After listening to my words, Pan Ying over there didn't speak at first, and after a while, her voice almost trembled.

"You... Say what?"

I was a little impatient, but I repeated it mechanically.

"I said, let's get married. ”

Pan Ying couldn't believe her ears, she didn't know what was going on and how many interests were involved, so she became what she is now, and it became me saying this to her.

"Really?"

Through Pan Ying's voice, I could hear her joy, and I could also feel Pan Ying's happiness, that feeling of happiness was almost overflowing the phone, almost drowning me.

She couldn't believe it was real, she couldn't believe that it had happened so suddenly, and I could feel her amazement, but all of Pan Ying's emotions had nothing to do with me.

I'm just like a robot now, since the moment Xiaohui left, my heart seems to have stopped beating, and Pan Ying's emotions can't stir me up at all.

for my heart is dead.

"Really. ”

After Pan Ying asked me where I was, saying that she was coming to me, I said that at home, there was not so much nonsense, and Pan Ying, I really didn't have so much to say, although I also knew in my heart that in fact, Pan Ying had a good impression of me, but I really couldn't bear this good feeling.

It is only now that I finally understand the meaning of mourning more than death.

After that, Pan Ying talked a lot to me intermittently, but I didn't listen to it at all, just answered her perfunctorily all the time.

I don't know how long it took to talk at the end, but after hanging up the phone, I was exhausted and didn't have any strength anymore. Is this my final destination? Happy to be a father? People sit at home, and children come from heaven?

I smiled wryly twice and lay back on the bed.

I didn't think about anything, I didn't do anything, I didn't eat, I was lying in bed, looking at the ceiling, not wanting to talk, not wanting to move.

The phone is not charging, and I don't want to contact anyone now, anyway, the store was smashed and the job is gone.

I don't know how long I've been lying down, it's like I've been dreaming in a daze, and when I wake up, it's daytime again. It was as if I had lost the concept of time.

I don't know how long I've been lying down, my phone has long been turned off because there is no power, but I don't bother to move, anyway, I have enough time to think now, I'm idle enough.

is so idle that he has become a rice bucket that relies on women to survive and eat, and he has become the kind of person he looked down on the most before.

Even if I'm gone now, the world shouldn't care about me, I thought like this, and for a moment I was vague, and I thought of death.

But when I was holding the knife, I suddenly thought of Luo Cheng, Wang Jian, and Pan Ge's weird smile, the kind of posture that almost pinched me in my hand to play, and the knife in my hand fell to the ground in an instant.

It's not worth it, it's not worth it.

If I die now, those people can't be happy, right?

It was like I had made up my mind, I knew I wasn't qualified, but one day I would make myself qualified, qualified to negotiate terms with these people, qualified to let others, listen to me.

In an instant, I sobered up a lot, and I seemed to understand in my heart, and I understood what I wanted now.

I finally wanted to clean up and shave.

As soon as I finished taking a shower, there was a knock on the door, I casually put on some clothes and went to open the door, and Pan Ying stood at the door, she looked at me with some twist.

"I've been calling you, but you haven't answered..."

"Oh, it's my phone that's dead. ”

I pointed to my phone on the bed and asked her what was going on with me.

She was embarrassed to tell me that she didn't talk about marriage before, and then her brother was very happy, and felt that it was better to do it sooner rather than later, saying that he could hurry up next week, and today is the better he is with the bridal shop, he wants to take pictures and wedding dresses.

I opened my mouth slightly to express surprise.

I didn't expect Brother Pan to be in such a hurry, maybe I was afraid that something would happen after a long time, after all, it would change later. I nodded and didn't refuse, but I knew that there was no smile on my face.

Pan Ying looked at my face and asked me if I was uncomfortable, if I was uncomfortable, it was okay to go another day. I can see that Pan Ying actually cares about my feelings.

I waved my hand and said no, go now.

Pan Ying was very happy, and her whole face was filled with a happy smile, but I couldn't smile at all.

Pan Ying came by car, and after we went downstairs, she drove me directly to the bridal shop, and after arriving at the bridal shop, the clerk received us very warmly, and Pan Ying was also very excited to start picking out clothes for me.

I took a lot of completely different sets and asked me to try them one by one, I didn't answer, I just did what Pan Ying said, without any expression on my face.

Those clerks may have felt my low pressure, and they didn't dare to say anything to me, but just watched me silently, watching from the side, to see if I had any needs.

I changed one set of clothes after another, Pan Ying was also trying on her own clothes, I was in no mood, but when I went out and saw a familiar face, I was stunned, and my world seemed to have a huge low sound.

It was Xiaohui who came, and when I saw Xiaohui's face, my whole body stood in place.

Xiaohui looked at me, although her expression also became very strange, but it was well controlled, I could clearly feel the sadness in Xiaohui's eyes, but she did not show it perfectly.

At this time, Pan Ying also came out, and seeing that Pan Hui and I were standing at the door, they hurriedly called us.

Xiaohui hurriedly called sister, and at this time, Pan Ying looked at me, as if on purpose, glanced at the expressions of me and Xiaohui, and then took the hands of both of us at the same time.

"For our wedding, Xiaohui will be a bridesmaid. ”

It seems to be unintentional, but it is actually intentional. I knew that this sentence was deliberately said to me and Xiaohui, Xiaohui lowered her head, didn't dare to look at me, and didn't speak again.

I didn't hear it, I just looked at the side, I was just reluctant to marry Pan Ying, and I didn't feel anything about Pan Ying, but now I suddenly feel that I am a little disgusted with Pan Ying.

"Hmm. ”

But since I had already agreed, there was no reason to go back, so I turned my head and said to the clerk that I was thirsty.

At this time, Pan Ying also urged Pan Hui to change her clothes quickly, Pan Hui seemed to grasp a life-saving straw, and when she heard Pan Ying say this, she directly grabbed her clothes and rushed into the dressing room.

Pan Ying walked up to me at this time, patted my clothes, and helped me tidy up my collar.

"Otherwise, it looks like you're in a lot of energy. ”

"Whatever. ”

I didn't want to say a word, but Pan Ying didn't care what kind of attitude I had at all, and asked the makeup artist to put makeup on me.

I just said nothing, sat down next to me directly, and took out my mobile phone, Pan Ying was very embarrassed at the time, but there was no way but to follow me.

I don't know how long it took, Pan Hui finally finished changing her clothes, and the moment she walked out of the locker room, I could barely take my eyes off it.