In the dark alley, I couldn't see the things around me clearly, I could only see the shadows of the houses vaguely, and I could see the darkness in the depths of the alley, and the snow around me.

This alley has changed my life.

It's a magical alley.

It's also a hop of alleys full of memories.

For me and Xueqi, yes.

I sat on the crossbar in the corner of the alley, panting softly, a cold wind blew in the alley, the water on my clothes had not yet dried, the cold wind blew, making me shiver slightly.

"Dad, you're the terrorist on the radio, right? You planted the church bomb, right?" Sitting next to me, Xue Qi asked me softly, with a hint of suspicion in her tone.

"Fool, what's the bomb, it's just that I know that you didn't tell me that you were going to get married, and I was angry and asked someone to help make a harassing phone call posing as a terrorist, just to make you stop so that I could have a chance to meet you. ”

I replied lightly to Xue Qi, but my tone was very peaceful. It's all come to this point, anger, complaints, and insults are meaningless.

"Qiqi, you said that you have been gone for two years, and finally got news of you, but you are getting married, can I not be angry? Of course I want to see you. ”

I said without hurry, and after I finished speaking, Xue Qi was silent. She must have understood my feelings. Disappeared for two years, and when there was finally news, he was told that he was going to get married, and this kind of thing would make anyone crazy in a hurry.

After hearing my words, Xue Qi lowered her head silently and sat for a while. And I rested, took a few breaths, and finally, I spoke again.

There was no anger, no whining, no mania, there was the calm and gentleness of the past.

"Qiqi, how are you doing in the past year and a half?"

I asked softly.

Xue Qi sat beside me, rubbing her little hands restlessly, just like when she was a child, a habit she had since she was a child, and it hasn't changed now.

"I'm doing well, Dad......" After a pause for a while, Xue Qi finally opened up the conversation and started chatting with me, "Dad, the day I left home, I went to my mother's. ”

Xue Qi's words surprised me slightly. Sure enough, Xueqi had already found her mother, just as I expected.

"Your mother...... Is it Cheng Qiaofang, right? is it the woman in the haunted house I took you to before?" I tilted my head sideways, looked at Xue Qi, and asked.

Xue Qi nodded, her eyes staring at the ground.

"Hmm. ”

"I'm sorry, Qiqi, actually Dad should have told you your mother's name earlier, in fact, I knew it when I took you to the haunted house that time. However, I thought that I had been with you for so long, and if I told you about your mother, I was afraid that you would leave me and be angry with me, so I never told you......" I said apologetically, "Qiqi, how did you find your mother?" Finally, I asked with some curiosity.

Xue Qi stumbled for a moment, then straightened out her conversation and said to me: "When I participated in the urban song and dance competition at the opera house, the judge who gave me a score was called Cheng Qiaofang...... I had the impression that she was very nice. Then I saw the note you put in the basement and thought of her, so I went to look for her. ”

And then ...... Is she really your mother? Your mother is a judge at the opera house?" I asked in disbelief, I didn't expect such a coincidence in the world, I didn't expect Xueqi's mother to actually be, and Xueqi actually met her mother, moreover, in the theater.

In the dark, I am afraid that there is really a providence. Xue Qi inherited her mother's talent for drama singing and dancing, and it may be destined to meet her mother in the opera house.

"Well, she's a music teacher...... Previously sang drama at the opera house. Xue Qi said slowly, "Later, my ...... My dad died the year I was born, and she went back to her hometown to be a music teacher for many years. Later, he returned to the city for treatment, and sometimes worked as an instructor at the opera house. ”

"I see. Alas...... I sighed heavily. "And you got her for a paternity test, didn't you?"

Xue Qi nodded and said, "I showed my mother that piece of swaddling clothes of yours." She believed me. ”

Hearing Xueqi's answer, I finally understood a lot of things.

For a few seconds, we fell silent again, and finally, I spoke first:

"Your mother...... What's ailment?" I asked softly.

When I asked, a hint of gloom flashed in Xue Qi's big eyes.

"Leukemia ......"

Hearing Xue Qi's answer, my heart sank slightly. Sure enough, this is the disease, I'm afraid Cheng Qiaofang was very painful before she died.

"That's right...... So you've been taking care of her since you left home?"

"Hmm......" Xue Qi bowed slightly, but her face was full of sadness. From Xue Qi's story and the sad expression on her face, I can faintly feel that Xue Qi has had a very difficult time in the past year and a half.

"Where have you all been in the past year and a half? I have searched many places but I can't find you. I said to Xueqi.

"In the neighborhood in the north of the city, my mother's rented house ......," Xue Qi replied in a voice as light as the wind.

"The northern part of the city, ah......" I don't have a deep impression of it, but I know that it is the edge of the city, and I don't go there much.

"The money for your mother's treatment...... How?" I continued.

Xue Qi tilted her head sideways, glanced at me, and said:

"After the father who gave birth to me died...... Their original house was always empty, there were few people in that area before, but then the city center expanded there, and the house price went up, and a real estate developer wanted to buy that piece of land, so my mother sold the house for more than two million ......."

Xue Qi answered me softly, but I was stunned for a moment. In the past year and a half, I always thought that Xue Qi didn't have much money and should have suffered, but I didn't expect Xue Qi's mother to be so rich after selling the house.

More than 2 million, even if you count the money for the treatment of leukemia, the rest is quite considerable.

