After hanging up the phone, I was silent for a long time, all I had in my mind was the blurry and shaking video that was projected over and over again, and there was a low cry for help ringing in my ears over and over again, as if I saw the student named Xiaofan again, a vivid face, in the long river of years, gradually drifting away.

My mother came over with food at noon, and there was another person who came in with her, but I looked up and was a little surprised, it was Lin Dong who I hadn't seen for a long time, with a piece of black cloth on his left arm, his expression was calm, and his face was haggard.

"I was waiting for the car outside, and I happened to see Lin Dong, he drove me over! I heard that you were not feeling well, so I insisted on coming up to see you, Wanwan, that, I refused, but Lin Dong insisted, and I couldn't say anything!" My mother seemed to be afraid that I would be angry, so she whispered when she came over to set up the meal for me.

Because of Xiaofan's affairs, I was not interested in anyone or anything, and I didn't comfort my mother, I just grinned stiffly and didn't say hello.

Lin Dong thought that I was unhappy to see him, and he was a little nervous, and he hesitated to stand a few steps away, but he looked at me with a worried face and did not speak.

My mother didn't dare to intercede for him, so she only persuaded me to eat more. I looked up at Lin Dong when I had eaten almost and asked, "Your mother?"

Lin Dong's eyes turned red all of a sudden, as if he didn't expect me to care about this, so he reluctantly smiled and replied, "Let's go! On the fifth day of discharge, I'll leave!"

Seeing that I wasn't angry because of Lin Dong's arrival, my mother interjected, "Lin Dong, you also mourn and change." Sooner or later, this person will have to go through such a situation, and if he lives to suffer sin, death, it is not a relief. ”

The mother was not so sad at first, and she didn't know what she remembered when she was talking, but her voice choked up, she raised her hand and wiped her eyes and said, "Tell me, this good person is only in his fifties, why, how can he say that he is gone! This person's life is so fragile!"

I listened to my mother's words, tears fell uncontrollably, Lin Dong thought I was sorry for Liu Juan, but he was extremely excited, and took two steps to the bed, his face full of stubble, and a pair of eyes were unusually bright.

I can't explain it, and I can't tell if it's because of Liu Juan's sudden death or because of Xiaofan's death, I just feel that the grievances I suppressed in my heart are like a flood that bursts the embankment, and I can't stop finding an outlet for catharsis no matter what.

My mother reached out and patted me on the back and persuaded, "Wanwan, when you are pregnant with a child, don't have such emotional ups and downs, it's not good for your health!"

Lin Dong also followed and persuaded on the side, "Wanwan, thank you, really, thank you! I didn't expect you to have such a big reaction, I originally thought that you must hate her and resent her, after all, she has never been sincere to you for a day in the years you have been with me! I feel guilty, if you break your body again because of this matter, I will really be speechless!"

Lin Dong's voice was a little hoarse, and with a choked tone, he seemed extremely sincere.

I shook my head desperately, but I couldn't say a word, and finally hugged my mother and cried uncontrollably. Mother and Lin Dong took turns to persuade but no one could hear my heart in a word, I felt uncomfortable, the more I cried, the more uncomfortable it became, the blocked breath in my heart, the thorn I pierced, no matter what, could not be relieved.

"It seems that I came at a very bad time!" An extremely cold voice, with a faint tiredness, sounded at the door, I couldn't really hear the cry, and I didn't react at all, but Lin Dong, who had been standing by the bed, was the first to turn his head to look, and his mother shouted in surprise, "Shaobei?"

I was awakened by her call, with longing, anger, and disbelief, I raised my head from my mother's arms, and after coming into contact with Pei Shaobei's calm and flat eyes, my heart instantly became dead silent.

What am I longing for? Do I want this man to bring me a different result? But didn't he already give that a foregone conclusion when he went to the office last night to take me away? I feel that the words I once swore to Sister Yu now sound ridiculous.

"Shaobei, that, you're here, that, Lin Dong, he, he ......" The mother seemed to be a little flustered, pointing at Lin Dong for a long time without speaking.

On the contrary, Lin Dong was more calm than her, he looked at Pei Shaobei and said with a light smile, "Lawyer Pei, you don't have to be so hostile to me, when my mother was hospitalized, Wanwan once visited, except for the relationship that I am Wanwan's ex-husband, as a friend, or even if it is a return gift from her who once visited my mother, I should come over for a visit! Didn't you tell me before, as a man, you should be able to afford to let it go and be open-minded? I will also give you this sentence! Since Wanwan has chosen you, I hope you can treat her well and don't deliberately target her past affairs, if you are really such a small belly, then what is the difference between you and the previous me?"

