I obediently got out of the car and asked him, "Did Nuan Nuan sleep?"

"Sleeping, I asked Fan Ling to help watch her. "Dr. Xia got into my car and walked in front of me to lead the way, and I followed behind in his car.

Looking at the lights in front of him on a rainy night, my heart suddenly became very peaceful.

When I got home, it was already more than three o'clock, the rain was a little lighter, Dr. Xia and I went upstairs, and Fan Ling was already asleep in the bedroom with Nuan Nuan in her arms. I hurried to the bathroom, took a hot shower, and changed my clothes into dry ones. When I came out again, Dr. Xia handed me a cup of brewed ginseng tea, and I took it gratefully and said to him, "You should also hurry up and take a bath, don't catch a cold." ”

"I'm fine. Doctor Xia smiled faintly, "I didn't have any clothes to change after washing." So be it. Men are not afraid of drenching. ”

I took a sip of tea and it warmed my heart, and I couldn't help but ask him, "How did you find there?"

"I see you didn't come back so late, and your phone was turned off. I guess the car broke down in the middle of the road, otherwise you would have borrowed a phone call to tell me, you wouldn't have left Nuan Nuan alone for so long. I knew that you would take that road when you came back from Nanjing, and you didn't dare to get on the highway, so I searched for it in turn, and fortunately I found it. Dr. Xia explained, I suddenly felt that the road from Nanjing to the town, Dr. Xia had to walk almost every morning and evening, and naturally he was very familiar with the corners of that road.

Doctor Xia sighed, looking a little distressed, "Qingyang, don't go alone to talk about business in the future, okay? It's too dangerous." Have you ever thought that if you meet bad people along the way, the consequences will be unimaginable. ”

I bit my lip and nodded. Dr. Xia said, "If you are in a bad mood in the future, don't smoke so much, it's not good for your health." ”

I was stunned for a moment, and a trace of bitterness appeared on his lips: "Your car is full of smoke." Tears welled up in my eyes, and I nodded in response, "Yes." ”

Doctor Xia looked at me, sat down beside me, reached out to take my hand, and looked at my heavy gaze: "Qingyang, no matter who makes you unhappy, promise me not to get along with yourself, okay? I will feel distressed." ”

I will feel distressed, these four words sound so moving at the moment, I am very useless tears pouring down. Doctor Xia's eyes ached, and he pulled me into his arms, and his voice trembled slightly: "Qingyang, I'm here." I didn't struggle, let him hug me tightly, his arms were very warm, although there was no tobacco smell of Zhao Yijing's drunken Gu, but it made the cold heart seem not so lonely. It turns out that there is really a person who cares about me, so why should I bother to suffer for myself?

"Zhijin, are you good to me, is it because I am like your deceased girlfriend?"

Dr. Xia was stunned for a moment, and tightened my ring: "It's not like it at all." It's only because of you that I'm tempted. "My whole body was soothed, and I was relieved to snuggle up in Dr. Xia's arms. "Fool, how can you ask such a strange question. Dr. Xia's breath was in my ears, and my ears were a little itchy, and I raised my face, only to see Dr. Xia looking at me with affectionate eyes. I panicked and tried to break free of his hand.

Dr. Xia suddenly leaned over and kissed him, his lips and teeth touched, he became short of breath, and the hand holding me increased his strength, at that moment, I desperately told myself: accept Dr. Xia. I didn't resist and let his lips cover mine. But the whole person was there with a wooden pestle, and I didn't know if it was Zhao Shinan or Zhao Yijing's sad eyes tumbling in my mind, and my heart also hurt. Suddenly, my whole body trembled in pain.

Dr. Xia stopped his movements, let go of the hand holding me, and touched my forehead, but did not look at my eyes: "It's a little hot, but I'm still cold." Don't go out tomorrow. Rest well at home. I nodded, looking at him a little nervously. He sat down on the side of the couch: "Let's get some sleep." ”

I lay down on the couch with my head resting on his lap, and he didn't touch me again, just sat on the couch all the time. My nervous heart was relieved, and after a night of fright, and a cold, I soon fell asleep groggily.

I didn't sleep for a few hours, and I was woken up by Nuan Nuan: "Mom, where did you go last night?" I opened my eyes tiredly, Fan Ling also got up, and looked at me with a weak smile: "The car didn't shine last night?"

"Alas, used cars are not reliable. I got up, "I almost spent the night in the car." ”

"Let you slam the door again, knowing that the second-hand car will dump you when it says dump you. Fan Ling chuckled, "I'll go back." You stay there slowly. He turned to leave.

My heart moved, and I couldn't help but ask, "Did Xiao Bin call you?"

Fan Ling's body trembled, nodded and said, "Hit." ”

"He didn't come?" I asked. Fan Ling let out an "um" and left quickly. Xiao Bin is really ruthless, I'm not worth it for Fan Ling.

