After the incident, he lay on top of me for a while, and before going into the bathroom, he said to me lightly, "Go take a shower." ”

"Thank you, Mr. Zhuang. "My voice was shaking as I spoke.

When he was gone, I felt the pain swelling underneath and my legs were shaking. I hugged the wall all the way back to the guest room, and in the darkness I sat on the corner of the bed with my knees crossed and cried, but I didn't dare to say anything.

I didn't dare to look at Mr. Zhuang just now, although his face has been very cold, but in the end it didn't embarrass me.

When I finally got this step, I felt relieved because I didn't have a chance to regret it, and I could wait for the pregnancy to get the money. When the time came, I immediately sent my grandmother to the hospital for surgery, and then I used the excuse of going back to school to secretly find a place to give birth to the child to Sister Liu.

I had nightmares all night in which my uncle and aunt beat and scolded me, calling me cheap, and my grandmother crying and waving at me and saying she didn't want to recognize me anymore.

We still care a lot about chastity in the countryside, and it is ugly for a woman to get pregnant before marriage no matter who she puts in.

I can almost foresee my future, just like my aunt, no one wants to marry, and in the end I can only marry an alcoholic gambler like my uncle, and live a humble and humbled life......

……

When I woke up the next day, it was almost noon, my eyes were swollen uncomfortably, and when I woke up, I saw Zhang Yaru standing at the head of the bed looking at me: "Take off your clothes and show me." ”

Everything last night seemed to be vivid, I felt that my body was very hot for a moment, and I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at her: "Sister Yaru......"

"I'll just take a look. Zhuang Yan's hands are heavy, I'll see if I hurt you. "I don't know what Zhao Yaru wants to do, so she will take off my clothes as she speaks.

I was so embarrassed that I didn't dare look at her.

Seeing the two red marks on my chest, she didn't speak for a long time, and walked away with an irritable frown: "Get up and eat." ”

During lunch, I couldn't help but glance at Zhao Yaru's face a few times, it seemed unhappy, and her brows were furrowed, but she didn't get angry with me.

In the evening, Zhao Yaru changed a set of pajamas for me, which was obviously more conservative than the night before.

This time it was a little more relaxed than the night before, Mr. Zhuang didn't go to the balcony to smoke again, and I was still holding my breath nervously when he walked towards me.

I always thought that kissing was only something that could exist between couples, and I thought that we were just making a deal and that he shouldn't kiss me.

I wanted to remind him not to kiss, but I didn't dare to say anything.

If I upset him and can't conceive a child, I have the most to lose. I have to endure it, he can do whatever he wants, I just have to bear it.

But why do you think so intellectually, but your heart desires more?

"Does it still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt. When I opened my mouth, I noticed that my voice was shaking.

Actually, it hurts, but I'm afraid that he will be unhappy, so I can only lie.

He stood up and stared at me for a few seconds, and I didn't dare to look at him, so I quickly moved my eyes to the pillow next to me.

The mountain rain is about to come and the wind is full of buildings, and this night he is fierce and indulgent, like a beast that has just come out of the cage, and finally found a moment of freedom.

And I, knowing that it was a shameful deal, somehow began to covet this indescribable feeling.

I always thought that Mr. Zhuang was the redeemer of my life, and I learned a long time later that as long as I take a wrong step in life, I may need to use many precious things to make up for the mistakes I have made. And I, from the moment I was greedy, was destined to buy a big bill for this greed.