The psychology teacher's surname is Tang, and Ms. Tang's dream is to be a psychological counselor, but this profession is not common in China, especially in small and medium-sized cities, so she uses psychological counseling for students to train herself while teaching courses at school.

I mentioned Zhuang Yan and Zhou Jin all the pseudonyms they used, and Mr. Tang repeatedly promised that he would not leak half of these things. I know that she has been working as a psychological counselor in school for a year, and everyone praises her for being good, and there has been no mistake.

"Mr. Tang, after I fall in love, I sometimes worry that I will become suspicious in the future, such as secretly checking my boyfriend's mobile phone and email...... I'm afraid that I'm going to be that kind of person, I'm afraid that I'm not so good after I work, and I'm not worthy ......of standing with him."

That was the first time I systematically poured out my worries, in fact, there were quite a lot of bits and pieces, some of which were really worried, and some of which were just thoughts that popped up.

Mr. Tang said that this is a sign of my lack of self-confidence, and I have also accepted too many psychological hints, from my previous isolation to not communicating with others to being able to accept everyone normally, there will be many nodes in this growth process, and if the nodes turn badly, they will grow together with that bad psychological hints.

That's what she said, and when she dredged it up, there was only one thought left in my heart: I just need to believe that Zhuang Yan is not a casual person, and I shouldn't worry about others pounce on him.

I used to talk to Bao Yuanyuan about each other's problems, and we all = couldn't always deal with problems rationally, and I didn't meet a confidant sister like Mr. Tang, but I felt that after talking to Mr. Tang, I felt like I had suddenly unloaded a big stone in my heart, and I felt comfortable all over.

We had very few classes in the first semester of our senior year, and I was still a few credits away, so I was usually free most of the time.

After I made my resume, I began to actively submit resumes to look for jobs, and I usually went to the school library to look for literature related to electroplating or heavy metals when I was waiting for news. Because a lot of the literature is in English, I have a lot of headaches for those professional terms, but I worked surprisingly hard this time, and I was able to understand an English paper without relying on an English dictionary in half a month.

During this time, I interviewed several companies, all of which went for sales positions. At first, they didn't like me, probably because I wasn't active enough at the time, so I started to change my strategy and try to be as outgoing as possible during the interview.

Maybe it's because I've been thinking about Zhuang Yan in my heart, and after failing the interview a few times, I didn't feel frustrated, but I felt like I was getting braver and braver.

At the end of November, I interviewed a wealth management company, which is very reliable, one of the top 500 in China, and has branches in many cities. Many of our majors in the business school are related to finance, so I felt quite good after the interview, and when I left, the personnel told me with a smile that the chances of being hired were very high.

At that time, I was very happy, there were a few people in the dormitory who went to the interview together, and the personnel only told me and Bao Yuanyuan. In fact, some people in the dormitory didn't want to do sales at that time, but just followed the trend and took a look.

At that time, I was very sure in my heart, so I waited for the announcement for the next two days.

Bao Yuanyuan received the offer two days later when it was close to five o'clock, I thought I was also fast, but I didn't know that I didn't receive a word until six o'clock in the evening, and I felt that something was wrong.

On the morning of the third day, I took the initiative to call the personnel to ask about the situation, and I was afraid that they would forget to inform me. How do you know that the person who was still very enthusiastic in the last second heard my name, and immediately asked me if I was Shen Xi from such and such a school, and as soon as I admitted it, her voice suddenly became cold: "Oh, hello, the current sales position has been filled, thank you very much for your attention and participation!"

She replied very officially, and I am sure that she was lying, because when we first went to apply, she clearly told us that the sales position was very confirmed, because of the high mobility.

But I couldn't force them to give me a job, and after thinking about it, I went to this wealth management company the next day and found that they were really still recruiting sales.

It may be that I have high expectations for this financial company, so my brain was hot, and I took my resume to apply for the job, and the people in the personnel department frowned when they saw my resume: "Why are you here again?"

The man's face was very impatient, and he gave me a blank look inadvertently, the kind of look I was all too familiar with, it was the kind of contempt and disgust.

My heart tightened, and suddenly I felt that they knew something.

They didn't pick up my resume at the time, but Bao Yuanyuan had already gone to their company to report that day, so Bao Yuanyuan took my resume and said that she would hand it over again after meeting the department manager.

There was no news that day, and then I went again the next day. At that time, I just thought that they had clearly approved of me before, and I shouldn't compromise like this, anyway, I didn't find another company to submit my resume at that time.

This time, the personnel department was annoyed, so they ignored me at all, and threw my resume directly on the ground: "Why are you faceless and skinless? You don't meet our job requirements, let's go, don't rely on it." ”

I was said to be hot, and after silently picking up my resume, I still tried my best to pull a smile: "Hello, I really like this position, can you tell me which requirement I don't meet?"

In fact, their recruitment requirements are not high, the most important thing is learning ability and lip service, and other aspects need to be slowly examined after entry. I was stupid, but I had done a lot of preparation in advance for this application, so the first interview was really successful.

Maybe I annoyed the personnel, the personnel manager was not there at the time, and one of the personnel who looked very young muttered impatiently: "Our company does not welcome the junior, don't you have someone to take care of? ”

As soon as I heard this, I understood that some of my roommates who were there at the time had spoken ill of me.

But this is true, and I can't deny it, but I think it's very wrong for this person to let people provoke at will. I can probably guess who said those things to her, and whether it's true or not, I think they should check with me or investigate a little.

Maybe I had too high expectations for this position, so I cheekily retorted to her at the time: "I have always felt that your company is a big company, and the people in the company will definitely respect every employee who has the potential to become a colleague." How can you casually deny me because of a few provocations from others?"

I admit that my attitude at that time was not friendly, maybe she was a little embarrassed, rolled her eyes and snorted coldly: "We don't dare to deny you casually, if people don't know, they can't do anything unless they don't know." Have you done it yourself, you know it yourself, and forgot to tell you that someone took a screenshot of the post on your school forum that caused a lot of noise at the beginning. ”

She's also a newcomer who has only been working for half a year, and I don't understand why she's targeting me so much.

But I didn't deny it anymore, and only bowed to her slightly: "Excuse me, but you don't know the complexity of the whole thing, and I don't think you should judge me lightly." ”

I don't want to live in the shadow of that anymore, or I'll never be able to feel confident for the rest of my life.

But I didn't say anything serious, and her face suddenly became very frightened. I turned to leave when I suddenly saw the HR manager appear