54, tears (2)
Zhang Wei's words made Zhang Dongming speechless.
It's not that he doesn't know what to say, it's that he can't be too selfish.
He hopes that Liu Chuan and Zhang Wei will be together, more because Liu Chuan did not meet a good, loving, and suitable woman after Zhang Wei in his previous life, and he doesn't want Liu Chuan to miss Zhang Wei like in his previous life.
However, he did not fully consider Zhang Wei's feelings.
Zhang Wei loves Liu Chuan, but the wound in her heart is too deep, it hurts when she touches it, and she wants to cry in pain, so despite love, she will no longer be with Liu Chuan.
The point is that he can't guarantee that Liu Chuan will be fine after reconciling with Zhang Wei, and he can't guarantee that Liu Chuan won't make Zhang Wei sad anymore, he has no confidence at all, so he can't say it anymore, he understands and respects Zhang Wei's choice.
As for whether this will be the final outcome of these two people, he doesn't know, no one can say for sure about men and women, but no matter what you say, the chances of these two people coming together are very small.
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At night
At 11:50 a.m., a high female dormitory building 307.
It's been more than an hour since the lights went out, and everyone else in the dormitory has already fallen asleep, and Zhao Xiaoli's big eyes in the quilt are still flashing, and her little face is silly happy.
She didn't know what she was particularly happy about, she giggled, and then she hurriedly covered her mouth and looked at the other people's beds, but she didn't wake up, she lay back in peace, and then smiled stupidly.
She rolled over, took out an envelope from under the mattress against the wall, and then carefully pulled out two letters from the envelope.
By the bright moonlight outside the window, I could see that the envelope was very new, but both letters were very old, deeply folded, and crumpled corners, which should have been letters from several days.
Zhao Xiaoli opened the first letter-
[After eleven, I transferred to the third junior high school, for you! ]
Wait for me in high school!
Zhao Xiaoli, I love you for a lifetime!]
There is no name in the payment, but there is a time: [September 25, 2001]
The content of the letter was very short, but Zhao Xiaoli read it for a long time.
She doesn't know how many times she has read this letter, she reads it every time she thinks about him, she is very happy every time, her heart is full of sweetness every time, and she can't help but laugh silly every time.
She's been waiting for him in high school, she's been waiting for her!
Zhao Xiaoli carefully folded the letter, put it back in the envelope, and opened another letter-
[It's been more than two months, I miss you so much! ]
I wanted to go to you at the end of the last month, but I couldn't help it, I haven't seen you yet, I said that I would go to high school to find you, and I waited for that day!
But two years is a long time, but I'll hold back!
I don't know anything now, and the pressure on studying here is much higher than ours, but I will work hard, and I will persevere!
Trust me!]
The final signature was: [Lu Ye, December 6, 2001]
Like the previous letter, Zhao Xiaoli also read it for a long time.
She doesn't know how many times she has read this letter, and together with the previous letter, she will take it out and read it every time she thinks about him, she is very happy every time, her heart is full of sweetness every time, and she can't help but smile silly every time.
Of course she believed him!
In this world, her family, Mr. Zhang and him are the people she believes in the most!
Of course she misses him too!
He has written this letter to her in the past two years, can she miss him!
However, she knew that he was very busy with his studies, he didn't study at all since he was a child, and he had zero marks in all subjects, and it must be very difficult to study all at once, and the difficulties and pressure must be very great, and it was normal for him to have no time to write to him.
She also didn't want him to write to her, afraid that he would affect her studies because of her, although she missed him very much and kept thinking about it.
Finally, he passed the high school entrance examination.
She was nervous, more nervous than she was when she was in high school.
At the beginning of the school year, the teacher asked her how she was doing during the holidays, and she said that it was fine, but it was not good at all.
If he was admitted to high school, whether it was a high school, a second high school or a third high school, he would definitely come to her, but he never came.
In fact, it doesn't matter if he doesn't get in, she won't blame him, he can review for a year, she will wait for him, his family conditions are so good, he can also pay for it himself.
Anyway, anything, even if he doesn't want to go to school, as long as he comes to her.
She was very anxious, she was worried all summer vacation, she couldn't eat well, she couldn't sleep well, she couldn't study, and she cried secretly many times.
Then, when she was about to despair, the teacher told her that he was admitted to high school, and it was still their school.
She didn't know how excited she was, she didn't know how happy she was, she held back in front of the teacher, but as soon as she got out of the office, her tears fell, and she couldn't wipe them clean.
He must have thought of waiting until school started to come to her, but did he know how worried and scared she was!
Tomorrow, no, it's today, and he's going to start school today.
Two years, too long, too tormenting, she can meet him today!
Put the letter back in the envelope and put the envelope under the mattress.
She turned sideways and looked out the window, the moon was so round and bright today.
