Standing in the night like this, I don't know how long it has been, looking at this more empty and lonely self the smaller it is, it is estimated that anyone will ask those three classic questions, who am I, where do I come from, and where am I going. Luo Shaoqian's explanation from beginning to end is to emphasize that this path is not his choice, and he also has a lot of unspeakable helplessness. Yes, in our long life, after countless multiple-choice questions, some are single-choice, some are multiple-choice, successful life will be finally summarized into a few keywords, find those few crucial choice nodes, and the failed life is full of failures, there is no way to summarize, and few people will summarize. But whether you are successful or not, whether it is wonderful or not does not depend on what others say, but you yourself feel that only when you are extremely successful, will it be the turn of future generations to comment. Maybe we're just too selfish? Luo Shaoqian is too first in the world? Isn't it? Thinking about it, it blurs the consistent thoughts in our hearts. But what I do know is that we are unhappy, very unhappy

"What are you thinking? Just say anything, anyway, I am the protagonist of the criticism meeting today, and I will not refute any opinions and suggestions today. "Luo Shaoqian always believes that we are on the opposite side of him.

"I don't have any opinions, and I don't dare to have any suggestions, I'm just thinking that the road is our own choice, kneeling, and tearful to finish, since we are not willing to give up. "I always feel that if I have already chosen, who should I blame?

"What do you mean?" Luo Shaoqian obviously understood what I meant, but he still wanted to hear my explanation hopefully.

Isn't it? There are too many people who have been chosen by fate, I chose Tu Tu, Zhang Xiuran and Wen Hongwei chose me, Teacher Ouyang and Dean Li chose to leave, Qi Dong and Yan Ting chose to persevere, Shi Jingyi chose the order of his parents, no one was forced, it was nothing more than a trade-off. You can't have both fish and bear's paws, Luo Shaoqian can't think about being an ordinary doctor while trying to shoulder the responsibility of medical school by himself, since he has chosen a path, then take this road well, if he finds that it is not quite right while walking, then it is good to turn back. Luo Shaoqian took a path that he claimed he didn't like, but wasn't this his own choice? Shouldn't he be responsible for his choice? Even if no one understands, what can it be? Isn't it difficult for me and Tu Tu, Teacher Ouyang and Dean Li, Qi Dong and Yan Ting? What shortcut did we choose? Did we give up the bottom line? Then why did Luo Shaoqian use Liu Yang to defend himself?

"Luo Shaoqian, do you think Yang Chen is angry because you and Liu Yang can't explain the relationship? No, he lost the buddy he once admired the most...... "I mustered up the courage to break each other's dignity in the end, "It's you who have changed, but you still stand on the moral high ground, it's not that no one understands you, but you gave up on yourself." ”

The minute and hour hands overlapped, and a new day had come, and I wanted to see it, but I couldn't help but turn around to look at him again, and walked straight in the direction of the hotel, and there was no footsteps behind me.

Sleepless nights.

Most of the next day's activity plan was canceled, Yan Ting had a temporary meeting, and Qi Dong was the only one who hurried to meet us at noon, and Yang Chen didn't sleep well last night, staring at the two black circles in front of the coachman. Shi Jingyi has been asking me all the way how Tu Tu is educating her now, and her boss always needs her to keep silently reciting: This is my own ...... This is my own ...... It was close to noon when I gathered, and I didn't have time to visit the previous counselor, so I found a nearby restaurant to pass the lunch, and only Shi Jingyi talked the most during the banquet, enlivening the atmosphere. Qi Dong and I have been carefully observing Yang Chen's expression, for fear that Shi Jingyi will say something wrong again and anger him.

I summarized Yang Chen earlier, he is a very righteous person, look at the importance of feelings. He is not as good as Luo Shaoqian, so he admires and admires him, he is not as open-minded as me, and he is not direct without me, so he always protects me, as if he is protecting the side of his own heart that he dare not show. Each of us has an important meaning to Yang Chen, and it seems that we are all the people he wants to live the most. But one after another masks were revealed, and the cruel reality gave Yang Chen naked ridicule, whether it was his worry about me, or his anger towards Luo Shaoqian, it was probably the embodiment of his loss of himself and his doubt about himself. Yang Chen, a rich second generation, the first twenty years of family education taught him how to spend money, and the last ten years should have told him how to love himself and love others, but at this moment they fell apart and completely collapsed.

Although our lives should not be built on other people, I have to say that Luo Shaoqian destroyed Yang Chen's spiritual world.

Several of us felt that there was no idea of continuing to shop, and at two or three o'clock in the afternoon, we said goodbye to Qi Dong and prepared to go home. Yang Chen drove me to the station first, and before leaving, Shi Jingyi took my hand and said, "Life and the world are never what we think. "Shi Jingyi was the first among us to get married and have a baby, she didn't invite us to the wedding, because she felt that she didn't marry love, but Shi Jingyi's every feeling after marriage showed her happiness, although she didn't admit it.

Many people think that they can live a different life if they don't take the ordinary road, others are running accounts, and their own is poetry, but they never know that they are the ones who fall into the strange circle. Shi Jingyi may be the first woman among us to enter menopause, she is broken, she takes care of the housework, she teaches her husband and children, we listen to her talk about her hardships, but we can't get such a sweet burden.

I watched Shi Jingyi get in the car and leave, seeing her carefully protecting her belly, I didn't give birth to Tutu in October, which is a big regret in the process of being promoted to the role.

I sat in Yang Chen's co-pilot and galloped back to City B, Yang Chen didn't speak, and I didn't know how to speak.

"I met Luo Shaoqian last night, and I broke up a little unhappily. "I think it's still necessary to talk to him.

"I know, and then he sent me a WeChat message. Yang Chen's words did not carry too much emotion.

After Luo Shaoqian and I separated, Luo Shaoqian looked for Yang Chen?

Probably Yang Chen saw my surprise, and smiled bitterly on his face, "Probably what you said stimulated him, he came to apologize to me on WeChat, and the voice sent at three o'clock at night felt that he had drunk a little wine, and his speech was a little verbose." ”

Luo Shaoqian actually went to drink later, and it seemed that his mood was extremely bad. "What else did he say? Just say I'm sorry?"

"I'm sorry for me, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for myself, I repeated these few words, and I sent the last sentence at four o'clock, saying that I would take care of everything and give us an explanation. I don't know if it's drunk, or who 'we' refers to. Yang Chen's tone was a little indifferent, but he couldn't tell if he was pretending, after all, he was really angry yesterday.

"How did you reply to him?"

"Didn't reply. ”

"Didn't say anything?"

"Well, there's not much to say. ”

I think that probably the friendship between Yang Chen and Luo Shaoqian has come to an end.