Chinese It's been four years, and I really thought my mom's illness was going to be cured, but just as I was about to graduate and start over with her, the reality turned into a slap in the face again.

She went to find Chen Xiang's mother, and she looked for it several times.

Even because of this incident, Chen Xiang's mother is already planning to divorce my father.

When I listened to my dad, I actually thought how good it would be if the two of them didn't know each other in the first place.

But if my father didn't know Chen Xiang's mother, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to come to S City, let alone know Chen Xiang.

I took care of my mom for a few months until she was so well recovered that the nursing home agreed to accept me before returning to Tianjin.

Something unexpected happened.

The girl Chen Shi said he wanted to introduce to me and Xu Nia turned out to be Chen Xiang.

In the past few years, her appearance has changed more or less, she is no longer the young little girl she was in high school, she is better at dressing herself than before, and she is extremely confident when she laughs.

But what I wonder is, isn't she already with Qi Xiang, why did she know Chen Shi again, and why did she return to China alone.

And, in the same city as me.

Chen Shi broke up with his girlfriend not long ago, and Xu Nia and I both knew about it, so Xu Nia had already gossiped about the relationship between Chen Shi and the girl he wanted to introduce to us.

In Chen Shi's description, in addition to singing and being beautiful, he also tacitly agreed that it was his girlfriend.

Chen Xiang was always absent-minded when they met, Chen Zhi took care of her carefully, except for his former girlfriend, there was indeed no girl who could enjoy this kind of treatment on Chen Shi, which also once again confirmed Xu Niya's speculation.

As for me, I can only pretend to be a stranger in front of Chen Xiang.

Because she only treats me as a stranger.

Later, I did a very impulsive thing, which was to get close to the girl named Xiangxi next to Chen Xiang. I have a little impression of her, I have been to the SLAM scene a few times, and I suspect that she likes Chen Zhi.

My childish behavior really made Chen Xiang no longer completely indifferent to me, and she was finally willing to admit that she knew me.

I used Xiangxi to learn a lot of details about Chen Shi and Chen Xiang's relationship, and even used sending her home as an excuse just to see Chen Xiang.

I also finally knew that Chen Xiang and Chen Shi are not boyfriend and girlfriend, these two people are too similar, and their ideas and styles are completely the same, so they regard each other as confidants.

In fact, this confidant still makes me quite jealous.

Although I didn't have the courage to provoke Chen Xiang again, I told her that in fact, I haven't forgotten her in the past few years and have always liked her.

Chen Xiang and I both went back to S City during the Spring Festival, but I didn't expect to meet her, and it was a particularly ridiculous way.

That's right, my mother's illness happened again, and she secretly ran out to find Chen Xiang's mother, and Chen Xiang was also there this time.

Fortunately, they didn't go out, and my mom was controlled by the security guards.

I tried to grab my mom from behind, but she pushed her away, because my right hand was completely weak, and I crashed into the statue by the fountain pool.

I was soaking wet, my head was broken, and blood was flowing onto my shirt, and I was very embarrassed.

I didn't even have the courage to look up at their windows, I was afraid that Chen Xiang would see my embarrassment.

What I was even more afraid of was that she turned a blind eye to me, so these days of the Chinese New Year, although Chen Xiang and I were in the same city, I still didn't dare to see her.

But Qi Xiang looked for me once, at first I was surprised how he would return to China, and then I wondered why he came to S City.

He replied very easily, come and see Chen Xiang.

I nodded, nothing to refute.

However, after he answered a phone call, it was not easy, he put down the money and shouted to pay, and then ran away.

I didn't think much of it because I had already bought a ticket to go back to Tianjin.

The turnaround also happened at this time.

I didn't see Chen Xiang in the first few days after I returned to Tianjin, and every time we made an appointment to meet in the rivers and lakes, she always found various reasons to refuse.

I inquired with Xiangxi, and she said that Chen Xiang seemed to have something to do recently, and she asked, but Chen Xiang refused to tell her that every day in addition to being a tutor was to go to the bar to sing.

At this time, Xiangxi received a call from Chen Xiang's mobile phone.

It was a person from the hospital, saying that Chen Xiang fainted on the road and almost had a car accident, and now he is still in the hospital and has not woken up.

I rushed over with Xiangxi, and when I saw Chen Xiang in a coma, I couldn't help but lose my temper with Xiangxi, and asked her why she didn't care about her when she knew that Chen Xiang was not in good health recently, and asked her to go out by herself so late.

I was really too nervous to say such excessive words to Xiang Xi, and before I could apologize, Chen Shi came, and he led him to the west.

What Chen Shi meant was that he gave me time to spend alone with Chen Xiang.

I walked into the ward, Chen Xiang was already awake, I grabbed her hand, and she just started crying. I don't know why she is crying, although she seems to be very resistant to my contact, but subconsciously, I just want to hold her, and I hold her especially hard when she cries.

It's good that she hates me, she hates me, I just want to hug me like this for a while.

Later, Chen Xiang cried louder and louder, and finally cried and asked me if I regretted it.

I don't regret hurting her so much four years ago, and I don't regret liking her.

I can't even speak, yes, I regret it and hate myself. Later, I kissed Chen Xiang, she was very resistant at first, but then I kissed her, and even stretched out her hand to hug me.

Chen Xiang never told me why she was so sad all of a sudden, but I thought that by allowing me to stay and take care of her, she had already tacitly accepted my existence.

