Actually, I really don't want to ask Zheng Jiayue like this, but I just thought that I had to ask, because I wanted to know Zheng Jiayue's true thoughts, so that I could prepare some things for her.

Obviously, Zheng Jiayue didn't expect me to ask such a question, she looked at me and didn't say anything for a long time.

After a while, she smiled reluctantly again, and said: "Xiao Xiaoming, I don't know how to answer your question, in fact, to be honest, I don't know if I want to tell them, I think I should tell them, but I'm afraid that when I tell them, there will be a lot of trouble, I'm a little... I don't know how to deal with them."

Speaking of this, Zheng Jiayue paused for a moment, looked at me again and said, "Xiao Xiaoming, what do you say I should tell them? Should I tell them?"

Zheng Jiayue's words stopped me, to be honest, although Zheng Jiayue didn't tell Chen Yanyu, but other people actually know, Yu Qian, Chen Jiao, Jiang Ziyun...

But Zheng Jiayue didn't know this, and Yu Qian didn't know that Zheng Jiayue's final decision was to go abroad.

Thinking of this, I hesitated for a long time before I said: "This mainly depends on you, I actually think it's okay... Since they are all friends, there is no need to hide it, and... Sooner or later, they'll find out, won't they?"

Zheng Jiayue seemed to make sense when she heard what I said, she looked at me for a while, and then said, "Okay, I know, that..." Anyway, let's tell them when I have the chance, and it's better to give them a sound."

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, I almost have an idea in my heart... At this time, Zheng Jiayue looked at me again, and suddenly said, "Okay, okay, Xiao Xiaoming, go wash up, let's go."

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, I nodded, and quickly walked to the bathroom to wash up.

After coming out, Zheng Jiayue had completely packed up, and at this time, I looked at her and couldn't help asking, "Where did you think of going again?"

I thought Zheng Jiayue wouldn't say it, but I don't know why Zheng Jiayue seemed to have found it this time, she looked at me and smiled, and then said: "Okay, I can tell you, Xiao Xiaoming, let's..." Why don't you go skating? How about skating?

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, I couldn't help but be stunned, I looked at her and immediately asked again: "What kind of ice?" is. Roller skating or... Really skating?"

Zheng Jiayue looked at me, nodded and said, "Of course it's really skating, it's the best time to do this in winter~ What, Xiao Xiaoming, you can't skate, right?"

I looked at Zheng Jiayue and said, "I will roller skate, the kind of ice skate, it won't, normal people won't, okay?

Zheng Jiayue frowned when she heard me say this, she looked at me, and said again: "Idiot, wrestling will always be there~?Anyway, by the way, you can go and see, I know that there is a place for skating in the Beijing Botanical Garden, let's go there first.. I haven't been there yet."

It seems that Zheng Jiayue has already planned it, so I didn't say anything more, nodded and said yes, otherwise Zheng Jiayue would definitely make me want to go somewhere, I really can't think of it.

Seeing that I agreed, Zheng Jiayue quickly took me and walked towards the outside of the hotel room.

When I went out, Zheng Jiayue still looked a little distressed, looked at me and said, "I didn't live in such a good room until noon, and I have to check out.. It's a shame.."

I looked at her and felt a little painful: "It's not your money, what are you feeling distressed about?"

Zheng Jiayue said: "But Xiao Xiaoming, your money is my money? Of course I feel distressed."

I was a little speechless when I heard Zheng Jiayue say this, but I still said: "Okay, okay, if you feel distressed, you can stay longer.."

Zheng Jiayue shook her head and said, "I don't want to stay in a hotel room all day, and the botanical garden is quite far away from here, so I have to take a car."

After Zheng Jiayue finished speaking, she dragged me and quickly went downstairs to retreat.

At this time, it was still early, and Zheng Jiayue and I were the first people to check out, but after going out, we could see a lot of outside, after all, this is the International Trade Center, and there are always a lot of people.

I walked with Zheng Jiayue for a while, and finally got into the subway.

I regretted it after I went in, because I miscalculated with Zheng Jiayue, at this time I came to Guomao to take the subway is simply looking for death, there are so many people here, let alone getting on the subway, it is estimated that I will only be on the subway.

Zheng Jiayue also realized something at this time, she looked at me and said a little embarrassed: "There seem to be a lot of people."

I said, "That's a bit much, it's just a lot, okay, why don't we go out and take a taxi?"