"No wonder you've been sending me letters saying you're doing well, so that's how it is. I let out a sigh of relief.

"Qiqi, did your mother die later?" I said in an almost apologetic tone.

Xue Qi nodded a little sadly and said, "I passed away half a year ago, and when I met my mother, she was already in her late stages......

"And then you lived alone?"

Xue Qi nodded, and then she said, "Sometimes, Ma Bailong will come to see me." ”

"He knows about you, why are you willing to tell him but not me?" I looked at Xue Qi with some dissatisfaction.

"......" This time, Xue Qi was silent, she didn't answer me, but her little hands were rubbing even more.

"You ...... What have you done?" I asked, lowering my voice.

Hearing my words, Xue Qi shook her head, and then looked at the ground of the alley, where there was nothing, a void, and a clean.

I swallowed, sighed, and said:

"Qiqi, why don't you tell me about your mother? You tell me, we can solve it together, I can help you hire a nanny to take care of your mother. Why are you not telling me?" I scolded.

Xueqi paused, and then said softly, "My mother...... After knowing that you did that to me, she said she didn't want me to look for you again......"

Xueqi's answer made my heart sink slightly, it turned out to be Xueqi's mother's meaning. But it's no wonder that no matter who it is, their daughter will definitely be angry when someone else makes her stronger.

The thought of my death against Xueqi made my chest cramp again. If I hadn't done that to Xue Qi in the first place...... Xueqi and I certainly wouldn't have gotten to this point. Perhaps, at this moment, I will still sit at home and watch TV happily with Xue Qiqi. I did all of this.

"Qiqi, you forgave your mother, didn't you? She threw you away and didn't come to raise you. I asked Xue Qi again.

Xue Qi snorted, and then said in a somewhat choked voice:

"My mother couldn't do that, my mother was very poor at that time, and my father who gave birth to me was so seriously ill...... She couldn't help it. It seems that Xue Qi finally understood her mother's plight and finally forgave her. That's why she will take care of her mother until the end of her life.

"Then your mother is dead, and you have lived alone for so long, aren't you afraid? Why don't you come back? Dad already knows that he is wrong and has gone too far. Why are you still doing that?" I said dissatisfied.

Xue Qi pursed her lips, and then, she slowly turned her face, looked at me with some embarrassment, and said:

"Dad, you're 35 years old, you should be married too. I'll come back, I'm afraid you'll still be the same as before...... Because I'm missing out on other women. Dad, I can't do that. That will hurt you for the rest of your life...... Moreover, I also like Ma Bailong. He's a nice guy and treats me very well. ”

Hearing Xue Qi's words, my breathing became a little irritable, I let out a breath and continued to ask:

"Qiqi, you love Ma Bailong very much, right?"

I asked Xue Qi with this sentence, Xue Qi lowered her head, her face was a little guilty, but a little serious.

"Hmm...... I love Ma Bailong, Dad. After a long pause, Xueqi calmly told me the answer.

"Yes. ”

Strangely, this answer, which was supposed to make me feel manic, was now in my heart, but it didn't make me feel jealous or unhappy, I just felt calm.

The reason is very simple, because I remember that when I choked Ma Bailong before, he still refused to tell the picture of Xueqi even in the face of my death threat. I also know that Ma Bailong is indeed a boy who loves Xueqi very much.

He is really willing to give everything for Xueqi.

Moreover, he has a good temper and is very talented. He is really a perfect boy who is very suitable for Xueqi.

All I have is a deep feeling of emotion and melancholy. A kind of emotion that Xue Qi has finally grown up.

That's the only feeling I have.

Ma Bailong is indeed a good man, a good man who can stand the test, although he took Xue Qi from me. But I confessed. This time, I really confessed.

The light in the alley was getting darker and darker, the night was getting deeper and deeper, and the cold wind passed through the alley, sometimes blowing on my face, making me shiver and even my teeth chatter.

"Dad, are you cold?" Xue Qi looked worried when she saw me shivering. "Dad, I'm sorry...... It's all my fault, I think you're a terrorist, if I hadn't run just now, you wouldn't have jumped into the water......"

"It's okay, Dad is fine, I can go change my clothes later. I hugged my chest, shivered, and then smiled at Xue Qi, and I took a deep breath, and the cold air of the winter night inhaled into my lungs, making my lungs feel like they were freezing.

I looked up at the night sky boredly, and I didn't know why I had the leisure to look at the night sky at this time. But I found the night sky to be really beautiful tonight. There were no lights in the alley, and when I looked at the sky from the alley, I could see the sky full of stars. The sky is so far away tonight, there are still a little clouds during the day, but I didn't expect it to be sunny at night, the starlight is so brilliant, there are so many stars that it is shocking, and both eyes can't take it.

Looking at the starry sky, I was silent for a while, my hand gently tapping on the rough, dry beam.

There was a long silence.

It's been a long silence.

For a long time, I looked at the starry sky like that, feeling the cold feeling of the north wind coming from the end of the alley and blowing on me.

"Qiqi, do you remember when you were a child, in the summer, your father took you to the countryside to see the stars? At that time, did Dad tell you a lot of stories?" I couldn't help but say to Xue Qi like this.

Hearing my words, Xue Qi seemed a little puzzled, she looked at me, and then hummed softly.

"Qiqi, today's starry sky is also very bright, Dad will tell you a story again. ”

Hearing my words, Xue Qi was even more confused, she wrinkled and was beautiful, and said in a low voice:

"But, Dad, I've heard all the stories you told......"

