has been tossing for half a night, and the child doesn't know whether he is tired of crying or because Aunt Li's so-called comfort has played a role, and gradually falls asleep. I didn't dare to let go, so I half-hugged him and leaned on the bed all night.

The next day, I wanted to go to the talent market, but my mother went out early in the morning and told me to take good care of Gu Xiao. I had no choice but to stay at home.

Gu Xiao was very curious about the new environment, and changed from last night's commotion to become extremely excited. I was playing with my toys on the floor, and it was just before noon that my mother returned, holding a plaque with a red cloth in her hand, and quietly entered the storage room.

I seemed to have guessed what it was, and I thought I would get it myself in two days, so that my mother would not be sad again. I didn't expect Gu Xiao's fuss, but it made her more anxious than me.

Sure enough, the living are the most important people today. The gap between life and death is slowly eliminated in these trivialities of life. People always have to look forward and move forward, which is the ability that life gives to everyone. No matter how great the hardships you encounter, as long as you are alive, you can only climb this way.

I let Gu Xiao play in the pile of toys, walked into the storage room, and sure enough, I saw my mother putting incense and making offerings. Seeing me come in, he asked a little worriedly, "Is Xiaoxiao still making trouble?"

I shook my head, trying to persuade her that Gu Xiao's night crying was not disturbed by the so-called father's soul, but the old man's mood needed to be appeased, and I had no other way but to follow it.

"Mom, don't worry. Dad loves me so much, and he wanted to see Xiaoxiao born the most before his death. I believe that even if he is still in this house, it will not hurt the child. I'll put incense on my dad and tell him personally, okay?"

My mother nodded again and again, and I sighed in my heart and came out after silently putting incense. My mother was talking in for a long time, and it wasn't until I was ready to make lunch that she came out with a tired face.

"Mom, you didn't sleep well last night, let's take a nap with Gu Xiao in a while!

The mother waved her hand, but did not refute, but went to coax the child with a smile. After eating, I asked my mother to take care of Gu Xiao and went downstairs to the garage alone.

It was full of my things, and I was in a hurry at the time, so the other party was inside, but now it is covered with a thick layer of dust. Looking at these things again, those memories that seem to be long ago also become vivid.

The extracurricular books that I haven't finished reading, the courseware that I printed, the fourth- and sixth-level test questions I bought, and those daily necessities with Pei Shaobei's taste, just like garbage, piled up together and become waste.

I rolled up my sleeves and sorted out everything I couldn't use, and threw it in a nearby trash can. After rummaging for a long time, I found my notebook in the corner. I haven't turned it on for a year, and I don't know if it can be used. I took out my graduation certificate from the box containing important documents, and when I opened it and saw the green inside, I just felt like a world away.

After packing up the things he wanted to use, he laboriously moved the two boxes containing clothes upstairs, and the whole person was already exhausted as if he had collapsed, spread out on the ground and gasped.

Mother was coaxing Gu Xiao to sleep, the bedroom door was closed, I didn't go in, I sorted out my things in the living room, and hung my clothes in my small bedroom, the musty clothes made people look very bad, I chose a few things that I could wear, stuffed them into the washing machine and washed them, and then turned on the computer on the coffee table in the living room.

It hasn't been running for a year, and the computer is a little stuck, but it hasn't broken, and I'm a little glad that I'm busy looking through my resume. At that time, when I was about to graduate, I also followed Lin Dong to the application site, and I also made a resume with his help. It's just that it didn't come in handy, when Lin Dong was applying, Mr. Mu had already asked me to talk about staying in school.

I dug up the resume that had been dusty for many years from the mailbox, opened it and read it, only to feel extremely naïve. I've never applied for a position, and I don't know anything about how to apply or what to look out for.

I sighed at the computer, but I wanted to go back to school and continue teaching. But this idea flashed in my head, and I quickly denied it.

Not to mention that I haven't been back for a year, even if I really took a long vacation, it would be impossible for me to keep my position for so long. What's more, there is still Yang Lian in the school now, and my disappearance this time will definitely make her catch her, and it is impossible to go back again.

I dispelled the little bit of happiness in my heart, calmed down and revised the resume, and after working for a long time, I finally felt that I had a little appearance. I cast a wide net on the Internet, and I voted for positions such as translators, clerical workers, and so on, as long as they were suitable.

Over the next three days, I received a lot of job calls, but when I heard that my child was just over a year old, I hesitated and said that I would consider replying to me. I don't understand why these people are so obsessed with the problem that their children are too young? I don't think I'm going to affect my work because of my children.

My doubts were answered quickly.

