I shook his hand and asked softly, "What about you, do you feel homesick when you are studying outside? ”

He hesitated, his eyes flew nervously, and he probably struggled in his heart for a long time, but he still chose to confess to me: "It will be uncomfortable if you can't go back, but it will be the most painful if you can't stay—either you will return to your hometown with honor, or you will die in a foreign country, won't you?"

I squeezed his hand, and before he confessed, I never thought that the burden on the shoulders of today's boys, even if they were still studying, would be heavy. Life stops at us, and it is the same hardships and obstacles, struggling to move forward in a cloud of smoke and rain.

"I took a project with my mentor before, and every day was the same as a dog, and the mentor told me that if you stick to it, it will be different in two days. ”

"What's different?" I pulled out an ugly smile.

"It's like a dead dog in two days. He smiled humorously, and I listened to it, but it was not a taste.

"You also have to take care of yourself and don't worry me. I complained.

"Okay!" his eyes lit up as he grabbed my hand and shook it around on the tabletop like the long tail of a big golden retriever.

"If it's hard, go home and be coquettish with your family, don't hide it in your heart. I continued to suggest.

His hand stopped shaking, sighed, and said: "After all, I am the eldest son in the family, how can I be coquettish and cute like my sister, I want to support the family and let the people in the family have no worries." Let's be honest...... In the past four years, I rarely went home, and I worked at school and outside the home during the winter and summer vacations. I think...... They want me to shine outside, and not to embarrass them. ”

I shook my head, "I think your parents want you to be safe and happy." "Pushing others and myself, maybe my parents also expect this, what they really hope is that I am healthy, healthy and safe, find a partner who cares about me, have children and a harmonious family, and rely on the old to support the elderly. I'm afraid that in this stressful society, we are just herbivores that keep running forward, for fear that if we stop and be bitten by the jackals, tigers and leopards behind our buttocks.

Thinking like this, I was inexplicably covered by a melancholy atmosphere, I quickly cheered up and said to him: "I happen to be going home on May Day, so I will take this time to have a good rest, drink tea and read books at home, help the second elder in the family cook and water the flowers, don't put so much pressure on myself." ”

He nodded, "Well, it's good that the professor is going abroad this year, so I can rest for an extra week." In normal times, I really can't spare such a long time to go home and stay. ”

He pinched one of my ends and wrapped it around the tips of his fingers, with great interest, while I secretly rejoiced in my heart, but fortunately I washed my hair yesterday and used conditioner, and went out in the morning to spray some perfume.

"You know, I was really happy to see you again that day. From that day on, I felt like I had regained the vision I had for the future when I first entered my freshman year. ”

"Hope or momentum?" I laughed, deliberately messing with him.

"Not to mention longing and momentum, even reverence and bonsai are both. "When the brakes saw me messing around with him, they didn't mess around with me properly. We have been dating for so long, and gradually, he has put down the pretense of being an honor student and a good senior in front of me, and sometimes in front of me, he is more like a half-grown child, and he does not have the awkward energy that he originally said and asked me to call him a senior.

He looked out the window, on the sidewalk, and walked past one or two students looking down at their phones, not realizing what a good time they were having, just like I was four years ago.

Brake looked at the back of the passer, not facing me, he whispered, his voice was low, cooing, like a pigeon parked on the roof, overlooking the whole city: "Some time ago...... A very good friend of mine died of depression, and his death and the series of farces that took place in the family after his death made me a little tired of the world, almost disheartened, and could not easily forget. During that time, I was so busy with topics and projects that I almost forgot what it was like to be alive and what it was like to be happy. ”

I had nothing to say but to hold his hand tightly. I remember a book I read that said that we are all just orphans of the brave new world.

He was only a table away from me, but he was so far away from me. I don't know if we'll be able to stall on the track of reunion interaction, I don't know if our stories will go back on their own tracks after crossing like last time, meeting each other, separating, circle after circle, before the stars explode. He's not anyone's satellite, at least not mine, the two of us are like two lonely little planets, like two ballerinas spinning alone on the stage, spinning on their own, never sleeping. The small planet is not like the Earth, there is an endless noise, it is silent, lonely, cold, meteorites are unscrupulously smashed on the surface of the planet without the protection of the atmosphere, there is not even the sound of explosions.

