"Guanyin Mountain" let Fan Bingbing be sealed in Tokyo, but for a woman with a big heart, this is obviously far from enough, don't look at her debut for more than ten years, don't talk about the three major in Europe until now, even the edge of the golden rooster and hundreds of flowers has not been touched, but she can't stand people's high vision, a Tokyo actress, in her eyes, is at best a township enterprise award.

She is unwilling to be a traffic star, and she has to rely on the acting school with a lot of bullish energy, and she can't count on the three major Golden Globe Oscars in Europe for the time being, but at least the domestic actresses always have to win one to decorate the façade.

Especially Lin Xinru also has the title of Best Actress at the Hundred Flowers Awards, and the dignified Fan Ye didn't even get the hair, how could the anger be smooth.

This time, she really worked hard, a dignified domestic first-line actress, the dream lover of countless men, in order to play the role of Li Baoli well, she actually really became a woman.

Of course, with Fan Bingbing's popularity, it is impossible to really go deep into the grassroots and experience life, just her face, painted with several layers of ash, others can recognize her at a glance.

So it's not so much an experience as an observation, and now Sister Yan, who lives in the same room with her, has become her best object of observation.

Sister Yan is more than 10 years ago to get off the gang tide of witnesses, the factory is not well managed, as the group of people who were abandoned, she naturally lost the iron rice bowl, in order to live, she has no skills, she can only learn from others to pick up the goods of the female flat shoulder.

After a few days of contact, what surprised Fan Bingbing even more was that this Sister Yan's life experience was strikingly similar to Li Baoli in "Ten Thousand Arrows Pierce the Heart".

The husband has a junior outside, kicked Sister Yan, the original partner, and even took the son of the two of them without asking, Sister Yan was a father and a mother to pull the child up, and also trained the child to go to college, but the conscienceless little white-eyed wolf, as soon as he went to college, he began to dislike Sister Yan, the mother who was a flat burden, and she was embarrassed, and she usually didn't know to come back and see except for calling for money.

"Ten Thousand Arrows Pierce the Heart" describes the life of the "female flat shoulder" Li Baoli who is fragmented and ten thousand arrows pierce the heart, but in order to experience life, Fan Bingbing worships this flat shoulder master who happens to be the realistic version of Li Baoli.

Just looking at the script, Fan Bingbing heard a noise, and then saw Sister Yan walk in, the place where the two of them lived was the cheapest rental house in the local area, there were two beds as soon as they entered the door, and the luggage could only be stuffed into a suitcase and thrown on the ground.

"Eldest sister, I'm back!" Fan Bingbing greeted, she didn't look at her high spirits, but she was surprisingly good, she didn't have the slightest sense of domineering, she was the same for everyone, she was familiar with Sister Yan, and she was as good as sisters.

Sister Yan put the burden on the bed, looking tired, she was actually only in her early forties, but the weight of life had already made her gray hair and hunched back, and when she heard Fan Bingbing talking to her, she squeezed out a smile and responded.

For Fan Bingbing, Sister Yan is very grateful, if it weren't for meeting Fan Bingbing, she would still live in the old warehouse, living with a large group of men and women.

Fan Bingbing obviously knew why Sister Yan came back so late: "Send money to your son again!?"

Sister Yan smiled and nodded, her son was her greatest pride, and she talked to Fan Bingbing the most on weekdays, and it was also her son: "Well, I called and said, what kind of certificate do you want to take, buy some books, I called him!"

Fan Bingbing looked at Sister Yan laughing, and scolded in his heart: Little Wang Balamb with no conscience!

Don't look at Fan Ye who didn't go to college, but he has a clear understanding of this matter, I have heard Sister Yan talk about it before, and he is only in his sophomore year, which subject will he take the exam!

The two chatted for a few words, Sister Yan was really tired, and fell asleep as she spoke, Fan Bingbing looked at it and sighed, she finally knew what a woman's suffering was now, and she also understood what it was like for Li Baoli to pierce her heart with ten thousand arrows in that story.

