After that, Jiaqi learned to eat with a small spoon and serve me plates. Every time Jiaqi and I were at home, I would teach Jiaqi how to hold a spoon and how to eat.

Overall, I'm a bit of a patient person. On the first Saturday afternoon of early May, I taught Jiaqi at home to eat with a spoon on her own.

I really taught her for a long time, I first taught her how I could hold my hand and grasp the spoon, then stuff the spoon into the bowl with millet porridge, then pick it up little by little, and finally put it in my mouth.

This process is not simple, because it is very simple for adults to hold a spoon, but it is difficult for children, the main thing is to hold the spoon steadily, and to control the force. It's a delicate job.

When Jiaqi taught herself to spoon millet porridge to eat, Jiaqi also knocked the spoon off several times, and the white rice water splashed on the table, making a mess. However, after repeated attempts, Jiaqi finally learned to spoon rice porridge, although in the end she only ate two bites and stopped eating, and I still relied on me to feed her to finish eating, but I was still very pleased to see Jiaqi's first success.

After that, there is the work of serving the plates, which is the first step in teaching little Jiaqi to become a maid in the future...... Ahem, it's far away.

Actually, it's not a big deal, it's just that when I finish eating and closing the meal, I ask Jiaqi to help me hold it, and then wherever I go, she follows like a tail, and finally I walk into the kitchen and she follows with a snap.

Of course, there was also a time when Jiaqi took a plate with some food because of her lack of strength, and accidentally dropped it on the ground and broke the plate into several pieces.

At that time, I would frown, and then gently hit her little buttocks, and then tickle her, and hit the place where she peed, at that time Jiaqi was afraid, the sparse and faint little smoke eyebrows relaxed, the small mouth widened, and made the appearance of crying, at that time I had to pick up Jiaqi and comfort her: "Jiaqi is obedient, don't cry~~"

The sound made me gag even when I heard it.

But the effect is still there, at least with my comfort, Jiaqi will soon stop crying.

After that, once Jiaqi made a mistake, such as playing with toys all the time and refusing to eat, or refusing to go into the underground warehouse or running around disobediently, I would spank her ass and scratch her peeing place, and then she would be scared and afraid to make a mistake.

After that, it's a game between me and Jiaqi.

When Jiaqi was more than a year old, I had already bought a lot of toys for Jiaqi, mainly building blocks, dolls, small colored balls, small cars and some puzzle dolls.

Sometimes, when Jiaqi is sitting on my bed and grabbing a small red ball or some other toy, I will suddenly snatch the toy in Jiaqi's hand, and then deliberately get very close to her head, then Jiaqi will immediately reach out and grab it, and then I will hold it higher, and then Jiaqi will also stretch higher, until finally I hold it too high above her head and she can't reach it, and the little smoke will wrinkle and "ahhhhhhhhhh The ground screamed, and the little feet stood on tiptoe, and there was a look of disappointment and displeasure on my face, and then I would immediately return the toy to her, and then Jiaqi's face would immediately turn for the better, and she would grin happily.

Another time, I made Jiaqi cry, and that time after I helped Jiaqi pee, I suddenly closed the glass door of the bathroom, and locked Jiaqi in the bathroom with a playful mentality.

Through the frosted glass in the bathroom, Jiaqi's big eyes looked at me anxiously, and her little hands snapped on the glass door, but I always looked at her outside the glass door, looking at her cute appearance of not being able to open the door and being in a hurry, I felt a little funny in my heart.

Through a layer of glass, Jiaqi's eyes were full of fear and anxiety, constantly calling "papa, papa~" and I replied with her silent smile.

Maybe at that moment Jiaqi was really afraid that I would lock her up like this forever and abandon her, suddenly Jiaqi started crying, I haven't heard her cry so loudly for a long time since Jiaqi grew up, so frightened that I hurriedly opened the door and pulled her out and patted her back to comfort her.

"Jiaqi doesn't cry, doesn't cry...... Papa is wrong......"

comforting Jiaqi, Jiaqi still cried for a long time before slowly stopping, staring at me for a long time with big moist eyes, a long time, as if she was afraid that I would treat her like that again.

When I stopped crying, the corner of my eye fell on my calf, which was a little painful, but I saw Jiaqi's little hand, which was grasping my trouser leg hard and tightly, as if she was afraid that I would abandon her......

I was blown away.

At that moment, I realized that I had done something very stupid.

In this world, except for Aunt Bao Juan, I am almost the only relative of Jiaqi.

I am Jiaqi's only support, she trusts me with all her heart and relies on me.

And if I abandon her one day, then she will have nothing but death.

In Jiaqi's little heart, I was almost all of her life, her God, her faith.

Her life and mine have long been tightly bound together, and they can no longer be partially separated from each other.

