Zhao Yaru's marriage is a first-class event in their family, but her mother didn't make too much fuss when she heard that Zhuang Yan had the intention of divorcing.

When Zhuang Wuxin mentioned the divorce of other people's children before, Zhao's mother was alert. When Zhuang Yan admitted that she couldn't forget Zhou Jin, she didn't agree to let Zhao Yaru marry Zhuang Yan, but Zhao Dehai and Zhao Yaru were both bent on marrying the Zhuang family, although she was worried, she didn't object to the end.

In the past two years, Zhao Yaru has been crying every time she calls her parents, and Zhao Dehai and his wife, who are far away, are very worried every time, this time they thought it was similar to the previous noise, so they just called Zhuang Wuxin and complained, and did not immediately decide to return to China.

Zhao Yaru waited for her parents to come back to support her, and what made her glad was that Zhuang Yan would go home as usual.

She secretly followed Zhuang Yan several times, wanting to see where he hid Shen Xi, but each time she would be discovered by Zhuang Yan in the middle of the road.

Their cold war lasted intermittently for more than half a year, and Zhao Yaru's anger gradually subsided, and her parents never returned to China.

She knew that it was wrong for her to deceive Zhuang Yan in the first place, but she didn't understand why Zhuang Yan should decide on this matter, she just wanted a son and everything would be fine. At first, she thought that things might be exposed, but she felt that Zhuang Yan would definitely understand her thoughts.

On this day, Zhuang Yan went back to the study and got some information and was about to leave, Shen Xi's belly was getting bigger and bigger, and he wanted to go over to accompany Shen Xi tonight.

Every time he gets along with Shen Xi, even if he is in the office and she is reading, even if he doesn't say anything, he will feel very comfortable. It seems that as long as there is her place, he will feel inexplicably at ease.

During this time, he talked to Zhao Yaru several times, but Zhao Yaru quarreled with him hysterically every time, and there was no way to continue the conversation.

When he went out with his things, Zhao Yaru blocked his way with a straight face.

He sighed lightly, put away his eagerness to see Shen Xi, and motioned for Zhao Yaru to follow him into the study: "Yaru, I'm sorry for you." Let's get a divorce, what compensation do you want, you can say, I will try to ......"

Zhao Yaru's tears burst out, what she was most afraid of was the word divorce, couldn't she keep her love after tossing for so long? What compensation did she want? Of course she wanted Zhuang Yan's love!

His body, his heart, everything he has is what Zhao Yaru desperately desires.

Every time she wants to ask for love from Zhuang Yan, she forgets that love can't be forced, she feels that she has never loved a man so much since she was a child, why doesn't Zhuang Yan love her? Why doesn't she return the love she wants?

"Yaru. Zhuang Yan sighed lightly and hugged her in his arms, it had nothing to do with love, but he couldn't see her so sad. He was willing to take care of her like a sister, but he really couldn't love her. Zhao Yaru's life should be wonderful, she has become more and more hysterical in the past few years with him, this should not be Zhao Yaru's life.

Zhuang Yan never wanted to deny that he was not good enough, when he married her, he decided to love her well, but he didn't expect that after five years of hard work, he couldn't put his heart on Zhao Yaru.

Zhao Yaru cried and began to kiss him, tearing his clothes, but was stopped by Zhuang Yan: "Yaru, you are not happy, don't deceive yourself? Why do you refuse to look directly at the problem every time I talk to you?"

Marriage needs two people to run together, and Zhao Yaru's change is not only because Zhuang Yan doesn't love her enough, but also because of her temperament from childhood to adulthood. She is used to living a life of what she wants, so she will become so neurotic after meeting the uncontrollable Zhuang Yan.

"Yaru, it's me who is bad, let's let each other go. Look at how thin you have been recently, why don't you want to let go?" Zhuang Yan felt that a hammer was hitting his heart all at once, and it was dull and painful, he pressed Zhao Yaru to the sofa and sat down, sighing and helping her wipe her tears.

But Zhao Yaru raised her head suddenly and yelled at him: "Why should I let go? Are you cheap and Shen Xi's little slut? It was Zhou Jin before, and now it's Shen Xi! Zhuang Yan, why are you doing this to me? What is wrong with me, you just don't want to love me? You bastard......

She scolded a lot of swearing, she used to learn a lot of swear when she was drinking crazy with her friends, but since she was with Zhuang Yan, she deliberately restrained her other side in front of him, and she didn't even get cigarettes and alcohol very much. Every time she was sad, she would secretly smoke and drink behind his back to satisfy her hunger.

