I deliberately wanted to go separately from him, but he didn't refuse, seeing that I didn't want to go with him, the first taxi came, and he gave it to me. At the same time, he waved his hand at me and said, "See you later." ”

I didn't say anything, closed the car door and left.

In the car, I looked at the scenery outside for a while, then closed my eyes.

For the last few days, I've been thinking about the past. I don't know, what God has put me through so much, and if life is like this, who will have the courage to live.

Is this fate? Is it an abyss that you can't climb out?

I arrived at the hotel and checked in quickly. When I entered the elevator, I saw Gu Yixiao walking in through the revolving glass door of the hotel.

I reached out and pressed the elevator door button.

I was in a trance for dozens of seconds, and the elevator was on the floor where I was.

I pulled the box to find my house number, entered a completely unfamiliar room, a strange city, and I was in this hotel room where I was alone, and suddenly I wanted to cry.

The sadness was unprovoked, and I shed tears as I hung my clothes in the closet.

Finally I went into the bathroom with my makeup bag, and in the mirror, I saw my red and swollen eyes, which were full of tears.

I looked at myself in the mirror in a daze.

In such a quiet, completely own night, I saw only myself.

The little girl, who had been isolated and helpless as a child, and who was hiding alone in a corner, appeared. Actually, on the surface, I have grown, but inside of me, I am still the same person.

In the eyes of others, I studied well, looked good, and was quite popular. Actually, the only person who lives in my heart is myself. Later, I met Si Jianlian. I always remember the first time I wore high heels to a school dance party abroad and accidentally fell down the steps. At that time, I was only eighteen years old, and I was just a good face, and when I dreamed of being a princess, I blushed all of a sudden, and I longed to find a crack in the ground to get into.

At this time, Si Jianlian appeared, and he had a friendship with our school.

He walked up to me, picked me up, and asked with a smile, "Did you break it?" If you break the skin, I'll take you to the infirmary. ”

"Nope. I shook my head.

Actually, I had a big break on my knee, and the slightest movement hurt so much that I couldn't do it.

He looked at my face, seemed to be in disbelief, squatted down to look at it, and said, "It's all hurt like this, and I still haven't hit it." ”

"It's okay for me, I'll be bleeding myself after a while. I said.

In the past, I had this kind of small injury on my body, and I carried it myself, and it was so funny to go to the infirmary for this little injury.

"I'll help you there, and your ankle seems to have been broken. He gently pressed my ankle, and sure enough, it hurt a lot.

"Does it hurt?" he asked, looking up.

It was probably at this moment that I felt like I was actually a person who cared about.

Si Jianlian helped me to the infirmary, bandaged the wound and did bone correction, and finally tossed it down, and the dance was almost over.

"I'm sorry to delay your dancing. I said to him.

He smiled: "I won't either, I just found an excuse not to go in." Wouldn't it be nice to take a walk on the lawn with so few people? ”

That night was the most tender night of my life. Until now, when I think of Si Jianlian's appearance at that time, I think he is the most handsome.

There are very few moments of warmth in my life, so they are especially precious. This is also the reason why later, after Si Jianlian and I tore their faces, I left him a way to survive everywhere.

I can't help but laugh every time I recall the scene of my acquaintance with him.

The person in the mirror smiled too, and I finally calmed my emotions.

It's rare for this emotion to be exposed, but only in those times is I myself, not the glamorous Tao Ran in front of people.

The schedule for this meeting was very relaxed, I was a guest speaker, and I had to attend for only one and a half days. However, I've been to Singapore a lot of times, so I don't know where to go when I'm not in meetings, so I come to the venue every day to report.

On the day I spoke, I stood on the podium and saw Si Jianlian sitting in the audience.

When he saw me, he nodded slightly and smiled, which was a greeting. At this moment, I suddenly looked away.

Although we have become strangers, at least we have left each other's memories beautifully. A voice said to me in my heart, "Put it down."

I concentrate on the lecture on the past, present and future of modern communication technology.

Just when I was about to get off the stage, I saw Sheng Qingjin sitting next to Si Jianlian for some time. Her big belly is gone, and she should have given birth.

Si Jianlian held her hand on the table without any scruples, and his eyes were full of warmth.

At this moment, I believe that he is truly in love with her.

Letting go of my heart doesn't mean I won't be sad, I still feel distressed. I have seen many cases and a lot of chicken soup for the soul, all women are like being reborn after leaving the scumbag, and they have completely dug the scumbag out of their brains. And I, why can't I do it? If two people can come together, there must have been good things, and how can they forget all those good things all at once.

