Every trip to Shenzhen is always short and long, short because I am really reluctant to let go of the sunshine of Shenzhen, reluctant to be in a hurry in Shenzhen, this feeling of hurry makes Lin Kaiwen feel that he is still alive and passionate, rather than as calm as dying in Yiwu; People have always been a contradiction, whether you admit it or not, you will always be entangled in many things, even if you are free and easy, there will be things that you can't see through for a while.

At work, Kevin Lin has a lot of ideas, sometimes in the dead of night sitting alone in front of the computer, listening to a little elegant, a little sentimental light music, the thoughts in his mind will be very active, if Kevin Lin wants to write something at this time, there will really be a feeling of literary thoughts, if he wants to think about things at work, the probability of a flash of inspiration will be greatly increased, sometimes the problem that he can't figure out during the day will suddenly think of several ways to solve it. Although Kevin Lin is tired of thinking about work after work, maybe he is really an idler who has nothing to do after work, and sometimes he still thinks about his work for the next day. In fact, he also wants to go out with friends, go to the movies, go to the bar, go to the park, and go to the gym like he used to do when he was in Shenzhen......

But since coming to Yiwu, these spare time activities of Kevin Lin have rarely been touched, he has blocked all his colorful, just like he locked up his dreams, Kevin Lin tried not to talk about current affairs with others full of spittle, and he would no longer talk about his dreams, because a few years after graduation, he suddenly found that these are really not important, and he has stayed away from these, perhaps because he was too colorful before, talking about ideals too much, and gradually getting tired and tired, so he simply didn't do it, didn't think about it。 Or perhaps, all his colorful and ideals are related to Sakurako, and now that they have long since separated from each other, all of this is no longer important. Kevin Lin has always stubbornly believed that it was because of his stubbornness that he would have made this situation today, an ending that he regretted for many years.

Walking alone on the streets of Shenzhen, every building, every shop, and every person makes Lin Kaiwen have a long-lost feeling, familiar and strange. Sometimes he seems to hear Sakurako's hearty laughter, and sometimes when he sees a certain beauty, he suddenly remembers Sakurako's smile, and that gentle smile is like Tanaka's smile in the MV of "Nanachirika". When he first arrived in Yiwu, he couldn't help but think of Sakura, dreaming of Sakura, whenever this time, he would open the MV of Jay Chou's "Qilixiang" to see, because the Tanaka Chie in it smiled too much like her, "Qilixiang" is a song describing romantic love, but every time he sees it, he will hum softly along with it, while sad, every time he knows that it will be like this, he still can't help but look at it, and put himself in the abyss of longing and regret again and again. When they first came to Shenzhen, Lin Kaiwen and Sakura walked almost every street in Shenzhen, Renmin South Road, East Gate, Huaqiang North, Diwang Building, Window of the World, Qingqing World...... Too many places, too many memories, it is so beautiful to think about, but it makes him have to learn to let go.

"Who sings that Mudanjiang song outside the door, I listen to the melodious voice of the sentimental ......" The mobile phone ringed, pulling Lin Kaiwen back to reality.

"Kevin, where are you now? "That James came up like something had happened to Mars.

"What's the matter? I'm nearby, 10 minutes away. Lin Kai hurried to the company.

After hanging up the phone, I immediately called back to the company, and just about to enter the elevator, James walked out and said in a hurry:

"Shu Jing has an accident, hurry up and follow me to the hospital. ”

"What's wrong?" Hearing Shu Jing's name, Kevin Lin couldn't help but worry.

"I don't know, your sister-in-law said she was hit by a car. ”

"Huh?" "How's that going?"

"Alas, you ask me how I know, your sister-in-law can't speak clearly, go to the hospital and find out. ”

Twenty minutes later, I finally arrived at the hospital, but when I entered the ward, I didn't see Shu Jing, only my sister-in-law sitting next to the hospital bed with her head drooping.

"Sister-in-law, where is Shu Jing?"

"She went to the toilet. ”

"Did you go to the toilet? Aren't you hurt?

"Who said she was injured?" the sister-in-law stood up and asked, "Did you tell Kevin that Shu Jing had a car accident?"

"Didn't you say that?" said James, looking innocent.