Zhuang Yan paused, let go of his hand heavily, and sat aside.

They couldn't talk anymore, every time they were like this, even if Zhao Yaru's reaction was not strong, it was always in the left ear and out of the right ear. He didn't understand why Zhao Yaru always couldn't listen, he didn't expect Zhao Yaru to change for him, but he hoped that Zhao Yaru could be a reasonable person.

But they are always not on the same channel, and this kind of conversation will only make the two more and more tired.

Zhao Yaru saw that he was silent, clenched her fist and slammed it on him, the depression in her heart was about to rise to the extreme, and she didn't know why she was holding on to it, but she was unwilling. She thinks that no one can easily let go of the man she has liked for more than ten years, and she has been fantasizing about being his bride since she realized that she liked Zhuang Yan in her second year of junior high school.

Zhuang Yan was irritated by her beating, and after grabbing her wrist, Zhao Yaru kicked him instead.

Zhuang Yan roared helplessly: "Yaru, what the hell can I do for you to stop?You can find a man who really loves you, we are really not suitable." I'll get out of the house, I'm ......"

"I don't want your money!" she yelled at him, she wanted his love, but he never gave it.

How did she know that Zhuang Yan also tried to love her at the beginning, but at the beginning she was too deeply affected by the previous relationship to be able to love her...... They are always out of sync, and Zhuang Yan always suspects that God is playing tricks on him.

Now, Zhuang Yan didn't want to drag on any longer, so in front of Zhao Yaru, he officially called him to inform him that he was going to divorce.

Then he called Zhao Dehai again, he didn't dare to call before, but he always wanted to try to make Zhao Yaru understand that this marriage was harmful to both of them, he didn't want Zhao Yaru to be addicted to this failed marriage after the divorce, he hoped that Zhao Yaru could start a new life as soon as possible after the divorce.

After Zhao Yaru heard her father's voice, she stood up suddenly in shock, she rushed over and wanted to hang up Zhuang Yan's phone, but she didn't have time after all, because Zhuang Yan had already told Zhao Dehai about preparing for divorce.

"Damn, I'm not going to kill you!" Zhao Dehai roared violently after realizing that Zhuang Yan was really planning to divorce Zhao Yaru, "What about my baby daughter......?" Zhuang Yan, you wait for me, see if I don't go back and break your legs!"

Zhuang Yan could feel Zhao Dehai's anger through the phone, but his emotions were frighteningly calm.

He felt that this was a relief, and sooner or later he would have to face the condemnation of these people, and he had long been mentally prepared. He just felt pathetic, people in their thirties, divorce and face so many obstacles.

However, when Zhao Dehai and his wife had not come back, Zhao Yaru took Zhuang Wuxin to Jiangyang's house, she couldn't swallow that breath and wanted to get rid of Shen Xi. She originally thought that Shen Xi wanted money, as long as there was enough money, Shen Xi would definitely leave Zhuang Yan.

She thought that Zhuang Yan would put away the idea of divorce when she had no way back.

But how did she know that Zhuang Yan at that time never thought about being with Shen Xi after the divorce, he planned to live alone with his daughter.

Although Zhuang Yan and Shen Xi got along very well during that time, Shen Xi had been restraining his feelings for Zhuang Yan, so Zhuang Yan was not sure how deep Shen Xi's love was for him, and he didn't make too intimate moves towards Shen Xi again. Whenever he was tired, he would only quietly rush to Jiang Yang's house and look at the sleeping Shen Xifa for a while.

At that time, he only thought that he couldn't delay Shen Xi, because after divorcing Zhao Yaru, he wasn't sure if he could bear a marriage that might deteriorate again.

Shen Xi's premature birth was unexpected by Zhuang Yan, fortunately, the mother and daughter were safe, but the time spent with Shen Xi was greatly reduced.

When Zhuang Yan realized that Shen Xi was going to leave him soon, he panicked for several days.

After Zhao Dehai returned to China, together with Zhuang Wuxin, he looked at Zhuang Yan very strictly, Zhuang Yan looked at all this indifferently, and the idea of divorce was unprecedentedly high.

Zhao Yaru's mother is the most sensible person, and after talking to him alone, she expressed her understanding: "I know my daughter's temper very well, she has wanted what she has since she was a child, and I knew that she beat the child I knew that you couldn't go on, but I didn't expect you to stumble for a few years." ”

Zhuang Yan's guilt was about to be tossed away by Zhao Dehai and Zhao Yaru, but when Zhao's mother understood it like this, he fell back into guilt and self-blame: "I'm sorry, I can't give Yaru happiness." She is still young, and the sooner she divorces, the sooner she can start a new life. I can't support it anymore, I can leave the house, but the children must be raised by me. ”

Mother Zhao nodded, the daughter born to Shen Xi had no blood relationship with their Zhao family, of course she would not agree to Zhao Yaru fighting for such a baby.

