Chapter 170: Am I Losing You?
"Don't make trouble, Xiaoya doesn't want you to be like this, you can't make her rest in peace. ”
Gu Nan looked at Xiao Ya with a smile on the tombstone, and finally lowered his hand, kneeling in front of the tombstone and feeling sad: "Xiao Ya, it's me who is not good, I couldn't stop him, otherwise you wouldn't have died." ”
Jin Nan turned around and whispered to He Niannian: "This person's emotional instability is too dangerous, let's go back to the hospital first." He Niannian nodded, Gu Nan hurt her twice, she was not generous enough to treat her politely.
As soon as the two of them took two steps, Gu Nan behind them grabbed a knife and rushed towards the two. At this time, Gu Nan, who had lost his mind, couldn't ignore anyone's words. Jin Nan hurriedly pushed He Niannian away and scuffled with Gu Nan.
"Gu Nan, calm down!" Yan Fei separated the two, and the knife in Gu Nan's hand scratched his sleeve. Gu Nan watched the bright red blood quickly seep through his sleeve, and finally threw down the knife.
Umbrellas tumbled down the corridors of the cemetery, wetting their clothes in the drizzle. She was just worried about whether Jin Nan was injured, but she didn't notice that an umbrella was handed over behind her: "You really shouldn't be discharged from the hospital on this kind of day." ”
Xue Yihuai? She was slightly stunned, why did he come too? He took off his coat and put it on her, glanced at Yan Fei, he pulled Gu Nan and shook his head at him. Xue Yihuai didn't say anything, hugged He Niannian and said, "Go back!"
She looked back in the drizzle, and as she drifted away, the cold tombstone was no longer visible, and the person in the picture was smiling sweetly. Yan Fei and Gu Nan fought side by side, standing quietly in the drizzle. At this moment, an inexplicable feeling welled up in my heart.
Such a cold aura of death spread in my heart, as if this was just the beginning......
Xue Yihuai followed her gaze: "Are you worried about Yan Fei, don't worry, they are brothers after all, and they won't really face each other." ”
He Niannian retracted his gaze and did not speak. After returning to the hospital, Jin Nan answered a phone call, which was very urgent and made him have to be in place immediately. He Niannian knew that he had delayed a lot of work because of his own affairs, and now that she had woken up, there was no major problem, and it was time to let him go.
Jin Nan still deliberately went to her attending physician: "Will there be any sequelae in my sister's situation?" She always wants to be discharged from the hospital, do you think she meets the discharge requirements in this situation?"
The doctor looked at him and sighed: "Mr. Jin, Sister Ling's situation is more complicated. Physical injuries are easy to heal, but psychological injuries take a long time to heal. From our observation of her during this time, it can be seen that she is psychologically traumatized, and she has had a very serious psychological trauma before this. In her case, she must receive psychotherapy, and it is long-term. ”
"People who live in the shadow of their psychology are much more vulnerable than normal people. A memory from the past will become a demon in her heart, and when she is weak-willed, it is very likely that the patient will hallucinate. This kind of mental illness is no more than a physical illness, and the family spends more time with the patient. ”
Jin Nan was embarrassed, this matter has come to this point, and it is not impossible to hide it from the second elder in the family. She is about to leave, Nian Nian is dead and divorced Xue Yihuai, who else can be by her side at this time except her parents?
"I see, thank you, doctor. I wonder if the doctor can recommend a doctor who is more authoritative in psychology?"
The doctor thought for a moment and pulled out two business cards from the folder: "This Doctor Yi is very good, and his qualifications are very high, but he may not be in Cangning City at present." The other is a well-known psychologist in the city, you can try him. ”
On the windowsill, she stared out at the drizzle in a daze. Jin Nan hurriedly ran over and pulled her back: "Don't you know what is going on with your body, can you blow the wind?" and counted her down, closing the window.
Jin Nan sighed heavily, this person is back, but the soul still hasn't come back. It looks like there's nothing wrong with it, but now she doesn't laugh, it's nice to have an expression. This dejected appearance, how can he leave with peace of mind?
"Girl, we really can't hide such a big thing from our parents anymore. If I can keep you, it's fine, but the boss wants me to leave for the mission. What the hell do you think, girl?"
He Niannian reluctantly hooked the corners of his mouth: "Brother, I'm fine." This matter has passed, so you don't need to let your parents know. I...... I want to go abroad for a while, I don't want my parents to see me like this, I don't want them to worry. ”
Jin Nan nodded, and the doctor also said that a change of environment is also good for the condition. It's just that if she goes abroad, does it mean that she and Xue Yihuai are really so separated?
After hesitating for a moment, she still asked, "What about Yihuai...... Have you really decided to divorce? Nian Nian, do you really want to like him so much? Actually, I also see that he is good to you, and I don't think your problem is ......."
