It was about twelve o'clock when it was over, and I politely declined the male colleague's escort and got into the taxi alone.

I was so drunk that I could still think that I was homeless without my keys, and I couldn't let anyone see me sleeping on the streets.

Man, what a hypocritical animal.

I was eating and laughing, burping, and the driver seemed scared that I would throw up in his car, and while I was thinking about where to stay, he had already rushed me back to the address provided by my colleague.

I stood at the entrance of the community against the wall retching, and the community security guard shone it with a flashlight, which stabbed my eyes.

"Isn't this Teacher Gu, why don't you go home so late?"

"Who, who said I wouldn't go home!" I glared at the security guard's face with a big tongue and staggered into the door, "How could I not go home, I have a home, I, I have a home!"

I spoke incoherently, and it was impossible for the other party to entangle with a drunk too much, so I muttered a few words and shouted for me to be careful and went back to the security room.

The elevator went up and made my stomach churn again, as soon as I got out of the elevator door, I covered my mouth and retched, just vomited outside the community, and then vomited for a while, but only the stomach was twisted and uncomfortable, but nothing could be vomited.

I sat on the floor and banged on the door, and I shouted, "Open the door, open the door!" as if there was someone inside.

I remember I didn't have the keys with me, I remember I was divorced and there was no one at home, but the door in front of me was open.

The warm breath came to my face, and I looked at the man in gray loungewear squatting in front of me, and grinned, "Pei Shaobei, why are you at my house!"

I was picked up by Pei Shaobei and thrown into the bathroom, I sat in the bathtub and watched Pei Shaobei go in and out, brought clean towels and neatly folded nightgowns, and watched him close the door without saying a word.

The bathroom was quiet, only the sound of my own breathing remained.

After a long pause, I obediently took off my clothes and turned on the shower, the water temperature was just right, and it woke up my chaotic head.

I took a shower silently, took the towel prepared by Pei Shaobei, and stepped out of the bathtub, but overestimated my head that had been swallowed by alcohol.

As soon as my foot touched the ground, I was tormented by a burst of vertigo, and I fell to the ground, and my whole body fell apart.

The door of the bathroom was opened from the outside at this time, Pei Shaobei and I looked at each other, and then I let out a sharp scream, but I was instantly covered by Pei Shaobei's arrow step.

"If you call it again in the middle of the night, you will be disturbed by people!" Pei Shaobei's voice was low and hoarse, and his beautifully shaped lips were only a slap away from me, and the breath he exhaled hit my face softly.

Pei Shaobei wanted to get up and help me pull the bathrobe over, but I looked at the face and was about to leave me, and I kissed it like someone was bewitching.

Time froze instantly, and I felt Pei Shaobei's body stiffen.

At this time, a drunken sentence from Sister Yu popped up in my mind.

"Our family is so beautiful and in good shape, which man is not fascinated!"

To say that alcohol is the most bastard thing in the world, it gives people a reason to be decadent, gives people the courage to do bastard things, and is not responsible.

At that moment, there was only one thought in my chaotic mind: yes, I don't look bad, Lin Dong doesn't want me, since someone else wants me, someone always wants me.

As if I was competing with myself, in order to prove that I was attractive, I almost pounced, pressed Pei Shaobei under me, and kissed Pei Shaobei's mouth like a hungry beast.

There was no tossing and turning, no warm soft words, my wildness quickly ignited Pei Shaobei's desire, I don't remember how we got back to bed, I just knew that I needed catharsis, I needed warmth, and I needed to release.

…………

People say that impulsiveness is the devil.

This sentence sounds funny, but when you really experience it, you will realize how ridiculous and embarrassing it is.

When I woke up the next day, it was already ten o'clock in the morning, I rubbed my swollen and aching head, sat up from the bed, and the quilt that had slid down showed me my naked body, and the traces of love on it hit my heart like a hammer.

I screamed almost immediately, and my voice echoed through the empty house, and no one responded.

Pei Shaobei left, and at that moment, my heart was full of gratitude.

I put on a nightgown and walked out of the bedroom barefoot, and the quiet living room made me sure that Pei Shaobei was really not there. I was about to rush into the bathroom, but I saw a touch of pink wafting on the balcony, wasn't it the same underwear I wore yesterday?

I ran over and tore off my clothes and held them in my hands, the slight dampness that showed that I had not been washed for a long time. The intense scene from last night was churning in my mind, and I could even imagine Pei Shaobei's slender fingers washing my underwear in a basin full of soap bubbles.

I jumped on the spot several times, and then ran into the bedroom and took a shower with cold water, looking at the person in the mirror who was flushed like a little girl who had just fallen in love, I shook my hand and slapped myself hard, the strength was so great, it hurt hotly.

It took me from fantasy to reality in an instant.

"Gu Wan, you're divorced!"

I said this in the mirror, as if looking for a morally convincing reason for my debauchery last night. But this sentence made me feel deeper shame and helplessness, a woman who had just divorced, but with the strength of wine, pounced on a strange man, which is not a kind of stain on others!

