Chinese There is one thing I have never had the courage to tell Chen Xiang.

That's when she decided to participate in the draft, and I was already preparing to go abroad.

Relying on Si Datong's connections, I quickly contacted the hospital in the United States, and successfully concealed my mother's illness and applied for a travel visa.

Although I have already said that I broke up before this, I understand that Chen Xiang may not believe it.

But in the end, it happened so suddenly, after my mother and I went to the police station, I never went back to find Chen Xiang. Knowing that she was hurt, or knowing that it wasn't her who insisted on suing my mother, I couldn't go to see her.

This relationship is so tired, so tired that I don't have the confidence to get a good ending, I love Chen Xiang, love is better than death, except for the love of mutual suffering and debt, I can't see any life, I can't find any happiness.

I've thrown in the towel.

I took her back to my hometown after my mother came out fine, and I hid from Chen Xiang for two whole months, not because I didn't know she was looking for me, but because I didn't want to see her.

I really don't want to see her, and when I see her, I feel like I'm going to be as crazy as my mom, or like I'm damned.

The more you run away, the more you indebted, and the more you indebted, the more you want to escape.

Obviously, there are still a lot of good things in the memories, but what is in front of you is all absurd.

After my mom's condition stabilized, I decided to take her to the United States, leaving Beijing, and the day before I met a friend I had met at the livehouse at the bank.

He glanced at the dollars and passport I had just exchanged, patted me on the shoulder, and took Chen Xiang out to play?

I snapped, and if I didn't make a sound, I took it as a default.

But I didn't expect that Chen Xiang had already contacted all the people I knew with her in order to find me. This friend Chen Xiang, whom I met at the bank, also looked for him, and he asked me at the bank that it was just a temptation.

In fact, as soon as I left, he called Chen Xiang to tell him about seeing me.

Chen Xiang rushed to Beijing and went to the airport with Xiangxi to look for me.

I have seen Chen Xiang a long time ago, and I have also wavered, hesitated, and thought about simply tearing up my passport and not leaving. But as soon as I turned my head to look at my mom reading quietly, I was really afraid that my mom would go crazy again.

Again and again, each time it was scarier than the last, and who knows what the next time will be like. Even if I leave my mother alone and send her to a mental hospital, will Chen Xiang and I be happy?

Rather than go to the day when you get tired of each other, it's better to forget it.

I took my mother to the border check when there was still an hour before boarding, there were so many people at the airport, Chen Xiang had a very small chance of finding me, but I could see her at a glance everywhere I went, who made her so beautiful, and she was beautiful when she cried. But my feelings in the face of her tears have long gone from distress to guilt to fear.

In the end, Xiang Xi saw me first, and she rushed into the crowd and pulled me and refused to let go, and shouted my name. My mom was immediately emotionally unstable, and I had to let her go to the border first.

I pushed Xiangxi away so hard that even when I pushed her to the ground, Chen Xiang heard Xiangxi's shouts and found us.

I looked at Chen Xiang, as if I had lost my ability to move, and I couldn't move at all.

I watched her and walked through the crowd, but before she could come to me, I pulled my suitcase and handed my passport to customs, and walked quickly with my mom after passing.

For a few minutes, I didn't even look back, my ears rumbled, and I couldn't hear her voice clearly.

I feel like I'm dying.

Chen Xiang shouted behind me, I curse you for the plane to fall.

I replied to her in my heart, "That's good."

There were many times when we were separated at the airport, the first time Chen Xiang went to study in the UK, the second time she escaped from the hospital and returned to S City, and the third time she was going to meet the musician from Japan who didn't want to go back to dinner with me.

This time it was the fourth, and it was her looking at my back.

I have already regarded this separation as a farewell, it doesn't matter where I live, if my mom can adjust to life in the United States, maybe I will settle there with her.

I reimagined my future and removed the two words that used to appear most often.

Life in the United States when I first arrived was not particularly smooth, the consumption was high, the living habits were different, I had to take care of my mother and have to find a way to make money, and I didn't want to spend my father's money all the time, but it was impossible to find a regular job on a tourist visa.

In the first days, I had a really bad life, living in a very small basement, and the environment was worse than when I was in Beijing with Chen Zhi. I can't get used to eating, and I can't even adapt to it immediately when I see a lot of black and white people on the street.

At the beginning, I often thought of Chen Xiang.

She never told me what life was like when she first arrived in the UK. But Qi Xiang mentioned it to me once, and Qi Xiang told me that Chen Xiang didn't look for him at all when he first went to the UK, and Chen Xiang didn't want to go abroad at that time, and his English was not good.