For Sister Yan, Fan Bingbing can only be angry and mourn her misfortune, but if she is a woman who can stand, after encountering the betrayal of her husband, she will resign herself to fate and meet this kind of bastard son, and let it go.

Even if it is like Li Baoli, although it is unfortunate, at least it is hard to live, thinking about it, Fan Bingbing took out his notebook again and started his daily homework.

In order to play the role of Li Baoli well, and even more so to know to those who call her a vase openly and secretly that she also has acting skills, Fan Bingbing really worked hard.

During the day, he followed Sister Yan to the street to collect work, and sometimes he personally went into battle to pick up the flat burden, and when he came back at night, he not only had to study the script, but also wrote an analysis of the character of Li Baoli every day.

The marriage was not smooth, her husband had an affair, she was caught and raped by the police, her husband committed suicide, she worked and sold blood, her in-laws hated her, she was driven out of the house, suffering came, and she was still alive in the ruins of tragedy, like a nameless little flower enchanting and blooming.

Fan Bingbing's understanding of the role of Li Baoli is also becoming more and more profound, With experience and analysis, sometimes, even Fan Bingbing himself can't tell whether she is Fan Bingbing or Li Baoli.

I called Song Zheng just now and scolded him, because he was tired and out of control, he didn't get too involved in the play, which led to some mental collapse.

After stabilizing her mood, Fan Bingbing began to write, and many of the places in the script that were just brushstrokes were gradually depicted by her and formed specific words.

Li Baoli's marriage, in Fan Bingbing's view, is actually a marriage tragedy caused by cultural collision, and the combination of Li Baoli and Ma Xuewu, in that era, can even be said to be a breakthrough in the concept of traditional households.

As a young and beautiful city girl with many suitors, Li Baoli had her own idea of "what is the use of finding an uneducated person and having a son like a man", and finally married the "Phoenix Man" Ma Xuewu.

The long-term marriage choice has opened a new page for Li Baoli's life, "It is Ma Xuewu's luck that helped me turn this dog day", my son is excellent, my husband is promoted, and I get a new house.

But Li Baoli, who has crossed the threshold of "the right door", has never been able to cross the cultural gap, one is a college student with a broad vision, and the other is a small citizen who started a small business after graduating from primary school.

Ma Xuewu's parents are both retired middle school teachers, and the intellectuals are high, so that the Ma family really looks down on the uneducated Li Baoli, and has never regarded her as their own family.

So much so that later, the Ma family naturally blamed Li Baoli for Ma Xuewu's death, "There is a lot of noise all day long, even a pig has to jump into the river, don't say it's a person", instigated Xiaobao to alienate his mother, causing the mother and son to turn against each other.

The cultural collision between intellectuals and ordinary citizens inevitably pushed Li Baoli to the grave of marriage, and the family built around the marriage of Li Baoli and Ma Xuewu eventually became lost in love and family love fell due to irresolvable misunderstandings and hatred.

Then there is the tragedy of fate caused by character defects, in Li Baoli's body, it reflects the loss of femininity and the deviation of material self. She is rough in her work, pungent by nature, more than strong, and lacking in tenderness, and she is a woman who does not look like a "woman".

When Ma Xuewu was a technician in the workshop, he often went to work with color on his face, which was Li Baoli's unique skill.

After scolding, her only way to appease her is sex, and she proudly believes that no matter how rude she treats her husband, she can always solve it with sex.

Li Baoli deprived Ma Xuewu of the freedom of thought, trampled on his dignity as a man, and lost his knowledge of life and happiness.

Li Baoli's life dilemma also lies in the fact that she has always lacked a free and conscious independent spirit and a sense of introspection.

"If I listened to other people's words every day, I would be tired and tired. ”

After her husband filed for divorce, Li Baoli was so shocked that she almost fell off the edge of the bed, but unfortunately, Li Baoli did not self-reflect, but followed her husband and called the police to retaliate for her husband's infidelity.

