Out of Zhao Yijing's office, Fan Ling sat on the sofa outside and waited for me, and when she saw me come out, she stood up and helped me, and asked with concern: "Are you finished?"

"Hmm. The soles of my feet were weak, and I leaned on her: "Let's go." Fan Ling held me tightly and walked out of the gate of Silk Heng.

Suddenly, a car stopped beside us, Yao Qinglian poked her head out in the back seat and looked at me with some confusion and said, "Qingyang?" I looked at the front of the car, and it was the scathing Zhao Yin who was sitting there, and he was pouting and glancing at me with disdain on his face, and turned his face.

"Sister, I'll get out of the car first, and I'll look for you later. Qinglian smiled sweetly at Zhao Yin. Zhao Yin nodded expressionlessly. I have to admire Qinglian's sociability, from being sarcastically ridiculed by Zhao Yin as "one is not as good as the other" at the beginning, to now sitting in the same car, I don't know how much effort Qinglian has used.

Qinglian got out of the car and waved at Zhao Yin, Zhao Yin's car drove away, Qinglian glanced at Fan Ling: "I'm sorry, I'll talk to Qingyang alone." As he spoke, he dragged me to the side of the newsstand, and his eyes turned to my face a little cold: "What are you doing here?"

I looked at Qinglian, my heart tightened for a while, facing her, there was resentment, unwillingness, but also guilt, very complicated feelings, I looked straight at her and didn't answer.

She looked at me with a cruel gaze: "What do you want to do when you come to Zhao Yijing?" A hand grabbed my arm tightly.

I pursed my lips and felt a little angry, I came to find Zhao Yijing? Sure enough, it was Zhao Yijing's fiancée, and the news was known so quickly. After a while, I just said coldly, "Let go of me." ”

Her directness, my indifference, finally picked out the ambiguous competition between me and Qinglian, Qinglian looked at me with a ruthless gaze that had never been seen before: "Song Qingyang, what I want has already been obtained, if anyone dares to take it away from me, I will not let her go." "Is it more maddening to feel like you have gained and lost than never getting it? Yao Qinglian in front of her was so nervous and scared.

"You don't need that. I can't take it away. My voice was sad, and I tried to break free from her hand, but it was weak. Why should Qinglian be afraid of me, if I could take it away, I would have taken it away a long time ago, and I wouldn't have reached the point where I watched him get engaged today.

Seeing that my face was desolate, thinking that I couldn't threaten her, Qinglian breathed a sigh of relief, looked at me and said, "Zhao Yijing will be your brother-in-law in the future, please respect yourself, don't look for him casually." "My aching numb heart spasmed again.

Fan Ling couldn't help but turn around next to her, and saw that Qinglian was holding my arm tightly, and I didn't even have the strength to stand firm, Fan Ling came over and pulled me out of Qinglian's hand, and her tone was a little unpolite: "Are you okay? She is not in good health, and we are going back to Beijing in a hurry." ”

The corners of Qinglian's lips rose and looked at me coldly, and all her feelings were gone: "Qingyang, you remember my words." ”

I didn't look at her and followed Fan Ling. I remember, why should I rob it, how can I have such a strong identity, a silk family, how can I have such an innocent identity, single and unmarried.

In the evening of that day, it rained in Nanjing, mixed with a little snow particles, and the weather in the south was difficult to distinguish between rain and snow. The weather also became gloomy and cold, but the coat I was wearing was still shivering from the cold, and I walked with Fan Ling for a long time before I got a taxi and arrived at the airport. It's already past six o'clock, almost seven o'clock. I went to a fast food restaurant with Fan Ling, I didn't want to eat, but I couldn't let Fan Ling accompany me to starve.

Soon, my mobile phone rang, and I took it out blankly, Zhao Yijing's phone. I pressed it. What else is necessary?

The phone rang incessantly, and I simply turned it off. Fan Ling looked at me with some hesitation: "Could there be something?"

"No, it won't. I shook my head. If you want to go, just go, I don't want to break my heart again. After a while, Fan Ling's mobile phone rang, she picked it up with some surprise, and handed it to me after just listening to it: "Looking for you." ”

My heart hurt, but I still couldn't help but pick up Fan Ling's phone, Zhao Yijing's voice was anxious and urgent: "Qingyang, don't go." ”

"Anything else?" I struggled to suppress my tremors.