"No," I smiled and shook my head, still looking at the stars in the sky, "this time, Dad will tell you the story of Daddy's personal experience, about Dad and me, and about you." ”

Hearing my words, Xue Qi was silent, she put her hand on her thigh and listened carefully to what I had to say. Growing up, Xueqi has been very fond of listening to stories.

This time, although the situation is exceptional, it is no exception.

I looked at the galaxy in the sky, recalled in my mind the bits and pieces of my past 20 years, and then began to speak slowly:

"Qiqi, can you believe it? The alley we're staying in now is the alley where Daddy picked you up in the first place. I withdrew my gaze and said to Xue Qi.

"Huh?" Xue Qi's eyes widened, looking at me in disbelief.

"Really, Daddy doesn't lie to you. It was almost 22 years ago, when my father was still in his first year of high school, and he was also a stupid little boy, it was a National Day, and my father wanted to walk around the street, thinking, maybe I could bump into a beautiful woman, and I could have an affair, haha. So I rode my bike around, and finally I touched it and I came here. Came to this alley. ”

I smiled and said in a calm tone.

"At that time, this area was all old towns, there were few houses, and they were very low, and there were some old grandfathers and grandmothers living here, and not many people usually came. Dad was right here on his bike, almost, right at that location......"

As I spoke, I pointed to a clearing in front of the alley and said:

"Dad, I saw a red sack and threw it in the middle of the alley, and Dad was very strange at the time, and then he got out of the car and took a look. After that, I was scared. Guess what Daddy saw?"

"Daddy...... Could it be that I am ...... You picked it up?" Hearing my words, Xue Qi couldn't calm down anymore, she looked at me with beautiful eyes, "But, Dad, didn't you say that I was picked up by Dad, your father?!"

I looked at Xue Qi with some guilt and said:

"Dad lied to you, I'm sorry, Qiqi, in fact, you were picked up by my father. Dad was a high school student at the time, and he had some bad thoughts in his head. Dad was a little at that time and wanted to get close to girls, but Dad never had. Dad's only crush on the girl is also with other boys, so Dad, I want to recruit girls, which can be regarded as satisfying. ”

"Dad is afraid that Qiqi will look down on me and think I'm a pervert, a pervert. So I used to hide it from you," I said apologetically, "but now Dad really doesn't lie to you anymore." I'm never going to lie to you again, Qiqi, you really came from me. ”

Xue Qi looked at me in disbelief, as if this incident was too sudden for her, and her thoughts were a little confused.

"Then Daddy, you...... Why didn't you hand me over to the Civil Affairs Bureau? Why did you adopt me? and...... Daddy how is your daddy ...... Agreed?"

I laughed a little, really helpless and bitter.

"Qiqi, it's okay if you think Dad is a hooligan. At that time, Dad picked you up and took you in because ...... Dad is bad. Dad is also a man, and he will have a lot of longing and curiosity about girls, at that time, I just wanted to raise a girl to play with, and then, raise her, let her listen to me, become my woman, listen to me, and be with me forever. ”

"Hehe, in the words of the cartoons that Qiqi used to watch when you were a child, it's the 'Lori Cultivation Plan'. ”

If what I said before was just a prelude, then what I said at this moment is the real vernacular, the truth.

Lori Cultivation Program.

This plan has been hidden in my heart for too long, for more than twenty years.

But, finally, on this day, I spoke up.

I thought that one day when I said this, I would be nervous, I would be at a loss, I would be humiliated in front of someone, and I would be in a very embarrassing situation.

But now that I say it, I feel a sense of relief, a sense of peace that haunts me.

Lori...... Cultivation plan?" Xue Qi muttered the word in some consternation, her tone was a little surprised, and then I saw a trace of blush on her little face, and Xue Qi seemed a little shy.

"Daddy, you want to ...... me When Lori raises?"

"Hehe, dad did think that at that time. Qiqi, isn't Dad dirty?" I smiled wryly, and let out a long breath.

"Dad, how can you do this...... You...... You ......" Xue Qi looked at me, but she couldn't speak, she really couldn't imagine that I had the idea of treating her like a toy, which made her completely confused.

"Qiqi, it's okay if you blame Dad. However, Dad doesn't want to hide it from you anymore. After so many years, Dad didn't tell you these things, and it has been very painful and tiring. I don't want to hide it anymore. ”

I said with a sigh.

Hearing my words, Xue Qi calmed down a little, and then, she stared at me tightly and asked:

"That's Daddy...... Didn't your dad oppose you then?"

"Hehe, of course I objected. I looked at Xue Qi and said softly, "When I first picked you up, you only had a big head, and you could fit it in the basket." I'll pick you up from this alley and ...... I rode home from the passage in front of the alley. My dad travels a lot, he's busy, and my mom ran away from home when I was very young, so there's only one person in my family, and I'll hide from my dad to take care of you. I bought you milk powder, baby bottles, diapers, baby clothes...... Hehehe, I was really busy for a while. Dad doesn't know how to take care of the little ones at all, and he doesn't know how to take care of you, and sometimes you cry, thinking you're hungry, and breastfeeds you, only to find out that you wet the bed, and it really exhausts me half to death. Sometimes you cry in the middle of the night, and I get up in the middle of the night to nurse you...... It really tossed me to death, haha. ”

Xue Qi listened to me quietly, her big eyes did not blink, and she seemed to be in a trance.