"Damn, I didn't say she had a car accident, it was Shu Jing's friend who had a car accident and wanted to be hospitalized, and now she doesn't have enough money to call the hospitalization fee. After listening to his sister-in-law's words, Kevin Lin's hanging heart was relieved, but he still had the urge to see her immediately, and was about to run out to find her, only to see her helping her friend in.

"Kevin, why are you here?"

"Oh, I heard James say you've got something to do, so come along and see if there's anything you can do to help. ”

"Oh. It's okay. My friend let the car crash and the owner escaped, and he didn't read the license plate number clearly. ”

"What kind of world is it now? I ran away after hitting someone. ”

"Forget it, even if she's unlucky, it's good that she's fine. ”

"Which of you two has 3,000 yuan in his bag, and now he has to pay the hospitalization fee. "It took Kevin Lin and James to scrape together 3,000 yuan after searching for the bag for a while.

"Thank you both, I'll give you back the money when the salary is paid. ”

"Alas--- it's okay, it's okay if people are okay. ”

For the next three hours, Lin Kaiwen could only quietly watch Shu Jing busy and busy, and at 7 o'clock in the evening, everything was finally over, and they had to eat in a restaurant next to the hospital.

"Thank you for spending the afternoon in the hospital. As soon as she sat down, Shu Jing began to be polite with Lin Kaiwen.

"It's okay, you Sister Meiling and James both have to go to work, I'm an idler. ”

"Hehe--- that money--"

"Come, eat first, you're hungry. Lin Kaiwen served Shu Jing a dinner and handed it over.

"I'll pay it back to you next month, you can leave me the account number and phone number. ”

"Don't talk about that yet, eat. ”

"I heard that you ---- going back to Yiwu?

"Next Monday, wait for the company's review and approval to be completed. ”

"Oh. Then they just ate quietly, occasionally politely saying a word or two, Lin Kaiwen brainstormed hard, but he still didn't think to say anything to her, Shu Jingren is as his name suggests, always Svenwen, quiet, like a docile little sheep, it seems to be a little different from the first meeting, or maybe it was really just alcohol that night.

"Shu Jing, do you have any arrangements for Saturday night?

"I'm not sure about this yet, maybe I'll have to come to the hospital to accompany my friend!"

"Yes, your friend needs someone to take care of you at this time. Shu Jing's euphemistic refusal was reasonable, and Lin Kaiwen didn't say much.

"What movie are you going to see?"

"Let the bullets fly, I've heard it's pretty good. After saying that, Kevin Lin regretted it, she definitely wouldn't like to watch this kind of fight-and-kill film, except for herself, who is dating so unromantic?

"Oh. Shu Jing's answer was only one simple word, but her lost expression still made Kevin Lin a little embarrassed.

After all, I didn't go to the cinema, Shu Jing proposed to call James and them to sing K together, which was a good idea, and Kevin Lin, who loved music the most in his life, hadn't been in KTV for a long time. In KTV, James is always the guy who only orders songs and doesn't sing, and no one can squeeze out his slightly huge body in the position of the singing platform, and his sister-in-law is the eldest sister who first picked up the microphone, and the others sit on the side and listen, Shu Jing and Shirley will also help beat and hum along from time to time. After the sister-in-law sang two songs, she couldn't stand the burning voice and came to drink the soda, and the girls began their youth songs again, SHE, Jolin Tsai, Xiao Yaxuan...... One song after another shows their vigorous youth. After they finished singing, only Kevin Lin and Shu Jing were left singing, and her sister-in-law specially ordered a song "Listening to the Sea" for Shu Jing, she had never heard her sing before, and she was looking forward to it, Shu Jing sang very quietly and seriously, her voice was very gentle and sweet, and suddenly the private room was quiet, although it was a little slow and half a beat, but her voice still reminded Kevin Lin of a person, Sakura. Since then, Kevin Lin began to make a fool of himself and felt that after he missed the cherry blossom, Shu Jing may be another cherry blossom given to him by God, as if God was warning him, you have missed it once, this time you must cherish her in front of you.

