After saying this, I looked at Zheng Jiayue again, she still looked a little lonely at this time, but her expression was not very surprised, but it seemed that she had already known that I would still ask.

It made me realize that maybe she wanted to talk to me about it a long time ago, right?

Maybe she wanted to find someone to talk about it a long time ago.

Not every sad thing has to be hidden deep in your heart, some words, always have to be said, in order to make yourself feel better.

Sure enough, just thinking about it, I saw Zheng Jiayue slowly lower her head again, she gently tiptoed the ground with her toes, and shook the swing slightly.

She looked like she was thinking about something she might least want to think about.

After a long time, she slowly moved her mouth again, and then spoke

"Xiao Xiaoming, I remember... You know that, right?"

"Knowing about my parents' separation... I seem to remember telling you.."

Zheng Jiayue's words made my heart a little blocked, I nodded at her and replied in a very small voice

"Well, I know.. When I went to Shenzhen with you on a business trip for the first time.. You told me.."

Indeed, when I heard Zheng Jiayue say something like that, I was really shocked, because her usual optimism and performance made people think that there would be such a thing in her home.

And what surprised me even more was that after I asked this, Zheng Jiayue suddenly smiled weirdly, her laughter seemed to be laughing at herself, and then she spoke again in a very sad tone

"Actually, I wasn't telling the truth at the time... If I had to say it, they shouldn't be separated."

"Me and my dad... I guess I'm an outcast."

If I still regretted asking Zheng Jiayue this question just now, then now I completely regret it.

I knew that Zheng Jiayue's tone just now was wrong, and I knew that things must not be as simple as I imagined, this matter is estimated to hurt Zheng Jiayue much more than I imagined, and it can even be said that it is simply a sharp knife that is still inserted in her heart, but I naively stepped forward and inserted this sharp knife into her heart a little deeper.

So at this time, I had a little bit of a pain, but I didn't know what to say.

After being silent for a long time, I decided to continue listening to Zheng Jiayue, after all, I have reached the current situation, I can only put it to death and then live, maybe let Zheng Jiayue say everything, she will feel better.

With that, I moved my mouth and asked again in a tentative tone

"Why do you say that? It's your mom she... Did you bring up the separation first?"

As soon as the words fell, I saw Zheng Jiayue shake her head, she raised her head, and I saw her sad eyes in the night.

Soon she opened her mouth again and spoke in a very weak voice

"If that's the case.. Maybe it would be a lot better... However.. She didn't say anything... She didn't say a word to me or my dad, and suddenly it was as if she had evaporated from the world and left the two of us..."

"I don't know where she went, and I'm not even sure if she really left the two of us so suddenly, but then I vaguely heard my dad mention it... She went abroad.. But I don't know which country I went to.."

"At that time, I always argued with my dad to ask him to find my mom, and he always agreed at the beginning, but... How to find it.. Is there any way to find someone who is deliberately hiding from himself... However, I never gave up, thinking that there must be some reason why my mother left us suddenly, and I even waited for a long time, waiting for me to come home and she suddenly appeared at home like she had before she left us... However, as time passes... My waiting heart is starting to shake a little."

"Finally one day when I came home, I saw cigarette butts all over the floor... And the divorce agreement hidden in my dad's drawer... That day I finally understood.."

"What I was waiting for, will never happen again."

"The one who gave birth to me and raised me and kept calling me baby... The man who would be at home every day waiting for me to come home from school just left my life with a thin blank sheet of paper... The saddest thing is that in the end I don't even know what I did wrong, or what my dad did wrong... So.. Xiao Xiaoming, you know this time.."

"What is the real misfortune, right? The real misfortune is that you have done nothing wrong, but the person you love the most has left your life... This is the misfortune that no one knows."

Zheng Jiayue's words made my internal organs feel like they were being burned by a raging fire, and I couldn't help but want to keep myself from showing any sad expression, but my facial features still drooped uncontrollably.

I didn't expect the truth of the matter to be like this, I didn't expect the story of Zheng Jiayue to be like this...