Zheng Jiayue looked at me, shook her head and said, "But taking a taxi seems to be quite far, and it is quite expensive, and it is not necessarily easy to take a taxi now, it is better to take the subway."

What Zheng Jiayue said also made sense, I looked at her, and after a while, I still said: "Then try it later, squeeze it and try it, and see if you can go up...

Zheng Jiayue nodded and followed me to the side.

Fortunately, I practiced the skill of squeezing rice when I was in school, and she always asked me to do this kind of thing when I first met Zheng Jiayue, so I still took Zheng Jiayue to successfully squeeze into the next subway.

After getting in the car, Zheng Jiayue looked at me and said a little speechlessly: "Squeeze me to death Xiao Xiaoming.."

I smiled and said, "Yes, now you have experienced what kind of treatment you are treated when you ask me to grab food for you on weekdays, right? But you are really lucky, you only need to walk to work on weekdays, you don't have to go through this at all, you see how difficult these people are..."

Zheng Jiayue nodded and said, "It's not easy, but I'm also tired when I walk, okay..."

I looked at Zheng Jiayue and said, "Come on, how far have you walked to get tired?

Zheng Jiayue laughed when she heard me say this, and said, "Cut, then next time you crawl to show me, if you say you're tired, I'll beat you!"

I shrugged my shoulders and didn't say anything more. And early in the morning, Zheng Jiayue and I were poor in the subway car, which was a little bad... It made the hard-working office workers around look unhappy.

In this way, Zheng Jiayue and I just communicated briefly, and the two of us sat in the back, and there were a lot fewer people in the subway.

I haven't been to the botanical garden either, so I don't know where it is, but Zheng Jiayue told me that it's near Xiangshan...

Zheng Jiayue and I have been to Xiangshan, and I still remember the two of us going to Xiangshan, when I sat on the mountain with her, and said that we would not be separated.

But I didn't expect those words to turn into sarcasm now, and Zheng Jiayue and I are about to separate...

No matter how much I think about it, Zheng Jiayue and I still have a bad feeling...

But at this time, neither of us wanted to mention these things, so we just kept rushing to the botanical garden.

When I got to the place, it was not too early or too late, and there were already a lot of people, but it still looked very deserted.

I bought tickets with Zheng Jiayue and quickly walked to the inside of the botanical garden.

After coming in, I walked with Zheng Jiayue for a while, and Zheng Jiayue said, "Dizzy, there's nothing left."

I looked at her and said, "I don't know what you think, come and see the plants in the winter... Of course, a lot of plants are gone, but let's have some fun. Hahaha, it's not bad to take a walk or something.. Look at how many people there are here, how empty... Do you remember Chaoyang Park? It's so much better here than there."

Zheng Jiayue nodded when she heard my words, she looked at me, and after a while, she still said, "Let's go find a place to skate first... I want to see it.."

It seems that Zheng Jiayue still doesn't give up, I thought about it and agreed..

In this way, the two of us walked around the botanical garden, and there were quite a lot of people at the door, but after coming in, there were fewer people...

It's difficult to find someone to ask for directions, so I walked with Zheng Jiayue for a while, and finally found a street sign. There is a map drawn on it..

Zheng Jiayue looked at it for a long time before she said again: "I know, I want to go over there!!"

I followed the direction of Zheng Jiayue's finger and said, "Don't talk nonsense, I have also seen it, and I have to continue to move forward."

Zheng Jiayue looked at me with a surprised look and asked, "Is that what I mistaken?"

I'm talking nonsense, isn't that the way he came when he meowed? You see the skating place?

Zheng Jiayue shook her head, and then said with a smile: "Okay, okay, then let's go.."

I was speechless by Zheng Jiayue, but at this time I still dragged her to the front and continued to walk.

The two of us walked for a while, and finally we saw the skating rink.

It was a skating rink that was specially fenced in, and I thought it was a lake or something.

But there are a lot of people there, and it seems that there are quite a few people who come here to skate...

I stepped forward with Zheng Jiayue, and I saw that people were having a good time, of course, many people didn't know how to play, and I saw a lot of wrestling or something.

At this time, I looked at Zheng Jiayue, and was about to ask her if she wanted to play, but Zheng Jiayue actually looked at me and said, "Xiao Xiaoming, I don't want to play.."

Zheng Jiayue's words made me stunned, I was a little curious, a little concerned and asked, "Why? Why don't you play?"