Perhaps, that's where I'm not smart enough.

I went back to my seat in the first row and sat down, and someone handed me a cup of warm rose tea from the side.

"Thank you. I thought it was the waiter at the meeting, and I looked up politely.

This time I looked up, I saw Gu Yixiao.

He smiled at me: "Your professionalism is beyond my expectations. ”

"You make smart cars, come to make do with this ......" Halfway through the sentence, I almost gave myself a big mouth. He does have access to the latest communication technology.

"I'm an affiliate of your industry. Gu Yi said with a smile, but pulled out a chair next to me and sat down, "I know everything about you, can I ask you to have dinner tonight?"

I smiled at him and asked, "Is it necessary?"

"Yes. He said.

"After all this, we don't really need to talk about anything anymore. You're calculating me when I need you. When you need me, I'm getting married. We've been going on a bad relationship all the time, and it doesn't seem like anything will end well if we talk about it. Moreover, I think the ending is good now. I said.

Gu Yixiao said in a low voice, "I don't think the ending is good now." Let you say this, I also found out that the two of us seem to be quite sad, and there are always mistakes. But now is a good time, and you really don't want to try it anymore?"

"No, I'm not in the mood that way. I said.

Gu Yixiao smiled when he heard my words.

Is a woman like me inherently unable to be happy in marriage, what am I struggling with? When I was with Duan Jingchen, what I thought of was that I owed Gu Yixiao and owed him a life. Now, I have completely become a free person again, but I feel that I can't get too close to Gu Yixiao.

If I were with him now, what would others say?

I've always been the kind of person who doesn't care what other people say, how can I have that kind of thought?

Next, Gu Yixiao didn't say anything more, and sat beside me honestly and listened to the speech above. Now the keynote speaker is a big name in the industry, talking about the relationship between smart cars and modern communication technology.

The meeting ended at half past four in the afternoon, and the organizers prepared a dinner. I wasn't going to go, but when the meeting was about to end, a staff member came to me and said, "Ms. Tao Ran, someone is looking for you in the background." ”

"Who?" I asked.

"He said it's a secret, and you'll find out when you go. The staff whispered.

I immediately stood up and followed the staff to the conference team's office. Gu Yixiao followed two steps, stopped me and said, "Call me if you have something, they are all outside, and they will take care of each other." ”

I didn't want the atmosphere to be too awkward, so I nodded.

When I arrived at the organizer's office, I saw Liu Mingming, and I was naturally full of surprise.

"Why are you here?" I asked.

"Mom knows that you are coming, so she has to ask me to come and block you, and if you say anything, you will let me invite you home. Liu Mingyue walked up to me and said, "Fortunately, I have other business dealings with the organizers, and I am more or less half an acquaintance, otherwise I really wouldn't be able to invite you." ”

"I'm here on a business trip, so I'm going to check it out when I'm about to leave. I said.

For Tian Qingqing, I still can't call my mother, but I can't call my aunt either, so I deliberately ignore the title every time, anyway, when chatting with a specific person, everyone knows who I'm talking about.

"Let's go over tonight, I asked the driver to wait outside, and my mother cooked a table of dishes by herself. Liu Mingyue said again.

I thought about it for a while, it was the host's dinner in the evening, and I couldn't excuse it, so I smiled and nodded.

Liu Mingyue was very happy, hugged me excitedly and said, "Now it's okay, I can go back to my life." ”

I didn't say hello to anyone, and left with Liu Mingyue.

The Lau family has a high status in Singapore, and the house they live in is a large manor-like house. After the car stopped, Liu Mingyue pulled me up the steps.

I felt uncomfortable.

As soon as she entered the door of her house, she smiled and said loudly, "Mom, I brought my sister back." ”

Two people came out from inside, one was Tian Qingqing, and the other was Liu Mingyue's father.

Tian Qingqing was very excited when she saw me, she took my hand and didn't let go, Liu Mingyue pretended to be jealous on the side, making Tian Qingqing very happy.

On the contrary, I felt that I was superfluous.

After saying hello to Liu Mingyue's father, Tian Qingqing and I sat on the sofa and chatted. In fact, before I came, I knew that I would be asked about divorce when I came. However, Liu Mingyue personally invited me, and I came to Singapore, so it was impossible not to visit Tian Qingqing. When I was in Beijing, she was busy with me every day.

"Jing Chen looks like a good person, how could he cheat?" Tian Qingqing asked, holding his gold-rimmed glasses.

