I don't know how I got out of the school gate, around, in my ears, in my mind, there are all Liu Juan's abusive voices and students' pointing and talking, I can't escape.

When I got home, I took a shower and changed my clothes, and I made myself a bowl of egg noodles with green onions, and the hot aroma gently hit my face, and I was stunned, and the big tears smashed straight into the bowl, silently.

I don't know how long I've been sitting, an hour, or longer.

It wasn't until there was no more heat coming out of my face that the damp and cold feeling on my face seemed to let me know that I was crying.

I raised my hand to wipe my face, picked up the chopsticks on the table and snorted and ate.

Without heat, the noodles seem to become difficult to swallow. I almost gobbled up all the noodles and soup into my stomach, and I needed this outside thing to fill the void in my body.

Rather, I need a little strength to face tomorrow, maybe not a little but a lot.

I picked up the empty bowl and walked towards the kitchen, when there was a knock on the door, but I didn't hear it until it almost turned into noise, and pulled me back from the pot of rotten noodles.

The moment he opened the door, Pei Shaobei raised his hand and opened his mouth, his eyebrows were in shock, and he didn't speak for a long time.

I waited a little impatiently, "Something?"

Pei Shaobei swallowed his saliva, pointed to my chest and replied, "Even if you're worried that I won't eat like this when I come over to eat, right?"

I looked down in the direction of his finger and realized that my light gray cotton pajamas still had a few soft noodles hanging from them.

I was suddenly a little embarrassed, turned around and pulled the tissue on the table and wiped it, at this time Pei Shaobei had already closed the door and walked in, naturally went to the sofa, and turned on the TV with the remote control.

The sudden noise made me subconsciously cover my ears, and then I quickly let go, and my hands rubbed against the hem of my clothes very unnaturally.

"What's wrong?" Pei Shaobei looked at me scrutinically on the sofa.

"It's okay! I want to eat noodles, right? I'm going to cook it now!" I didn't even glance at Pei Shaobei, and walked quickly towards the kitchen.

I was suddenly very scared, what would happen if Pei Shaobei's post about me seducing students was seen, would he be like others, and would he see me so unscrupulously and dirty, would he immediately warn me to stay away from his younger brother.

I couldn't help but smile wryly, and I didn't pay attention and cut my finger hard.

With a clang, I threw the knife and squatted on the ground with my hands in pain.

As if I had found an excuse and an opportunity, I immediately screamed and cried.

I know it's humiliating, but my suppressed body needs a gap to release all the negative emotions.

Pei Shaobei became calm from the initial anxiety, and after helping me to bandage the wound simply, only Ran remained.

He didn't ask me directly, he just sat on the sidelines and handed me a tissue from time to time.

Eventually, I couldn't stop crying, so I stopped sobbing.

"Judging from the way I saw it when I entered the door, I thought that you would cry for an hour no matter what, but I didn't expect that the combat power was so weak, and there was really no potential for a shrew!"

Pei Shaobei still had a disgusted expression, and I found that since he said that I was his brother's teacher, his gaze at me changed from the initial mildness to extreme disgust.

I don't know what Pei Zile told him, but I didn't see disdain in his dislike.

"You, you know?" I choked up.

Pei Shaobei ignored me, got up and walked to the kitchen.

"You, did you see it?" or did you mean your brother......" I hurried to catch up, but I almost hit me on the back where he had suddenly stopped.

"Gu Wan, I have taken care of two cases in one day today, from noon to now, I haven't eaten anything, are you sure you want to discuss those trivial things with me when I'm hungry?"

I looked at Pei Shaobei a little stunned, not understanding the meaning of his words.

"Trivial?" I repeated subconsciously.

"Isn't it?" Pei Shaobei had already taken the apron on the side, and picked up the knife neatly and cut the green onion carefully.

Some people are depressed, decadent, and miserable because of these little things, and feel that their lives have been completely ruined, and no matter how hard they try, they will not be able to return to the way they once were. However, since the former appearance has been ruined, why go to great lengths to restore it? Moreover, those who used to be may not be what they want at all, and what they want to be restored is just a kind of habit! And this habit is not irreplaceable!"

Pei Shaobei's words were accompanied by water vapor, which made my body and my stomach stretch out.

"Since it's not the only thing that is necessary, what does it matter if you lose it, maybe the next life you take for granted will be a hundred times better than now!"

Pei Shaobei raised his eyebrows at me, walked to the living room with two bowls of hot noodles, turned around and said, "Don't make excuses for not giving me food!

Pei Shaobei's threat has a big boyish naughtiness, which is completely different from the image of the barrister standing in the courtroom.

