I cooked a bowl of porridge and stir-fried two refreshing side dishes, and the winter sun was not strong, and compared to the temperature close to 0 degrees Celsius, it even seemed extremely warm. Luo Shaoqian placed the dining table in front of the large floor-to-ceiling window, and the sunlight was sprinkled on the pale blue tablecloth through the glass. The washing machine stirred the clothes to be washed, the water in the kettle snorted and reminded that it was about to boil, and I sat at the table with a messy mind and a full stomach full of questions that could not find answers.

Luo Shaoqian walked over from the bedroom, pulled out the stool and picked up the bowl, and drank a mouthful of porridge, "Salty?"

"Well, I'm afraid you don't have an appetite, it's better to be salty. ”

"Worry about something, say it. Luo Shaoqian sat beside me, gulping down and talking.

I looked at him gobbling up, it is estimated that many people have never seen such Luo Shaoqian, in the eyes of most people, he sits in an academy, high above and does not eat fireworks in the world, who would have thought that he would also be sloppy, and he would be so anxious to puff out his cheeks, and try to chew a bowl of porridge and a dish, but this is the real him, it is Senior Luo, who I have known for so many years, "Have you participated in the economic crimes of the Jiaoyang Group?"

"Nope. ”

I let out a long sigh of silence, thankfully.

"Do you know about the economic crimes of the Sunny Group?" I looked at him, expecting a satisfactory answer.

Luo Shaoqian put down his chopsticks, swallowed the food in his mouth, and looked at me very seriously, "I never knew all the facts of the crimes of the Jiaoyang Group before you, and I don't know if the Jiaoyang Fund is a way for the Jiaoyang Group to launder itself, but from the books, the way is clean." The Sunshine Fund is set up by the Sunshine Group for the '2+1' plan, and all the funds transferred over are managed by a special team, and this management team is affiliated with the college, so I assure you that I can not only ensure that the funds are earmarked, but also ensure that there is no corruption. After Luo Shaoqian finished speaking, he took two more mouthfuls of porridge and added, "Of course, I can only be responsible for the part of the Sunshine Fund used for our hospital." ”

"Then why are you locking yourself in your house? This has nothing to do with you, you just have to cooperate with the investigation. Isn't that because of Liu Yang? because of Liu Yang's father?" I regretted it when I said it, why did I mention this.

"It's not. Luo Shaoqian answered more directly than the previous question.

I looked at him lightly, and felt that it was not appropriate to look like this, I buried my head in my fingers, anxious and embarrassed and didn't know what to say, it seemed that he was like this, and he could spend all major things like spring breeze and rain, he was like this to enjoy the feeling that others were anxious about himself but confident, he was like this, even if he was really tormented but did not show flaws, he was like this, this has not changed since we met, this damn, the arrogance that blocks everything.

"I just want to think from the beginning to the bottom of what I've done, what I've come to, what I've lost, what makes sense and what doesn't. Luo Shaoqian seemed to know what I was thinking.

"You're too daunted by this, don't you......" I didn't look at him, and muttered quietly in the opposite direction.

"Growing up, my grandfather and father made almost all the decisions for me, even the scenery on the side of the road and the people passing by were arranged. Luo Shaoqian swept the porridge and side dishes on the table, and wiped his mouth with satisfaction, "It seems that I was born to inherit my legacy, and all the excellence and achievements in the eyes of others are nothing more than the homework that I should complete to check at the parent-teacher meeting." You are the biggest accident in my life, disturbing a pool of spring water, I have been entangled between you and the trajectory of destiny for the past ten years, trying to find some kind of balanced and both, but I found that we are never on the same road. It wasn't until the restructuring of the medical school and the incident of the Bright Sun Group that I realized that in the ten-year game, you are still you, and I am no longer me, neither completing a chess piece to complete, nor recklessly defecting to the self I want, the result is just like you said, fascinated and nondescript. ”

In the past, listening to Luo Shaoqian talk about the entanglement between us, I would be red-faced, my heart would beat faster, I would not know how to respond, and I might be hysterical, but now listening to him say this, it is like tasting a cup of bitter coffee without sugar, from the tip of my tongue to my throat, it is bitter but tasteful, slowly and slowly, as if the memory is flowing backwards and reliving.

I continued to keep my head down, and although I understood some of what he said, and some of which shocked me, I really understood everything. Ten years of time to change things are like dripping water through stones, everything is accumulated over time, but suddenly back to the consciousness between the quantitative changes will change qualitatively, the years have given us busy and mature psychology and infinite memories, but also let us finally understand and understand ourselves, who I am, where I came from, where to go, more and more clearly my heart and those years we took the wrong road, missed people, regretful loss, become or forever goodbye to the original intention, everyone will be like this, not only Luo Shaoqian.

The sun is shining on us wantonly, such a good weather must have been a suitable day to go out and have fun many years ago, but now Luo Shaoqian, two middle-aged people, and Luo Shaoqian and I are learning from the old people to sum up their lives, counting those who are right and wrong.

"You can't judge in isolation, there are two sides to everything, what you gain and what you lose complement each other, and whether there is meaning or not is sometimes just a momentary change in mood. Don't push yourself into a black-and-white corner and force yourself to choose one over the other. "I know that he is much more transparent in emotional intelligence than me, so naturally saying some truth does not mean that he does not understand.

"But the reality now is that it is a complete failure, anxious people are waiting for me to fight back, people who watch jokes move small benches and wait for the show to be staged, thousands of pairs of eyes are waiting for my action, and it is already a failure to put myself in such a situation, which has already shown that everything I did before was wrong. ”

The proud Luo Shaoqian seemed to lower his head for the first time, let go of his self-esteem, and admitted that he was wrong, I turned my head to look at him, but he was not looking at me. He leaned back in his chair and looked out the window with a sideways face, presumably in the past two days, he had questioned himself thousands of times in his heart, and denied himself thousands of times, so that he and I seemed to laugh at myself calmly.

It turns out that his heart has been tormented like this, such flesh and blood pain, we understand everyone's failure and pain, and give comfort and sympathy to the weak, but Luo Shaoqian is not that strong person. I suddenly blamed myself for the blame and anger that Yang Chen and I inflicted on Luo Shaoqian, we are the kind of people who are easy to feel sorry for themselves, and easy to support each other and strong, but Luo Shaoqian is the only one who supports us from beginning to end. He is an ordinary person, for too many years, we have forgotten this, he will make mistakes, he will fail, he will be depressed, he will also need us, he is an ordinary person who will be fragile like us, so why blame him......

"You are an ordinary person, you can cry or laugh, you can get drunk, you can secretly rejoice, you can make mistakes, you know?" I folded my hands and attached them to his hands, tears inadvertently slid down my cheeks, and at this moment I could only say, long live understanding.