"In this society, there are so many temptations, changes so fast, and it's not strange what happens, I have seen it all. I said lightly.

"I heard that Gu Yixiao hasn't forgotten you yet?" she asked again.

"That's a rumor, we can talk calmly when we meet now, and it doesn't matter anymore. I said.

Tian Qingqing saw that I didn't want to talk about feelings, so she also changed the topic and asked some things about bean bags.

The dinner was very rich, and it was made by Tian Qingqing himself, so the family ate very happily. In the end, Liu Mingyue also said: "Sister, you are a blessing, in our family, my mother cooks only a handful of times." My dad said that the date of each time my mom cooks should be set as an anniversary. ”

"It's not as exaggerated as you say. Tian Qingqing said softly.

I think the way she speaks so gently and calmly is really charming.

Liu Mingyue's father looked at her affectionately, after being married for so many years, she could still look at her like this, and the relationship between the two was really good.

After dinner, Liu Mingyue had to send me, but I couldn't resist her, so I had to agree.

When I arrived at the hotel lobby, I saw Gu Yixiao sitting in the café in the lobby, his eyes staring at the door. When he saw me coming in, he immediately stood up and walked up to me in a few steps: "Where have you been? ”

"I went to a friend's house. I said.

He thought for a moment and said, "You have friends over here, too?"

"What do you think?" I said.

"It's Liu Mingyue. He added.

"Whoever it is, does it have anything to do with you?" I was asked impatiently.

"I'm concerned about you. Gu Yi said with a smile.

"No, you don't. With that, I turned around and got into the elevator.

Gu Yixiao chased after him from behind and squeezed in through the elevator door that was about to close.

"Tao Ran, can you be less hostile to me. Doubao had an accident in Singapore, and I was particularly concerned. He said.

As soon as his voice fell, I was agitated for a moment, and looked at him in a daze.

"Tao Ran, I don't think it matters what you do to me. This time, I'm not going to let go of you. I remember, all the things about us. Gu Yi said with a smile.

I had already thought of that when he said that, and now that I think about it, I guessed it right.

"So, I've been looking for a chance to talk to you. On the cruise, I watched you and him on their honeymoon, and every minute passed like swallowing a knife. Gu Yi smiled and said, "However, you won't give me a chance to talk." ”

"What are you?" I said, looking at him, "I'm getting married normally, and you're dangling in front of me with a beautiful and sexy female companion." I thought you came to me just because you were unwilling to 'die'. ”

He smiled, "You care a lot about having other women around me, don't you?"

"I don't care. I said.

"If you say that, I'm relieved. In the future, I won't show up with any more women. The woman on the cruise ship was hired by me, and I promise nothing happened to me and her, just to you off. But, in the end, it was I who was half angry. Gu smiled and said, "After I came back to Beijing, I almost regretted dying." Originally, I just wanted to find a chance to let you know, and I remembered it all. Because I think about it all, I don't want to let go. However, I'm a bit of a discipline, otherwise I wouldn't have asked you at the wedding that day if you would like to go with me, and if I was a scoundrel, I would have robbed the kiss directly. ”

As he spoke, the elevator door slammed open.

I walked out first.

Gu Yixiao followed me closely, and said as he walked, "I've chased after me, at least give me a chance to speak." When you were with Duan Jingchen, I respected your choice and did not deliberately destroy your relationship with him. Now, he's like that, and you're divorced, so why don't you just listen to my explanation?"

I walked very fast, and in a blink of an eye I was at the door of my room.

I took out my room card, stopped when I was about to swipe it, looked at Gu Yi and said, "It's late today, I'm going to rest." Also, there's been a lot going on lately, and I'd like to calm down and talk to you about it. ”

He stood in place, and after three or four seconds, he took a step back: "Okay, when you're done calming down, we'll talk again." ”

Seeing that he was no longer a scoundrel, I brushed the door open.

He said to me at this time: "Tao Ran, in fact, I know, and you also know, that person in your heart is me. After you got married, you and Duan Jingchen have never slept in the same bed, which means that the person in your heart is me. ”

I snapped the door shut.

This matter was originally the privacy between me and Duan Jingchen, but now why is it that everyone knows about it?

Gu Yixiao remembered everything now, and things were even more difficult to do. When he was in Sanya, he still had his memories back.

I slept badly that night, and my face was a little bad the next day.

During the meeting, Gu Yixiao was still sitting next to me. I don't know where the Siemens communications that used to sit next to me went, and how it became Gu Yixiao's special seat.