And her character, that stinky temper, so stubborn, she definitely can't make friends.

If it weren't for Qi Xiang, my Xiangxiang would definitely not be as good as it was later.

The thought of this makes my eyes wet.

My Xiangxiang is no longer my Xiangxiang, I don't want her. In this life, even if I regret wanting to die, I can't provoke her for the third time.

There is no need to read the news about her, Qi Xiang will definitely be by her side, and with Qi Xiang here, she will definitely get better soon.

Maybe soon from loving me to not loving, from not loving to hating, and then the hate is gone, and I will forget it completely.

I raised my wrist and looked at the tattoo on it, looking at the word CX, the promise I made at the beginning, now it looks so ridiculous.

It took me half a year to adjust to life in the United States, and my mother's treatment was also done for two sessions, and she was in good condition, and she did not appear delirious again after arriving in the United States, let alone attack others. Later, I also found a job as a piano teacher and Chinese teacher, and after changing my visa, I officially started a new life.

During this period, I returned to China once to prepare materials, but I didn't tell anyone.

When I met Jiang Tong, I was actually in my second year in the United States. It's a coincidence, it's an accident, maybe it's also a kind of fate. At that time, Jiang Tong graduated from university and traveled to my city after graduation.

The content of her trip turned out to be to volunteer in every city, help Chinese students with psychological problems, and give them psychological counseling.

It just so happened that one of my students was ABC, he had some emotional problems, he was very rebellious, he liked boxing but his family forced him to come and learn piano with me, I had talked to him many times before but it didn't help him.

After all, I am not a professional, and later the student's parents found Jiang Tong and her friends.

My student was secretly texting for the next few days.

I asked him what was wrong, and he said he liked a girl.

In the following days, he took his classes very seriously, and sometimes asked me if he was almost 20 years old and was a little late to learn piano.

I thought he was making excuses for not wanting to study, so I agreed to find a chance to talk to his parents.

As a result, he refused, and said that he really wanted to learn, because he liked the boy who told him that the girl was very handsome.

After a few more days, the kid began to be depressed again, and it turned out that the female doctor he had a crush on was leaving.

He said that he wanted to confess before the people left, and he decided to play the piano and asked me to teach him a piece of music, preferably something special, that no one else had heard, so that he could say that he wrote it.

I taught him a piece that I wrote myself.

The next day he went to confess, but he was still rejected.

He insisted that I accompany him to the bar for a drink, and as soon as I went out with him, I saw a car parked in front of the door, just in our way.

The person who got out of that car was Jiang Tong.

Jiang Tong cried when she saw me, and I was at a loss to cry, but she quickly laughed again.

She said, I thought I would never see you again in my life.

She said, can you tell me your phone number?

She said, if I stay here to work, will it be a disturbance to you?

I just don't want to regret it," she said.

Jiang Tong just stayed, I didn't have the right to decide whether she would go or stay, nor did my heart change the moment I met again, at that time, I still regarded her as a little sister, and my relationship with her might not be as close as being close to Xiangxi.

It's just that later, because I live in the same city, there will definitely be more opportunities to meet.

Jiang Tong is not as good as Chen Xiang, she is very good at work, and there are still many places in life that need to be taken care of and helped.

She never spoke to me at first, I found out first.

Indeed, a girl living in a foreign country and by herself, she is actually doing very well.

After a while, Jiang Tong and my mother met, my mother liked Jiang Tong very much, she liked it when she was in China, and when she saw her again in the United States, she urged me to bring Jiang Tong back for dinner in three days.

I don't know why, but looking at Jiang Tong with my mother, I think she is very well-behaved and cute.

Once I asked Jiang Tong why he wanted to be so good to my mother.

I thought about it myself, maybe it was sympathy, maybe it had something to do with her profession, or maybe it was because of me?

As a result, Jiang Tong directly told that there were all three.

At first I thought I would be disappointed when she confessed, but it turned out that I was very relaxed at that moment.

It's like getting used to having this person in my life, and I feel very relaxed wherever she is.

Jiang Tong said, I know you must think I'm very stupid, I was spoiled by my brother, I don't know how miserable and complicated the outside world is, and I think everything is very beautiful. Actually, no, I grew up watching my mom bully my brother, and watching my brother fight with the people who bullied me in his studies. I know everything, I've understood it since I was a child, but I don't dare to show it, I'm afraid my brother will be disappointed, so I do what he wants. I don't know if that's me, but I'm so happy when I see him happy. My brother is one, you are too, I really don't know how I liked you for so many years, but I really, just want to see you happy, it's as simple as that. I just want you not to think too stupid and don't think too smart. I just like you and love you.

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