And this man is exactly the object of your affection in the eyes of others!

I couldn't forgive convince myself that I didn't know what else I could do but run away.

I wanted to stay at my parents' house for a few days, but I was overwhelmed by the concern of the two elders for me and the sighs they showed from time to time. I found a spare key and escaped under the pretext of going to class.

Sister Yu called me and told me about the school's punishment for me.

On the surface, it was to give me a long vacation in order to calm the incident, not to damage the reputation of the school, and to avoid my harm, but in fact it was a suspension in disguise.

The result did not surprise me much, after all, with the current situation, it is not suitable for me to stand on the podium and teach on the cusp of the storm.

After thinking about it, I called Mr. Mu and apologized. Teacher Mu's attitude was gentle, and he only let me take a vacation with peace of mind, and did not mention when I would return to school, so I hung up on the grounds that I was busy with work.

I had nowhere to go, I looked at the time, and guessed that Pei Shaobei must still be working at this point and went home. When I entered the elevator, my heart was beating like thunder, thinking about whether I should pretend to have amnesia or pretend not to care if I suddenly bumped into Pei Shaobei?

Thinking that the elevator stopped on the ninth floor, I walked out with my back stiff, looked like a thief, and saw that the corridor was empty, so I walked quickly to open the door and flash in.

I can't say whether I am happy or disappointed, when I close the door, my heart is also relieved, but I can't lift it up anyway.

When I passed the supermarket on the way, I went in and bought a lot of vegetables, planning to eat at home to pass the time. Now the bag full of vegetables is thrown on the ground at random, and all the ideas just designed have disappeared, and I can't tell how I feel in my heart, and this stuffiness is like a soybean waiting to ferment, and soon the whole body will rot and never return to its former state.

The time hand went from eight to twelve o'clock in the evening, and I sat quietly at the dining table and emptied the bowl of pasted noodles into the trash.

I think, perhaps, Pei Shaobei, like me, is hiding from that ridiculous night!

Without any expectations and apprehensions, I lived a life like a pig with peace of mind, eating, sleeping, sleeping! During this period, in addition to Sister Yu, I also received a call from Pei Zile. Simple greetings and tentative comforts made me realize that the world is not all ugly.

I learned from Pei Zile that the posts on the campus network were blocked by the principal, and Liu Juan was also very satisfied that she never went to my school again after learning that I was suspended. Pei Zile asked me when I would return to school, and especially complained about how vicious the substitute teacher was.

I couldn't stop laughing, and I gradually looked forward to a new life.

When I had eaten all the food in my house, I gave myself plenty of excuses to get ready to step out of the house. I looked at my emaciated and shriveled self in the mirror, and I couldn't help but feel a sense of disgust. I picked out the brightest color dress, covered my skin tone with foundation and blush, and was about to open the door with my satchel when I heard a sharp knock on the door.

The first person that popped into my mind turned out to be Pei Shaobei, and this thought made me scared.

The heart that was hurt by Lin Dong was full of holes, and I didn't want to touch my feelings at all, but the throbbing that Pei Shaobei gave me made me unable to ignore and had nowhere to escape.

I hesitated to get closer to the cat's eye, and before I could see the comer, I heard a familiar and unfamiliar arrogant voice.

"Gu Wan, I know you're inside, you open the door for me, if you don't open the door, be careful that I will make trouble at the property!"

As soon as I heard that it was Zhang Jiajia, I was angry, I suddenly opened the door and shouted in a deep voice, "What are you doing here?"

Zhang Jiajia changed into a slightly loose dress, but her face was still very gorgeous. She raised her chin, pushed me away and walked in, I subconsciously looked up at Pei Shaobei's door, it was quiet and closed, I lowered my eyes, closed the door and turned to face Zhang Jiajia.

"If you have something to say, don't delay everyone's time if you have nothing to do!"

Zhang Jiajia sat on the sofa and pouted at me, "Cut, pretend in front of me, you have been suspended, what can you do! Looking at your appearance, you must feel that you have no face to see people at home and haven't gone out for many days, right?"

I hurriedly raised my hand and touched my face, feeling annoyed by being spied on.

"You even wore a pink skirt? Gu Wan, do you really think you are seventeen or eighteen? The old woman is still making waves, I really feel disgusted when I look at it!" Zhang Jiajia was extremely sarcastic, I clenched my fists angrily, but my heart was weak for a while.

Could it be that at this moment, I am really as Zhang Jiajia said, old and decadent, and I can't look at it anymore?

Women have a natural sensitivity to age and appearance, even if they have just looked in the mirror and know that they are not as unsightly as the other party said, they are still a little annoyed and angry in their hearts.

"If you came to my house just to show me how young your palette-painted face is, then I'm sorry I didn't have that leisure, please leave!"

"You!" Zhang Jiajia got up from the sofa angrily and pointed at me speechless for a long time.

"What? Or are you going to sit here and wait for me to call the police and get a good idea of what happened to the last theft?"