"If you want to say why, it's probably because of you. Luo Shaoqian paused for a moment, as if after some mental struggle, "This is also the reason why I decided to come and clarify the reason with you." ”

What do you mean?

Luo Shaoqian told an incident more than a year ago, and it was in Yuan Li.

As soon as he mentioned Yuan Li, my eyes suddenly became loose and nervous, I could feel Luo Shaoqian's caution and fear, could it be that his hesitation and struggle just now was because he was worried about me? Luo Shaoqian put his arm around my shoulders and hugged me into his arms. His fingers swayed on the top of my head, and his fingertips interspersed back and forth in the roots of my hair, giving people infinite tenderness. I closed my eyes, trying my best to enjoy the warmth of the moment, not thinking about the violent fire and the pouring rain, but the sound of the explosion still clearly roared in my mind again and again, I frowned, felt my fingertips tremble unconsciously, and the cold that had just dissipated seemed to rush to my body in an instant, cold and stiff.

"We have to slowly learn to accept the past, don't we?" Luo Shaoqian leaned down to my ear and hugged it tighter.

"I know. "I know how to face it right, it's just not that easy, but I'm willing to try to face it and let go.

"I didn't have much friendship with Mr. Ouyang, and I didn't have much contact with Mr. A in the past few years, and I only learned that Li Jun was the son of Mr. Ouyang and Dean Li before I left for Yuanli, which really surprised me, but nothing was more important than your safety at that time. "After you woke up in the hospital, everyone flocked to the hospital, whether it was the elders, the school leaders, or the reporters outside who were hungry for a little bit of exclusive information, they all wanted to know the specific situation of that night. Peng Fei didn't show up much, of course, not everyone knew that he was there that night, the school leaders wanted to know the truth on the one hand, and on the other hand, they tried their best to hide the truth, they didn't ask Peng Fei about it, and the elders didn't have the slightest clue, do you know?

I thought he was just going to narrate, but I didn't expect him to ask me, but I have been thinking about this question for many years, and I have felt guilty for many years, who is most important to truth and justice?

"Li Jun's parents and relatives, no one cares more about the truth than them, after all, ......"

What I want to say is that after all, Li Jun has left us forever, but the words are like a fish in his throat, and he can't confide them out. A catastrophe, no matter how difficult and painful the living people are, they can't comment and discuss those lost lives with peace of mind, yes, I will never be qualified to call myself a lucky one, just like Zhang Xiuran and Wen Hongwei will never mention those yearning for beauty and hope in front of Mr. Ouyang, maybe Mr. Ouyang's family has accepted the reality and unloaded the burden of psychology before us, but even so, always retain respect and nostalgia for the deceased, and always cherish the awe and piety of life, which is the least respect for them.

"The day you woke up, after everyone discussed, they decided to let Auntie test your tone, Auntie couldn't bear it, it was Teacher Ouyang who overrode the public opinion and made everyone give up this idea. "Speaking of this, Luo Shaoqian gently held my face, we looked at each other, a desolation, I saw the glimmer of stars in his eyes, I know, it was full of regret, sadness and unbearable, "'Don't ask her, don't force her to recall, if you can forget, that's the best.'" 'Teacher Ouyang, who should know the truth the most, should be hoarse and exhausted, blocked everything for you, and it was not me who protected you, it was her. Luo Shaoqian looked at me, word by word, there seemed to be an echo in the claustrophobic environment of the carriage, he held my face like this, watched the corners of my mouth twitch slowly, the tip of my nose slowly reddened, tears then overflowed from his eye sockets and fell into his palm, chest tightness and shortness of breath did not make a trace of whimpering, so quietly tears rained down.

Therefore, the efforts made by Teacher Ouyang and Dean Li have always been to protect Wentong.

"For Wen Tong, are you willing?"

I seem to see the scene of Teacher Ouyang and Luo Shaoqian standing opposite each other, and see their family running for Luo Shaoqian, the more they think about me like this, and silently bear and pay for me, the more guilty and indebted I feel at this moment. Li Jun and I met and fell in love for a short time, and the length of time naturally can't measure our love, but for Mr. Ouyang's family, Wen Tong is nothing more than a passerby, and with some prefixes, it is only an important passerby who has had a common experience. Teacher Ouyang is full of peach and plum all over the world, Wen Tong may be the most stubborn one in that batch, which makes her worry about it extra, but Teacher Ouyang has been teaching and educating people for dozens of years, and Dean Li is synonymous with rationalism in the judicial circle.

"Everything that Mr. Ouyang's family has done seems to be for me, but it is actually for you. I know that you must have experienced some of this at dinner, but I think I should tell you all about it, without the slightest reservation, and you shouldn't keep it, that would be unfair to them, right?" Luo Shaoqian shed tears for me, still in that tactful tone, and gently handed me all the information.

"Because your grandfather has always disliked me, thinking that I have delayed the future of you and the medical school again and again, and believes that your idea of resigning from your job and practicing medicine is because of my bewitchment, and Teacher Ouyang is afraid that I will not be accepted by the Luo family, so he works so hard for you. They want the Luo family to know the power behind Wen Tong, they want the Luo family to respect, accept and even appreciate me, they give me all the credit, and they just want me to be happy from beginning to end...... "I tried to summarize what happened tonight, and I wanted to peel off the cocoon from the superficial happy ending, and find the original intention and intention that were deliberately hidden, so what about after I found it? How many years has Li Jun left us? Oh, Tu Tu is seven years old, how old was Tu Tu at that time? Every time I want to recall those details, I always have to relate them in this way, so that I can recall them clearly, all the events are slowly becoming blurred, even the things that we think are very memorable when we fall in love, after the baptism of the years, have become forgotten and unclear, but the feeling of heartbeat or heartache will not disappear, but will only be slowly buried deeper, if you don't dig and renovate, they will become more and more secretive, more and more difficult to mention, more and more misunderstand that you forget.

Teacher Ouyang is slowly burying all the past between me and Li Jun, she hopes that I will forget, I hope I don't have to remember, she hopes that even if I lose my beloved son in this life in that way, even if the school does not give her a fairness, even if she and Dean Li leave the post of lifelong struggle, even if they will never lose their love, they also hope that I will be happy.

There are no words that can describe my mood at the moment, whether it is forbearance or catharsis, there is no emotion that can be expressed in a way, it is extremely uncomfortable and distressed, but also extremely warm and relieved.

"We will eventually grow up to give and love in a way that others will never know or understand, silently and unconcernedly. Luo Shaoqian put a kiss on my forehead, "Wentong, you want to be happy......"