Chapter 138: Contradictions
"You, you go......" I pushed him away hard, staggered to his feet, looked at him, looked at it, and suddenly unconsciously had tears on his face.
"What's wrong, baby?" he looked at me blankly, his voice so soft that my heart was crisp.
He came over and hugged me into his arms, and no matter how much I struggled, he still hugged me, pressed me firmly to his chest, and said softly, "I knew I came back late, and I didn't expect you to be so sad as to drink." I'm sorry, I'll try to be earlier in the future. ”
Later...... Will we have a future? When Xiao Yun and that kid show up, will he still do this to me?
He probably didn't know that Xiao Yun, who he had never forgotten, was on his way here!
I became even more sad, I lay on his chest, my hands wrapped around his waist, and I asked him faintly: "Sheng Yun, under what circumstances, will you forget me?"
"It is said that women become sentimental when they fall in love, Xu Shubei, I thought you weren't this type," Sheng Yun's calm voice sounded above my head, I looked up, he held my face, looked directly into my eyes, and said word by word, "Then listen well, I'll say it again." Xu Shubei, I will not let you down, no matter what happens. ”
This sentence was the final word in my heart. If my heart was still like a flower before this, then his words made me immediately feel a sense of tranquility in which everything is at peace.
Although I was slightly drunk, I was still very sober, I grabbed him by the collar and asked him very seriously and seriously: "Sheng Yun, no matter what happens, can you really do it?"
"What's wrong with you?" he noticed something strange about me, and his brow furrowed slightly.
"Can you do it with me?" I glared at him, and I thought my eyes must have been full of hope at that moment.
"I can do it. He looked at me and said word by word.
A cool breeze blew, and I shivered in my thin dress. Ever since I was injured after giving birth, my body has been colder than usual, and the slightest cool breeze can make me run my nose and sneeze.
"Don't be so willful in the future, I won't allow any more accidents in your body. He picked me up and carried me through the door, and then slowly put me on the couch.
His kisses were overwhelming, I hooked his neck, and I was obsessed with him for a while, and while I kissed, I opened my eyes and watched his reaction, and I found that his eyes were closed, and the kiss was so affectionate and serious.
"This time, I was really tempted. At the bottom of my heart, a voice suddenly "ding".
I quickly pushed him away, he felt my sudden resistance, he looked at me and asked me suspiciously, "Shubei, what's wrong with you?"
"This time, it won't be another test for me, will it?" I asked, looking at him cautiously.
I found that I was able to do everything I did, but I was always hesitant, apprehensive, and always afraid of making a mistake.
A woman like me, who has been insecure since childhood, must do so wholeheartedly once she decides to invest in her feelings.
He laughed, rubbed my ears with a bit of a cry, and said softly, "We have all given birth, and you are still worried about this." Shubei, why didn't I find you so simple and cute before?"
"It's not just cute," I shook my head, sat on the sofa with my hands on my knees, and said helplessly, "I'm really afraid, feelings are such a thing, it's too unfathomable, like poison, I don't know when I was poisoned, I don't know how deep the poison is, and I don't know if I can quit in the future, I ...... I really can't afford to risk anything. ”
When he heard me say this, he sighed softly, tore away my hands holding my legs, held my hands together, and said to me, "Shubei, you look me in the eye." ”
I raised my head and slowly met his eyes, his gaze seemed to have a magnetic force that quickly attracted me, his voice sounded in my ears like hypnosis, and he said, "Shubei, we are each other's poison and each other's medicine. As deep as you poison, I will go as deep as you do, even deeper than you. Only you can solve my poison. ”
This time, I took the initiative to kiss it. As he uttered these words, I felt that the lock in my heart had loosened a lot, and although I could not fully trust him, I was gradually surrendering my heart, and my defenses were being broken by him little by little.
Warm overnight.
I took off his shirt and trousers, wiped the healing medicine on his wounds that had not yet fully healed, I swam up and down his body with the ointment in my hand, he kissed me from time to time, we were like two fish swimming freely in the water, and our hearts were completely released in this heavy warmth.
It turns out that love is so beautiful, and the taste of love between the two is so moving, no wonder countless people have been sad for love since ancient times.