However, early the next morning, Chen Xiang left me again while I was going out to buy her breakfast.

When I went back to the hospital, I just saw her get into a taxi, Chen Xiang didn't answer my phone, I took a taxi and followed her all the way to the airport. She certainly didn't know that this was the second time for me that such a separation.

The second time, at the airport, she left, but I was isolated outside, obviously not very far away, but I just couldn't catch up with her, so I could only watch her go alone.

Tianjin Airport is small, and there are not many flights every day, so I speculated that Chen Xiang planned to take the next flight to find her after returning to S City.

After arriving in S City, I went directly to the community where Chen Xiang's mother lives now to find someone, I couldn't see Chen Xiang, but I met her mother.

Chen Xiang's mother told me that Chen Xiang did go back to S City, but she is not in good condition in the hospital now, and I had better think about whether to meet again.

I understand that if I provoke Chen Xiang again, no matter what the reason and reason is, I should not disappoint her again.

But I also understand that there is nothing left to think about.

I've been in the bag for four years, I owe her four years, and I'm with her no matter what happens, and I believe she needs me and wants to be with me at this time.

After going to see Chen Xiang, I went to the attending physician with her mother to find out about her current situation, and I went to an Internet café in the evening to check the disease on the Internet.

It's really terrifying, it won't take away your life in an instant, but consumes your self-confidence bit by bit, and you can't move or say it in the end, and you have no dignity at all.

I finally understood Chen Xiang's mother's distrust of me.

The marriage proposal was not impulsive, I really thought about it all night, from the beginning of the lack of confidence in myself, worried about rejection, to the fear that this behavior would irritate Chen Xiang, and in the end, I understood that no matter what the result was, I had to tell her my truest thoughts completely.

It's a pity that the marriage proposal didn't go well, first I went to the nursing home early in the morning to get the household registration book, and my mother found out, and she grabbed and beat me.

Then I took the ring and spent it to the hospital to confess my heart to Chen Xiang, but before she could answer, my mother chased me to the hospital again.

I don't want to look back on the scene of chickens and eggs in the ward, but I am really grateful to Chen Xiang, with her previous personality and temper, she has been trying to make a big thing for me.

That's where I feel most sorry for her.

As for my mom, sometimes I really wonder if she's really crazy or fake.

True or not, I can accept anything she does to me, but Chen Xiang, I must protect.

This time, between my mother and Chen Xiang, I chose Chen Xiang, and I personally called the police to watch the police take my mother away. It's not that you don't struggle, it's not that you don't feel sad, it's not that you don't hate yourself.

But there's nothing I can do.

Chen Xiang still didn't agree to my marriage proposal, she said that she hadn't thought about getting married, and whether she wanted to get married or not had nothing to do with whether she was sick or terminally ill.

She saw this much more thoroughly than I did.

But Chen Xiang allowed me to accompany her.

For the next few days, I was running between the hospital and the nursing home, and my mom lost her temper when she saw me, and I had some more big and small injuries on my body.

Chen Xiang frowned when he saw it, but he never asked more.

I don't know if I'm thinking too much, but I always feel that even if she doesn't reject me completely, her attitude towards me now is still different from that of four years ago.

She has grown up, or she has learned to hide her emotions, or she is no longer as emotionally unreserved as she was at the beginning.

Fortunately, the result of the expert consultation soon after was that Chen Xiang's illness was not ALS, but the symptoms were similar.

When I heard it, I was a little confused, this must be the result I wanted the most, and I was afraid that it was just a dream, in short, it took me a lot of time to finally dare to rest assured, my Xiangxiang is not sick, not terminally ill, will not die, will not leave me.

If it weren't for the fact that I thought Chen Xiang was terminally ill this time, I'm afraid I wouldn't have had the courage to confess to her.

But in the end, it turned out that she was not sick, and it seemed that the bond between me and her was gradually disappearing.

I finally realized that Chen Xiang was not ready to accept me, and because of the incident with Chen Zhi to the west, she had not seen me since returning to Tianjin.

Chen knew about this and planned to help me, so he and Xu Nia Xiangxi specially planned a party to ask me to officially confess to Chen Xiang again.

Chen Shi also told me a secret, the reason why Chen Xiang agreed to come to Tianjin with Chen Shi was because Chen Shi sang a song to her.

And that song, in fact, was written by me.

I finished the song, sang it to Chen Xiang face-to-face for the first time, and told her that I love you.

I asked Chen Xiang if he wanted to be my girlfriend.

She finally said yes, and she said yes.

I thought this was supposed to be the end of our story, but unfortunately it wasn't. After reconciling with Chen Xiang, Slam's development was also smooth, and he signed a record company and was ready to release a single debut.

The disagreement between me and Chen Xiang began at this time.

I love Chen Xiang, but sometimes I love very selfishly, I don't have such a big heart to accommodate her dreams, and I even just want to tie her up and live a peaceful life.

But Chen Xiang's plan for his life is completely different from mine.

Like Chen Shi, she wants more people to listen to her singing and wants to hold a concert.

And I, the young and frivolous music dream, asked Chen Xiang to be the lead singer of my band, and the promise to play the piano for her and lead her to wander has long since become a luxury that even I think is ridiculous with my mother's madness.

Chen Xiang has not changed, it is me who has changed.

I'm the one who is selfish, too.

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