Holding Jiaqi, I sat on the ground for a long, long time, until there was no movement outside, until the sky outside gradually darkened.

Night fell until it was dark, and Dad didn't come back.

And Jiaqi was already crying tired and fell asleep.

I sat in the living room, looking at the mess everywhere, looking at the toppled tables and chairs, and my mind kept flashing the terrible scene when my father was angry.

I didn't leave the house that night, but stayed in my bedroom, I didn't eat anything, and Jiaqi slept in my bed, motionless.

I tried not to think about my father in my mind, but I still couldn't help but think about him.

Where the hell did Dad go?

Where would he be now?

Also, what did Dad mean by the phrase "You don't have to go, I'll go!" before he left.

I was really scared that my dad would never come back.

I'm really scared.

A few hours passed, and my mood had gradually calmed down, and I was no longer as impulsive and resentful as I had just been, and when the blood and anger turned into reason and calm, I began to regret and fear.

I really didn't think I'd get to where I am today.

Moreover, I started to go from resenting my dad to resenting myself, why didn't I tell my dad about Jiaqi earlier? If I had told him earlier, maybe I wouldn't have been where I am today.

At the end of the day, it's still that damn Lori cultivation plan. Because I want to possess Jiaqi alone, I don't want to expose her, so I will hide it from my father.

It's all because of my desires.,It's all because of that Lori cultivation plan.。

Sitting in the bedroom, I didn't turn on the lights or the TV. Because I always feel that the darkness calms me down.

I thought about it a lot, a lot in those hours.

I also recalled a lot of things about me and my dad when we were kids.

I think of when I was a child, he drove me all the way to buy toys through the car door, I thought that when I had a fever, I also put down my work and came back to take me to the hospital, and I thought that every time I went home, he would come back to cook for me, just hoping that I could have a healthier body and achieve better results. I forgot all these bits and pieces when I was angry just now, but now, they have resurfaced.

Yes, how can these important memories be forgotten?

Obviously, it can't be forgotten.

The more I think about it, the more I want to scold myself. Anyway, my dad still cares about me. He was so angry because I had failed to take care of a baby girl of unknown origin because I had failed to take care of my studies, and had been making up all sorts of excuses to deceive him and treat him like a fool.

Come to think of it, I really wasn't a good thing myself.

At that moment, I really felt the urge to cry. I've never been someone who cries at every turn. Nineteen years of loneliness and introversion have taught my heart to be calm, but at this moment, I really want to cry.

I don't know what kind of mood my dad is in at the moment, will he hate me too? Could it be that he has lost his anger? Or maybe, he is on his way back at the moment?

I went from sitting on the bed to lying on the bed, holding my head in my hands, staring blankly at the ceiling, and thinking of what my father was like now.

Where did Dad drive?

All I know is that every time Dad is in a bad mood, he drives out for a ride.

But not once has it been so fierce and ferocious as this one.

I cared about my father's last words.

Will he really never come back? If so, what am I going to do? Is it ...... Since then, I've been living alone with Jiaqi alone?

I lay in bed, thinking more and more, panicking more and more. As time went on, Dad still didn't come back. Maybe it was because I was so tired, so I just lay in bed and fell asleep, and I didn't take off my jumpsuit.

In the middle of the night, I woke up, my face was still in pain, when I reached out to touch it, I felt a large piece of flesh swollen, ran to the toilet to take a look, and found a large swollen red handprint on the left side of the face, which was a little shocking.

Ever since I was a child, my father hardly beat me much, and even if I sometimes disobeyed my father and taught me a lesson, it would not be as fierce and heavy as this time.

It was the hardest time my dad had ever beaten me since I could remember.

I washed my face, but because it was cold water, it hurt my skin even more, and I had to give up.

When I got back to the bedroom, I heard Jiaqi's cry again, thinking that I didn't feed her dinner, I had to get up, go to the kitchen and find a little cold rice, and then put it in the pot and pour water to boil, and when the rice was soft, I put a little salty and minced meat, and then wait for the chazuke to be colder, and then feed Jiaqi spoonful by spoonful.

"Kiki, eat. I comforted Jiaqi, who was sitting on the bed, and fed her. Jiaqi looked at me with her mouth open and her dark eyes, and then swallowed the meal in small bites.

It seems like a long time since I've fed Jiaqi in the middle of the night.

During the meal, Jiaqi was very quiet, looking east and west with her little eyes, chewing soft rice without straight teeth.

After feeding Jiaqi, Jiaqi grabbed my palm again, restless for a while, I didn't have much mood to take care of her, so I let her lie back in bed, and sure enough, it didn't take long for her to fall asleep again.