Zheng Jiayue was silent, and after a while she spoke again: "Anyway, I just don't want to play anymore... Let's take a look... ？”

Zheng Jiayue's temporary change of mind made me very concerned, obviously I came here to skate or something, why did I suddenly stop playing?

But since Zheng Jiayue said so, she must have her own thoughts, so I didn't ask more, but said again: "Okay, okay, if you don't play, you won't play... That.. Just watch it here?"

Zheng Jiayue nodded, walked to the side with me, and found a place to sit down.

Although it's still a little cloudy today, it's not as cold as the previous two days, which is also a good thing, otherwise I would definitely freeze to death if I sat here with Zheng Jiayue.

But the strange thing is that Zheng Jiayue suddenly looked a little weird, as if she had something on her mind, her eyes looked at these skaters.

I couldn't help it when I saw Zheng Jiayue like this, and after thinking about it, I still looked at her and said, "What's wrong with you? If you really want to play, go and have fun, I can accompany you."

Zheng Jiayue shook her head and said, "No, I don't want to wrestle... I.."

Zheng Jiayue's words were not finished, I don't know what she was thinking about...

When I saw her say that, I always felt that something was wrong, as if she was hiding something from me...

But after thinking about it for a while, I couldn't think of anything, I still looked at Zheng Jiayue, and said, "Okay, that..." Isn't it nice to watch other people wrestle?"

Zheng Jiayue nodded with a smile and said, "Well, it's quite interesting.."

I looked at her and said, "So, you're planning to come over and gloat?"

Zheng Jiayue shook her head and said, "How can I think so... But.."

"Xiao Xiaoming, you said that when it is spring, it must be very beautiful here, right? When it is spring here, it must be full of bright colors, it must be very beautiful, right?"

Zheng Jiayue's words made me can't help but look around in the distance, there is no end to the grass in the distance, but most of it is a withered yellow color, and of course there is green mixed in it.

I can't imagine what spring looks like here, but it's definitely a lot better than this time...

Thinking of this, I smiled and said, "Yes, but nowadays, people only focus on the city, and ignore nature for a long time... I remember when I was a child, I could see flowers and weeds everywhere... At that time, the community where I lived was full of flowers and plants, and there were bicycles parked under each unit building. I thought it was funny at the time."

At this point, I couldn't help but take a deep breath and speak again: "But now it's completely different, there are only cars parked downstairs, and the animals you can see are only those homeless wild cats and wild dogs."

"There are no more green spaces for children to play, and there are no more butterflies and dragonflies that fly in my memory."

"Actually, people are quite conflicted, they all like modern cities, but also... All crave the most natural things... I guess that's the kind of person I am, but if I had to choose, I would prefer that nature would be a little better... I'd rather live in that environment."

Zheng Jiayue was stunned when she heard me say this, she looked at me for a while before she spoke again: "Is it? So.. Like you, I want to live in this kind of place close to nature, not in those busy cities."

After Zheng Jiayue said this, the two of us looked at each other... After a long while, I spoke again: "Well, why don't we go and become savages?"

Zheng Jiayue smiled and said, "Cut, the king of savages, Xiao Xiaoming, is right.. Who wants to be a savage with you... The beauty you want.."

———— 10 minutes to hear Yu Qian say something like this... I was stunned...

I looked at her in front of me and felt as if something in my heart was beginning to decay.

yes, that's how it feels...

Is that how it feels?

When I expressed my affection for Qian, wasn't it just like she is now, in this situation?

When I expressed my affection for Yu Qian, I knew that she was with Lu Mao, not even me, but the whole company, so I didn't take into account her mood at all, I just felt that Lu Mao was not worthy of her, and she shouldn't be with Lu Mao.. But now that I think about it, isn't my situation the same now?

It can be said that it is the other way around... I am with Zheng Jiayue, and I also feel Yu Qian's good feelings, although I am very eager to enjoy this indescribable feeling, but I will not give up Zheng Jiayue at all...

Presumably Yu Qian was under the same pressure as me at that time.

She has also been secretly entangled in countless nights.

Thinking of this, my heart seemed to be missing a corner all of a sudden, and countless sorrows kept surging out from that gap...

I looked at Yu Qian like this, and it took a long time before I spoke

"Hmm.."

"I see... Now, there it is.."