On the sixth day after Gu Xiao came to the city, he had a high fever, and it reached 39 degrees 5 in one night. I went to the hospital with my mother overnight and was diagnosed with viral pneumonia. When I asked why, the doctor said that the child's low immunity and the surrounding environment were the main factors.

I suddenly regretted taking Gu Xiao to the city, the air quality here is really incomparable with the countryside. The child had a fever and a cough, his whole smiling face was red and hot, and he couldn't even drink milk. The mother was distressed and only shed tears, and I looked at the needle in the child's hand like a knife.

At this time, a job applicant called me a second time and said that I should try to intern for three months, and if it was suitable, I would sign a regular contract. The position is a translator. I am very satisfied with the position, and the salary offered is also very good. I really wanted to go, but when I heard him say that he would go abroad at least twice a month, I looked at the old and young in the ward, but I couldn't open that mouth anymore.

In the end, I chose to refuse.

I sat on the side of Gu Xiao's hospital bed, looking at the little child, crying and crying because of the pain, I deeply realized for the first time that a woman after becoming a mother has been bound by it in this life, and it is impossible to leave as before.

"Who's calling?" my mother asked me with a look of displeasure and raised her red and swollen eyes.

"Applicants!" I didn't hide it, and said the whole process. After hearing this, the mother sighed and persuaded, "Wanwan, the money left by your father is enough for us to spend, the child is too young to live without people in the past two years, it is really not good, you don't want to go to work." If you feel bored, find a short-term part-time job, I remember when you were in college, didn't you also translate materials for others?"

My mother's words reminded me that I couldn't leave Gu Xiao to pursue my career, but I couldn't just sit with my mother and eat nothing.

"Well, Mom, don't worry, I'll go back and look for it! In short, I won't leave Gu Xiao alone!"

The mother turned her gaze to Gu Xiao, and her tears couldn't help but flow down again, "This child's life is miserable, his father is not there when he is born, and he lacks the companionship of his father's love, tell me, if even you go to work, won't this child be too pitiful?"

My nose was sour, my heart was uncomfortable, I found an excuse to leave the ward, stood alone on the corridor, looked at the sky outside the window, took several deep breaths, and the depression in my heart gradually eased.

I took out my mobile phone from my pocket and hesitated to press out Pei Shaobei's previous number, but I didn't dial it out for a long time. I don't know if if I told him at this time that the child was alive, he would still be willing to accept it.

Pei Shaobei said with red eyes that he hated me again, and I still remember him saying to me with a smile at the end, it doesn't matter if the child is lost, their Pei family will not accept an illegitimate child at all!

I don't know if this sentence is angry or sincere. I don't dare to gamble, and I don't know what it means to face Pei Shaobei again and let Gu Xiao stay in the middle, for me, for Gu Xiao, and for Pei Shaobei.

I didn't dare to think deeply, and in the end, I deleted the number and made a turtle with a shrunken head.

The doctor was worried that the pneumonia would worsen, so I went directly to the hospital, and my mother accompanied me all day and night, and I was reluctant to leave for a moment. Fortunately, after two days of hanging bottles, the fever subsided, but the cough was not good, and I was snoring when I gasped, and the people who listened to it were distressed.

After Gu Xiao's fever subsided, she also recovered, and her mother was worried that the child's nutrition would not be able to keep up, so she urged me to go home and make egg custard for Gu Xiao to eat.

I stayed up in the hospital for two nights in a row, and the whole person became unkempt and extremely haggard. took a taxi back to the community, but met Pei Shaobei again when he got off the car.

It happened to be more than seven o'clock in the morning, and the people who went to work in the community were one after another, and Pei Shaobei's car was parked around the corner, so eye-catching.

I really don't want to see him like this, and I don't know what else I can say when I see him again, whether I can't help but tell him about Gu Xiao's existence.

I walked quickly, bowing my head to get past him, but I was almost hit by the suddenly open door, and the next moment, the person was dragged directly into the car. My waist hit the handbrake, and my tears almost came down from the pain.

"Pei Shaobei, what do you want to do?"

I was embarrassed and angry, and I struggled hand and foot without looking at him, but my body was hugged by him, and I smelled a strong smell of alcohol.

"Tonight!" I heard the familiar and unfamiliar name, and felt the man's embrace, but the hand that refused was resting on his shoulder, and I could no longer exert any strength.

After a pause, I whispered, "Pei Shaobei, you're drunk! Go back, don't come to me again!"

"Evening!" the murmuring voice spread from my neck, and my face burned red instantly, but the moment I turned my head, I smelled the smell of wine, the unfamiliar smell of perfume.

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