Si Chen Fanwai (after the breakup) 19
(Cat flutter Chinese) The marriage did not go so well, and the first person to object was Jiang Hao.
The night after I called him, someone else flew over and threw a stack of sheet music and a discing of music from somewhere.
Jiang Hao glared at me, do you have a conscience? Ah, what's the matter with you? Do you remember how you came with her, Jiang Tong, you want Jiang Tong to be a victim of the two of you, right?
I said no.
Then he asked Jiang Tong again, why didn't he tell him that I was hiding here.
I stopped Jiang Hao, you can just ask me about anything, she has been very uncomfortable with her pregnancy in the past few days.
Jiang Hao sneered and looked at me, you will also feel sorry for people?
I lowered my head, and I saw the things that were thrown to the ground by Jiang Hao, those that I repaired, those scores that I wrote, and there were a few photos of Chen Xiang in them.
It's been two years, and I refuse to think about it, and the face that I desperately want to forget suddenly appears in front of me, and the scar on my wrist stings as if it reminds me.
When I went abroad, I didn't take anything with me that would remind me of Chen Xiang, and now that the time has passed, and looking back calmly, I can understand better than I did at the beginning how deeply I hurt her.
After Jiang Hao left, I put those things away by myself.
Sometimes I don't know why Chen Xiang and I have come to this point, when we broke up, when we went abroad, in fact, no one would have thought that the ending would be like this.
The arrival of Jiang Hao made me have to think about this question for the first time.
Loved, and loved very deeply.
Maybe it's changed when you love it.
Everyone has a past, and it will become someone else's past, and I have done my best for that past, even if I have a moonlight treasure box that travels through time and space, I still have no power to change anything, except to hold on to destruction together.
A love that tortures each other but never sees hope, I admit defeat and I let go.
But I don't have anything else to say.
Because there is no turning back, and I don't want to hurt one more person.
Jiang Tong cried that day, and she had rarely seen her cry since she met, and she wiped away her tears when she saw me enter the room. I walked over and took a tissue to help her wipe her eyes, smiled and asked her casually, why are you crying, are you scared when you are going to get married?
Jiang Tong shook her head and took the hand I was putting on her face.
I have experienced two loves, and even the previous one is even more unforgettable, but the meaning of marriage is that in this life, my wife is only Jiang Tong.
Jiang Tong's parents also doted on her, Jiang Tong's father was relatively more open-minded, and before we returned to China, he told me on the phone that he didn't have any concept of family in his eyes, and he almost knew my achievements in the United States in the past two years, which may have nothing to do with being rich and expensive, but I am confident that I can give Jiang Tong a good enough life.
I can afford her to have no worries about food and clothing, and I can also let her buy designer bags and drive sports cars like other beauty-loving little girls.
I will also give her the same love for the rest of her life.
The marriage was finally implemented, according to the meaning of Jiang Tong's parents, our wedding was still held in S City, although Jiang Tong's family was in Beijing, but my father returned to S City to settle down in the past two years, and the relatives and friends of the two families were also more there.
The first thing I did when I returned to China was to accompany Jiang Tong to meet her parents, so the ticket was booked to Beijing.
After more than ten hours of flight, even if it is a first-class cabin, I have never closed my eyes in order to take care of Jiang Tong, and I have a smile on the corner of my mouth when I see her falling asleep, which is really cute.
To me, she is really a light, always so bright.
It's a pity that I never expected that on the last journey of this trip, I would meet Chen Xiang.
It is impossible to say that there is no touch, and even when I saw Chen Xiang, my first small conscious action was to let go of the hand holding Jiang Tong.
It's a habit that has existed for too long, even if it's forcibly sealed in the body for two years, it seems that it can be activated the moment you see her.
And the next moment, I held Jiang Tong's hand again, harder than before.
It's a choice, no lighter than any habit.
But Chen Xiang is not doing well, and he can see at a glance that he is no longer the bright and moving girl who was even sick when he just came back from the UK. For the first time, I saw exhaustion and panic in her eyes, and I felt helpless too.
What touched me even more was that Jiang Tong was trying very hard to pull out the hand I was holding in the palm of my hand. I can't let her be so sensible and well-behaved, and I can't wronged her.
When facing Chen Xiang, it seems that I will become very naïve.
Seriously, I hated her.
I hate her when I love her so much and work hard for her, why can't she soften even a little bit, I hate her for letting me watch her turn away at the airport again and again, making me feel so powerless, I can't hold it, and I can't stay.
It's ridiculous that out of this hatred, I naively did something to hurt her two years later.
In front of Chen Xiang, I took out the invitation that I had written by hand and prepared to send to Xiangxi and Xu Ya.
