From the moment Feng Zhiguo entered the intensive care unit, Feng Junfei was thinking and reflecting. Looking back on the past, reflecting on his past, and reflecting on what this real father, who is called Uncle, has done for himself.

The reason that prompted him to think deeply was mainly because Feng Zhiguo vomited blood and fainted. He heard from his aunt that the uncle told her before he fell into a coma that he was tired from working overtime at night because of compiling the party school curriculum. He didn't expect the uncle to protect himself like this when life and death were uncertain, which was 100% a revelation of his true feelings. It seems that in the uncle's heart, this own son is more important than the uncle's own life. This incident touched Feng Junfei the most, and he began to reflect deeply.

In the past, Feng Junfei always believed that it was precisely because of Feng Zhiguo's emotional impulsiveness that he had a relationship with his mother and had himself. Then Feng Zhiguo asked his mother to marry his uncle for his own future, and he called his uncle his father as soon as he was born, and he could only call his uncle, who was not a disgraceful father. Feng Junfei believes that Feng Zhiguo and his mother had a bad relationship because of a bad relationship, so they had this evil debt.

Feng Zhijun died early, and Feng Junfei had no impression of him. For as long as he can remember, he has only had his mother and grandfather by his side, and there is no father. Seeing that other children had fathers, but he didn't, he went home and asked his mother, and the answer he got was that his father was dead. The information he got from his grandfather and uncle was the same, and his mother also showed him his father's old photos, so he believed it at the time, convinced that his father was dead.

Feng Junfei is slowly sensible, and from time to time children in the village will scold him for being a wild seed, and he fights with his friends a lot for this. At this time, most of the children's parents will scold their children, even beat them a few times, and tell Feng Junfei that "the child is talking nonsense". When Feng Junfei went to verify with his mother again on this matter, his mother also said the same thing as those parents.

Later, Feng Zhiguo took Feng Junfei to the county seat to go to primary school and middle school, and during this period, no child mentioned that Feng Junfei was a "wild seed". Feng Junfei also regarded the insults of his former friends as real insults and nonsense.

It wasn't until in order to occupy the normal index that Feng Zhiguo transferred Feng Junfei to Qingniuyu Middle School, and the matter of "wild seeds" was mentioned again. And at this time, there was already a clear direction, the classmates not only scolded themselves for being a "wild seed", but also said that Uncle Feng Zhiguo was their biological father. Thinking of the insults he had by his friends when he was in the village when he was very young, Feng Junfei felt that there must be something wrong here, maybe there was something wrong with his mother and uncle, and the uncle might really be his biological father.

Whenever Feng Junfei thought that Feng Zhiguo might be his biological father, he stopped in time, unwilling to think deeply, he didn't want to believe that it was true. If this is the case, the mother and uncle will become what people call "dog men and women", then they are too "shameless". Then the uncle's care for himself is purely to atone for his sins, for the sins he created back then.

Later, under Feng Junfei's conscious attention, he found that he was really similar to his uncle, especially the photos of himself and his uncle when they were children were simply carved out of a mold. On the contrary, he and his father Feng Zhijun couldn't find anything in common.

A few times, Feng Junfei deliberately mentioned his uncle in front of his mother, and he found that his mother was always a little unnatural at this time, either evasive or diverted from the topic. He also mentioned his mother Hu Xiaoqin in front of Feng Zhiguo, and the uncle's approach was similar to his mother's reaction, and even more sensitive than his mother. At this time, he had already decided that the pair of "dog men and women" had definitely done evil things, and they were really fucking shameless.

When Feng Junfei was very young, although he didn't have a father, his mother took good care of him, and his grandfather and uncle were also very good to him. is the same village, because most of them are surnamed Hu, and the adults don't give him any anger, and it's not a matter for the children to scold each other and fight. As for the people surnamed Lu in the village, because of the long-standing grievances, they basically do not interact with the children surnamed Hu, and there will be no conflicts.

When Feng Jun flew to the county seat to study and lived in the uncle's house, the uncle and the aunt treated him very well, just like their own son. When he went to school, because he was the nephew of the leader of the Education Bureau, Feng Junfei was even more regarded and cared for by the school leaders and teachers, and whenever there was a dispute with other students, he was judged to be the "reasonable" party.

After graduating from the normal school and joining the work, because the uncle is the deputy county magistrate in charge of education, and the uncle also owes himself. Therefore, Feng Junfei began to use the power or convenience in his hands to do mischief, especially during the period when Feng Zhiguo temporarily presided over the work of the county party committee, Feng Junfei was even more unscrupulous. Moreover, no matter how much trouble he causes, Feng Zhiguo can settle it. Feng Junfei thinks that Feng Zhiguo should settle for himself, who let them be shameless and do such ugly things?

After the big-character poster storm* occurred, Feng Junfei had already concluded 100% that he was Feng Zhiguo's son, otherwise, why would Hu Xiaoqin look for a short time?

It is precisely because of the doting of his mother, uncle, aunt, and teacher that Feng Junfei has formed a selfish, arrogant, and domineering character. His heart was full of hatred, hating Feng Zhiguo and Hu Xiaoqintian for being shameless and colluding with each other, hating Feng Zhijun and his aunt for being willing to wear "green hats", hating teachers and classmates, including hating the cub of the poor ghost's family, "processing goods", why can he surpass himself in the study of "processing products"? In Feng Junfei's life dictionary, he only knows that he has himself, but he does not know that he has everything, and everything is centered on himself.

