(Cat flutter Chinese) In the past, I would comfort myself that I would get better in the future. Now, I seem to have less capital to grasp the future.

I refused to admit that I was ordinary, and as a result, I was not as good as ordinary.

But fortunately, I actually thought about this result a long time ago, probably because I was mentally prepared, and I behaved very calmly when it really came.

I begged my teacher to take a leave of absence if anyone asked.

Living like this, I still don't want to be pitied and looked down upon, and even on the day I went back to the dormitory to pack up my things, when Lin Xia and Lu Xiaoqi asked me, all I said was that the studio was going to arrange for me to go to South Korea for training, and I was going to be an idol, a big star.

Lu Xiaoqi became silent, only Lin Xia kept asking me: "Is it really not that bastard's family still troubles you?"

I nodded, "So I'm hiding from them for now." ”

In May, the weather became muggy, and the day I left the school, it rained intermittently several times, and occasionally thundered, and a group of freshmen at the school gate dressed up brightly, talking about what short films they had taken and what magazines they had taken.

Everything has cause and effect, if I hadn't been deceived when I ran out to try out everywhere when I was as old as them, I wouldn't have been in a bad mood to go out with Lin Xia, I didn't know Jiang Hao, and I didn't have the opportunity to film later, I didn't care who loved who was sorry for whom, and I wouldn't have brought my life to a dead end step by step.

I can't be relieved, but I know that I have to look away, turn around and go around, and there will be a new way.

Pick up my parents from the hotel and take the last high-speed train home.

My dad said that I'm very good like this, they have never wanted me to be an actor, that circle is chaotic, how many people can't get out and end up suffering a big loss, and now I am luckier than some people.

It's just that when I leave the school and leave that disturbing circle, there are more big and small troubles that follow.

Chen Xi called me to complain, saying that many of her classmates were asking if she was my sister's.

It turned out that my wish to be a star did not come true, and after mixing with Jiang Hao for the past few months, some people on the Internet knew me, especially the little boys and girls at Chen Xi's age. When Jiang Hao and I were together, everyone envied Chen Xi, and when we separated, we said that I was dumped by Jiang Hao.

What's even worse is that I'm tired of being played.

I don't like to get used to Chen Xi, so I said why didn't you show off my and Jiang Hao's names in school?

She hung up the phone, and she didn't answer no matter how I called.

I hid myself and cried, even if outsiders do, my sister treated me like this, I deserve it, who let me bully her so much before, but now, I still live a very failed life.

It's just that Chen Xi's classmates don't care, after I go home, those neighbors always talk about me. In the past, every time I went home, they would say that this was the daughter of the old Chen family, a big star in the future.

Now I don't want to go to school for some reason and go home, even if they don't know how to surf the Internet, they will guess.

Some people know that I have a rich boyfriend, even my mother hit someone and my dad was sick because people settled it for me, and now I come back like this and lock myself at home all day long without going out, I must have broken up with my boyfriend, maybe it wasn't a breakup, and I was also taken care of/raised before.

How ugly these words are, my mother's temper can't stand it, I can't stand it, I go to quarrel with the neighbors, my mother's eloquence is really not comparable to them, but I won the quarrel once or twice, and the result is more and more gossip.

I go out for a walk with my dad every day, and I am always pointed at by others.

Later, my mother finally talked to me once, and I completely confessed to her the current situation of me and Jiang Hao.

My mom mean, if I had a boyfriend again, probably no one would gossip about me. Her former school colleague has a nephew who has just graduated from the United States this year, and he is not bad in all aspects, and he wants to introduce him to me.

To put it bluntly, it's a blind date.

Of course I don't want to go on a blind date, I never planned to die for Jiang Hao, but my mother spoke, I have to deal with it if I don't want to, and it will be too shameful to see me directly.

On the day of the meeting, my mother took me, and her colleague took the boy, and at first I told each other about the boy, and then my mother suddenly received a call saying that the sewer in our house was blocked, and she hurried home, leaving me to face the two of them.

My mother's colleague, I'll call her Aunt Liu, has been to my house before, and always likes to chat with me and ask me to choose clothes for her on the Internet.