I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

I cut the beef and sat across the table with Pei Shaobei, I was actually full, but I couldn't bear the warmth, and I lowered my head and ate in small bites.

Pei Shaobei was obviously hungry, so he finished eating a bowl and brought some by himself, and finally wiped his mouth with satisfaction, and when he saw that I was almost done, he took the bowl and went to the kitchen.

I hurriedly ran over and reached out to grab it, "How can I let you wash the dishes, Lin Dong never entered the kitchen before!"

As soon as the words came out, I regretted it a little, Pei Shaobei was stunned for a moment, and turned on the faucet.

There was no word for a while, only the sound of rushing water in the whole room, but the awkward atmosphere spread unconsciously.

I was extremely annoyed in my heart, it is said that it is not uncommon for neighbors to walk around each other, but our current identity is too sensitive, and if these things reach Liu Juan's ears, I don't know what foul words can be said.

I suddenly felt that I had defiled such a beautiful person as Pei Shaobei. This guilt overwhelmed all my emotions in a split second and forced me to do something about it.

So when Pei Shaobei said goodbye and left, I said with a cold face that I would go to the bank tomorrow to transfer money to him.

This obvious refusal was so hard for me to say before, but now I am extremely anxious to get rid of this inexplicable relationship, even if it is just my own amorous will.

Pei Shaobei didn't speak, only looked down at me, but I was very uncomfortable and avoided my gaze.

"Whatever you want!"

It's three words again, and it's 108,000 miles away from the last "It's not bad!"

My heart was suddenly blocked by grievances and sourness, and I couldn't speak, watching Pei Shaobei's door close indifferently, and suddenly I felt a sense of depravity that broke the jar and broke it.

Who cares about him, it's better that the whole world doesn't care about me!

I threw myself into the bed in a rage, covering my head and making a corpse.

Half asleep and half awake all night, still nightmares, countless fragments gathered together, disturbing my whole head with a sharp pain.

Naturally, I got up late, and when I looked at my watch, it was already nine o'clock, and I suddenly got up from the bed, brushed my teeth quickly, washed my face and changed clothes, and muttered that it was over, that I was going to be late!

There was a rush of urgency, but it was interrupted by a phone call.

"Gu Wan, Weibo is full of voices condemning you by people who don't know the truth, the school is about to welcome the new students, recently you should not come to the school for the time being, it is better to avoid the limelight!"

Mr. Mu's voice was heavy and regretful, I didn't know how I answered, and I hung up the phone and sat on the ground with no strength.

It turned out to be true.

The world really doesn't want me anymore!

The sudden emptiness and panic made me desperate to hold on to something or do something to show that I didn't really care.

Hurriedly opened the door, and rushed to the door of Pei Shaobei's house, but the raised hand couldn't knock it down no matter what.

Gu Wan, what are you doing?

I slapped myself hard, the left side of my face hurt hotly, and tears fell from the pain.

"Even if the whole world doesn't want me, what can I do, I won't care about these trivial things. I wiped away my tears as I walked back, pushed the door and realized that I didn't have the key with me.

The feeling of homelessness completely broke me, and I kicked the door as hard as I could, and the sound echoed in the empty hallway to accentuate this loneliness.

I should be glad that I still have my phone in my hand, there is still money in Alipay, I am well-dressed, my hair is not messy, and I can still walk into the elevator with my chin on my back and walk through the door of the community security guard proudly and indifferently. Don't let passers-by see how embarrassed I am at this moment.

People, no matter what time it is, want to put a fig leaf on their faces, even if they are naked, they are still willing to deceive themselves.

I ate breakfast, went to the bookstore, listened to music, watched movies, and I seemed to be busy, crying and laughing alone, and living a very fulfilling life.

I ran to the bank counter, only to find that I didn't even have my bag with me, and I seemed to have my wish to get everything done in one day, which made me feel regretful and irritable, but I also had a faint hope that there would be something to do tomorrow.

I am very grateful to Sister Yu for bringing a group of colleagues to me at this time, and they hugged me to the bar to party.

It was the first time I had come into such a place, and I had gone from being reserved and timid to being careless.

I drank a little too much, and the whole person was no longer suppressed and self-controlled, I took Sister Yu's arm, stood on the sofa and shouted at the light, "I'm Gu Wan, divorced! I'm free! I'll see who else in this world can hurt me, haha, no one can hurt me, right!"

Sister Yu also drank almost, and encouraged me indistinctly, no matter how much I was sincere, I listened warmly and happily, I tilted my head and poured all the wine in Sister Yu's hand into my mouth.

The bitter and spicy feeling made my whole stomach burn, but it warmed my heart and body.

I laughed and sat back on the couch like a madman.