It was only when he returned to the uncle's house after answering the aunt's phone call and saw the residual blood stains hanging from the corner of the uncle's mouth and fell on the sofa, especially when the aunt said that the uncle was "tired from overtime", Feng Junfei really realized that he had done it, and it was time for him to reflect.

In the past few days in the hospital, Feng Junfei has figured out some things. In fact, it was originally a very understandable thing, but Feng Junfei subjectively believed that Feng Zhiguo was "atoning for his sins", so the conclusion he came to was distorted. Now what he thinks of is Feng Zhiguo's sincere care for himself, and when he thinks about these issues, he looks at them from an objective point of view, so he will come to a completely different conclusion about the same thing than before.

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Regarding the love between his mother and uncle, Feng Junfei has a new understanding. The two who were still young at the time, the man was unmarried and the woman was unmarried, and it was natural for them to fall in love for a long time. It was only because people at that time were much simpler, and there were no safety measures in advance, that when they couldn't help themselves, they let the seeds of evil sprout and have children. If it is put now, it will be much simpler, many young people will be prepared in advance, and even if they don't, they will take remedial measures generously afterwards.

Later, the mother learned that she had a child. At that time, no matter in terms of policy and system, extramarital affairs were much stricter than now. In particular, this kind of unmarried pregnancy will definitely be expelled from the unit, and from the moral level, it will also have to endure the condemnation and whipping of public opinion and spirit. Therefore, Feng Zhiguo asked his younger brother to give him a "top cylinder", only in this way will Feng Zhiguo and Hu Xiaoqin keep their reputations, and Feng Zhiguo will not lose his job. Although it is unfair to Feng Zhijun, as a "coal black" who has been in the world's coal kilns, it is also a kind of creation and compensation to be able to get such a beautiful, gentle and educated young woman as Hu Xiaoqin.

Since he was born, Feng Zhiguo has given him all his care, which is not only a compensation, but more importantly, it is due to the kind of love between father and son. As a government functionary, as a leader of the county party committee and government, Feng Zhiguo has to bear the double pressure of public opinion and inner condemnation when he does some things for himself, especially those things that are not so honorable for himself. But he still did it, which shows that he did not hesitate to damage his reputation and endure inner torment for the sake of his own disgraceful biological son.

The more Feng Junfei thought about it, the more he felt that Feng Zhiguo was a kind to him, but he regarded his kindness as a "donkey's liver and lungs", and he was still speculating with the heart of a "villain". I am so sorry for him, and I am sorry for my mother, I must be more filial to my mother in the future, and I must understand and respect the man I call "uncle" more.

Feng Junfei thought about it for a while, and hated someone again. It was the appearance of this person that made his misunderstanding of "uncle" deeper and deeper, and this person was the hateful "processing product" Chu Tianqi. If it weren't for the "processed product" when he learned to press himself, why would the uncle go to such great lengths to design. For this reason, he also owed the favor of the director of the hospital at that time, and had to promote that person again and again, and now he is mentioned to the position of director of the health bureau. And recently, that guy is still using that thing to threaten him, wanting to rise up again, or get to a better position.

Since two years ago, the "processed products" returned to Yuchi County and went to work in Qingniuyu, they have been in the limelight everywhere, always blocking themselves, and causing a lot of trouble for the uncle. In order to settle some things, the uncle had to use Wei Long to beat the "processed products", and had to let Huang Jingzu and Wen Bin contain and suppress him. Interests and benefits have to be promised to these people.

In the end, not only did he not throw the "processed products" into the garbage station, but Wei Long was demoted and Wen Bin was forced to leave the frontier. Although Huang Jingzu took advantage of the position of secretary of the township party committee to organize several small-scale attacks, he did not receive the desired results, but made a disgrace.

Feng Junfei was strange, what is the origin of this "processed product"? In the previous storms, not only did he stand still, but he became more and more courageous, and he became a popular person for the secretary of the county party committee and the county magistrate.

What made Feng Junfei even more puzzled was that Wei Long, who was turned into an idler from the first deputy director of the Organization Department of the county party committee, not only did not hold a grudge against the persecution of himself by the "disposal products", and the poisoning of his son Wei Chaoqun. Now, I think about the "processed product" every day. What's even more hateful is that Wei Long, in turn, has become more and more estranged from the uncle who helped him.

Feng Junfei couldn't figure it out even if he tried his best, and he couldn't figure out what happened to these people.

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In fact, many things are very simple, but people think they are complicated. Take Feng Junfei's analysis of Chu Tianqi as an example, Feng Junfei is still based on the prejudice in his heart, looking at people and things with colored glasses. That's why he saw Chu Tianqi with evil deeds.

Feng Junfei had just jumped out of the vicious circle of misunderstanding Feng Zhiguo, but he didn't realize his cognitive bias against Chu Tianqi. If one day, he will have no mustard for Chu Tianqi, but he will definitely find a new "imaginary enemy". Because he is always self-centered and always thinks that he is right, he has to find a "scapegoat" for his mistakes.