But it has come to this, and I can't regret it, and I can't say I regret it. Regret can only make the choices you make feel powerless.

But I am still reluctant in my heart, not because Han Xinyu's wealthy family business can allow me to live that worry-free life.

It's that she really brought me happiness, and that kind of happiness is a happiness I haven't experienced in a long time.

She is so infatuated, so caring, and so sad now, because I make her so difficult to let go of this hard-won feeling.

And why haven't I experienced it! This kind of emotional entanglement Zhang Qian once let me experience, so I am afraid, afraid that the love that is within reach, but the yellow sorghum is a dream, and after waking up, it will disappear completely, and it will come and go in a hurry.

It's not that I don't love Han Xinyu, it's not that I don't want to be with her. It's just that I can't, because my mind seems to be a bit perverted, and I suffer from gains and losses, and I am moody.

To sum it all up, the answer I gave was that I still couldn't let go of Zhang Qian. still can't get out of the whirlpool of the last relationship. If you can't get out, why bother others!

Whether it is a point or a stay, it is just a difference of thoughts. And the difference of one thought, I don't know how many beautiful marriages have been caused since ancient times, and they will never see each other.

But now my perverted twisted heart can't make me believe in innocent feelings, I suffer from gains and losses, I am suspicious, and I don't believe that any girl can bring me eternal love.

But I still long for that eternal love, which can come to my side, embrace me, give me warmth, give me sunshine, and give me confidence.

But Han Xinyu's love for me was too high, and I didn't dare to touch it. Because I am sober and understand myself, I am too weak. This weakness brings me low self-esteem and lack of self-confidence.

After thinking about these things clearly, I said to Zhao Liu: "I have loved, but that is only once." ”

Zhao Liu asked, "Why do you say that?" ”

I said, "There is no such thing as why." ”

Zhao Liu said: "Then don't you want to know why you hugged Han Xinyu and Mi Le yesterday?"

I said, "No, I remember." ”

Zhao Liu said: "It's really boring. ”

I said, "There's a lot of boring stuff!"

Zhao Liu said: "That's what you said, then what are you going to do next?" ”

I said, "I haven't thought about it yet." ”

Zhao Liu said, "Then you should rest first! I want to go out for a walk." ”

I said, "Okay." ”

After Zhao Liu finished speaking, he was about to go out, and I suddenly remembered that Zhao Liu had just come here and didn't have any money on him, so I said, "You wait." ”

Zhao Liu said: "What's the matter." ”

I said, "Just wait." ”

As I spoke, I took 1,000 yuan from the cabinet and handed it to Zhao Liu.

Zhao Liu looked at me like this and said, "What does this mean?" ”

I said, "You've just arrived here now, you don't have a job yet, you can use this money first, if it's not enough, I'll take some for you another day." ”

Zhao Liu said: "Dude has been messing around here for so many years, and you are still afraid that I will be hungry." ”

I said, "Don't be polite to me." Take it!"

Zhao Liu said: "I really don't need it. Take it back!"

I said, "If you're being polite to me, don't treat me like a brother." ”

Zhao Liu said: "Okay! It's better for you to be good to me, come and kiss one." ”

Zhao Liu took the money, and then pretended to kiss me.

I was so frightened that I stepped back, and then laughed, "Get out!"

Zhao Liu said, "I'll be back." ”

I said, "You must come back, or where are you going?" ”

Zhao Liu said: "Okay, okay, I won't tell you, I still have to go to Di Bar to find someone, so I won't mess with you." ”

I said, "Slow down on the road, remember to call me if there is anything." ”

Zhao Liu said: "Okay, then you can rest well! ”

I said, "Thank you." ”

Zhao Liu said: "You're kind of fart!"

After saying that, Zhao Liu walked out and helped me close the door by the way.

After Zhao Liu left, I was left alone in the room, but I still didn't feel sleepy. Then I remembered the events of last night:

After I got drunk, Han Xinyu called and said that she wanted to see me, and I said, no need to see me. But Han Xinyu still said that she wanted to see me, so I agreed. After hanging up the phone, I called Miller and said that I would invite her to dinner, and Miller said that she was filming and couldn't leave for a while. I said, it's okay to be late, but you have to come. So Miller agreed.

Later, I lied to Han Xinyu that Mi Le was my girlfriend and what I liked was Mi Le, and I took Mi Le's hand in front of Han Xinyu and gave me a hug. When Han Xinyu saw it, she said to me coldly, Okay, can you borrow your girlfriend to go out with me and say a few words.

I don't know what they said, but when the two of them came in, they were like sisters, and there was no more hostility than before.

Before leaving, he also said to me, I don't agree with your resignation, as for how many days you want to rest, it will be a few days, and your salary will not be less than a penny.

After saying that, he jumped over and hugged me, then kissed me on the cheek. Then he walked away with a grin.

Looking back on this, I always feel that something went wrong, what did Han Xinyu and Mi Le say or make a deal when they went out, or did they already know each other, and then think about it, this is impossible! Han Xinyu's surname is Han, and Mi Le's surname is Mi, they can't be sisters! One is a talented student of Peking University, and the other is a graduate of the Academy of Arts, so they can't have any communication! Why did they go out for a while, and after coming in, Han Xinyu's mood changed. I don't have the discomfort at the beginning, and I seem to be happy.

What's going on! Could it be that the two of them really made an ulterior deal after they went out, it is impossible to trade power and sex, both of them are women, unless the two of them are gay, this is even more impossible! If that is the case, Han Xinyu will still cry for me.

That's a money deal, and that's impossible! From what I know of Miller, she's definitely not that kind of person.

What is the reason for that?

Do you want to ask Mi Le now, oh thinking of Mi Le, I suddenly feel a headache again. Just now I snatched away someone's first kiss, and it was still in the way of impact.

Thinking of this, I suddenly laughed inexplicably. Thinking about it, I'm really cheap, I took away the first kiss of other girls, and I'm still smirking here. It's really shameless and invincible in the world.

Well, forget it, don't want to. Let's get some sleep first. After a few days, when Mi Le is in a better mood, I will apologize to her and ask by the way, what kind of ecstasy soup she poured into Han Xinyu last night, and before she goes out, she is still incompatible. After coming in, they are like sisters, and the relationship is like a confidant who has nothing to say for decades. The girl's mind is really elusive.

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