Li Baoli's demeanor and calmness seem to save the crisis, but it has laid hidden dangers for the concentrated outbreak of contradictions. Even if she is in a tragic predicament in life, she stubbornly believes that "it is his blessing to marry someone like me who looks like me, and he loves me so much, why should I love him well." ”

If Li Baoli really reflected, it was only when she was kicked out of the house by her son, she leaned on the cold corner and cried silently, so that at this time, she knew that she had changed the fate and lives of many people in a single thought, including herself.

Li Baoli, who lacks a sense of introspection, is not enough to experience the true sting of tragedy, and the lack of free and conscious independent spirit may be the source of the tragedy of the characters.

The way out for women is not only to strive for economic independence, but more importantly, spiritual independence. Economically, Li Baoli relies on Ma Xuewu, and her family is supported by Ma Xuewu, and she is also well-off, and she goes out to do things purely to pass the time.

Li Baoli seems to be strong, containing the anxiety of fear of loss, after Ma Xuewu filed for divorce, Li Baoli stopped selling socks, her hair was scattered, her face was blue, and she almost took off her human form.

It can be said that from the material to the spiritual level, she regards men as the key to the door to happiness, Ma Xuewu's suicide collapsed the fulcrum of her life, and she began to work for another man in her life.

The tragedy of mother and child caused by lack of communication, the financial supply is difficult to replace the emotional integration, and the desire for spirit is often much stronger than that of material.

The lack of maternal love and the barrenness of family affection caused by the lack of communication between mother and son, the seeds of hatred in Ma Xiaobao's heart grew and sprouted, and his personality was deformed, which eventually led to the tragedy of mother and son being strangers.

Having witnessed his mother's flying at home, Li Baoli is like a volcano that may erupt at any time in Ma Xiaobao's eyes, every now and then, Ma Xiaobao's eyes are full of tears, and he snuggles in his father's arms, as if he has found safety.

When Ma Xuewu committed suicide, ten-year-old Xiaobao did not allow the workers to send him into the crematorium, crying, crying, suddenly raised his hands and beat Li Baoli violently, and said, compensate, you, compensate you for my father, and the resentment towards his mother has sprouted since then.

Facing Xiaobao, who was in great need of comfort, Li Baoli neglected to guide him, and after a tiring day of running around for a living, she would only ask "Have you finished your homework" and hurriedly cooked.

At the request of her in-laws, and in order to give Xiaobao a better education, Li Baoli gave up the opportunity to live with her son, and the lack of communication made the mother-son relationship worse.

Li Baoli, who goes out early and returns late every day, takes it for granted that she supports this family, and the child will understand and repay her kindness, but she doesn't know that in this home, she is like a tenant, except for taking the money back, everything else seems to have nothing to do with her, and there has long been an insurmountable gap between mother and son.

When he was in high school, Xiaobao learned the truth about his father's suicide and placed the blame for losing his father entirely on his mother's shoulders. In Ma Xiaobao's eyes, grandparents are the closest relatives who accompany him, and Li Baoli is just a money-making machine.

When her mother injured her leg, she still ignored it, only reaching out for money, and even saying "I just want to tell you that although you gave birth to me, you are not worthy of being my mother", and finally even kicked her mother out of the house in order to buy a villa for a loan.

Her son's revenge completely ended her stable life with masochistic overtones, and in the long night, Li Baoli licked her wounds alone, sewing up the arrow holes in her psychology little by little.

The note left for her in-laws and the living expenses of the month, Li Baoli left, she didn't leave a word to Xiaobao, just like Ma Xuewu didn't mention her in his suicide note back then, which seems to imply that Xiaobao will repeat the tragedy.

fell the last stroke, Fan Bingbing also finished today's homework, so that she felt strange, when she was in school, it was very difficult to complete an essay, and now a character biography can actually write thousands of words, every time she finishes writing a piece, she strives to adjust the symptoms, and walks out of the characters, Fan Bingbing looks at his works and feels surprised, and even has a feeling of being a ghost.

