After my mother-in-law left, I became more busy than ever, and I could only make appointments with customers until noon, and I had to hand over the orders in the evening to other colleagues. Sometimes when you encounter a large order, you need to follow it for days, or accompany you on a business trip to the headquarters, and you have to turn it to one group and three groups without your eyes. My two little soldiers, Qiao Rui and Xu Chao, were a little unhappy, and they muttered that they gave over the fat in their hands. There's nothing I can do.

The traffic on the road is getting better day by day, and the points of weekday congestion are also smooth, which means that the Spring Festival is coming, watching the people in the company happily take the time to buy New Year's goods and prepare to go back to their hometown, and also exchange where things are cheap and good, my heart has reached unprecedented pains. In my home, only me and Nuan Nuan are left.

Since I spent the night at Zhao Yijing's place that night, he seems to be more attentive than before, and he will send me text messages every once in a while, meet for dinner, I will look at my phone for a long time every time, and helplessly reply with a "I want to take my daughter." ”

For him, I don't know what emotions to have, there is "resentment" from Gu Jun, and there is "cowardice" from Qinglian, but I can't suppress the deepest "thought" in my heart.

I remember watching Ruffian Cai's "Quercus Parasite" before, and Quan said to the vegetable worm: "I miss you." Caiworm said, "I'm right next to you, and you still miss me?" Quan said, "Yes, you're by my side, and I still miss you very much." ”

At that time, I felt hypocritical, but now I have experienced it vividly, that is, every day when I see Zhao Yijing's back, my heart will skip a beat; sometimes when I go to his office to talk about things, I will see him on the other side, and my mind will fly. I don't know what's wrong with myself.

But whenever I think of Qinglian, I can't help but be timid, not only because of Qinglian's fierce love, but more importantly, she is my sister. I couldn't convince myself to accept Zhao Yijing's unclear emotion.

Yao Qinglian began to actively introduce my boyfriend to me. As long as she meets, whether married or unmarried, ugly or handsome, she will sell it to me vigorously.

I said to her, "I don't want to think about these things right now. ”

She smiled meaningfully at me: "I don't know a newcomer, how can I come out of the past? Gu Jun is gone, you should start a new life." Stop dealing with your client, no results. "I was so blocked that I couldn't speak. But every time I introduced her, I thought of a reason to refuse.

Finally, when I refused to know whether it was the fifth or sixth time, Yao Qinglian couldn't help but ask me with a hint of questioning: "Sister, do you still have someone else?"

I was uncomfortable when she asked, and prevaricated: "No, how can it be." ”

"Since you don't, why don't you even give yourself a chance to meet?" Qinglian's eyes were a little mocking, "Or have you already hung up the golden beetle?"

I was blocked by Qinglian and had no way out, so I had to promise her to meet that man. It was one of her clients who had had lunch at a nearby Starbucks. Qinglian's face finally showed a comfortable smile.

It was Qinglian's client, before we met, I only knew that he was a department manager of a listed company, with a medium income, his wife died of illness, and he had a son who was in junior high school. Qinglian said that although he is not handsome, he is very down-to-earth, an affordable man, and suitable for life.

At noon on the day of the appointment, Qinglian walked to my office and reminded me in a low voice: "Pay attention to makeup." "I took out the mirror and applied a little lip gloss to look more energetic. As soon as I went out, I took a picture with Xiao Bin, who came back from outside, he looked at me and was stunned for a moment, and I hurriedly said hello and walked out.

I was really taken aback when I saw the person introduced by Qinglian, although I don't judge people by their appearance, but the appearance of that person still makes me a little uneasy. He was very enthusiastic at first, but when he heard me explain that I was divorced and had a child, he became cold. It turned into a faint politeness: "Maybe Manager Yao didn't hear my request clearly, I still hope to find someone in his twenties who is unmarried." ”

I looked at him, I couldn't say whether it was sad or surprised, it turned out that a widowed man in his forties could still find an unmarried man in his twenties? The marriage market was already so unbalanced? At this point, I didn't know how to continue, so I had to smile: "Then I wish you success." ”

After saying that, I tried my best to be elegant and walked back to the office, but I didn't know if my elegance could hide the loneliness in my heart.

After this setback, Yao Qinglian's introduction finally came to an end, and she said to me a little apologetically: "I'm too anxious for you, next time I will definitely ask in advance." ”

Ask clearly? I'm afraid that there won't even be anyone willing to meet.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, Zhao Yijing sent me a text message: "Dinner together at night." ”

I let out a long sigh and replied, "My daughter needs me to take care of her." ”

He quickly replied: "That's noon." I have something to tell you. When he saw something, he didn't refuse.

At noon, I sneaked out of the side door, and deliberately walked to the intersection outside the company to wait for him, he had a playful look: "Why do you always look like a thief?"

What's so upright about that? I couldn't answer, so I had to ask, "What's the matter?"

"Talking as you eat. What do you want to eat?" his car drove steadily. I am a person who has a holiday plot, and every time I want to eat something that suits the occasion during the festival, I blurt out: "Dumplings, today's New Year." ”

"So you know. He glanced at me and drove to a restaurant that specializes in dumplings in old Beijing.

