyfriend was haunted, and the girl was tormented and miserable. Later, the girl joined the newspaper and asked for help from the society. In the end, I finally got rid of that boyfriend and started a new life. ”

When Xiao Zihua told the girl's story, Chen Yuxin seemed to feel a huge electric current passing through her body. She trembled violently, because Xiao Zihua was telling her story.

It was a few years ago when she met a boy. The two fell in love at first sight, and the flame of love quickly ignited in the hearts of the two. Chen Yuxin's heart is still burning hot, this is her first love. All her longing and longing for love are poured into this love. She loves to be so dedicated, so persistent, so desperate. In the beginning, nothing in her mind existed except for the boy. Despite her family's objections, she followed the boy to live in another city. But after a long time together, she realized that the boy was very domineering, domineering and selfish and narrow-minded. He did not allow her to have access to other men other than him. And if she doesn't please him, he will be very irritable. Later, he actually beat her up. Although every time he hit her, he would repent to her and apologize to her. However, in the blink of an eye, he will revert to his old ways. The same thing happened every day, and she finally ran back to her parents because she couldn't bear it. The boy chased after her, still entangled with her. During that time, she washed her face with tears all day long, and her mood was extremely bad.

One day, she saw an article in the city's evening newspaper that told the emotional stories of ordinary people. She wrote down what happened to her and emailed it to the editor of that section. Unexpectedly, the editor of Jurong actually published her letter and called on enthusiastic people in the society to help her. Soon she received a letter from the editor of Jurong, which was written by a person who signed "Lonely Travel". In the letter, Tianya Lonely Travel deeply analyzed the psychological state and behavioral motivation of her and the boy, and pointed out some wrong concepts and behaviors in her interactions with people. After reading the letter, she was inspired, and finally broke free from the boy's entanglement.

So, she sent a thank you letter according to the email address left by Tianya Lonely Travel. Soon the end of the world replied. In the letter, Tianya Lonely Travel expressed his gratitude for her trust, was very happy to help her out of the predicament, and expressed his willingness to keep in touch with her and communicate with her frequently. Since then, they have communicated frequently via email. Generally, the reply of Tianya Lonely Travel is not timely enough, and sometimes it will drag on for a long time. Chen Yuxin felt that he must not have a computer, and it was not convenient to access the Internet. It's just this intermittent exchange that accompanied Chen Yuxin out of those dark days and made her cheer up again. Jane Eyre was one of the books recommended to her at that time. Gradually, she regained her self-confidence and began to keep in touch with her former friends. But while interacting with her friends, her mailbox was accidentally infected with a virus and destroyed. She hurriedly re-registered an email address to contact Tianya Lonely Travel, but found that Tianya Lonely Travel's email address did not exist either. Presumably, it was also destroyed by the virus at the same time. But email is the only way for her to contact Tianya Lonely Travel, and then her contact with Tianya Lonely Travel was interrupted.

At this time, she had successfully applied for a job as a tour guide for the ancient merchant manor. But the loss of contact with the Far Runner has always haunted her, and it is still a regret to this day. However, what she didn't expect was that God had its own arrangements in the dark, and she and Tianya Lonely Brigade still had time to meet. And what she didn't expect was that the lonely journey at the end of the world had already quietly come to her and was sitting in front of her at this moment.

Chen Yuxin looked at Xiao Zihua, who was talking eloquently, and asked in a trembling voice: "Are you a lonely traveler at the end of the world?" Xiao Zihua was stunned when he heard this, and asked: "How do you know my screen name? I haven't used this screen name for a long time." Chen Yuxin was already in tears, and said: "Brother Tianya, I am Empty Valley Youlan!"

Xiao Zihua was also taken aback, and said excitedly: "You are Youlan's little sister?"

Chen Yuxin's voice choked and said, "Brother Tianya, it's me!"

Xiao Zihua shouted, "I found you." I thought we would never get in touch again. ”

Chen Yuxin whimpered: "Me too." I thought we wouldn't see each other in this life. As he spoke, the two stretched out their hands and shook them together.

All the people in the noodle shop turned their heads to look at the two of them, and everyone had the same question in their hearts: "Didn't these two people walk in together? And after sitting here and talking for so long, why do you suddenly feel like you are reunited after a long absence?"

Xiao Zihua and Chen Yuxin did not care about the reactions of the people around them at all, and they were completely immersed in the joy of meeting. In fact, they had already finished eating, and it was only so that they could talk a little longer, so the two of them had been sitting there. Because until their online identity is discovered, they are only colleagues after all. Colleagues ate together and said in the past, it is not appropriate to stick together after eating. Now that they used to be online closets, they no longer have to use the dinner table to keep them connected.

The two walked out of the noodle shop together, and as they walked, they talked about their experiences after the connection was broken. In the end, Xiao Zihua sent Chen Yuxin home all the time. If it wasn't too late, Chen Yuxin would definitely invite Xiao Zihua to sit at home.