"You, you opened your eyes on the fifth day or so that I picked them up, it was a dusk evening, you were on the floor, I was pulling the curtains, and I lowered my head and saw you open your eyes for the first time, and at that time, under the sunset, I thought your eyes were really big and beautiful. I think you will be a big star and a big beauty when you grow up. So at that time, Dad thought, no matter what, I want to keep you and raise you. ”

Listening to my story, Xue Qi lowered her head slightly, I don't know what kind of mood Xue Qi felt when listening to me tell these stories, was it surprise, dissatisfaction, guilt, or novelty? I don't know, for me, I'm just telling my own story.

"By the way, Qiqi, you may not remember, when you were young, your name was Jiaqi, Jiaqi, Jia, and a real Qi next to the word Wang. I had a crush on a girl in junior high school, her name was Zhang Jiaqi, and I gave you this name. ”

"Jia...... Qi?" Xue Qi seemed to feel a little unfamiliar with this name, she was beautiful and frowned, as if thinking about the memories of the past.

"Yes, Jiaqi, do you still have an impression?"

Xue Qi tilted her head, her big eyes showed deep contemplation, and then nodded slightly, and said, "Teacher Ma used to call me that sometimes. "Teacher Ma is referring to Ma Yike, she always called Xue Qi Jia Qi when she was a nanny in my house, so she knew Xue Qi's original name.

"Hehe, it turns out that Ma Yike told you. I sighed. "Qiqi, do you remember, Teacher Ma used to be a nanny in our house and took care of you for more than a year, and she also helped me as a temporary English translator at that time. ”

Xue Qi nodded, and then said:

"I vaguely remember something. Mr. Ma also told me about it. ”

"It's good to have said it. When Mr. Ma came to our house, you were just over five years old, not yet six years old. I smiled.

Xue Qi looked at me with a complicated face, and then asked me a little strangely:

"But, Dad, you were just a high school student...... How did you raise me?" it seemed that this point caused a lot of confusion in Xue Qi's heart.

"Hehe, when I think about it, I think it's incredible. It's such a distant thing, but sitting in this alley today, it's pitch black, and it feels like a lot of forgotten things are recalled. I slammed it towards Xueqi, then looked up at the sky and said, "I'll tell you from the beginning." ”

"After picking you up, Dad secretly raised you, used his New Year's money and pocket money to buy you bottles, milk powder and clothes, and then secretly put you in the second floor of the basement, which is the room where the miscellaneous items are piled up at home. In that case, even if my dad comes back, he won't be able to find you all at once. My dad came home very rarely and I was lucky that he didn't find you at first. I took care of you secretly like that. Then when I was in school, I would take time out of my lunch time to run back from school, feed you, change diapers, and go back to class in the afternoon, so I took turns going back to school and home. At that time, there was a period of time when Dad's school was going to be fully closed, and he couldn't go home for lunch, and Dad couldn't come back to take care of you, so he put some laxatives in the school cafeteria, and some of the students in the school ate until their stomachs hurt, and the school was not fully closed for a while. ”

"Daddy...... Are you putting medicine in the school cafeteria for me?" Xue Qi's eyes widened in surprise and covered her mouth, as if she couldn't believe my earth-shattering move. The stories I told Xue Qi today, in the past 20 years, no one knew, not even Ma Yike, even if it was confinement, they didn't know.

Only Xue Qi knows at this moment.

"Yes, Dad can't help it, if the school is completely closed, Dad won't be able to come back to take care of you. That's all Dad did. I smiled faintly, "But fortunately, there were no fatalities." ”

Xue Qi was frightened by my story, her small mouth trembled, and she didn't speak for a long time.

"That'...... And then?"

"Later, the school was open for a while, but it didn't take long for it to start being fully closed again. ”

"Then Daddy, you...... What should I do?" Xue Qi seems to have gradually been substituted by my story.

"At that time, Dad really had no choice. Because the people in the school are also very smart, there are special personnel in charge of pouring the soup, and Dad can't give the medicine anymore. And at that time, Qiqi, you had a fever again, and it was still a high fever. ”

"And what happened later?" Xue Qi asked me with a wink.

"I took you to the hospital to hang saline. I spent the night in the hospital with you, and there was an aunt in that ward who was also taking care of her children. I sighed and said, "Qiqi, do you remember an aunt named Bao Juan?"

Hearing my words, Xue Qi's expression froze, and then she shook her head, indicating that she didn't remember.

"Hehe, no wonder, you were only 1 year old at that time, how could you have an impression. Dad told you, if it weren't for Aunt Bao Juan, Qiqi would have been in the orphanage a long time ago. ”

I gently patted Xueqi's small hand pressed against the crossbar and said;

"Aunt Bao Juan used to run a steamed bun shop, on the way to school, about two streets, the second storefront, but now it has been converted into a hardware store. Aunt Bao Juan is very nice, she is one of the best and greatest people I have ever met. I was in the ward with Aunt Bao Juan that night, and at that time I was desperate because of you. I'll ask Aunt Bao Juan to help me raise you on my behalf. To my surprise, Aunt Bao Juan actually agreed. Later, for a long time...... Aunt Bao Juan raised you on your behalf, and she raised you until she was three years old. Qiqi, do you still have an impression?"