Nuan Nuan was still holding my hand and twisting it: "Mom, you're not here when you're sleeping." I reached out and picked up the comb on the table to comb Nuan Nuan's hair: "Mom has something to do, she's busy." ”

"Busy again!" Nuan Nuan's mouth pursed, "Don't you want Nuan Nuan?"

"Little fool. Doctor Xia smiled, "How could my mother not be warm? Dr. Xia said and raised his hand.

Nuan Nuan giggled, apparently believing Dr. Xia's assurance. Dr. Xia sent Nuan Nuan to the kindergarten, looking at their departing backs, my sour and numb heart slowly moved, and happiness was actually around me. If I want, reach out and reach, and I can have it. Song Qingyang, don't dream about the past and present lives anymore, for the sake of warmth, for yourself, be realistic!

I slept until noon, and I had a cooked meal in the kitchen, which I could eat when it was hot. Dr. Xia has gone back to work. I was wondering if the phone had been quiet today, only to find that it hadn't been charged, so I hurriedly plugged in the charger, and as soon as I turned it on, a bunch of text messages popped up, and there were more than a dozen Zhao Yijing: "Qingyang, where are you?"

Looking at the queue of text messages, I can't tell what it feels like in my heart. A little negative, a little unwilling, I haven't reacted yet, Zhao Yijing's phone has already popped up, I hesitated, but still picked it up.

"Qingyang, where are you?" Zhao Yijing asked, his voice was very stiff.

"At home. I don't want to dwell on the complicated process, so I'm going to be succinct about it. "What's wrong?"

"How can you turn on the machine at home?" Zhao Yijing was a little cold.

I was a little disgusted for no reason, and now I don't care about me, where were you last night when I was doused on a rainy night? Where were you when I stopped the car in despair? Where were you when I shrunk in the car like a stray cat? Why didn't you come out to save me? My voice was also very cold: "Something, I don't want to drive." ”

"You-" Through the phone, I seemed to be able to feel Zhao Yijing's tendons jumping. But he didn't get angry in the end, and after a while, he seemed to calm down and asked me, "What were you going to do last night?"

When he asked me like this, my heart suddenly tugged again, and after a long time, I finally organized the language: "I've seen the photos of your ex-wife and Lian Bing." ”

There was a deathly silence on the other end of the phone, and along with the phone, there was my heart. It turns out that there are really secrets that can't be told in the photos. After a while, his voice was a little fierce: "Who showed it to you? Zhao Xinjian?" I didn't say anything, he asked again: "Yao Qinglian?"

I bit my lip: "Hmm." I sighed: "It doesn't matter who showed me, what matters is that I turned out to be ridiculous." ”

Zhao Yijing was just silent, and after a long time, he asked, "What's ridiculous?"

"Zhao Yijing, I finally understand why you seem familiar to me. I said a little sadly, "Isn't it too cruel for you to pursue other women according to the shadow in your heart?

Zhao Yijing on the other side of the phone didn't speak, and said in a deep voice after a while: "It's not what you think." ”

"What is that? His silence has already cooled my heart, how can I explain it palely?

"I can't tell, I don't want to talk about the past. Zhao Yijing's voice was a little helpless, "No matter what happened before, but the person I identify now is you, and the person I want to be with is also you." ”

I thought I was going to be numb, but when he said the next two words, my heart was still beating violently. It's very beautiful, isn't it? I despise myself from the bottom of my heart, Song Qingyang, at the age of thirty, I still love to listen to the love words of the bone-eroding **, right? If it was before, hearing these two sentences, should I be like a deer, and I can't wait to turn into Zhao Yijing's arms? But now listening to it, although my heart is beating hard, I feel sad, even if he thinks that he is with me, can he tell whether it is because of me, or because I am most like his ex-wife? I don't want to mention the previous things? Lian Xiaoru said that her sister was too competitive, in fact, what woman would not care? Who would want to be a substitute for someone else?

I was a little dazed, and my voice became ethereal: "Zhao Yijing, I don't want to listen to this kind of thing anymore." ”

I hung up on him for the first time. Since you can't tell, don't say it. I laughed, but why did the tears come out?

After a day of ignorance, Dr. Xia came back early in the afternoon and brought Nuan Nuan back. Seeing Dr. Xia, the suffocation of life seemed to have a hint of fresh air, and I smiled at him: "Dinner hasn't been cooked yet." ”

Dr. Xia handed me a paper bag: "Then I'll do it." Remember to bring this in the car in the future. With that, he turned and went to the kitchen.

I opened the paper bag, a mobile power supply, and my heart was suddenly full, the mountains and the sea swore that they could not compete with the plainness of a porridge and a meal. I walked to the kitchen and looked at Dr. Xia who was washing the vegetables, with an unreal sense of satisfaction, I couldn't help but be impulsive, and walked over and grabbed his clothes: "Zhijin, thank you." ”

Dr. Xia looked back at me, with a warm smile in his eyes: "Talking stupid things again." Instead, he said, "By the way, I saw an advertisement for a rental house downstairs, it's a bit crowded here, why don't you rent a two-bedroom apartment?" ”