"Girl!"

Fan Bingbing was startled, closed his notebook, and turned his head to look at Sister Yan, who should have fallen asleep: "Sister, you didn't sleep!"

Sister Yan turned over, leaned on the head of the bed and looked at Fan Bingbing: "I slept and woke up again!"

Sister Yan's tone was full of solace, the numbness of her life does not mean that she has been stupid by the burden of life, sometimes, chatting with Fan Bingbing, she will also feel the misfortune of her fate, but that's all, she went out to work the next day, she was already the cowardly woman who was busy in order to make up for the tuition and living expenses for her son of a bastard.

"Let's talk!"

Sister Yan smiled: "Still talking!?I don't know what to say, there are some things, I've said it several times, and you've heard it several times, I feel bored!"

Fan Bingbing also laughed: "Then let's not talk about the past today, after we talk, eldest sister!

"Otherwise, what else can I do? I don't know anything, I used to be in the factory, I knew that I went to work, got off work, and now I have a flat shoulder, so I don't have any thoughts, I just hope that my son can graduate from college smoothly, and then find a good job, and then find a good partner, and when they have children, I will show them children!"

Sister Yan said, the smile on her face was a little more, Fan Bingbing listened to Sister Yan looking forward to the future that was not a luxury, but she couldn't help but feel a little bitter in her heart, with her observations these days, Sister Yan's son called "a bastard with no conscience", but he was not wronged at all, whether the future that Sister Yan longed for can be realized, at least in Fan Bingbing's view, its difficulty index is no less than world peace.

People have feelings, especially Fan Bingbing, a temperamental person, who stayed with Sister Yan for two months, she naturally had some feelings for this cowardly eldest sister, and naturally hoped that this eldest sister would be well.

"Who said you don't know anything, your cooking is delicious!"

Fan Bingbing's sentence is not false, Sister Yan does have good skills, even if the two usually eat very simple, but Sister Yan always has a way to make very simple things very delicious.

"What is this, can a woman still cook. ”

"But what you make is delicious!" Fan Bingbing said, sat up, and looked at Sister Yan seriously, "Sister! It's really not a matter to be a flat shoulder, you can still bear it now, but what about the future? You are only in your early forties, and your waist is often sick, if you are really old and can't do it, what will you do?"

Sister Yan looked at Fan Bingbing with some surprise, and couldn't understand why this beautiful girl suddenly followed her to say these words.

Fan Bingbing then said: "If you want me to say, you might as well open a small restaurant, no matter what, this is also a serious business, no matter what happens in the future, you can earn food!"

Sister Yan listened to it one by one, and when Fan Bingbing finished speaking, she said with a wry smile: "I took the money to open a restaurant!

"I'm ~~~~~" Fan Bingbing suddenly held back, "I'm going to say it, you can think for yourself, what's going on, whatever you want!"

After Fan Bingbing finished speaking, he turned off the light and lay down, and Sister Yan opened her mouth, but finally didn't say anything.

The next day, the two of them continued to go out to work, and at the end of the day, they earned more than 60 yuan, which was not too much, not too little.

When it was time to go back, Fan Bingbing suddenly said that there was something wrong and asked Sister Yan to go back first, Sister Yan returned to her residence and cooked a meal, but she didn't see Fan Bingbing come back until after nine o'clock, Sister Yan was not at ease and was about to go out to find it, but someone took the initiative to come to the door.

"You are Sister Yan, this is what Fan Bingbing asked me to give you, she has something to do and returned to Yanjing, saying that she asked you to take care of yourself!"

Come in a hurry, go in a hurry.

The person who came put down the things, turned around and left, Sister Yan wanted to ask, but she didn't wait to open her mouth, and when the people left, she opened the things that the person brought, and was stunned for a moment, with a letter and a bank card in the file bag.