Xue Qi pouted, her eyes were slightly open, but her head was shaking. I also smiled when I saw Xue Qi shaking her head, Xue Qi's reaction was normal, after all, she was only 3 years old at that time, what can she remember?

"Aunt Bao Juan is really nice, very enthusiastic and kind, and the people of that era are really much simpler than the people now. I sighed a little from the bottom of my heart, "When my father was in high school, Aunt Bao Juan raised you on my behalf, and my father saved all the pocket money and New Year's money and sent it to her to repay Aunt Bao Juan." There were a few times when Dad had no choice but to borrow money from his classmates, or to do odd jobs, and sold some of his childhood toys, so that he had money to support you. During the day, I gave you to Aunt Bao Juan to take care of, and at night Dad took you home and slept in the basement with you, because Dad was afraid that his father would know about it. Time passed day by day, Qiqi you have grown up little by little, at first just a few months baby, and then turned a year old, can walk, walk, and talk. Qiqi, do you know what the first thing you said at that time was?"

Xue Qi's big eyes were full of doubts:

"Yes...... What?"

"It's papa. Not Dad, not Mommy. It's papa, pa~pa~" Speaking of this, I laughed myself, "I don't know if it's because the pronunciation is unclear or what's going on, at that time you called me ppa, and then for a long time, you called me that." I'm used to it, too. But when I got to high school, I don't know why, maybe I was embarrassed. ”

Speaking of this, Xue Qi lowered her head a little shyly, her little face was gloomy, and she didn't know if it was because I had hit her heart.

Seeing Xueqi's shy appearance, I smiled.

"That's it, Dad's high school was spent in the process of taking care of you, and Dad thought it was incredible when he thought about it, and he was supported by me so quickly for more than two years. It felt like a dream. For more than two years, my dad didn't know that I hid you in the basement, and my relatives didn't know what I was doing on the sly. ”

"But things will still be revealed. Qiqi. I said quietly, "It's almost a few days before my father's college entrance examination, I went to pick you up that day, but Aunt Bao Juan cried and told my father that because she had no money at home, she refused to support you anymore." The husband of the tyrant's aunt even beat her. I know, in fact, Aunt Bao Juan has done a lot, and I am really grateful to her. Aunt Bao Juan has no choice but to refuse to take care of you, everyone has a hard time. Aunt Bao Juan didn't take care of you that day, and Dad was really scared and sad. Because I don't know what to do with you. ”

"And at that time, all the money that Dad had saved was also used up, and there was no money left to support you. ”

Hearing me say this, Xue Qi's face was full of worry:

"What then? Dad...... Uh, papa...... What did you do afterwards?" my heart shook when I heard Xue Qi call me papa again, and then I smiled knowingly and gratifyingly. It's been a long time since I've heard this title, and now I actually hear this title from Xue Qi's mouth again, I really feel so unreal, as if I'm in a dream.

"Papa, I have no choice but to put you in the basement first. But a few days later, Papa I received a phone call. I glanced at Xue Qi, "Do you know who it is?" That's one of the most respected people in Papa's life, his name is Chen Kaiye, I call him Mr. Chen, he was the chairman of Sanxin Enterprise at that time, he was a very wise, very kind, and talented person. At that time, I received a call from Mr. Chen, who said that he knew by chance from Aunt Bao Juan that I had a baby girl and wanted to adopt it. And I learned that Mr. Chen's daughter had also passed away. Mr. Chen's daughter is one year younger than you and her name is Chen Xueqi. ”

Hearing me say this, Xue Qi's eyes opened to the maximum, and her big eyes shone with surprise, as if all this I said had completely subverted her old ideas.

Mr. Chen...... I know, papa you lied to me before that I was her daughter......"

"There's no way, because Qiqi, your household registration book was given by Mr. Chen, so your name is also the same as Mr. Chen's surname, and later, after you went to elementary school, I kept calling you Xueqi, and gradually, I didn't call you Jiaqi. It wasn't until I was about 7 or 8 years old that I changed my name to you. ”

Xue Qi looked at me quietly, her mouth slightly open, and I continued to tell the story between me and Xue Qi.

"Mr. Chen wanted to adopt you, and I originally wanted to give you to him. "My memory goes back to the scene when I first met Mr. Chen and said goodbye to Xue Qiyu for the first time, and I think of Mr. Chen who got off the black Porsche at that moment, and I was in good spirits, I couldn't help but smile, it's really been a long time. "That day I promised Mr. Chen on the phone to let him adopt you. And then the next day. I took you to meet Mr. Chen, and I handed you over to him. ”

"I still remember that it was a rainy day, it was raining very much, very much, very heavy, I took an umbrella to see you off at the place I had agreed with Mr. Chen, at that time you were very small, only up to my thighs, nervously following me, refusing to leave me, I lied to you that we drove together to play. Then Qiqi you got in the car, and at that time I carried you into the car and closed the door. Originally...... I'm going to hand you over to Mr. Chen just like that, and I'll leave by myself. But...... In the end, I kept you. ”

Hearing this, Xue Qi's eyes showed a little anxious and excited.

“…… Why is that?" Xue Qi asked me excitedly.

