The person I love the most in my life is called Yuan Fang, and the person I hate the most is Ling Yuanchen, yes, it's me.

The first time I met Yuan Fang, it was my first day when I transferred to this school, and it was raining heavily.

My little uncle drove me there, and halfway through he said he wanted to get out of the car and buy a pack of cigarettes, and then he left me in the car and left on his own.

Sitting in the car boredly looking at the rain outside the window, I suddenly saw such a scene:

An aunt is riding a tricycle in the rain, the tricycle is a very small one, one wheel in the front, two wheels in the back, there is a compartment, the kind that is pedaled with her feet.

The wheels of the tricycle were stuck in a pit, and a cart of loess was pulled in the carriage, and the aunt was struggling to step on the pedals, but probably because the loess was too heavy, she stepped on it for a long time and did not step out of the pit.

I just thought this scene was quite funny, and I didn't think about going out to help or anything, after all, it was raining quite heavily outside.

The pedestrians who came and went only hurriedly walked their own way, and there was not even a single person who turned their heads to take a look. Suddenly, a girl in a white sportswear appeared out of nowhere, lost the umbrella in her hand, and ran up to help the aunt push the cart.

Got a whole body of yellow mud.

I thought she was that person's daughter, but when she saw the tricycle coming out of the pit, the aunt kept nodding at her, and said loudly to her with a smile on her face: "Thank you, little girl." ”

Only then did she know that it was not her daughter.

Look at the girl again, she has a cold face, she doesn't appreciate it, she is not polite, she just picked up her umbrella and left, what a weirdo.

When my uncle returned, we continued towards the new school, and by the time the car arrived at the school gate, the rain had stopped.

When I introduced myself in the new class, I saw the girl in the rain at a glance, because ah, she was so conspicuous.

Everyone else is clean and fresh, but she has wet and messy hair, and she has no image. The clothes have been changed into civilian clothes, and I am not wearing a school uniform. For this reason, in class, she was also criticized by the teacher and punished her to write a 3,000-word review.

She ignored the teacher, didn't speak, didn't explain, I was a bit introverted, I first came to this class, I didn't have the courage to speak, and I didn't help her explain when I saw her indifferent appearance.

Later, my eyes involuntarily chased after the girl and saw several sides of her life.

The bad side: She always hangs out with a lot of naughty students, some of the thugs who can smoke, and she is also seen bullying people around with others.

The normal side: I have a very good relationship with a girl named Bai Luoluo, and I will eat with her, go to the toilet together, and go to the library together.

The Quiet Side: Sleep in class......

She sat not far from mine, but a month had passed, and I hadn't said a word to her, not because I didn't want to say it, but because I didn't have a chance to say it.

Because she is very cold and doesn't pay much attention to people, I see many people who take the initiative to talk to her, but she pretends not to hear, so the less courage she has to talk to her.

This kind of silent gaze went all the way to a certain physical education class.

Unexpectedly, I just casually helped her say a few words, and since then, his attitude towards me has changed. Became very kind.,Obviously a cold person.。 But like a self-cooked, he greeted me in a friendly manner, and he would share half of my snacks when he bought them.

I'm very flattered, but that's a good thing.

After getting along with her, I found that she was not as cold as she appeared on the outside, in fact, she was quite chatty, often complaining that the food in the cafeteria was worse than that of her family Phuket (dog), and also complained that the weather was too hot, or the school fan was too bad.

She would bring a lot of delicious snacks made by her mother from home to share with her friend Bai Luoluo and me.

I will also laugh at me when others laugh at me, when I have a little white face, I will pick up the chair and have to others.

will also take her brother to scare people away when I was extorted for protection money by the thugs around the school, especially the eldest sister.

I don't know what other people think of my relationship with her, but it doesn't matter if I laugh at me for being protected by a woman, I just like to be around her anyway. It's not like staying with the children of my parents' friends, who are heavy and depressed, and have to be careful when they speak, so as not to say the wrong thing and lose their parents' faces.

Later, it suddenly became popular in the class to fall in love, and a group of underage seemed to understand what love and liking were without a teacher, and then Yuan Fang and I were together.

I really like her more and more, obviously only a freshman in high school, and I'm always worried about what will happen if I can't get into a school in the future? Seeing her talking and laughing with other boys, I was very angry, and then I always quarreled with her, but in the end she took the initiative to ask us to reconcile.

The first time we kissed, we were so nervous that I accidentally bit her lip and the wound became infected with a mouth ulcer, and as soon as we ate, she burst into tears, and vowed never to kiss me again.

I also felt so guilty, and the closest contact we had after that was only holding hands, but we were still very happy.

Until one day, Zhang Song, a tablemate, secretly handed me a disc with a cover of a woman without clothes, and then asked me to go to his house after school, and we watched a disc about the adult world together.

From that day on, I began to be dissatisfied with the simple hand-holding with Yuan Fang.

Sometimes I wanted to kiss her, but she was always afraid that I would bite her lip again, and when there was no one around, I boldly touched the part of her that was slowly developing, and she was angry with me for days.

I didn't think it was anything at all, but she felt ashamed and shameless.

I was very distressed, and my mind kept recalling what the men and women in the disc I watched with Zhang Song did.

