Pushing open the door, the black dog resigned himself to lying on the bed and did not dare to come down. I saw Soy Sauce crying alone on the generous table, and my heart hurt as if it had been torn apart. I sometimes feel like the weird and eccentric Naoko in "Norwegian Wood", walking away without hesitation, trying hard to climb up even if he falls into a well. If I could, I would like not to drag anyone down, and if I could, I would like not to hurt anyone. However, after all, I went against my wishes, and as long as I insisted on being myself, I would inevitably hurt the people around me, and it was unavoidable.

I gently put the basin at my feet, walked quickly to Soy Sauce's side, and hugged her from behind. I shrouded her soaking up the wet vapor over her body that should be dry and warm, like a foggy morning in winter: "I was wrong, soy sauce, I shouldn't have said such heavy things to you, I'm sorry." "If I'm wrong, I'm wrong, I won't argue, let alone hypocritically make excuses to pretend, in life, admitting my mistakes is the most important thing.

Soy sauce was crying and sobbing, she held my cold hand, hugged my waist with her backhand, and whispered, "Little Lizi, I was wrong." A gentleman does something but does nothing, and a woman gains something and loses something. If one of the two ends of the scale is heavy, one side will definitely float in the sky, and there is no way to have the best of both worlds. We are all mortals, and we must accept this cruel truth, I love him, but I am blinded by the desire to win and forget about it. Thank you. ”

"After all, feelings are a matter of two people, he is willing to sacrifice for you, and you must also learn to repay the favor and think about him. This is a problem that you must face, but it is up to the stupid big man to tell you, not me. It's my fault to make such a fuss today. I actually vented the emotional problems between me and Brake on others in another way, which is really unbearable. At the end of the day, what I'm supposed to do is face the brakes, not fight with you. Sorry, once again, sorry. "After making trouble, crying and crying, I regained my sanity over emotion, buried my emotions deep in the labyrinth, and sealed the wall.

"Am I somebody else? If you don't describe me like that, I'm going to be angry." Soy sauce said angrily at me with red eyes.

I burst into tears and laughed, and gently pinched the soy sauce's little face with my hand.

"Speaking of which, you're just having chemistry and screaming and trying to run away because the brakes said the 'I love you' to you early on. Do you feel that you have too many shortcomings, that you have a bad personality, and that you are not worthy of being loved by him. "I'm dizzy. Soy sauce is really a professional matchmaker, and in a few words, I said the entanglement in my heart clearly. "Look at you, if you really have a bad character, where will you still be entangled here, the entanglement in your mind is because of the goodness in your heart, and kindness is the highest character of a person. Besides, if you're really a bad woman, you're already in two boats, and you're still bent on the brakes, right?"

"yes, I'm ...... I still like him, and I'm willing to fall in love with him day by day, but I'm not sure that the end of love should be marriage or breakup. ”

I don't dare to say that I love him easily, even in the face of soy sauce that has been together for four years, I sometimes feel that I am too mature, and sometimes, especially when it comes to feelings, I feel that I am not mature enough, and I am like a black dog lying on my bed. "When he confessed to me, my heart was already full of alarm bells, and his eyes were clearly telling me, like me, fall in love with me, and spend your life with me. I'm so scared. ”

"Then what should I do, this guy seems to be suitable for being a husband, isn't it because of this that you were eaten to death by him. You chose a refrigerator because it can refrigerate, and now you complain that he is too cold, complain that he can only refrigerate, isn't it a bit greedy and not enough to swallow an elephant, hahahaha. "Serious emotional discussion as he spoke, and he went off the wrong track. The soy sauce guy still had tears on his face and started dancing and joking with me.

"Hey," I sighed deeply, crouching down to pick up my basin and put it back in the cupboard. My heart has long been broken into pieces on the ground, and I don't know if it's too late to pick it up now, "It's not so much that I don't have confidence in love and marriage, it's better that I don't have confidence in human nature, life is so long, people will always change, I'm afraid that one day, they will not be able to keep up with each other's footsteps, and eventually one person will leave the other person far behind." ”

"Are you talking about your parents? don't tell me, it's the parents of a friend of mine?"