When the meal came, Zhao Yijing finally spoke: "You need to hire a nanny at home to help you pick up and drop off the children." ”

The dumplings in my mouth almost squirted, nanny? Can I afford to raise them? Seeing me glaring at him, he spoke again: "You yourself calculate the list you have recently discarded, enough to ask for one." ”

I carefully calculated it, and the two orders ran a small 20,000 yuan, which is enough for half a year's nanny money. "But there is no one who is reassured. I sighed, I didn't dare to leave the child in the hands of strangers, it was too late to cry in case something happened.

"I'm looking for people. Zhao Yijing said, looking at me with a firm look in his eyes. I was seen by him and felt weak, and was about to say goodbye, he said in a deep voice: "Qingyang, don't always reject me." Looking at my somewhat stunned look, he smiled self-deprecatingly: "Do you know how many times you have rejected me recently?"

I subconsciously shook my head, and he looked at me deeply and said, "9 times, less than 2 weeks." ”

My face flushed slightly, and I muttered in a low voice, "Then why are you still looking for me?" ”

His gaze at me became softer than ever, and after a while, he said, "Because you are the woman who will give half of your things to me." "I suddenly remembered that it was the overstretched breakfast, and my face became even hotter.

That meal, it was soft and warm. I asked myself, is it my current condition, there is a man who is willing to give you unexplained care, it is already a blessing?

Zhao Yijing's Spring Festival is to return to Nanjing to spend with his big family. Qinglian also returned to her hometown, and when I was leaving, I repeatedly told her not to mention my divorce to anyone. She smiled sweetly: "Don't worry, I'm measured." ”

I called my mom and brother and said they were too busy with work to go back. Mom's voice changed: "I've been looking forward to seeing you and Nuan Nuan in the past two days of the New Year, why don't you come back." I choked up and couldn't speak.

On the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, I wrapped a large pot of dumplings, steaming, but my heart was as cold as iron. Nuan Nuan didn't know what was wrong that day, maybe she hadn't seen Gu Jun and her mother-in-law for too long, and when she saw the neighbors' homes coming in and out, she began to have an obvious panicked look.

In the evening, he began to hold my hand and eagerly chatter, "Dad, grandma." ”

I was sad for a while, squatted down and said to her seriously: "Grandma and Dad will come over for a while, Nuan Nuan will accompany Mom, okay?"

A few days ago, sometimes Nuan Nuan would suddenly be like this, and as long as I said that, she would feel that it was nothing, and she would go to guard the toys in a daze. But that day, I didn't know why, I couldn't coax it several times, and stubbornly dragged me: "Dad, grandma." ”

On this special night, these two words of Nuan Nuan seemed to cone my heart, and I finally ran out of patience and said a little irritably: "Don't scream, Nuan Nuan, you only have mom now." If you call again, Mom is gone. ”

After I finished saying this, Nuan Nuan was stunned for a moment, I thought it was no longer a fuss, but suddenly beat my legs and cried, crying and shouting: "Dad, grandma." Mom is bad. ”

I suddenly couldn't help myself, I didn't know that in the eyes of the child, it was me who took her away, so that she couldn't see her father and grandmother, and in her young heart, she blamed me. I was sadly and angry when I was beaten by her, and slapped me: "Why are you so disobedient, what kind of father do you want, where do you want dad for me." But it was the slap that lifted up and landed on his thigh.

The daughter made enough fuss, and after eating two dumplings, the cat went to bed. I suddenly wanted to find someone to talk to, and I wanted to call Gu Jun and tell him that my daughter missed him, but after dialing the number and falling down, would that Jiang Di be furious again. I flipped through the phone book, but found that on this festive day, no one could listen to my sorrow.

My tears, unable to be controlled any longer, rolled down like a storm. What a good year has been spent by me.

It was the saddest Chinese New Year's Eve I've ever had, with firecrackers outside the house and my daughter sobbing while she was asleep.

On the fifth day of junior high school, the nanny Zhao Yijing was looking for came to the door, a chubby eldest sister in her forties, surnamed Li. People are very kind, and their hands and feet are quick. It was a lot easier to have her come over to help. At night, I suddenly received a call from Zhao Yijing, and heard a familiar and deep voice: "Qingyang, are you okay?"

My chest suddenly seemed to be blocked by something, and it took a long time to reply in a trembling voice: "It's okay." ”

"Has the babysitter arrived?" he asked, "and come back to me if you have any questions." ”

I couldn't hold back any longer, and asked in a slightly trembling voice, "When are you coming back?"

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, and he and I could hear each other's breathing across the phone line, and after a while, his voice was firm and calm: "Wait for me, I'll go back soon." ”

As soon as Zhao Yijing's phone hung up, Yao Qinglian's call came: "Qingyang, how is the Spring Festival?"

"It's fine. I don't know how to answer her, but now listening to her voice, I always feel weak. "Is it okay at home?"

"It's all good. Qinglian said, "By the way, to tell you good news, yesterday Zhao Yijing called me and asked me to go to Nanjing, and he said that he wanted to see me at home." ”