Sometimes I dreamed of doing it with Yuan Fang, and then when it dawned, my underwear was wet.

I was so impatient that my temper began to get bad.

But Yuan Fang hadn't watched that kind of disc, she didn't understand that kind of thing at all, how could she agree to do it with me.

And how old we are, and I can't be responsible for doing that kind of thing.

One Friday after school, they had a student day party and invited us to play on KTV, but they didn't invite Yuan Fang because they didn't have a good relationship with her. I actually didn't want to go, but because I had a little awkward trouble with Yuan Fanggang, I went, and I was right to relieve my boredom.

The students ordered some beers, drank two glasses each, and then rushed back to school when the school gate closed.

Just about to go back to the boys' dormitory with a male classmate, a girl from another class who was hanging out with us stopped me, saying that the lights in the corridor of their girls' dormitory were broken, and her roommates had gone home, and she was scared alone, so I asked me to send her back.

It's a big night, everyone else is sleepy to death, seeing that I was pulled and quickly slipped away, in fact, I was also sleepy, but people looked at me with a pitiful look, and it seemed that they couldn't do it if they refused.

Men have a natural heart of pity and cherishment.

Sent her to the door, illuminated her with a mobile phone flashlight to unlock the door, "snap", pushed the door open, I saw that the work was done, and when I was about to leave, she suddenly pulled me in, pulled me in, and then threw herself into my arms.

"He Chen, I like you. ”

Caught off guard by confession, I was stunned for a moment, reacted and pushed her, she didn't let me, hugged me tighter, and then I felt the soft part of the girl.

In an instant, it was like being frozen and unable to move, I knew that this was not right, but for the girl's body, I was so curious that I couldn't push it away, and I remembered the disc I watched with Zhang Song in my mind, and then my body gradually warmed up, and if there was a reaction somewhere, I didn't dare to move.

She hugged me for a while, babbling a lot of confessions, and my mind was messed up, and I didn't listen to a word.

Then she suddenly stood on tiptoe and kissed me, but I didn't dodge, my body began to get hot, and then I started to kiss her back.

The hand also began to grope on her body, the girl's naturally soft skin was a touch that had never been felt before, and I became more and more uncontrollable, and then went to bed with her.

After that, the things that I had always been curious about and wanted to try seemed to come to fruition, but I didn't feel much of a feeling, just a feeling of magic, a feeling that I had never tried before.

The door of the dormitory was suddenly pushed open from the outside,

"Hey, why is the door open?" a puzzled voice sounded, and then, a "pop" of the light turned on.

The moment I heard the voice, the strange feeling in my whole body instantly froze completely, and my body stiffened against the girl whose name I didn't even know.

"Ahh

After that day, Yuan Fang never said a word to me again, never even looked at me again, seized the opportunity to stop her, wanted to explain, wanted to ask her for forgiveness, but she screamed as if she had been touched by something dirty, and then squatted next to her and began to vomit, not pretending, but really vomiting.

I vomited so much that my face turned pale, and tears came out, and I couldn't stop.

When she had finished vomiting, she stood up and walked on like a soulless shell, and I did not dare touch her again.

I could only look at her from afar, and gradually, I didn't even dare to speak to her, because of fear, guilt and self-loathing.

Then suddenly one day, she seemed to have evaporated from the world, I never saw her again, looked for her everywhere, called her forever, asked everyone who knew her, and no one knew where she went.

Time travels, it is seven years in a flash, and after seven years, we have changed our identities and said goodbye, whether it is He Chen seven years ago, or Ling Yuanchen seven years later, there is no shadow of me in her eyes.

Seven years ago, my cowardice and guilt made me afraid to go near her again, and seven years later, I want to spare no effort to redeem her again, but no matter what I do, it is a despicable means to get my parents to propose to her parents.

Whether it was Zhengdaguang's pursuit of her, she was indifferent, and even evaporated from the world again in order to escape marriage.

I went to her best friend Bai Luoluo and begged her to tell me about Yuan Fang's whereabouts, but she told me that seven years ago, Yuan Fang committed suicide by jumping into the river because of me.

She didn't know that this kind of thing didn't actually make me give up Yuan Fang, it would only make me feel more guilty and want to chase her back and make up for her.

But one day, she pulled a man in front of me and said that it was her boyfriend, and I didn't believe it, but it was just self-deception, because she was really going to marry that man.

How could she do this? Even if she resents me, blames me, and hates me, can't I spend my life trying to make up for her? Why marry another man!

I can't accept it, and I can't accept it.

In my life, I only love her, how can she fall in love with someone else? If she doesn't love me and can't get it, then I'll ruin it.

She looked beautiful in her wedding dress, exactly the same as the one I walked into the auditorium in my dreams, and I really wanted to go over and kiss her, but my body didn't have any strength anymore.

Bright red dyed her white veil, but I preferred her to wear this color.

You see, it's so enchanting and beautiful, my beloved woman, let's have another wedding in our dreams, and I hope this dream will never wake up.

I suddenly remembered that I hadn't written these two stories clearly, and then it rained today, and I suddenly remembered, write it, and sigh after writing, there are too many regrets in life.