“Kevin。 When he was deserting, he saw Jmaes come over and pull Lin Kevin and Shu Jing to sing "You Are the Most Precious", which is his best duet song, because Kevin Lin has been imitating Jacky Cheung, he has been singing Guangliang and Zhang Xinzhe's songs before, but Sakura suggested that Kevin Lin sing Jacky Cheung's songs, and then he practiced a few songs, and he felt that it was very suitable, so he practiced a few songs, including this "You Are the Most Precious". I still remember that night in Chenzhou, the scene of Kevin Lin and Sakura singing in KTV, that is, the reunion with Sakura, made him have the idea of waiting for her for the rest of his life, no way, Kevin Lin really can't help but think about it, Sakura is so moving, lively and cute, the smile on his face never puts pressure on him, and sometimes Kevin Lin will encourage himself with inspirational stories that she doesn't know where to see.

When the music started, Kevin Lin was so nervous that he couldn't keep up with the rhythm, maybe he hadn't sung it for a long time, or maybe it was the first time he sang this song with the girl who had an accident except Sakura, and he was stage frightened.

"Kevin, have you regressed, is there no KTV in Yiwu?" James, looking at me with a sly look.

"What is it?" Kevin Lin was stunned.

"Still haven't found the girl who sang this song with you?" haha---" was provoked by James like this, Kevin Lin suddenly lost stage fright, began to keep up with the rhythm again, and also began to make eye contact with Shu Jing. After a song, I felt a little unfinished, so I asked James to order a few songs by Jacky Cheung, in fact, every time I came to KTV before, Kevin Lin was a microphone, and one of the three microphones was always in his hand for a long time, and when someone couldn't sing, Kevin Lin would always grab the microphone and continue singing. Of course, after entering the workplace later, he rarely became a microb, and every time he socialized, he always ordered a song for the boss or customer next to him, but he would only sing one or two songs. The last song is Chen Xiaochun's "Count You Ruthless" sung with James, this is the ending song that the two of them must sing every time, anyway, it's the last song, just let go of their voices and sing boldly, and this song just allows them to play freely and squander their voices.

After the K song, according to the usual practice, Kevin Lin still sent Shu Jing back, frankly speaking, he still has lingering palpitations about what happened last time, sometimes he is a little worried, easy to think too much, especially when it comes to feelings, Kevin Lin has been deliberately blocking himself in the past two years, carefully controlling his hormones. But the last time he lost control of his drinking, he couldn't face the good girl in front of him very naturally, and Kevin Lin, who can usually speak well, was silent at the moment.

"Kevin, when are you coming to Shenzhen again?" or Shu Jing broke the silence.

"It's hard to say, the New Year's mobilization meeting after the Spring Festival, when the time comes, we will come over to implement some plans and approvals for the new year. ”

"Oh. Will you go back for the Chinese New Year?"

"I don't know, I may not go back, my family is in Yiwu. ”

"Oh, yes? Zhejiang should be fun, right? When I go, you're going to be my tour guide!"

"Okay, but there's nothing fun in Zhejiang in winter now, I still like winter in Shenzhen, Zhejiang is too cold. ”

"Then you came to Shenzhen for the New Year?"

"Y-aren't you going back for the New Year?"

"Yes, save this money and send it back to my younger siblings for the next year's tuition. "Shu Jing is always frugal and helps her family.

"Then who are you spending the New Year with?"

"With my colleagues in the company, Sister Meiling, James will not go back, and Xiaowen will not go back, we are ready to play Shenzhen all over when Shenzhen is not crowded. ”

"Hehe---- it's all planned! If I don't count it, it's been a long time since I've been so lively with my friends for the New Year. I remember that the last time I came to Shenzhen was the year we spent it together. ”

"Okay, but ---- are you really coming?" he only imagined the scene of celebrating the New Year with his friends, but ignored the joy and anticipation in the eyes of the girl in front of him.

"Hmm... It's hard to say now, it depends on the situation! It's not very convenient to come here. ”

"Just know you're just talking. Shu Jing began to walk forward alone, looking at her thin back, the long hair flying in the night sky, Lin Kaiwen suddenly had the idea of rushing up to hug her, but this idea was restrained by reason after staying in his mind for 5 seconds, the events of a few days ago are still vivid, he can't leave memories before leaving, this is unfair to her. However, Lin Kaiwen's reason was shattered in an instant, Shu Jing suddenly turned around and walked over, looked at him for a few seconds, and from her eyes, Lin Kaiwen could read a trace of loneliness and melancholy.