"It's getting light, I can't wait. ”
Zhao Xiaoli said in her heart, her little face was happy, she pulled the quilt up, and slowly closed her eyes......
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morning
Zhang Dongming got up very early today and woke up as soon as he woke up.
Today, the freshmen of high school have started, and Zhao Xiaoli is finally going to face reality.
Lu Ye's heart for Zhao Xiaoli has changed to a certain extent, and he thinks there are three specific reasons.
First of all, two years apart is really too long.
Not to mention seventeen or eighteen-year-old boys, even adults as long as they are not married, it is difficult to hold on to a relationship, it is difficult not to fade, it is difficult not to change their hearts.
Secondly, Beishan Township Middle School is too small.
Zhao Xiaoli is a very good-looking girl in Beishan Township Middle School, but she is not conspicuous at this height, and she is dressed very ordinarily, not to mention the whole school, and even there are two or three people in their class who are better looking than her.
This is the case with the first high school, and the same is not true for the third junior high school.
Lu Ye went from middle school in Beishan Township to the third junior high school, like a fish in a stream entering the vast sea, and what greeted him was the beautiful scenery that made him dizzy.
Even if he still misses the creek at first, after a long time, he will definitely linger in the beauty and magnificence of the sea, and as for the creek, let alone miss it, he may have forgotten it all long ago.
Third, Lu Ye's character.
He said at the beginning that he did not deny that Lu Ye liked Zhao Xiaoli from the bottom of his heart, otherwise it would not have been possible to chase for more than three years, let alone choose to study for Zhao Xiaoli.
But for a teenage boy, this kind of liking is by no means enough to support Lu Ye chasing Zhao Xiaoli for more than three years.
Also, the stubbornness in Lu Ye's character.
He refuses to admit defeat, does not believe in evil, and is not reconciled.
Lu Ye thought that he liked and liked Zhao Xiaoli after chasing Zhao Xiaoli for more than three years, but in fact, it was Lu Ye himself who didn't realize that the stubbornness in his personality played a major role in it.
And when he transferred to another school, Zhao Xiaoli, who had a good impression of him, was completely moved, and the result of the move was that he won, and he finally chased Zhao Xiaoli, but at the same time, Zhao Xiaoli had no challenge for him.
This is the fundamental reason why Lu Ye will change his mind.
Coupled with the previous two points, he already knew the result from the moment Lu Ye told him to transfer to another school.
This is inevitable, I can't blame Lu Ye, if I want to blame him, he shouldn't use Zhao Xiaoli to stimulate Lu Ye to study at that time.
But now it makes no sense to say this, he is quite worried about Zhao Xiaoli now.
It's not that the shadow doesn't affect his studies, he still has confidence in Zhao Xiaoli at this point, he is afraid that this injury will have a negative impact on Zhao Xiaoli's future.
It's not that he's worrying about nothing, the pain in his soul is much more terrible than his body, and this first love is too deep, too beautiful, and too devoted to Zhao Xiaoli.
Zhao Xiaoli, who has not yet come into contact with the real society, has not even gone to college, and is not mature enough, has such a deep first love, which is asymmetrical, when the love fairy tale collapses, he is really worried that this will hit Zhao Xiaoli too hard.
The school is very lively.
Throughout the day, Zhang Dongming paid special attention to Zhao Xiaoli.
Not only his Chinese class, but also other classes Zhao Xiaoli's mind was not at all, and she didn't know what she was thinking about in her seat all the time, so she was stupidly happy.
Zhang Dongming didn't go back after work, so he ate in the school cafeteria.
Passing by the class when she came back, Zhao Xiaoli also came back after eating, sitting honestly on the seat, her little face was full of anticipation.
In the first evening of self-study, Zhang Dongming looked at the back door of the class several times, and Zhao Xiaoli kept her chin in a daze.
Then I went down to self-study or honestly waited in my seat, looking forward to it.
The situation is still the same in the evening self-study in the second period.
In the third evening of self-study, Zhang Dongming went downstairs to the No. 2 new building.
There are a total of 23 classes in this high school year, all of which are in the No. 2 new building, Zhang Dongming inquired about it early in the morning, and Lu Ye was in class 8.
At this time, the teachers and leaders of the school basically went home, and on the first day of school, as soon as I went to the second floor where the first year of high school was located, the whole floor was buzzing.
Class 8 classrooms are the same, regardless of boys and girls, one by one, chattering, giggling, chattering.
The students didn't know him, and probably thought it was the school leader, but as soon as he pushed the door open, the classroom was quiet, and the students all slipped straight to their seats, looking at him.
Zhang Dongming saw Lu Ye in the third row of the middle row at a glance, and Lu Ye also looked at him happily.
With so many students watching, Zhang Dongming said, "Lu Ye, come out." ”