He paused, and there was a hint of pleading in his voice: "Don't be so desperate." I want to see you. "To be honest, my heart can't help but ache when I hear this, Zhao Yijing has always spoken categorically, I have never heard him speak in such a humble and pleading tone.

But after only a moment's hesitation, I said softly, "No need." "Hung up Fan Ling's phone. I said to Fan Ling: "You eat first, I've been to the security check." After saying that, he almost ran to the security checkpoint and went in. Finding the gate for my shift, I sat down.

Not long after, Fan Ling walked in, sat next to me and said slowly, "Can you really put it down?" I nodded vigorously, the matter has come to this, whether you can or not, you must put it down.

"Yangyang, you're too persistent. Wouldn't it be nice to have love?" Fan Ling relied on what I said to be a little lonely, "Why bother to ask for fame?"

"Love?" I smiled sadly, "love is a word used to deceive people. "Even if there is love, what is it in the adult world? Since this love is so pale, it is better to let it go. Fan Ling didn't speak again, but just relied on me thoughtfully.

When the plane arrived in Beijing, the sky also changed when I caught up with Beijing, and I was shivering from the cold. Tossing and turning at night, sometimes awake and sometimes confused, and when I got up the next day, I could barely get up with pain all over my body. Gritting your teeth or getting up, lying in bed will only torture yourself worse, it's better to get up and work, can it not be so painful?

I struggled to meet the customer who had made an appointment, and contacted the Jiangsu side about the delivery, and I was busy for two days, but I felt that my head was getting more and more dizzy, and my body was cold and hot, and I couldn't stop having a low-grade fever. Zhao Yijing sometimes called, and I gritted my teeth and pressed it off.

Early in the morning of the third day, I felt like I was shaking for a long time, and finally opened my eyes, it was a warm little hand that kept shaking me, and I thought about it, but I didn't have the strength to do it. Sister Li found me lying on the bed shivering with a red face, so she hurriedly touched my head and exclaimed, "Why is it so hot?" Nuan Nuan was screamed by Sister Li, and she was also scared, and she almost cried out with her small mouth, shouting vigorously: "Mom, Mom." ”

My daughter's voice almost broke my heart. With what little strength I had left, I told her in a hoarse voice: "Send Nuan Nuan to the kindergarten first, and come back to help me get a taxi." Sister Li hesitated, and there was no other way, so she had to do what I was told.

When I arrived at the hospital, I had a high fever of 39.5, the highest body temperature I had ever had, and the doctor advised me to be hospitalized for observation after an intravenous drip to avoid a fever again at night. I nodded in agreement. Fortunately, Sister Li can go home to take care of Nuan Nuan. Lying in the hospital bed, I found that it was good to be sick, and when the disease tortured you, your spirit would be relieved. The mind was given a temporary rest.

Lying down until the afternoon was better, I called Fan Ling, I was afraid that I would have to rest for two days, and the company asked Fan Ling to help keep an eye on it first, in case there was anything to support. Fan Ling knew that I was hospitalized and immediately rushed over to see me and helped me bring some fruit: "Look at you, you make yourself so uncomfortable." ”

I smiled wryly and changed the subject: "What to do with fruit, I don't have an appetite either." ”

Fan Ling touched my forehead: "It's still so hot, it must have been raining in Nanjing yesterday." Blowing hot and cold. I brought you pears to quench the fire, and you see the bubbles on your mouth haven't gone down yet. I tried to pull out a slight smile.

As she was talking, Sister Li came over with Nuan Nuan. I was a little surprised: "There are many germs in the hospital, why did you bring her here?"

"She had to come. Sister Li was a little helpless, "I can't stop crying." ”

Looking at my daughter's swollen eyes like little peaches, I felt a little distressed: "What are you crying for?" Nuan Nuan still didn't say anything.

Sister Li said: "Alas, the child may be scared, when I went to pick it up, the teacher asked me if there was anything at home, Nuan Nuan wilted all day, and cried twice." ”

"Mom, I'm afraid, don't fall asleep. Nuan Nuan suddenly held my hand and shook it and cried. I gently coaxed my daughter, my heart is not a taste, my daughter is already four years old, in a few months will be five years old, the fatherless family makes her particularly timid and sensitive, I woke up after shaking me for a long time in the morning, she must be very scared.