At this time, I finally understood why she cared so much about the people around her, and why she cared so much about those who were still in her life.

I also understand why the last time I was in her school, when the girl in her dormitory said that she was going to break up with her, she was so sad...

It's the thing I care about the most, but I just have to encounter such pain..

That's why when I'm in the playground, she will say something to me, "I don't want to be in my own world, and I don't want to be without you from now on"...

Maybe someone in her life has left her, which has made her feel scared, maybe she has been numb, but Zheng Jiayue is still the most afraid of such a thing, what she is most afraid of is that she has not done anything wrong, but the people she cares about have inexplicably left her.

No wonder Jiang Ziyun told me that Zheng Jiayue is very strong, and what he said is not wrong at all...

Zheng Jiayue has been living in her own way for so long, she loves to laugh, loves to sell cute, loves to eat, and loves to think about anything with weird thinking, but all the time... She uses her character to stick to everyone around her.

will be very close to Yu Qian to call Sister Qian, and will call Jiang Ziyun Brother Ziyun..

will give me a weird nickname and call me Xiao Xiao Ming... will pull that Chen Jiao and scream Jiaojiao..

She wasn't even afraid of Chen Yanyu, and even dared to steal fruit in front of her.

But she never hid anything, never hid how much she cared about these people...

But behind this layer of care, there is also a hidden fear of leaving this kind of thing.

Maybe it shouldn't be described as leaving, it should be said to be abandoned..

I'm afraid of being abandoned, that's why I want to come back with me.

Fear of others leaving, that's why will.. I pack myself very carefully.

After so long, I found that I finally understood something about Zheng Jiayue, or rather, I finally saw something deep inside her...

It was a scarred, but strong and careful beating heart...

She is such a person, a person who is so simple and pure that there are no impurities.

When I thought of this, I suddenly felt that I was too bad for Zheng Jiayue, I thought, this is the legendary shame for her...

Even though she was bullying me every day, I really felt guilty at this moment...

So I took a deep breath, and after a while, I still looked at Zheng Jiayue and said

: "I'm sorry.. I don't know how to comfort you... But.."

"If you say these things, you might feel better."

My words made Zheng Jiayue nod slowly, she looked at me, and then muttered in a low voice

"Well, after saying it, I feel a lot better... This is the first time I've told someone about this kind of thing. It's not bad to have a listener's feeling~ and.."

"It's been so long, and I've wanted to open it for a long time. Maybe my mom she's just for a better life... There may be some other reason, but it doesn't matter... People have to look forward, don't they? I've always believed... Someday I'll meet someone.."

"He'll stay with me all the time, won't be angry with me, won't ignore me for no reason... Not to mention that.. Drop mine.."

When she said this, Zheng Jiayue's eyes lit up, but they soon dimmed again.

She looked at me with a strange gaze, and I could see my own shadow in her pupils.

I know what she's thinking, I know what she's thinking at this moment.

Because I must have the same problem as her, and that is... Am I that person?

Am I the one who can always stay by Zheng Jiayue's side, let her bully, take care of her all the time, and never abandon her?

I don't have an answer in my heart, and neither does Zheng Jiayue..

She and I just looked at each other... We all have each other in our eyes, and we are thinking about the same problem in our hearts...

After a long time, I came back to my senses, and I moved a little unnaturally, and then whispered

"What if.. I mean, if.."

"If you need me sometimes... I will definitely stand by your side."

I said this from the bottom of my heart, and now I am like a knight, saying my vows to the swing princess in front of me...

Hearing me say this, the corners of Zheng Jiayue's mouth finally showed a shallow smile, she looked at me, and after a while she spoke again

"I remember what you said... I remember."

"I've already said that I'll remember everything you said to me, and I hope that day will come... Don't forget what you said to me... Xiao Xiaoming.."

I heard Zheng Jiayue say this, nodded, and said seriously

"Well, I'll remember. Definitely.."

Zheng Jiayue couldn't help but smile again because of my determined appearance, and at this time she stopped and looked at me with straight eyes.