Of course, there are happy times, for example, when I play computer games, Jiaqi will sit on my lap, staring at the glittering computer screen without blinking, showing a curious and yearning look, but Jiaqi can't use a mouse, and finally can only watch me play some games, and let out a slight exclamation such as "ahh

And when it comes to sleeping, by the way, I used to sleep on the couch in the basement that could be pushed open to turn into a cot. On that little bed, I would sometimes mischievously cover Jiaqi tightly with the pink blanket, and when Jiaqi couldn't help it, she would poke out a small black head from under the blanket. But the blanket was so thin, it had already outlined her every move, I was ready long before Jiaqi was about to poke her head out, and the moment her head came out, I would suddenly rush in front of her, "wow" with a strange scream, so frightened that she opened her mouth wide and smiled and immediately retracted her head again. But after a while she will stick out like a turtle again, and then I will scare her again...... This repetition will also make Jiaqi feel funny, and I also feel that the childlike heart in my heart has been awakened.

Sometimes, I really feel that in addition to being a little bigger, I am just an ignorant child at heart.

Jiaqi also dreams, it seems that I don't know what Jiaqi dreams, but sometimes she will cry in the middle of the night, and at that time, I will also be woken up by her, and then coaxed her to sleep......

There are so many stories between me and Jiaqi, and sometimes, I think that if one day I really go crazy and record all the little things I can think of with Jiaqi, I am afraid that I can write a book as thick as a Xinhua dictionary.

The days with Jiaqi are never lacking in cheerfulness, nor are they lacking innocence and childlike fun.

The only thing missing is money.

Behind the joy of Jiaqi every day is the cruel reality of my savings that are dwindling day by day. As May draws to a close, my savings are finally less than $1,000 for the first time.

I have no money.

That day, I searched all the places in my house where I might have inadvertently stored coins, and in the end I only found more than 20 yuan, plus my remaining savings, it was only 963.

That time, I really panicked.

1000 yuan, I don't know how long it will last. But I don't expect it to be more than 2 months. Jiaqi wants to eat, although it doesn't cost money to eat at Aunt Bao Juan's, but I always have to give Aunt Bao Juan money, and it is impossible for her to fully bear the cost of raising Jiaqi.

I can't afford to raise Jiaqi.

On the 20th of May, I was already deeply aware of this.

Moreover, what makes me even more painful is that Aunt Bao Juan actually had a problem at that time.

That day, I still went to school as usual and sent Jiaqi to Aunt Bao Juan as usual, but when I walked into the steamed bun shop, I was a little surprised to see Aunt Bao Juan standing at the door of the store with red eyes, looking at my arrival with a painful and solemn face.

At that time, I vaguely felt that something might have happened to Aunt Bao Juan.

Because since I met Aunt Bao Juan, I had never seen her look at me in such a disturbing way.

"Jiandong, you're here. Seeing me leading Jiaqi into the store, Aunt Bao Juan restrained her expression a little, but before I could say anything, Aunt Bao Juan said to me very seriously, "Jiandong, you still have time to go to school, right? ”

At that moment, I sensed that the atmosphere of the whole steamed bun shop was surprisingly cold and serious.

I wanted to ask a few questions to ease the atmosphere, but at that moment I saw a red handprint on Aunt Bao Juan's right cheek that was not very obvious.

Aunt Bao Juan...... It was as if he had been slapped in the face.

At that moment, I was really terrified, because there could only be one person who would pack such a warm-hearted woman as Aunt Juan, and that was Aunt Bao Juan's husband.

The carpenter who often travels in the field.

I was very apprehensive, and I found a domino stool and sat down with some anxiety, and Jiaqi was also surprisingly obedient, without making any sound, holding my hand and standing beside me, her small mouth slightly open, unable to make a sound.

I don't know why, there is no one else in the store today, Aunt Bao Juan also found a domino stool and sat down opposite me. She bit her lip with her teeth, her face was a little hesitant, as if she wanted to say something but couldn't.

"Aunt Bao Juan, if there's anything, just say it, it's okay. Seeing that Aunt Bao Juan was difficult to speak, I finally opened my mouth first.

When I said this, Aunt Bao Juan finally spoke, but her hands were still rubbing uneasily, and she seemed to be a little embarrassed.

"Jiandong, Aunt Bao Juan told you, in fact, Auntie really wants to raise Qiqi, Auntie likes this child very much, and has always treated her as her own child. Also, Auntie likes you very much, Jiandong. Aunt Bao Juan said this as soon as she opened her mouth, and then, she gradually went deeper into the topic and said, "It's just Jiandong...... Auntie wants to ask you, your mother...... Do you want to pick up Kiki?"

When Aunt Bao Juan asked me this, my heart was shocked.

This day has finally come?

At that moment, I finally understood that Aunt Bao Juan didn't want to raise Jiaqi anymore.