I forced my energy and smiled at Nuan Nuan: "No, Mom is just too tired, just rest well." "For my daughter, my guilt overflows, I want to use my body pain to relieve my soul grief is too naïve, too irresponsible, I don't live for me alone, I fall, who will take care of my daughter?

I tried my best to support the laughter, Nuan Nuan saw that I was fine, and gradually my emotions calmed down a lot, Fan Ling sent Sister Li and Nuan Nuan back home.

After my daughter left, I breathed a long sigh of relief, and suddenly I wanted to get better, I stood up, took out the pears brought by Fan Ling from the bag, she also left a small folding fruit knife, I slowly peeled the skin, although I have no appetite, I want to eat, I want to get better as soon as possible.

The door of the ward suddenly opened, and Zhao Yijing walked in with a cold air, and the lights in the room projected Zhao Yijingqing's face, outlining the familiar perseverance. My heart skipped a beat, and then I sank into the ocean, and there was no wave, and I looked straight at him, not knowing what expression to make, and the whole person stayed there.

Zhao Yijing walked to my bedside and sat down, tired, haggard, for a long time, raised his hand to touch my forehead, I subconsciously dodged it, and whispered: "It's not so burning." Instead, he asked, "Why are you here?"

He sighed, and his voice was dull: "If you don't answer my phone for a few days, can I rest assured? Just after arriving in Beijing, I called Xiao Bin and knew that you were hospitalized." He looked at me in pain: "Do you really have to make it like this?"

My heart is desolate, who can reverse it? I laughed helplessly: "What can I do? I have already told you that day." ”

He put a hard lid on my left hand and said stubbornly, "You said angry things that day, and I don't agree with that." ”

The pear in my hand was picked up by him and fell to the bed, I was suddenly very irritable, Qinglian's sentence "From now on, he is your brother-in-law" rang in my ears, I raised my eyes and looked at him in a resolute tone: "Whether you agree or not, I have made a decision." ”

He was stunned for a moment, his face was a little depressed, and his voice trembled slightly: "Qingyang, can you forget me?"

The fire in my heart was lit up by his words, and I, who wanted to cheer up so easily, bounced up like a needle pricked by his words, shook off his hand vigorously, and his voice was desperate and desolate: "What can you do if you can't forget? Zhao Yijing, if you still want me to live well, don't trouble me again, okay?"

My decision made Zhao Yijing's face full of painful loss: "I said it would be resolved." He looked at me fixedly, his eyes stubbornly insisting, "What if I don't let go?" and then held my left hand tightly.

His stubbornness made me a little anxious and annoyed, my chest rose and fell, once his insistence moved me, but at this time his stubbornness only made me annoyed, since I am nothing in your heart, why make this affectionate gesture to make me feel distressed? "You let go of me!" I struggled hard, but my hand seemed to be firmly clamped by him.

The more I struggled, the more sad and angry I became, I almost went crazy, and I couldn't help but reach over with my right hand to break his hand, but I forgot that I still had a fruit knife in my hand, and when I saw that it was about to be cut into his hand, he showed no signs of letting go, and his brows did not wrinkle, and he said in a desperate voice: "I won't let go." ”

That persistent and painful look almost broke me. My heart throbbed fiercely, the knife in my hand somehow swept over my left arm, the knife was very sharp, only rubbed it slightly, a string of blood beads came out immediately, his body trembled, the hand holding me was released, and he looked at me in disbelief, his eyes were shattered pain: "Qingyang, what are you doing?"

Although it was unintentional, but the pain in my arm, the grievances in my heart were finally released, no wonder some people like to self-harm, it turns out that when your heart has no way out, it is really a relief, I looked at him with tears in my eyes: "Can you let go?"

Zhao Yijing broke the knife in my hand with all his strength, and looked into my eyes, as if the ice on the lake, broken stars, for a long time, it was like being evacuated, and there was no trace of brilliance in his eyes to look at me, trembling and reaching out to touch my hair, sliding to my face, my tears couldn't help but overflow again.

He looked away, his voice trembling slightly: "Take care of yourself." As if he had made up his mind, he turned and left. That back is extraordinarily desolate and lonely.

When he completely disappeared from my sight, my tears flowed into my eyes. Yesterday's things are like yesterday's death, and today's things are like today's life. After all, he and I still failed and became strangers.