I looked at Zheng Jiayue's current face, although I could still see her sadness on her face, but I could also see her eyes full of hope... She seemed to see her own happiness, her eyes, so beautiful that people were about to suffocate...

After a moment she seemed to remember something, only to see one hand touch her pocket, and then spoke again

"That's right... Xiao Xiaoming, when you say this, I really remember one thing..."

Hearing her say this, I couldn't help but be stunned and asked

"What's the matter?"

As soon as the words fell, I saw Zheng Jiayue take something out of her pocket...

The moment she pulled out something, I thought she was going to pull out a pistol or something, and I killed me in a second.

As a result, I fixed my eyes and couldn't help but be stunned again, only to see that what Zheng Jiayue took out was nothing else, it was the candy necklace I bought for her at school in the afternoon.

I couldn't help but feel a little strange after seeing her take out this thing, and before I could ask her, I saw Zheng Jiayue move her mouth and say

"Whew.. To you Xiao Xiaoming.. The current word.. Just ask you to put this necklace on me~"

Zheng Jiayue's words surprised me again, I looked at her, and after a while I asked

"Ah, I'll help you put it on, won't you wear it yourself?"

Hearing my words, Zheng Jiayue quickly frowned, she shook the candy necklace in her hand, and then spoke

"What... Didn't you give it to me~ How can you give a girl a necklace and the girl to wear it herself.. Hurry up, I'll wear it and try it.. Hurry up, hurry up.."

Zheng Jiayue urged me while saying this, looking at her appearance, she had already walked out of what had just happened.

I don't know if Zheng Jiayue is pretending to be relaxed or what's going on at this time, but maybe after so long, she really wants to open a lot, right? Maybe she is still sad now, but she should have learned to control her emotions a long time ago...

Thinking of this, in order to prevent Zheng Jiayue from being sad again, I pondered for a while, but nodded and agreed..

Seeing that I agreed, Zheng Jiayue smiled happily, and then handed over the candy necklace in her hand.

I took the candy necklace from her hand, looked at it, and then spoke

"Do you really wear it now?"

Zheng Jiayue nodded, although she was still sitting on the swing, she was no longer swinging...

I saw her nodding and took a deep breath before speaking

"Well, to be honest, I always thought that the first time I wore a collar in my life was for my pet dog in the future... I didn't expect it to be you.."

As soon as I finished speaking, Zheng Jiayue kicked my calf, but because she was still sitting on the swing and her center of gravity was a little unstable, she didn't kick me, but almost threw herself...

I couldn't help but smile at her actions, but soon I realized what was wrong with the candy necklace and gesturing it over her head.

After a few seconds, I moved my mouth and spoke

"Sorry, your head is too big... I can't get into it at all..."

While saying this, I put this candy necklace on the top of Zheng Jiayue's head, and I really couldn't put it in if I meowed...

Zheng Jiayue was also a little surprised to hear me say this, her body trembled, and she said in some surprise

"Ah~ really? You've put it on my head now?"

I looked at Zheng Jiayue's appearance and nodded, and couldn't help but smile and said

"Hmm.. Indeed, it is certainly impossible to put it around the neck, but... It's also good to put on the top of the head, it's pretty good, like a.. The aperture on the head of the little angel or something.. Hahaha.."

To be honest, when I say this, I really feel like Zheng Jiayue is like a little angel... With her kind of character, she must be God's favorite in heaven...

However, my words made Zheng Jiayue pause, and then she raised her hand and touched the top of her head, and muttered again

"Dizzy.. It's definitely ugly, and... It's so strange that the angel said that I felt like I was dead... I don't want to.."

After saying this, Zheng Jiayue quickly took off the candy necklace on her head, and after taking it off, she also gestured with her hand, and after making sure that she really couldn't wear it, she looked at me again and said

"What, Xiao Xiaoming, what candy necklace did you buy here, you can't wear it at all~ It's too small.."

