Since Uncle Li's heart attack and sudden death in the room, Uncle Li's wife and daughter came to make trouble, beat me and my mother severely, said all kinds of unpleasant things, and demanded compensation from my mother, saying that my mother was a nemesis, and the vixen killed Uncle Li. In order to avoid the debt, my mother ran away with me overnight and lived in the basement.

It may be because of Uncle Li's death, my mother's illness has become more serious, and she can't control her emotions at all, and sometimes she hurts the guests. Without financial resources, our standard of living is getting worse and worse.

On the day my mother left, the weather was extremely hot, even the air I breathed was hot, I was afraid that my mother would get sick, so I stayed at the head of the bed, smiled and told her that I won the essay competition, and was recited by the teacher as a whole grade.

Mom was also happy to hear this, she touched my head and asked me to go to the vegetable market to buy some beef and come back, and I want to celebrate tonight. She smiled very softly, and I thought she would be fine, so I went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables. But when I came back, I saw her lying upright on the bed, bloodless, her lips purple, and the quilt was stained red with blood.

I jumped up to wake my mother, she said that she would always be with me, she would not leave me, but she still left.

On the third day after my mother died, two men in suits came to the house, and one of the older men said he was my father's secretary and that he had come to take me home. I couldn't help but sneer, do I still have a home? My so-called father, at this moment, he never came forward, what kind of bullshit father?

I stubbornly pushed them out of the house and told them to get out, I wouldn't go back with them. When I was young, I understood that I couldn't cause trouble, because no one would come forward to settle the matter, so that no matter how I was ridiculed and beaten by my classmates, I would not fight back, and I would always be a coward and coward. But today, I didn't want to take it anymore, so I ran into the kitchen, took out a knife, and drove them away.

They were gone, the world was quiet again, I shrank in the corner, tears fell, I didn't want to cry, my mother hated me crying the most, she would be very angry if she saw me crying, I didn't want her to be angry, I kept wiping my tears with my hands, but the tears couldn't be touched at all, and they flowed down drop by drop.

There was a knock at the door, and I thought it was the two people, so I shouted loudly, "Get out of here, get out of here, I don't have a father, my father is long dead." ”

"An An, I'm Aunt Ajuan, open the door!" came Aunt Ajuan's concerned call from outside the door.

I hurriedly got up and opened the door, and now only Aunt Ajuan cares about me. Aunt Ajuan stood in front of the door with the meal, frowned and asked, "It's only been a few days, and your whole body has lost a lot of weight, have you not eaten for several days?" You are starving yourself like this, ruining yourself, your mother will definitely feel distressed when she sees it, good girl, you eat the food first!"

I saw my favorite beef in the bowl, but I couldn't whet my appetite. If I hadn't gone out to buy beef, my mother wouldn't have died, and she wouldn't have been unable to think about it and committed suicide. I pushed the bowl away, shook my head, and retracted into the corner.

Aunt Ajuan seemed to see through my thoughts, sighed and said, "An An, in fact, I don't blame you for this matter, you are a good boy!"

At such moments, all the comforting words were not listened to, and I sentenced myself to death. Aunt Ajuan had no choice but to take me, so she confessed to me and said, "An An, if you want to avenge your mother, you can eat well." Your mother's condition worsened because of that woman, and I don't know what she said to my mother, so your mother's spirit became unstable. Isn't your dad going to take you back? You're going to go back and be angry with that woman. In the future, you will be better than her and the child will be more promising, understand?"

At the age of 12, I am more precocious than other peers, which has been honed by a difficult life, and I can naturally understand what Aunt Ajuan is saying. A seed of revenge was planted in my heart, and that became the reason to live.

I went back to Xu's house and saw the woman. On the surface, she looks very glamorous, and her words and deeds are a model of a lady, but in private, she will prick me with a needle, just like Mama Rong in the TV series, vicious and hideous, and my nominal father turns a blind eye.

My half-siblings are all trying to find ways to bully me, especially the eldest brother, who likes to take the lead in fixing me, putting glass in my shoes, putting snakes in my quilt, beating me, and calling me a dog mongrel. I don't have anything to do but keep silent, I'm still young, I'm still in a weak position, I can only hide myself, even the grades, I have to cheat, let myself become a waste in everyone's eyes.