When they were about to break up, Xiao Zihua called Chen Yuxin hospitalized again. He pulled out a small notebook from his pocket and wrote a line on it. Then he tore off the page and handed it to Chen Yuxin, saying, "I will upload the manuscript you helped me type, and I will upload it to the Internet." This is the URL, you have time to look at it online. Chen Yuxin hurriedly asked: "How is the response? The click rate must be very high, right?" Xiao Zihua smiled slightly: "It's okay." There are a lot of people who read it, and there are a lot of comments. Chen Yuxin said: "Well, then I must take a look." Then Chen Yuxin asked: "When will we meet again?" Xiao Zihua said strangely: "Don't you go to work after the rest day? She nodded slightly, turned and walked into the neighborhood where her family lived.

When she got home, Chen Yuxin hurriedly turned on the computer, searched on the Internet according to the website Xiao Zihua gave her, and soon found Xiao Zihua's works posted on the Internet. She checked the click-through rate of the work and found that there were indeed a lot of people who read it, and there were many comments. But these numbers were far, far from what she had imagined. It is true to say that this work is liked by people, but if it is said that this work is a sensation on the Internet, it is not true. But if the work can't become popular, Xiao Zihua will not attract the attention of the society and will not be discovered. Then his dream of being a writer still can't be realized. Chen Yuxin couldn't help but feel secretly anxious when he looked at it.

When he returned to the manor the next day, Chen Yuxin saw Xiao Zihua and asked, "Aren't you going to submit?" Xiao Zihua asked: "Where to submit?" Chen Yuxin said: "Go to the newspaper or the editorial office of the journal!" Xiao Zihua said: "It's useless." Who would post such a long piece of work for me as a nobody like me? Chen Yuxin said anxiously: "Then what should I do? You have worked so hard to write it, is it just to let you read it on the Internet?" Seeing Chen Yuxin's anxious appearance, Xiao Zihua said: "It's not that I don't want to publish my own works. But I have been in a bad situation all these years, and I have no contact with the literary world, so who would pay attention to rashly coming up with such a long work?" Chen Yuxin said: "If you try to vote, maybe some editors will take a fancy to it." Xiao Zihua said: "It's useless just for the editor to take a fancy to it, and if you want to publish, it's not just for the editor to look good." Chen Yuxin wanted to say something more, but at this time, there were tourists looking for a tour guide, so she had to rush to receive her.

There were a lot of tourists on this day, and Chen Yuxin had been busy with the reception, and he didn't bother to talk about his works with Xiao Zihua anymore.

At night, Chen Yuxin lay in bed and was still anxious that Xiao Zihua's work could not be published. Siu Zihua said that he had no contact with the literary world and could not find anyone who appreciated and recommended him. Chen Yuxin went through his relatives and friends side by side, but he didn't find any one who had anything to do with literature. She really regretted that she hadn't met someone who was engaged in literature or worked in the literary world all these years.

Thinking about it, Chen Yuxin's mind suddenly flashed, and a name jumped out of the depths of her memory. That was Ju Rong, the editor of the city evening newspaper who published her letter for help. If she is willing to help, maybe Xiao Zihua's work will be published. Chen Yuxin finally saw hope and sat up from the bed excitedly.

It didn't matter if she tossed like this, she woke up Qin Lei, who was sleeping in the adjacent bed. Qin Lei asked sleepily: "Why are you doing? If you don't sleep so late, what are you tossing?" Chen Yuxin was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly covered her mouth and said softly: "It's nothing, it's nothing, I'll sleep like this." ”

The next day, Chen Yuxin bought a city evening newspaper to check and found that Jurong's name was still in the editing column. So she wrote a letter to Jurong. The letter tells the story of how Jing Jurong introduced her to Xiao Zihua, how she got out of the predicament and how she and Xiao Zihua met. Then she introduced Xiao Zihua's situation and talked about the difficult journey that Xiao Zihua has gone through in his literary pursuit. In the end, she wrote the website of Xiao Zihua's work, hoping that Jurong could help Xiao Zihua after reading it.

Soon after the letter was sent, Ju Rong replied. Jurong did not talk about Xiao Zihua's works in the letter, but only said that he was very happy to hear the news of them again, and hoped that they would come to her at a convenient time.

Chen Yuxin was very happy to receive the reply. She hurriedly ran to tell Xiao Zihua that she would ask them to meet. There is hope for the publication of his work. Xiao Zihua's reaction was not as excited as hers. only said that they were introduced to each other through Jurong, and they should go to meet people.

So when they took turns to rest again, Chen Yuxin and Xiao Zihua came together. In the evening, the two took the car back to the city together, and made an appointment to go to see Jurong together the next morning.