I couldn't help but smile when I heard Zheng Jiayue say this, and said

"Uhhh Who's going to really wear it? That's what you're going to do... This,That's what it means to sell mainly.. You think, it's a high school, and there are a few people who spend money to buy real necklaces, and if you can't afford it, you can really only buy a girl like this, and it sounds good."

Seeing me editing Zheng Jiayue like this, she was a little speechless, she looked at me, and fiddled with the candy necklace in her hand for a while, and then seemed to suddenly think of something.

I saw that she wrapped the candy necklace around twice, and then put it on her arm.

Not to mention that the size is just right, it suddenly became a bracelet-like thing...

This made Zheng Jiayue laugh a little, and soon she shook her little hand at me, and then spoke

"Look~ how is this.. Hmph, this is the only thing, and this one will be mine from now on."

"Candy bracelet~"

Seeing Zheng Jiayue in front of me, I suddenly felt a little powerless to complain... I stared at her for a moment, then spoke

"Okay, okay, you're amazing, creative and unlimited.. I took it.."

Hearing me say this, Zheng Jiayue smiled very proudly, but soon she stood up again, and then looked at me and said

"Okay, it's late, let's go back Xiao Xiaoming.."

I couldn't help but flutter when I saw Zheng Jiayue say this, and then nodded and signaled that she could.

Soon Zheng Jiayue stretched her waist, and after taking a few steps forward, she turned her head to look at me again, and said quickly

"That's right~ Thank you, Xiao Xiaoming.. It's been a long, long time since I've felt this lighter.."

"Thank you.."

I looked at Zheng Jiayue in front of me and didn't answer her, but at this moment I silently said thank you to her in my heart.

Because I think I'm the one who wants to say thank you...

After all, I myself think that I can't be the kind of person who is willing to share this kind of thing with others, so Zheng Jiayue must trust me very much, so she will tell me things that she may never want to say.

So.. This trust I have in her... To say thank you...

In this way, the two of us quickly returned home slowly, and when we arrived home, our parents were already sleeping. On weekdays, they should rarely go to bed so early, maybe today they deliberately want to leave space for me and Zheng Jiayue or something..

And I tossed with Zheng Jiayue for a day, and I was already tired... So after returning home and cleaning up briefly, I went back to my room.

When I washed my face, Zheng Jiayue didn't bring anything to wash, so she simply washed her face, and finally snatched my towel and used it.

Originally, I thought it was very bad, but after seeing that Zheng Jiayue didn't mind herself, she didn't say anything else...

Later, I went back to my room, and Zheng Jiayue also said good night to me and went back to the guest room.

I closed the door and lay down on my bed, and suddenly I felt a little sleepless.

Although it is still a familiar bed, a familiar feeling of home, but I don't know why, when I think of Zheng Jiayue sleeping in the guest room in the same room now, I feel a little dreamy, as if everything has become a little unreal...

Or rather, there have been so many things that have happened in the past two days that I was a little caught off guard...

At this time, I remembered that I hung up Yu Qian's phone this afternoon, which made me a little concerned again, I don't know what happened when Yu Qian called me.

However, after thinking for a while, I shook my head again, signaling myself not to think about Yu Qian, after all, the purpose of my home is to let myself not think about these things?

With this in mind, I looked at the ceiling above my head for a while, and finally sleepiness hit me, and I fell asleep groggily.

In a trance, I had a dream, in which I went back to my high school days, surrounded by my high school classmates at that time, and on the podium, my homeroom teacher was holding chalk on the blackboard and didn't know what was written...

The laughter in the classroom, and the hum of the electric fan overhead, were all very real.

However, this dream woke up when I dreamed that the girl in front of me turned her head and smiled at me, I opened my eyes and found that I don't know when Zheng Jiayue was looking at me strangely.

This made my body tremble a little, and I quickly half sat up, and looked at Zheng Jiayue in horror and stammered and asked

"You.. What are you doing?"

Seeing my reaction, Zheng Jiayue tilted her head, she was a little strange, but she still smiled at me and muttered quietly

"Didn't do anything... Wake you up to eat.. But.."

"Xiao Xiaoming, you are talking in your dreams~"