He didn't talk much, but he had a good eye, and when I was about to drink water, he handed me a water glass, and when I wanted to get up, he helped me pull out the chair.

The meeting ended quickly, and all the guests attending the meeting had to take a group photo on stage, and he cheekily squeezed around me.

When the photo was taken, he leaned over to me and whispered, "Tomorrow morning, the plane will be 10 o'clock in the morning, can you talk about it tonight?"

"Still drinking with you?" I asked, glancing at him.

"No, no, no. He hurriedly waved his hand and said, "It's normal, let's talk calmly." To say that I am not afraid that you will shoot me to death, when I heard that you and Duan Jingchen received a divorce certificate, I was so happy that I almost jumped up. To be honest, I am especially grateful to Duan Jingchen for cheating. ”

"You're looking for death. I said in a vicious tone, "Look at my jokes, you're so happy?"

"You can guess why I'm happy, so I won't explain. In the evening, can you make an appointment?" he looked at me with a smile.

Actually, I already agreed in my heart.

"If you don't speak, I'll take you as you agree. At eight o'clock this evening, Maji Japanese Restaurant is waiting for you. Once you're in, just report my name. If you don't go, I'll jump off that building. He said this quickly, turned and left.

In fact, in the past two days, since he took the initiative to talk to me, I have not been as depressed as before. I don't know why, but Gu Yixiao's serious and indecent words really never caused me pressure.

I glanced at the time and took a shower.

When I was about to go out, I opened my closet and was worried. Seeing Gu Yixiao, what clothes should I wear?

If I dress up too pretty, he will say that I just don't forget about him, and if I dress up too ugly, I feel embarrassed to eat in such a fancy place, and I don't want him to see my ugly side.

In the end, I chose a goose-yellow suit dress, tied a light blue belt around my waist, and wore a pair of pearlescent white leather shoes. This kind of dress is neither too ugly nor too ostentatious, and the whole effect looks refreshing.

I walked into the restaurant and said Gu Yixiao's name, and the waiter immediately led me in, and sure enough, he was waiting for me at the table. The first time he saw me, his eyes narrowed with a smile.

"Sit down and see what you want to eat, the Japanese food here is very authentic and tastes very good. Gu Yi said with a smile and helped me open the menu in front of me.

I took a few looks: "Peony shrimp sashimi, steamed tangerine peel baby abalone, salmon sashimi, sea urchin sashimi, foie gras sushi." ”

I quickly ordered, then snapped the menu shut.

Gu Yi looked at me and shook his head, and then unhurriedly ordered what he wanted to eat.

The food is served quickly, and the plates are particularly eye-catching, making you feel appetizing when you look at them. I hadn't eaten properly for almost a month, and when I saw this refreshing and inviting table in front of me, I suddenly felt hungry.

Gu Yixiao didn't speak in a hurry, but helped me pour the soy sauce, squeeze the mustard, and said, "Seeing that you are also hungry, let's eat first." ”

An hour later, I was full.

I have to say that Gu Yixiao is indeed very hearted. When people are full, they will be in an inexplicably good mood. Now, when I look at him again, it's not so unpleasant, and the depression in my heart seems to have dissipated because of the delicious food.

I've been depressed for so long, and it's clear that there has been a change for the better.

"Have you eaten enough?" asked Gu Yixiao.

"It's full, though, I'm not in a hurry, you take your time. I saw that he hadn't finished eating, so I picked up my phone and said, "I can play games." ”

He chuckled in a low voice: "It seems that the mood is good, otherwise someone like you would be playing games." ”

Because of this meal, I didn't bother with him.

Gu Yixiao didn't let me wait for a long time, and I ate it after ten minutes.

He looked at me seriously, handed me a glass of warm sake and said, "Have a drink, this is not a good thing." ”

I took it and took a sip.

"I'll start wherever you want to start. He looked at me and said.

"Whatever you want. I said.

Although I said it lightly, I couldn't help but prick up my ears.

Gu Yixiao raised his eyebrows slightly and said, "Let's start talking from the moment we separate." ”

He paused at this point, and lowered his voice: "I thought I could swim far with you." At that time, I knew that you were the most important person in my life, but I didn't know why. That feeling of falling into a fog made me really want to die. Later, I lost my strength and slipped into the sea, and after choking on the water a few times, I lost consciousness at once. At that time, I could see that you were still floating safely on the surface of the water from underwater, and at that moment I was really relieved that at least you were alive. ”