After my mother left, Aunt Liu asked me, "Did Xiangxiang ever have a boyfriend before?"

I generously said yes, even if I said no, no one would believe it.

Then this Aunt Liu asked me a lot of questions, such as how long have you talked to your boyfriend, whether you are a classmate or someone, and whether you have ever gone out to play together.

It immediately dawned on me that she wanted to know if I had slept with anyone.

This question makes me very confused, I have never cared if I am a virgin or not, and I don't care about the eyes of others, but I can't stand it if I ask this question face-to-face.

I made an excuse to go to the bathroom, and when I came back, I overheard my aunt and nephew arguing.

The boy on the blind date was very satisfied with me, and directly asked Aunt Liu not to ask those questions, saying that this situation is very common in their United States.

Aunt Liu is not happy, she is a teacher, and she has a loud voice when she is a teacher, such as my mother. As a result, the words she said later were not only heard by me, but also by many people around her.

She said: "You have to pay attention to this matter, this little girl is so good-looking before, what art school was before, there must be many people who are worried about it." She said that she had a boyfriend, but we don't know how many of them, maybe they were tired of being played with and dumped off, aren't those art school girls all fostered? Even if she marries you, maybe she will give you a green hat in the future. ”

This xx originally refuted a few words, but after listening to these words, he was quiet.

I walked over slowly, picking up my bag without sitting down.

Aunt Liu looked at me embarrassedly, "Xiangxiang, are you leaving?"

I smiled at her, and picked up the water I had just drunk halfway up, many people thought I was going to splash her with water, and I had this urge too, but I didn't, I just put the cup down heavily, and the water splashed a lot.

I said, "Aunt Liu, thank you for letting me gain insight today, it turns out that being a teacher is like this." ”

I didn't give them a chance to explain, and walked out slowly, in fact, I was wronged in my heart. And I think of Jiang Hao again.

Jiang Hao, do you know that the person you love is being bullied like this now.

The more I think about it, the more sad I become, even if Jiang Hao and I are separated, the traces he left on my body and heart can't be erased, and I'm thinking about it now, how would he scold those two people if he was here.

In the past, if he didn't like someone, he would always pout his lips and say, "Beat sex." ”

I also thought about it, I just went back to find Jiang Hao.

Actually, I have left school, and I probably don't need to take Lu Xiaoqi's feelings into account so much, but sometimes it's really hard to take back what I say, and I don't want to run back and tell Jiang Hao that I regret it when I'm so down. I'll at least get some of it and go back to him.

I kept hesitating, and the days dragged on day after day, and the gossip of my neighbors increased as I got home for a long time.

Our house was originally my mother's school welfare house, and many of the neighbors were my mother's colleagues, and the last time Aunt Liu went back, she smeared me again, and I couldn't wash it completely.

What if my mother quarrels with them, can she still quarrel every day if she wins the quarrel once?

I felt tired, and it didn't seem to make sense to stay at home. I don't have many friends here, and I don't have anything to do at home every day, so I'm thinking about going out and looking for a job to see if I can move out or just go back to S City.

At first, I found a small company as a clerk, but I really didn't have much work experience, and I couldn't use those office software, and my only advantage now is that I am beautiful, but because of this, I am remembered by my boss. In this way, I did my first job for less than half a month.

I started taking some jobs in online stores and magazine photography again, but the money was no problem for me, and it was completely impossible to support my family.

In the blink of an eye, I have been out of school for almost a month.

During the May Day holiday, I didn't want to go to my elementary school reunion, but staying at home was more annoying, so I should go to the lively and lively to relax.

My phone rang all the time while everyone was eating, and it was a phone call for me to go to the interview. Someone asked me if I was looking for a job.

I said yes, but I don't have a degree and can't find any good jobs.

There was a classmate of mine who had always liked me, so he gave me a very unreliable suggestion: "Do you know what kind of work is getting money quickly? Sales? Do you know what GDP depends on now? Real estate! If you want me to say, Chen Xiang, you are so beautiful, locked up in the office and not showing people is a violent thing, you should be a sales lady, sell a house a day, and you can buy it yourself in a few days." ”

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