"Hmph, Mr. Lin thinks that you are better than you before, then I really want to congratulate!" Pei Shaobei was still standing at the door, his tone extremely cold.

My mother was embarrassed and didn't know what to do, and even the hand holding my arm was stiff, and it hurt me to hold it, but she didn't know it herself. I felt very uncomfortable when I saw my mother like this, and I was just about to stop this meaningless quarrel, when I suddenly heard Lin Dong say again, "Lawyer Pei doesn't need to be so-for-tat, since the main lord is here, then I won't bother." ”

After that, he turned his head to look at me, with a faint worry in his eyes, and said in a low voice, "Wanwan, I'll leave first, you can call me if you have something!"

I didn't answer, but with disappointment in his eyes, he sighed and turned to leave.

"Lin Dong!" I suddenly looked up and stopped him, but I pushed my mother out and said, "Please send my mother back, my father is at home by himself, I don't worry! Also, thank you for coming to see me today!"

Lin Dong was stunned, as if he couldn't believe that I would take the initiative to let him send my mother back, my mother's anxious eyes were also full of doubts, I didn't look at Lin Dong anymore but said to my mother, "Mom, go back, Shaobei will take care of me, you don't need it!"

My mother paused for a moment, but she also understood, looked at me with some anxiety and then looked at Pei Shaobei, and said hesitantly, "Shaobei, Wanwan's body is still very weak now, if there is anything, say it well!"

Pei Shaobei's tone eased a lot this time, and nodded in response, "Auntie, don't worry, I will take care of Wanwan, so I won't send you!"

At this time, it was inconvenient for my mother to stay any longer, so she followed Lin Dong all the way out of the ward, and couldn't help but look back at me worriedly at the door, I smiled at her and reassured her. Pei Shaobei saw off his mother at the door, and then closed the door and walked to the chair opposite my hospital bed and sat down.

I didn't see it clearly when he was sitting across from him, and I realized that his eyes were bloodshot and the stubble on his chin came out, and he looked extremely tired. I looked at him, and after all, I was still worried that I had been annoyed, "You didn't sleep last night?"

"Well, I didn't sleep!" Pei Shaobei's deep voice was slightly hoarse, and his body adjusted his posture when he spoke, leaning back on the back of the chair, and squinting his eyes slightly.

I really want to ask him where he didn't sleep last night, I really want to ask him why Xiaofan's case ended like that, I really want to ask him if Pei Zile is okay? I have thousands of questions in my heart, but it is difficult to even open my mouth.

Pei Shaobei didn't speak again, just pointed his head and fell asleep. He slept quickly and restlessly, his brows furrowed all the time. I looked at him steadily, and the anger in my heart vanished, replaced by a kind of guilt, and this guilt came as quickly as it seemed to instinct like the blind trust I had placed in him yesterday.

I trust him in his adherence to his profession, I trust his fair judgment of the law, and I trust him to be angry at this unfair treatment that does not integrate into society, but now, I am also guilty of involving him in this right and wrong, in the ugliness and greed of human nature, and in the comparison and balance of power, because I know that for Pei Shaobei, what he disdains the most is to use power to do his own work.

Pei Shaobei seemed to be really tired, he slept from noon to the evening, I asked the little nurse who came to the ward round to bring an extra quilt for Pei Shaobei to cover, but did not wake him up and let him sleep on the hospital bed. And Pei Shaobei never woke up until night fell, and the cold dispersed the sun, he woke up suddenly, but as if he had a nightmare, he sat up from the chair, and his first action was to look in my direction urgently.

I was looking at him, so I saw him when he looked at him. The head-on impact shook me on the spot.

I have seen many kinds of Pei Shaobei's eyes, calm, cruel, cunning, and affectionate, but I have never seen such one. With a deep trepidation, with a kind of uneasiness from the depths of my soul, through those bloodshot eyes, with a newly awakened blankness, my heart instantly beat wildly.

"Pei Shaobei!" I had a sour nose and forced me to call him with tears in my eyes.

"Well, I'm here!" Pei Shaobei took a long time to come to his senses, and his eyes returned to their usual calmness, but his voice was even more hoarse and dry than before.

Suddenly, I didn't care, about the ending of Xiaofan's case, about the sadness of that fragile life. I suddenly felt that all the tragedies in the world, all the tragedies, all the unfair treatment, all the despicability that is not tolerated by society and morality, all these bring me anger and unwillingness, which are not equal to one-ten-thousandth of the look that the man in front of me looks at me.

The unbearable weight of life, the unbearable lightness of life, everyone's choice is to find the most beneficial to themselves and the foothold they care about the most after weighing the pros and cons, waving a knife to cut the mess, heartache, despair, but still to continue to live, with their own bearable strength, live!

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