He Niannian shook his head suddenly: "Brother, don't say it again." We're completely finished, I'm still the ordinary me, he's still the hot rich businessman. Between us, there was no confrontation from the beginning. Brother, you can arrange it for me, I want to leave as soon as possible. ”
Jin Nan nodded: "This is no problem, but ...... Aren't you going to say goodbye to your parents?"
Yes, she doesn't know how long she will have to go. She still needs a reason to calm her parents' hearts, she thought for a long time before saying, "I have thought of a reason, but I just need Xue Yihuai's cooperation." ”
Before the season changed, she had already wrapped herself tightly. Back at her parents' house, she struggled to make herself look less emaciated. When Yu Wen knew that the child had fallen, he was indeed sad, but Nian Nian said that he wanted to take this opportunity to go abroad to relax, and it was logical to take care of his body by the way.
"A change of environment is good for her health, the doctors have said so, don't worry too much, parents, and your second elder. "Jin Nan is the most painful, and he has to cooperate with Niannian to coax his parents, he really has a hard conscience. No, because the child is gone, he also followed him to hide from the second elder, and Yu Wen has been counting him since he knew about it.
"Mom, it's not that I don't approve of you going abroad for a walk, it's just that ...... There are no such things as our native chickens and black chickens abroad, so I am afraid that the opportunity to raise the body will be delayed. How do you five big men know how important it is for women to raise their bodies after giving birth!"
He Nian has been silent, and Jin Nan has already wasted a lot of tongues. But although Yu Wen agreed to let her go abroad to relax, she also had a requirement that she must first raise her at home for a month or two to play abroad. It's not too much to ask, and it's really in line with her situation.
Xue Yihuai coughed lightly: "Nian Nian, you just listen to your mother's words, first raise at home for a period of time before leaving." ”
He Zhiyan nodded: "Yes, your mother-in-law is a busy person, so she naturally has no time to take care of you, so you will live at home first and let your mother give you good conditioning." ”
Originally, I thought that I would go abroad quickly so that I didn't have to face Xue Yihuai, but in this way, in order to prevent the second elder from being divorced, wouldn't she still have to see Xue Yihuai?
It's already dark, Jin Nan is leaving early tomorrow morning, and He Zhiyan naturally has no reason to let his daughter and son-in-law go: "The girl will stay at home to take care of herself, and you will come back often if you are busy with work." ”
Now that she is in the same room with Xue Yihuai, she is so confined to her breath. Xue Yihuai poured her a glass of boiling water: "Take the medicine and sleep!"
Her fingertips trembled slightly: "Thank you, sorry for your trouble." In the future, if you have time, come over, and don't come if you don't have time. Tonight, can you ......," she paused as she tugged at the corner of her dress, "can you...... Share a room with my brother, but don't let my parents know. ”
He could see her uneasiness, the past was like a nightmare, and she couldn't sleep well. And he has gradually become her inner demon, and now she is afraid of being alone. The loss was written on his face, and he nodded: "Okay." "I had a lot to say, but I only said one word.
He turned to the door, holding the handle but not moving: "Niannian, am I losing you?" He wanted a divorce, just to keep her safe. When the danger was gone, he thought he could rest assured that he could tell her that he had her in his heart. At that time, everything was still in time. But now, the feeling she gave him was out of reach.
She looked up suddenly, and for some reason her nose was suddenly sore.
Am I losing you?
The lights in the room were dim, the windows were only a narrow width, and the wind blew in and shook the wind chimes on the windowsills.
She stood up, pulled out an oil painting from under the table and muttered to herself: "I used to think that this was a sweet dream, but I didn't expect that I had been lying to myself for more than 20 years." It was a complete nightmare, a blood-soaked nightmare. ”
As she spoke, she slammed the oil painting, which had been treasured for more than 20 years, towards the corner of the table......
Jin Nan was cleaning up things in the room, and Xue Yihuai pushed the door in as if he had lost his soul: "Jin Nan, do you have any wine at home?"
Jin Nan sighed: "What's the matter? Why did it become like this? I've always suspected that there was something going on between our family and yours in the past, but I didn't have an answer to anyone." Now that it's all like this, do you think you still need to hide it from me?"
Xue Yihuai didn't know how he said the past, that memory had always been something he couldn't touch, but now he could finish it calmly. Does this mean that he has already let go? But why is it so late to understand, if ......
There was no if, and there was if, and he shouldn't have provoked her in the first place.
Jin Nan couldn't say a word for a long time, it was their duty to protect their family, defend the country, eliminate violence, and peace. Sacrifice to save people, but not to blame the person who is saved.
The reason is obvious, but Xue Yihuai was just a child at that time, and he couldn't use adult thoughts to ask a child to understand things.