My answer made Yu Qian raise her head and look at me again, she stared at me for a long time, and finally moved again.

I saw her break free of my hand and stumble out the door a little.

I stood in the bathroom for a while before walking out again...

After going out, Yu Qian was already lying on the bed, she was lying on her back, her eyes were tightly closed, and she seemed to be resting.

I feel that Yu Qian really drank too much today, even if she didn't drink too much, at least she was not in a good mood...

So after looking at her for a while, I still spoke

"If you want to sleep, put on the covers, I..."

"I'll go back first."

I didn't mention what happened just now, I just think that it is a good choice to leave by myself now...

As a result, I didn't expect that as soon as I finished speaking, Yu Qian's voice came...

"Don't go.. Stay with me.."

"Stay with me... One night.."

Although the sound was small, I could hear it clearly.

I was stunned, I never thought that Yu Qian would say this...

Do you want to stay with her all night?

Although I wanted to crook for a second, I quickly understood what she meant...

After all, it's not safe to leave her alone to stay here at night... And it's so foggy outside, it's not convenient for me to go home, and I can't hang up on the way and become a ghost or something...

So at this time, I looked at Yu Qian again, and then asked tentatively

"Is it convenient? There's only one bed."

Yu Qian immediately opened her eyes again when she heard me say this, and she seemed to be really much more awake after she vomited. She struggled to sit up again, then looked at me and said

: "Previous... Didn't you do the same?"

"So, there's nothing inconvenient about it.."

Yu Qian's words reminded me of the fact that I went to Yangtian Mountain with her, and that night, we did spend the night in the hotel bed.

Thinking of this, I didn't say anything, and finally nodded at Yu Qian...

Seeing me nodding, Yu Qian rubbed her eyes, and soon she looked at me again, and then spoke

"Let's just sleep in bed, I'm a little uncomfortable, so I'll sleep first, one and a half.."

After saying this, Yu Qian walked to the other side of the bed again, she took off her shoes, took off my coat and her own coat, put it aside, and then the whole person got into the bed...

I saw Yu Qian's move, so I thought about it again, and then walked into the bathroom on the side...

After I went in, I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror, I actually felt that I was not like myself anymore.

Which self am I?

In the end, in my heart, what kind of thoughts do I have about Qian, and what do I think about Zheng Jiayue?

I took a deep breath at this thought, then turned off the light and walked out of the bathroom.

When I went out, the lights were still on in the house.

The rooms in this hotel are very good, at least worth the price.

I turned off the lights and soon it was pitch black...

I fumbled in the dark for a long time, and finally crawled to the side of the bed.

I don't know when it started, sleeping in the same bed with Yu Qian has become so easy...

Perhaps, this is a feeling that Lu Mao has never experienced, right?

At this time, I suddenly had such an impulse, an impulse to ask Yu Qian clearly, what was going on between her and Lu Mao, to ask her if she knew Li Laogou, and to know what she had always disliked Lu Mao and being with him again.

But this thought only swirled around in my head a few times, and then I rejected it again...

Because even if I ask, Yu Qian may not tell me, and she is estimated to be in a state of half-drinking now, so it is very likely that she will not say anything I ask, but it will make her more nervous and concerned, and there will be less chance of knowing in the future.

Thinking of this, I still sighed lightly, and then opened the corner of the quilt and gently got in...

After lying down, Yu Qian next to me was facing away from me, she didn't know if she was asleep, but it was quiet and motionless.

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her, and after a while, that feeling in my heart returned.

Obviously, she was always so close to her, but she couldn't shorten the distance by a little bit.

Obviously, many times as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch her, but because of various reasons, you can't do so...

Perhaps, this is the so-called fate without separation... Perhaps, it is destined that Yu Qian and I can only stay in this distance.

Thinking of this, I was sad again, and finally closed my eyes, thinking that it would be better to sleep.

When I wake up from sleep, I guess everything will be fine, Yu Qian will return to normal, and her trembling heart will calm down again.

However, such a thought did not stay in his mind for long, and suddenly he felt that Yu Qian turned around again.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that she was looking at me too.

Although it was pitch black, my eyes and her eyes seemed to be intertwined in the darkness.

It was a very subtle feeling, it was a feeling, there are no good words to describe it.

Lying in bed and looking at each other with the girl you liked, or rather, the girl you once liked...

Obviously, I can't see each other's faces clearly, but I don't want to look away at all.