But Rao is that she is reasonable, but Zhao Dehai refuses to give up.

It is precisely because of Zhao Dehai as a backer that Zhao Yaru will refuse to divorce. She insisted on pretending that she had given birth to a daughter, and maintained the superficial happiness in the circle of friends with seemingly happy remarks.

Zhuang Yan didn't expose her because he didn't want to embarrass Zhao Yaru.

During that time, he often had insomnia, and every time he went to the hospital to visit Shen Xi or his daughter, he felt a moment of peace in his soul.

When Shen Xi wanted to go home to celebrate the New Year with her grandmother, Zhuang Yan realized that the time of separation was so close. He was reluctant to let her go, at least not so early.

He originally wanted to tell Shen Xi about his heart, but Shen Xi didn't fully understand him at that time, and he obviously felt that Shen Xi's heart was pushing him out. He wanted to talk about the bitterness in his heart, but Shen Xi apologized vigorously, she felt that it was her insistence on giving birth to this daughter that would cause him to quarrel with Zhao Yaru. She said that he had broken the contract and that she was at fault in the first place.

From that moment on, Zhuang Yan knew that this little girl had never thought of being with him in the future.

He tugged at the corners of his mouth bitterly, yes, he hasn't divorced yet, why should he ask her to wait for him? He can't give Shen Xi any promises, right?

Before he was discharged from the hospital, he often ran to the ward in the middle of the night and lay on the hospital bed with her in his arms. Only in this way can he sleep peacefully for a few hours.

He felt that he was no longer qualified to show his love in front of Shen Xi, he betrayed his marriage and betrayed Zhao Yaru, what was the difference between him and Zhuang Wuxin at the beginning? Perhaps, he didn't deserve love at all.

That night, he worked late in his study when he suddenly received a painting from Zhou Jin. It was the portrait he painted for Zhou Jin before, and he never picked up a paintbrush again after graduation.

He didn't respond to Zhou Jin, and rushed to the hospital after buying a sketchpad and brushes in a hurry.

At that moment, he suddenly wanted to pick up the long-lost paintbrush and draw Shen Xi. He thought that he might never see this little girl again in the future, and he wanted to engrave the little girl in his mind and in his heart one by one. That kind of thought is very strong, as if he went back to the time when he first fell in love with Zhou Jin.

When he arrived at the hospital, Shen Xi was sleeping quietly, and he didn't know that Shen Xi was pretending to be asleep at that time.

During the painting, he stared at Shen Xi's sleeping face more than once. Shen Xibi was much more beautiful when he first went to his house, he was a little shriveled before, but now he is a lot rounder, his skin is more watery and fair than before, and his red mouth is like a seductive cherry, shining with a charming luster.

It took Zhuang Yan more than two hours to finish painting a simple portrait, because he hadn't painted for too long, he felt that the painting was not good, not as good as Shen Xi himself.

originally decided not to secretly hug her to sleep that night, but he couldn't hold back the cry in his heart, quietly lay down beside her, and kissed her on the face a few times like a thief.

During the Chinese New Year that year, Zhao Yaru's family all gathered at Zhuang Wuxin's house to criticize Zhuang Yan, and almost everyone was persuading him not to divorce. Zhuang Yan was like a wood quietly and let them count, a mistake is a mistake, he didn't want to shirk his responsibility, so he didn't hide when Zhao Dehai kicked it.

But when Zhao Dehai used words such as bitch and cheap to describe Shen Xi, Zhuang Yan couldn't bear it anymore: "I know that I have no position to defend Xixi in this marriage, but you really shouldn't insult my daughter's mother like this." This marriage, I will definitely leave, I can only say sorry to Yaru, I can't make up for my mistakes emotionally, I can only leave the house. Uncle, I hope you can calm down for Yaru, she is not happy with me, I am not happy, and this marriage should not be maintained anymore. ”

On Chinese New Year's Eve, after he rushed out of his father's house, he walked blankly for a long time in the cold night, and finally couldn't help but run to the hospital to find Shen Xi. When he saw the satisfied smiles on the faces of Shen Xi and her grandmother, he felt his nose sour, and his eyes suddenly turned red.

He really craves warmth, however, how long will it take for this warmth to come?