In the Xu family, no one cares about me at all, let alone care, my so-called relatives are more distant and terrible than strangers.

But the real thing I'll never forget, my first night. It was the summer vacation of my sophomore year of high school, everyone else had gone on vacation to Hawaii, and I was alone at home. The woman's sister came, and brought with her two women of about thirty.

The aunt called me out, and the other two women stared at me intently, eyes that were all too familiar to me, and all the guests who came to my mother back then were all the same. I realized the danger and turned around and was about to leave.

The woman's bodyguard grabbed me, fed me several pills, and threw me into the room, and my aunt and the other two women stripped naked and came up to touch me, and they talked about my underneath, and my aunt said that I was still a C man, and that feeling was as disgusting as it was.

I threw up, I vomited, but they didn't let me go, and when they had enough, they left, and my aunt took out the money and threw it on me, she said, "Your mother is a young lady, and the son born by the young lady is not much better, I am just a duck." ”

Since that incident, my aunt and the women have come to me from time to time, and this physical relationship has lasted for a while, so I introduced my classmates to them and started working as an intermediary. At first, they were very wary, but then they trusted me, so they relaxed their vigilance, and when I got their absurd videos, they began to threaten them to give me a lot of money, and I used all this money to buy Xu's loose shares.

I don't love men, I don't love women, I don't think I'll ever fall in love with anyone again, and I won't ever be tempted by anyone again. Lu Shuangshuang was an accident, she suddenly broke into my life and caught me off guard.

That day, I just served a guest, I took the elevator down, the elevator opened, and a woman broke in, she was very good-looking, with an unforgettable face, a little like Zhu Yin in her youth, very aura, and a little like An Yao, she rushed in barefoot, she didn't seem to pay attention to the people around her, the pain got up, the makeup on her face was all spent, especially the eyes, a large area of black, crying very sadly.

I thought that she would cry so miserably and so sadly when she fell out of love. According to my past nature, I would have stood by and watched, but seeing her crying so sadly, I actually wanted to come forward to comfort her, but I didn't have the courage after all.

When the elevator opened, she walked out quickly, and then heard her standing in front of the hotel door calling, I saw her smile and said, "Brother Ming, a guest gave me a big tip today." In a few days, I will be able to save enough money to pay off your debts, and you won't have to hide in Tibet......."

Suddenly, I understood what she was doing and why she was crying. I don't despise her, I've seen too many ladies who are also affectionate, those ladies and ladies are, women, but a little sympathetic to her, she and her mother are people trapped by love, they both regard love as life, but they are destined to fall into the fate of being deceived and abandoned.

But I can't manage so much, there are so many people in this world who are unhappy, I have to take care of it, I can manage it there, besides, I myself am not doing well, there is kung fu to save others, I walked past her without squinting. °C≡miào°C≡bi°C≡ °C≡

But I didn't expect to meet her, and everyone also understands, national conditions are like that, friendship is played, and righteousness is also drunk. As usual, I took my friends to a nightclub and finished it, but Lu Shuangshuang came to meet me.

Yes, I recognized her at first sight, she was like a genie who had fallen into hell, so eye-catching, how could I forget?

But she didn't know who I was, she smiled politely at me, and called me Boss Xu, so I looked at her quietly, this girl was really desperate enough to make money, and she didn't want to die at all, and drank several bottles of liquor in a row.

When I looked at her, I couldn't help but think of my mother, and my heart hurt, and the pain spread all over my limbs, and it was unspeakably painful. If my mother was in a predicament back then, if someone had helped her, she would not have ended up committing suicide. Maybe it's that little bit of a poor conscience that is at work, I want to help her, and I actually want to help her get out of trouble.

As I got in touch with her for a long time, I found out about her pathetic life experience, and I wanted her to be good to me more and more, but in exchange for her words, she said, "I don't deserve you to be so good to me, I'm a bad woman, I smile at you, I tell you good and obedient, please you, I just want the money in your bag, don't be a fool." ”

Yes, she doesn't need to say this truth, in the party, everyone is acting on the spot, taking what they need, but she broke the words, too stupid, too honest, so honest that I am embarrassed.

People are lacking something, just rare, I like her in the mud, still able to maintain that trace of cleanliness and kindness, those things, I have long since abandoned, will think of ways to be good to her, want to protect her.