Suddenly, she walked behind Lin Kaiwen, hugged him gently, and whispered softly in her ear: "Kevin, I can't bear you, how I wish you could stay in Shenzhen, but you don't belong here." ”

This sudden ambiguity overwhelmed Kevin Lin, and he started the idea of a hypocrite bastard again, in the face of such a gentle and touching girl's confiding, Kevin Lin didn't know what to do, he habitually wanted to escape this ambiguity, for a man whose soul was hollowed out, all the ambiguity and temptation from the outside world would only make him retreat. But last time, Kevin Lin released his soul because of the loss of control of alcohol, and the kind of free-spirited in his bones was quietly opened, and at this moment, Kevin Lin's free soul was about to start to go out of his body again, he turned around and hugged her tightly, and kissed her lightly on the forehead.

At night in Shenzhen, the lights are dim, the figures are shaking, and Lin Kaiwen and Shu Jing are holding hands and walking on the street, this is a city that never sleeps, and the traffic is still busy at eleven o'clock in the evening. Accustomed to the sea breeze, which makes people feel a little cool, Lin Kaiwen took off his coat and draped it on Shu Jing's body.

"Shu Jing, do you want to go back and rest?"

"No, I want to walk with you again. You're leaving tomorrow, and you don't know when the next time we'll meet, and maybe we won't meet again. Shu Jing's tone was mixed with coquettishness and worry, which seemed to be gradually giving birth to a determination in Lin Kaiwen's heart, as for what it was, he himself was not sure.

"Let's go, I'll take you to have some supper, I've been singing all night, are you hungry?"

"Okay, I want to eat hot toast, I'll take you somewhere. Saying that, she took Kevin Lin's hand and ran forward quickly, crossed the road, walked through the traffic light, they came to a bakery, pushed the door in, there were only a few people inside, found a place to sit down, and Shu Jing asked him what to eat.

"You often come to this shop, you are in charge! ”

"No, since I am the master of the house, I will naturally be the host. Hehe......"

At one o'clock in the morning, the two of them were still walking on the street, and there were fewer and fewer people, but Shu Jing still didn't want to go back, so she had to accompany her to continue to walk aimlessly, on an overpass, looking at the beautiful night, looking at the Yiren in front of him, thinking of his silence in the past two years, thinking of his future road, thinking of his future, he actually began to think about the future of a girl who only knew him for a few days a few days later.

"Shu Jing, let me sing you a song, it's a song I wrote myself, called Love Lost in the Pearl River. ”

"Okay, we'll go back after listening to this song. ”

Fascinated by the Pearl River

Lyrics and Composer: Kevin Lin

Who is it, still nostalgic in the mirage,

I don't want to wake up from my dreams.

Who is it, still wandering in the lamplight,

Can't find your way home.

Someone who always loves fantasy!

Please wake up quickly,

Otherwise, you will never be happy for the rest of your life.

O drunken dreamer!

Please hurry up,

Don't let a dream turn into a sorrow.

The love of the Pearl River,

Just like the water of the Pearl River,

Wave after wave,

Crystal clear

But it shattered in an instant.

The love of the Pearl River,

Just like the building of the Pearl River,

Building after building,

Towering,

But it is also difficult to reach.

Please, don't be nostalgic for this mirage,

Because it will leave you with nothing.

Please, don't wander away in the light of the lamp,

Because it can make you lonely and difficult.

This is a song written by Kevin Lin on a night when he went to Guangzhou to find Sakura two years ago, and the confusion and despair at that time are still fresh in my memory, but today, two years later, because of an ambiguity, Kevin Lin has an extra Shu Jing by his side, a girl who is similar to Sakura but different, and after knowing her for a few days, he will unconsciously include her in his future vision. Could this be a sign that Kevin Lin was beginning to give up his attachment to Sakurako and start a new relationship? Could the girl in front of him be an angel sent by God to redeem his soul? And could he give himself a determination, should he promise her a future? However, the promise seemed too hasty and too heavy for them at this time. Lin Kaiwen was not sure, he didn't dare to think about it anymore, just looked at Shu Jing quietly, and looked blankly at the lights of Shenzhen.