When I saw Jiaqi falling asleep again, I also felt a little hungry, so I went to the kitchen and made some food. After eating, I went back to my bedroom and lay down on the bed looking at the ceiling again.

For more than two hours, I lay in bed and did not fall asleep, the whole person was very uncomfortable tossing and turning in bed, and my brain was also in a trance, very chaotic.

It wasn't until near dawn, when the faint morning light came in through the curtains, that I fell asleep in a daze.

I don't know how long I've been asleep.

I only remember that I was woken up in a daze until the phone rang in my bedroom. When I got up from the bed and was about to get the phone, my brain was already a lot clearer, thinking that if this phone was a call from my father, what would my father say, how should I deal with him, and would he forgive me?

With such trepidation, I picked up the microphone.

However, to my surprise, it was not my father's voice that came from the microphone, but a woman's voice.

And it's a voice I'm familiar with.

"Hey, is it Yang Jiandong?"

"Ah?...... Is it Aunt Xiaofang?"

On the other side of the phone, it was Aunt Xiaofang's voice, which really surprised me. My first reaction was that Aunt Xiaofang probably knew about my quarrel with my dad yesterday, so she called to comfort me.

But what Aunt Xiaofang said next made my soul fly out of the sky, like being struck by lightning.

"Yang Jiandong, hurry up and come to the People's Hospital! Your father has been in a car accident!!"

"Huh?" At that moment, I couldn't breathe or think.

I really didn't expect it to happen so suddenly, and at that moment I was hanging in the air with the microphone in my hand, and I couldn't believe my ears.

How could there be such a coincidence in the world? What the hell is going on with Dad?

"Aunt Xiaofang, this is ...... Really?" I really don't want to believe it.

"Really, Jiandong, come quickly, the orthopedic department on the third floor of the People's Hospital ......"

Aunt Xiaofang's tone seemed to be very anxious, and she hurriedly told me the address and urged me to hurry up. And one of my hearts was terrified to the extreme.

At that moment, the worry of my father's accident completely occupied my heart, and I had completely forgotten about the quarrel I had with my father yesterday.

At this moment, I realized that in the face of real disasters, no contradictions, any quarrels, are not even a fart at all.

In this world, there really is nothing that cannot be solved, except death.

Hearing Aunt Xiaofang's address, I didn't have the heart to think about anything else, so I hurriedly hung up the phone and sat up from the bed to get dressed.

When I got up from the bed, I noticed that my feet were shaking and trembling to the point of weakness.

I was scared that something would happen to my father, and I was scared to this extent.

I quickly put on my coat and went out, I only had time to look at Jiaqi before going out, and after seeing that she was still asleep, I didn't hesitate anymore and rushed out of the house as fast as I could.

I didn't even use my bicycle, but ran to the nearest street and took a taxi as I ran, and finally hit the one directly out of the destination and rushed all the way to the People's Hospital.

When the People's Hospital appeared in front of my eyes, I felt like I had woken up from a dream.

Because it's all too real. Before that, I really didn't think that car accidents would happen to my family, and before that, I always thought that words like car accidents were limited to clichés such as TV dramas and movies, and then even if the news newspapers and the car crash that happened every day, I really didn't expect it to happen to my family, and it was my only relative, my father.

When I rushed to the third floor of the People's Hospital, I slowed down, but my heart was even more uneasy and panicked.

How did Dad hurt the ground, could it be a serious injury......

Don't let anything happen.

I prayed in my heart.

When I walked to the corridor on the third floor of the hospital, I saw a familiar figure.

Aunt Xiaofang was standing at the door of a room, and when I saw her gloomy expression, my mood instantly fell to the bottom.

"Aunt Xiaofang......" Seeing Aunt Xiaofang, I stepped forward step by step and took the initiative to ask, but my heart became more and more uneasy.

"Jiandong, you're here. Hearing my voice, Aunt Xiaofang also saw me, her face was really very gloomy, and she couldn't see any hope.

"Auntie, what the hell is wrong with my dad......" I asked her straight to the point.

"Jiandong, you have to be a little mentally prepared for this matter. When I asked, Aunt Xiaofang's face was also twitching, and she didn't dare to look at me directly, "Actually, Auntie didn't want to tell you." But, Auntie thought, you ...... There are always points. ”

Hearing Aunt Xiaofang's words, I already vaguely understood my father's condition, I didn't listen to Aunt Xiaofang anymore, and directly pushed open the door of the ward and walked in.

The moment I walked in, I was completely devastated.