Because my body has not fully recovered, Sheng Yun forcibly stopped when he was about to enter the city, and then hugged me, panting slightly and said, "If your body hadn't recovered yet, I wouldn't have let you go at night." ”
"You're so badly injured, are you sure you can still ......?" I laughed.
"Do you want to try it?" he quickly rolled over and pressed against me, kissing me frantically on the neck as he grabbed my hand and said, "Baby, there is a price to be paid for provoking me." ”
I suddenly fell silent, and looked quietly at the man closest to me, his features so clearly displayed in front of me as clearly as a painting, his eyebrows were as heroic as a sword, and even if he did not have this illustrious family background, his appearance alone was enough to stand out from the crowd.
"Why are you quiet all of a sudden?" he was a little embarrassed to see that I had been looking at me, and he looked away and asked me as if nothing had happened.
"Would you believe me if I told you that all my firsts were given to you?" I asked, suddenly seriously, looking at him.
He immediately laughed, he hooked my nose and hugged me into his arms again: "Fool, from the first time you seduced me, I saw it. Pretend to be sophisticated, in fact, the first time I kissed you, your jerkiness speaks for itself. ”
"But you didn't ...... at the time," I heard him say, and suddenly I had a feeling of being tricked by him, and suddenly said urgently.
But before I could finish my sentence, he gagged me and kissed me hard, and then said, "Otherwise, you think that with your little trick alone, you can make me addicted to you?...... I admit that I didn't pay attention to it at first, and even wanted to tease you, and gradually I don't know when I would be sad to see you unhappy. Perhaps, it started from the day I accompanied you and Yiyi to the orphanage!"
"I never thought of you as a compassionate man, especially for me. I don't know why, how we got to where we are today. "I nestled in his arms, and when I think back to everything that came before, I always feel incredible.
"At first, it was true, but that day, when I saw you crying alone on the top of the mountain, I realized for the first time that Xu Shubei was just an ordinary woman," he gently stroked the tips of my hair and said softly, "Only that day did I realize that the little wild leopard who was dancing in front of people was actually like a homeless stray cat at heart." ”
I was speechless, I could only hope to kill him with my eyes, he looked at my eyes, but smiled even more, he grabbed my hand and said, "In the future, obediently be a cat in my arms, I will slowly pull out all the fangs on your body, so that you will submit to me obediently, surrender to my knees, and watch me fight the world for you with peace of mind." ”
"I can't do it," I flatly denied him, "I wouldn't be such a woman, Sheng Yun." ”
His gaze suddenly sank slightly: "Isn't what we've experienced now enough to make you die?"
I couldn't help but be silent, but I had only one answer in my mind: I'm sorry, I probably can't.
I am destined to be a wild leopard running and foraging on the grassland, and if I am kept in a cage, even if there are piles of fresh meat in front of me every day, I will not be happy.
My silence silenced him, his hand still wrapped around me, but it was as if all of a sudden, I couldn't feel the temperature.
At the end, he suddenly said softly, "I will change you slowly." ”
"I was suddenly afraid," his words made my heart sink even deeper, and I began to fear that you were not loving me at all, but merely enjoying the process of domesticating me. Sheng Yun, don't tell me you think so. ”
"Shubei, you have suffered so much, you have been longing for a family for so many years...... his tone suddenly had a trace of excitement, "You have been struggling for so long, aren't you looking for a solid and stable embrace?" I am willing to give it to you, and I don't think anyone can give you better, what more do you want?"
I looked at him in amazement, and I ...... What more could I want?
I can't explain the problem, all that has been hovering in my heart is hatred, a constant stream of hatred. Now, the ingredient of love has suddenly poured into my heart, and I can't calm the competition between these two forces in my heart for a while, I want this for a while, I want that for a while, and I find that I can't get rid of it.
And besides love and hatred, there is another thing in my heart, I can't tell what it is, but I know that it has always been there.
Maybe Xiao Yun will be willing to be domesticated by him, and what he longs for is a woman who can obey him...... When this thought popped into my mind, I was startled.
At this time, his phone rang loudly, and when he picked up the phone, I caught a glimpse of the name on the phone: Chen Mozhu.
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