"Fortunately, I met you again, you are the elf in my black and white movie, wearing a colorful long dress, walking slowly from the end of the forest, and in the blink of an eye, it lights up my whole world. That day, when you handed me the fried yogurt, I saw in your eyes that I wanted to be close to you because of the flame of passion for life, and that's it. ”

My heart was tangled in twine, and it hurt. At that time I didn't know how I would respond, now, I just want to tell him that I am willing to burn myself and do my best to make him happy, so that from a distance, he can see the brilliant fireworks rise in the sky, this moment, that moment, after tens of thousands of light years, to reach the coordinates where he is.

"On the way home that day, I saw that there was an adoption of a cat here, and it was almost love at first sight, and I fell in love with my Benny, and I thought that you were a gift from God. From that day on, I started to get up early for a run, finish breakfast, go back to my dorm, feed Benny cat food, check the water and food, and then go to the library with my bag to write a project. If I didn't have field work and projects, I would go back to my dorm early, feed Benny canned food, and change my clothes to go for a night run. When the prize money for this project comes down, I plan to use the money to go to the gym to get a season card and get my life back on track. He turned his head and looked at me, his eyes were as tender as water like a spring stream, gurgling, flowing from the depths of the forest into the wide river, rushing into the sea, "What about you, quickly think about what major to take, start reviewing early, read well, and strive to go ashore next year, how about we work together?"

When he said this, I stopped the car in a sad mood for him, but my eyes were rippling, and I still felt like crying: "You villain, you said so sad at the beginning, it made me sad, and I changed my style all of a sudden, like a red slogan posted in the third year of high school, you make me cry and laugh, do you want to be beaten by me?"

"Come on, come on~" Brake stretched out his head, Tian shamelessly asked me to hit, I burst into tears and laughed, pretended to hit someone, raised my hands high, and finally turned my fist into a palm, holding his big face, pinching the cheeks on both sides of him.

"Hmph, my face is too thin to be happy. "I hum.

"Then I'll eat a little more to make you feel comfortable. ”

"Then let's eat together, you're too fat, I'm not happy to dump you." I continued to hum, withdrew my hand, and blew on my fist.

"What do you like, are you majoring now, or do you want to take the cross-exam?"

"I haven't thought about it yet, some majors are only full-time, and it may be a bit troublesome for me to take a temporary job for graduate school. Dejectedly, I drank the last remaining tea from my cup.

"Haven't you ever thought about quitting your job and enjoying campus life again?"

"As for you, you're not thinking about how to make money. I got angry and retorted, "I'm going to make money too." ”

"I'm different, I'm a boy, and I'll have to earn money to support you in the future. ”

"Who wants you to raise me," my face began to burn again, "Men and women are the same, there is no need to put the burden on one person, there is a program name that says, boys and girls rush forward, not only boys you rush, girls you stand back." ”

"Hahaha, what zodiac sign are you, I guess you are Capricorn or Taurus, you have lost your money, right? ”

"Hey, do you also believe in constellations, boys rarely believe in constellations. ”

"I don't believe it, the blood type of the constellation, I don't believe it. Brake hurriedly argued.

"Oh......" I grinned with my eyes purring and grinning, "you're asking me for my birthday in disguise?"

"Ahem, I didn't. ”

"You have, you have. The two of us started a ten-round childish argument of "you are ruthless, you are shameless, you are vexatious, you are ruthless, you are shameless, you are vexatious", and finally, the brake finally ended our senseless conversation with the previous topic.

"If you think about it, I'll go to the library to help you find materials for the graduate school entrance examination, you don't have to worry too much, just review well. ”

"Hey, who is it if you can't pass the test?"

"Of course, count it your own ......"

I replied, "I'm responsible for my own life, right?"

He looked at me with a smile and gently pinched my chin with his hand: "If you take the test, it's your own, if you don't pass the test, it's your own, this is your own future, this is your own future, whether you are my girlfriend or not." ”

My girlfriend......

Girlfriend......

For the first time, he confessed......

I lowered my head to drink tea, only to see that the cup was empty, this time it was even more embarrassing, the brake raised his hand, signaled the waiter to come, half a minute later, the waiter came over with the recipe.

"What else do you need?"

Please give me a tub of ice, thank you!, I said to myself, my face still sunny, almost smiling.

Brake looked at my blushing face and laughed happily.