I smiled and said:

"Because I don't want to. You cried so much in the car at that time, and kept calling me papa, papa, but there were tears on your face, crying so much, how could I be reluctant. At that time, I had been raising you for three years, and to be honest, I already had feelings. How can I give you away? ”

"Qiqi, Papa will be honest with you, Papa has a different reason for picking you up than not throwing you away. At first, I didn't understand anything, and when I picked you up, I still had some very dirty fantasies...... But later, after going through so much, I know how difficult it is to raise someone, especially whenever you call me papa, I always feel that you are a part of me, like a part of my life. So when I saw you crying in the car at that time, I really had no choice but to chase the car that left and begged Mr. Chen to return you to me. ”

What I didn't expect was that when I said this, Xue Qi actually cried, her eyes were red, she lowered her head and gently wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

I glanced at Xue Qi and smiled.

Then, I continued:

"Later, I left you like that, and kept you in the basement. After raising you for a few days, Papa went to take the college entrance examination, and on the day the college entrance examination ended, Papa also encountered an unexpected thing, at that time, the study committee member of the class actually sent a note to Papa, confessing to me...... At that time, PAPA was really unexpected. But when she confessed to me, it was already the end of the college entrance examination, and Papa didn't have time to respond to her, so we ...... They went their separate ways. I've been busy taking care of Qiqi for three years, and Papa didn't even find out that a girl liked her, which is really funny. ”

Xue Qi looked at my ears and listened to my story, as if she had fallen into a trance.

"That papa...... Did you see that girl again?"

I shook my head and said with some sighs, "No, Papa hasn't seen that girl since she passed me the note." ”

I continued: "When I came home after the college entrance examination that day, the thing I feared the most happened was that my dad found you in the basement. ”

"Ah, Papa, did your dad find me......? So what should I do?"

"Hehe......" I laughed, and then said with a slightly calm face, "I was really nervous at that time, and what I was most afraid of was being found out by my father, but he still found out." This is how paper can't hold the fire. At that time, my father scolded me and beat me. But I still told him that I would raise you no matter what, and my father was angry...... He drove away from home. ”

"At that time, I didn't know where my dad went, I stayed at home to take care of you until the next morning, when I received a call from an aunt saying that my dad had died in a car accident......"

"Ah......" Hearing this, Xue Qi covered her mouth in surprise, but tears rolled in her eyes, she wiped her tears again, and then lowered her head slightly and didn't dare to look at me.

"At that time, I was really scared, Qiqi, I was really scared, I didn't have many relatives, my dad was my dearest person, I knew that he had a car accident, papa I felt that the sky had fallen. Although my dad was very strict with me, Papa knew that he had always been very good to me, and he was really a good father...... "Speaking of this, my own heart is also a little sour, and the thought of my dad makes my heart really painful, which is probably the last painful memory I want to mention in my life."

Speaking of which, I felt a little sour in my nose myself, and I didn't look at Xue Qi's expression, but I thought she must be very upset.

"Papa, your dad is because of me...... Just got into a car accident?" After being silent for a while, Xue Qi said with difficulty suppressing her mood swings.

I shook my head slightly and said:

"Qiqi, it was just an accident, it has nothing to do with you. It was all made by PAPA. ”

"But, if it weren't for me, Papa, your dad wouldn't have been hit by a car...... Ah......" Xue Qi said later, and her voice continued, even with a hint of crying and self-blame.

"It's Papa's own fault, Papa I was too stubborn at that time, in fact, if my attitude had been better at that time, my dad wouldn't have been like that......"

I deeply remorseed, and then continued:

"After my dad had a car accident, I inherited his money and house, and I also had the capital to support you, so I started to support you alone, and I didn't go to college......

"Papa, you didn't go to college...... It's for ...... Me?" Hearing that I gave up the opportunity to go to college for Xueqi, Xueqi was shocked again, how could she think that I had paid so much for her?

"Hehe, I can't help it. You're still so young, I always have to take care of you at home, and when I go to college, how can I take care of you?"

I said helplessly, but my tone was very calm,

"Later, after some time, a man who claimed to be my stepmother came to the house...... She said that she had a relationship with my dad and was pregnant with my dad's child, but I thought she was here to cheat money, so I asked my uncle to help her get rid of her...... It's just that I didn't know at the time that she was really pregnant with my father's child. And that kid ...... It's Jasmine. ”

Hearing this, Xue Qi couldn't hide her surprise. My story is simply as legendary as the script, wonderful, but full of connections and cause and effect, and Xueqi has been blown away by me again and again.

"Later, PAPA I raised you alone, because I didn't have a household registration book, so PAPA I never let you go to kindergarten...... Later, Papa wanted to find a job, so he contacted Mr. Chen, who was going to adopt you, and Mr. Chen said that he liked my affection and righteousness and admired me very much, and he asked me to go to his company as an intern, starting from the lowest level of employees, and then working my way up the ladder. I went to work, and I hired a nanny to take care of you, and that nanny is now Teacher Ma Yike. When you came to my house at that time, Ma Yike was only 22 years old, and you were only more than 5 years old. ”

"At that time, Ms. Ma's family was also very poor, and her father had cancer, so she had to come to be a nanny, but I have always regarded her as a friend, not a nanny. ”

"After working for more than half a year, Papa was lucky, with Mr. Chen's relationship, I went to work in the sales department, and then Papa was lucky, took over the business of several large foreign companies, and also did some responsibility for the company, so I slowly became a manager, Mr. Chen said at that time that I wanted me to be his successor. Your household registration book was also given to you by Mr. Chen, saying that his daughter is not much different in age from yours, and that you can use his daughter's household registration book to register in the future. ”

"However, at that time, because Papa was climbing too fast, there was a boss in the company who was jealous and wanted to threaten me to quit the company. That person's name is Qian Yikang, he used to be a friend of Mr. Chen, and he also had a relationship with Mr. Chen's stepwife, and he is a very vicious person. ”

"That person named Qian Yikang kidnapped Qiqi you, and threatened Teacher Ma not to tell me about it......"

