603 STOP 2: New Purgatory City's "Wayward Behavior"

-Hideka's subconscious-

04：22 AM

"So, what's wrong with me, why are I so obsessed?" Xiuxiang shook her head, "Obsession is the poison of a thousand bones, this doesn't exist in the first place, if you insist that your opinion is obsession, then is it right to go with the flow?"

"But I don't know why, this time, I used to listen to other people's ideas and value other people's opinions, but this time, everything has changed. ”

"Yes, there must be a reason. What the hell is wrong with me?"

Hideka moved her somewhat numb feet standing at the door, pacing back and forth at the door.

"Why are you so stubborn, why are you so stubborn? Why is that?"

No one could answer.

Xiuxiang's question is very abstract.

"I'm eating, it's just feeling. ”

Xiuxiang realized that all her theoretical systems from the very beginning to the present actually come from two words, that is, intuition.

Intuition sustains Hideka in all her decisions.

Intuition has led her here.

Her instincts told her that you had to find him.

Her instincts made her feel that she had lost some of her memories.

All of this is due to direct gifts.

"But, but, if your intuition is wrong, if your intuition is accidentally wrong, then what should I do?" Xiuxiang said this, and she choked herself, this is really a spicy voice, "It's too late to think about this now, and the meaning of making up for the dead doesn't even exist." ”

It's like a hot dry noodle with sesame oil, and a lot of dry and spicy chili noodles have been put in, and hot chili oil has been poured on it, and you feel that it is too spicy after taking a bite, so in order to adjust the taste, pour a few drops of vinegar, will it work? It is said that vinegar relieves spiciness, but you will find that it is useless at all, and this is not all because the amount of vinegar is too small, and there are too many chili peppers.

Some things, like this "too spicy" noodles, can't be remedied, because no matter how much vinegar you put in, it's still spicy.

Some things, like this "too spicy" noodle, don't need to be afraid, because you know, it's just a little spicy.

Hideka is trying to fix some things, but she is not afraid of others.

Xiuxiang even felt that she was now on the wrong track. "Right and wrong, Yes o

No, it's all about choice. And the so-called choice, there is no right or wrong, it is also right for yourself. It's just a different life. ”

"Crossing is like this, it looks like the same trajectory, but in fact, the experiences are completely different, but there are some striking similarities at certain points in time," Xiuxiang thought, "Maybe I, who have experienced this, should understand better that life is like a line formed by countless points, each point is independent, and the shape of the line is determined by these points." And these points are set by ourselves. ”

Thinking of this, Xiuxiang looked at the night flowing freely in the garden, and was deeply intoxicated.

"My dots and lines are my intuition. ”

If intuition is a huge science, it needs to be supported by many theories, methods, tools, experimental data, etc., and it may be able to explain Hideka's behavior and reduce the occurrence of "mistakes", but it is not. Then, what Xiuxiang did can basically be concluded to be young and willful.

She's just trying to do it, she's going to do it, she's doing it.

She doesn't report to anyone, she doesn't need anyone's approval, she doesn't care about what she gets, she doesn't care about what she loses.

Even if there is no reason, even if there is no reason, even if there is no past, even if there is no future, nothing is considered, no measure is never measured, it is not spared.

In other words, she moves with her heart, which is the most natural instinct, which is not about choice, but only about the fundamentals of survival.

The wind could not stop her, and she did the same.

......

Yes.

She, that's her, she doesn't need to be accountable to anyone.

She never needs a strict explanation.

She doesn't care what others think.

She does not count her role.

Nothing to do with the years.

Nothing to do with Fengyue.

Nothing to do with everything.

To use this reason to explain her behavior, Xiuxiang is very good. If you say this, then all of Xiuxiang's explanations can't be understood, so Xiuxiang won't explain anymore, and there are many things that only she understands best. It doesn't make sense to say it.

"I'm just doing me, I'm who I am. "Her words are big and strong. But her heart is not strong enough and strong enough.

At least for now, it seems that Xiuxiang needs to gain the most basic understanding. But Hideka thinks that even if everyone doesn't understand her, so what?

"One day, one day, maybe the whole world can't understand what I'm thinking, but I can't stop thinking, my thinking, as long as I understand it, that's enough. ”

If Xiuxiang told others all these thoughts in her heart, what would others think? Everyone would probably shake their heads frequently, rub their hands, and be ready to move, and finally everyone unanimously rose up against them.