"yes. I sat in my place for a long time, and finally nodded in acknowledgement, pulling away my scabbed wound and exposing it to the air, "I don't want him to be like my father, groveling for a living, and being scolded by his wife at home for still being naïve and unenterprising; More importantly, I don't want to dedicate myself completely to my family and lose my dignity and freedom. ”

"You just told me that you need to compromise, you need to sacrifice, you need to be considerate in your love life, why do you turn your head and forget it. Soy sauce smiled at me, that smile, after a long, long time, I can't forget, "Do you remember when you were a child, the story of Leonardo da Vinci drawing eggs in the textbook? No egg is exactly the same, marriage is the same, if you really come together, you will definitely not be exactly the same as your parents' marital status." Your life is your own, a new journey, isn't it...... That's it, it's too early to talk about this, you are still at the beginning of the book, and it is better not to turn to the climax and ending of the story early?"

"I can't believe you've been so wise. "I was amazed.

"yes. As soon as she praised a sentence or two, she immediately revealed her true form, and ran over in small steps to smell my hair, "Are you not washing the foam, why is it so fragrant?"

I kicked her aside with a black face.

In this way, we spent the night before the thesis defense, and surprisingly, we slept well, without insomnia or dreams, and slept until dawn. After the alarm went off, I washed up and went to work as usual, and the soy sauce was still lying in bed and didn't get up. Before leaving, I wrote a note and pasted it on the soy sauce desk - "You are the best, you must come on, I love you." ”

When I got home from work, I made an excuse not to meet the brakes and went straight back to my dorm. Although we have made it clear with soy sauce, I still have some insurmountable emotions about the brakes that cannot be ignored.

Back at 5016, Babao and Soy Sauce were both watching the video in their own positions, and when they saw me coming back, Soy Sauce immediately pounced: "Na Na Na, Xiao Lizi, come and ask me how my defense is." ”

I put down my bag and obediently followed the script of soy sauce: "How is it?"

"People are scared to death when they defend today. "Soy sauce squeezed me too hard, which gave me goosebumps, "There were four professional teachers sitting in the audience, and they didn't look at me for anything, they flipped through my thesis manuscript by brush, and finally asked a few questions that I couldn't answer, and asked me to write a small note in five minutes and hand it to the thesis secretary! Fortunately, my brain was fast, so I quickly searched for a few answers on the Internet, and filled them in hastily, otherwise I might not have been able to argue for the second time." ”

"Then I'm sure I've argued twice. Babao raised his eyebrows and interjected nonchalantly.

"What's the matter, you didn't review your defense when you went to the Internet café yesterday?" Soy sauce asked her deliberately, still looking competitive in small things. I sighed secretly, but it was okay if she could maintain this spirit all the time, she would not age quickly and become an adult who was indifferent to life.

"I made such a fuss last time, how can I go to the Internet café to play games, I'm looking for a fight?" Babao's tone was so ordinary that he couldn't see the difference.

"And where have you been?" asked Soy Sauce.

"I'm going to the bar, why don't you use so many free coupons. Babao replied.

The soy sauce instantly fluttered and ran to Babao's side, his eyes widened, like a pair of large light bulbs of several hundred watts: "Where did you say you went?"

"Bar. Babao replied in a straight voice.

"Didn't you say you don't like Frostblade?"

"yes, I don't like him, and I won't be friends with him. Eight Treasures replied with an oath.

"And what is your relationship now?" asked Soy Sauce cautiously. They went back and forth, asking and answering, which was quite interesting.

"Cannon, friend. ”

Soy sauce and I fell apart in an instant. I softened my feet and simply sat on the stool, and after Soy Sauce was stunned for a second, he raised his hands and cheered, and walked around the dormitory: "Wow-my matchmaker is really amazing, I am two couples as soon as I make a move, it's really amazing, I want to show off with the stupid big man-"

Soy sauce excitedly finished sending the message, looked at me sadly and said, "You still say that I have a strong desire to control, I don't think it's very good!"

I clenched my fists, it was really unforeseeable, where did I think it would be carried out to this day.

"Who else but me?"

"Little plum and brakes. "Soy sauce continues to lower the hair message.

"The two of them?" Babao exclaimed, ran to Soy Sauce's side, and punched her with a small fist, "It's over, I'm in trouble! I finished my defense today, I hit the brakes, I really didn't know you were in love......"

I froze in place, not knowing how to react.