"I ...... Kidnapped?" Xue Qi was even more dumbfounded, although my story gave her enough shock, but when she heard about her kidnapping, she was shocked again.

"Don't you have an impression, Qiqi?"

When I asked, Xue Qi lowered her head slightly, thought about it, and said softly: "I have a little impression, but I don't know very well, sometimes ...... When I dream at night, I dream of being tied to a rope......"

"That's probably Qiqi, you still have an impression of that incident in your mind. I explained, "But fortunately, Mr. Chen helped, Mr. Chen was very smart, he helped me call the police, arrested Qian Yikang and them, and rescued you." ”

Speaking of this, I paused slightly, and Xue Qi also breathed a sigh of relief, as if she was hanging a heart in fear when I told it just now.

"And what happened to Mr. Chen? Xue Qi asked me with some concern.

Mr. Chen...... He's dead. I said helplessly, "Mr. Chen used to have an ex-wife, but they divorced, and Mr. Chen's ex-wife left with his son, and his son later went to the United States. Mr. Chen's daughter also died when she was a child. His stepwife is also under the guise of his assets...... Mr. Chen can be said to be very pitiful. Eventually, Mr. Chen died of liver cancer, and before he died, he entrusted me with a lot of things to manage the company he had set up for him. ”

"Ah, how so...... Mr. Chen, it's so pitiful. Hearing the heartache, Xue Qi couldn't help but sigh, after all, Xue Qi still has an innocent and kind heart, and can empathize with others, Xue Qi was more sentimental when she was a child, and she has not changed even today.

"Mr. Chen is really great, and although he is a failure emotionally, I still respect him. I said with some solemnity, "Later, Teacher Ma also felt a little guilty about me because of the kidnapping, and apologized to me for a long time, but I forgave her because she was also forced." Later, Mr. Ma's father also died of cancer. At that time, Ms. Ma was very sad, and I comforted her for a long time, and she gradually got better. Later, Teacher Ma was admitted to the teacher qualification certificate, Qiqi, you are also going to primary school, so she quit her job as a nanny and went to work as a teacher in other places...... It took five or six years before I returned to the city due to a job transfer. That day, I saw Teacher Ma off at the train station, and Teacher Ma also gave me a pair of cross-stitch of a good person's life, but I didn't have anything to send Teacher Ma, so I sang a song "I Wish You Peace" to Teacher Ma and sent her on the train. Hehe, I really felt as great as a god at that time. ”

“papa…… Have you ever liked Teacher Ma?" seemed to have insight into something, and Xue Qi suddenly asked me.

I was stunned for a moment, then turned my head and smiled at Xue Qi:

"Silly girl, you've found out about this, haha, you're still pretty smart. But at that time, Teacher Ma also had her own job, and I also had to develop my own career, not to mention that I couldn't let Teacher Ma take care of you for the rest of my life, so I still sent her away. If I like it, papa, I used to be a little bit interested in Mr. Ma. Ha ha. I touched my head and smiled, but my face was a little hot.

Speaking of which,. The vivid images of the past slowly emerged as I spoke, and I felt that in this dark alley, the scenes of the past twenty years were emerging one by one.

"Mr. Chen valued me very much, and after he passed away, he handed over some of the company's shares to me and made me the general manager. Because I can't live up to Mr. Chen's importance to me, PAPA works very hard, so Sanxin company has been developing and growing. ”

As I spoke, I smiled, but soon, my face became gloomy again.

"However, Qiqi, in fact, Papa has also been in love. Almost on the day Qiqi went to elementary school, Papa met the real love object of this life, it was a very eccentric girl, her name was Tang Mengyan, she was an accountant in the company at that time, and she was transferred to work in the company by Wang Feng's brother, who died a few years ago. ”

"Then why, papa, you weren't with that girl......" Speaking of this, Xue Qi couldn't hold it back, her little ass moved a little towards me, she bent down, and then held her chin with her hand, looked at me curiously, and asked.

Although it was an expected question, when it came to Tang Mengyan, a faint sadness swelled up in my heart.

"Because I had a misunderstanding with her. I sighed and said, "At the beginning, Tang Mengyan and I were just a boss and an employee, but after working for a while, I became familiar with Tang Mengyan, and we slowly became boyfriend and girlfriend...... We really have a good relationship. But one day, when she came to my house, she saw you, you called me papa, Tang Mengyan misunderstood, she thought you were my illegitimate daughter, I told her that you are my sister, but she didn't believe it, she also splashed hot water on your face, although it was accidental, but at that time I saw you crying, I still got angry, hit her, and then drove her away...... Later, the contradiction between me and Tang Mengyan became deeper and deeper, and in the end, we broke up like that. She also went to another city to continue working as an accountant, and I stayed here. ”

"Papa, you...... You and Tang Mengyan are separated, is it also because of me?" When she arrived here, Xue Qi was even more shocked, how could she think that because of her, I had lost so many important people and things in my life, how could she know how much I had paid for her.