I looked at Chen Xiang and asked her in my heart, do you regret it? Don't you regret it? Isn't it ridiculous? The person who could have not even wanted his life for you has changed his mind.
I didn't want to talk that day, I couldn't smile even when I was facing Jiang Tong, that strange emotion enveloped me, I knew that sooner or later I would have to face, and meeting Chen Xiang couldn't change anything.
It's like I like to play stand-alone games for a while.,The emotional line in it will always go to different endings with the accumulation of the previous favorability.,In the first ending, it's clear that A and B love are dead and alive.,To the other line.,A has been guarding C's grave for a lifetime.,B is blind for A.,There's a D who has never had a sense of existence but has become the new head of the sect.,But D loves B.,Wait.,In the first ending, D obviously loves C.。
How much is the difference between reality and the game, those who love and don't love, each step of the development contributes to the final result, it seems that there is no absolute, but as early as the first fork in the road, A is no longer a A of B.
Perhaps the only difference is that A can forget that he loved B in the new world setting, while I, in this life, will never deny and forget the pain and shock that Chen Xiang brought me.
That poisonous love is deep in the bone marrow, even if I go to a new world and start a new reincarnation, it still has the ability to occasionally make me hurt an old wound.
But what Chen Xiang and I have walked through is more than a fork in the road, maybe you can still see it when you look back, but we have long been separated by a sea of swords and fires that cannot be crossed.
The next thing went well, the parents of both sides met, and Jiang Tong and I wanted to do it ourselves, as if the little guy in the belly also knew that his parents were looking forward to this wedding, so they were very sensible during that time.
Trying on wedding dresses, taking wedding photos, buying a house, decorating, it turns out that marriage is not just about that day, but the whole process from proposing marriage to actually making promises to each other.
I think I'm lucky, this whole process makes me feel extremely happy, Jiang Tong too, I like to see her laugh, I like to see her happy.
I don't know how the news of my marriage to Jiang Tong spread to some high school classmates, including Jiang Tong's classmates, and some of them knew Chen Xiang with me.
Later, these people all came to the wedding, and the classmates' tables were arranged together, so it was inevitable that these people would run into Xu Nia and them. Jiang Hao didn't come in anger, and Chen Shi was the best man, so the only people I was familiar with at those tables were Xu Nia and Xiang Xi.
However, Chen Xiang actually came.
I really didn't think that she would, with my understanding of Chen Xiang, she was so free and easy, shouldn't she have forgotten me a long time ago, or I could hit her with a wedding invitation at the airport, so shouldn't she be more angry with me and go as far as she wants.
I couldn't do anything because I wasn't prepared for anything the whole time.
Later, there was an accident at those tables, and some of the former classmates had a bad relationship with Chen Xiang at that time, so they took the opportunity to trouble her this time. Things had been suppressed by the time I was in the past, and as the groom of the wedding I could only toast them all.
Chen Xiang stood up and smiled at me, that glance was like going back to high school, the kind of proud smile that made me feel distressed and worried that I wouldn't be able to get into her eyes at all.
She drank a whole glass of liquor, and Chen Zhi directly took off the label of the best man on the suit and hugged Chen Xiang and walked out.
Later, I haven't seen Chen Xiang for a long, long time, maybe she is still the same her, so **, I can't give her anything, and I don't have the ability to influence and change her.
After the wedding, Jiang Tong and I stayed in S City to give birth, and occasionally heard some news about Chen Xiang, I heard that she studied abroad two years ago, and only recently paid.
It's good, Chen Zhi is already very close to his dream, and Chen Xiang is also fast.
Whether it's silly quitting SLAM or breaking up with Chen Xiang, sometimes I'm glad that the two of them can't just live an ordinary life like me, but don't forget their original intentions. I'm also glad that I didn't have the selfishness to change Chen Xiang at the beginning.
But for me, the ordinary is the real happiness.
When Jiang Tong brought our first baby to this world every day, I don't think I have any regrets.
Perhaps, it wasn't that something went wrong during the game, but that I, the 1, had been set up incorrectly to enter their own ABCD world.
From the beginning it was doomed to be fruitless.
(Again, Si Chen underestimated Chen Xiang's feelings for him...) I understand that everyone scolds Si Chen and hates Si Chen, in fact, I also hate him, and I thought about using Chen Xiang's pain to make Si Chen suffer with him in the end, but if you don't love, you really shouldn't hurt yourself to punish a person who has changed his mind, because he really can't hurt love...... Haven't many of the male protagonists also had a former degree that they once liked unforgettablely?,Didn't you fall in love with the later female owner...... Chen Xiang is not destined to be the protagonist in Si Chen's story, and Si Chen is the same)
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