"Nor can it be said that it is because of you. Qiqi, it's Papa who is too hesitant and has been hiding Tang Mengyan's business from you, so the East Window incident happened...... If only Papa had told her earlier...... Hey, don't talk about it, it's all over. ”

Although I kept talking about the past, Xue Qi couldn't sit still, she looked at me with some anger and said:

"Papa, since I've caused you so much trouble, why...... Why didn't you send me to an orphanage? Why did I lose so many people? Didn't you just send me to an orphanage in the first place?"

"Silly girl, how can you say that you will send it. I smiled, "Moreover, I have been raising you for so many years at that time, even if you are a stone, I have feelings, how can I give you away again? Besides, if I give you away, isn't there only one person in PAPA's family? PAPA is only one of your relatives, how can I still give you away?"

Hearing my words, Xue Qi's eyes turned even redder, and she rubbed the tips of her fingers, looking a little cramped and uneasy, and a little guilty. I never knew what Xue Qi was thinking, watching her rub her fingers like a child, I felt that she was still my Xue Qi, and all along, her habit has not changed.

So I continued my story:

"Later, Tang Mengyan left, and only Papa and you were left, and we lived together......

My mind gradually flew back to the scene when Xue Qi was in elementary school, and I couldn't help but laugh again when I thought of Xue Qi carrying a red schoolbag and bouncing like a little white rabbit.

"In this way, the days passed, and you slowly changed from the first grade of elementary school to the fifth grade, but at that time. But what Papa fears the most has happened to you......"

"I know this......" At that time, Xue Qi was already in the 5th grade, and of course she still remembered the serious illness she had when she was born when she was 10 years old.

"You must have the impression that you were over 10 years old at the time. I smiled faintly, but my smile was full of bitterness, it was the time I was most afraid of, and the memory I was the most reluctant to recall, if I could, I would really like to keep that nightmarish memory in the deepest part of my mind forever, and never dig it out.

However, today, at this moment, in this small black alley, I still open the Pandora's box in my memory again, and retrace the dark past that once made me miserable.

"When I was in the fifth grade of primary school, Qiqi, you had that serious illness, at that time I really felt that the sky was falling, Papa was really scared, I thought Qiqi you were leaving, do you know how scared Papa was after you were found to be seriously ill? I have raised you for more than ten years, and I finally raised you, and tried my best to inquire about many ways to cure your disease, but the doctors shook their heads one by one and said that your illness is not cured. At that time, Papa was really desperate. I really thought Qiqi was leaving. At that time, you have been lying in the hospital bed, asking me if you will be okay, Papa is afraid to tell you the truth, keep telling you, you will be fine, you will be fine...... But Qiqi's condition is getting worse day by day, PAPA is really urgent, I really feel that I am useless, and I run my own pharmaceutical company, but I can't even cure your disease...... I really feel like I'm useless. Speaking of this, I clenched my fists tightly, although nearly ten years have passed, I am worried that when I think about it now, everything seems to be vivid, so clear, so vivid, so painful.

The pain at that time, even after ten years, still overflowed from a corner of my heart.

"Qiqi, at that time, Papa really thought that you were hopeless, and at that time Papa couldn't do anything, so he could only pray for you every day, take care of you by your side, and lie to you that you would be fine...... But I know it very well. You couldn't be better. You'll never get better. ”

As I spoke, my voice was also a little choked, and there was a sobbing sound in my ears, and I turned my head in some astonishment, only to find that Xueqi's face was full of tears, she was wearing a string of tears hanging on her face, with tears in her eyes, and her crystal bright eyes were looking straight at me.

“papa…… Thank you...... papa…… I'm sorry...... I'll let you work hard......" Xue Qi said intermittently, with tears in her voice, as well as apology and remorse.

"It doesn't matter, picking you up and raising you is Papa's own decision, and Papa decided to take care of you to the end from the beginning. So no matter what you do, I will always be by your side and will accompany you to the end. ”

I closed my eyes, closed them tightly, squeezed out a little wetness in my eyes, and then looked up at the stars again. The gently exhaled heat turned into a white mist in the black alley, slowly dissolving, like a vague memory.

"Then one day, you were lying in a hospital bed, and suddenly you looked at me and begged me, 'You want to go to the outside world, you want to go to a distant place, you want to play. ”

"At that time, your illness was already so bad that you couldn't get out of bed and walk more, and the doctor wouldn't do it, but you kept begging me, and I really couldn't help it. ”

"Qiqi, you have liked the outside world since you were a child, at that time I thought that although you were about to die, I would take you to swim all over the rivers and rivers when you were still alive and could still call me papa, and take a look at the mountains and rivers outside. ”

"So I set off with you in my arms, and the doctors and nurses had to stop me at that time, but I still set off with you. You must be in a hurry, in that year, we traveled all over the place and saw a lot of beautiful scenery. Surely you remember everything, right?"

Speaking of which, I turned my head to look at Xue Qi, only to find that she was already crying.

"I remember...... Papa, I remember it all...... You carried me on your back to many places......"

"I remember it all...... papa……”

The sound of sobbing was intermittent, and the crystal moist tears slid down Xue Qi's jade-like snow-clean cheeks like pearls.

At that moment, the sky was quiet, the alleys were quiet, the wind was quiet, the night was quiet, and my heart was still.

Only Xue Qi's cry was so clear and loud.

It was as if the nightingale was singing.