Chapter 49: Loneliness
It turned out that in his small pupils, there was still a person.
Originally...... There really are so many photos of them together.
Others could never imagine the touch in Cen Ge's heart at this moment. At first glance, you won't notice the small light in the pupils of the person in the photo, but when you look at him, it's like a whirlpool, taking your mind away. At that moment, you gave your heart to someone else.
A small flame ignited in Cen Ge's heart, although it was tiny, it was bright enough and warm enough.
There will always be some inexplicable tacit understanding and a little strange romance between the two of them. It's not that Cen Ge hasn't encountered the confessions that the girls explicitly hinted at, but no way seems to move him, only Yan Leng makes him yearn for it.
It's not a gorgeous confession, and there are no romantic scenes, but there are only two people, a stack of photos, in a photo studio, but in his heart, it is enough.
Women who are touched often shed tears, but men who are touched are always inconsistent, their hearts are sour, their mouths are scolding, and the dead ducks generally refuse to admit that their hearts have softened.
What about Cen Ge?
Yan Leng, who was up and down the millions, laughed at Cen Ge while clenching his fists tightly, and his palms were sweating.
In his opinion, all the things that have anything to do with Cen Ge are like life and death decisions.
"You did it on purpose?" Cen Ge's words made Yan Leng's heart flicker, and people were a little fluttering.
“…… Then...... I suddenly thought of it, and I did it when I thought about it......" Yan Leng thought, he was really selfish enough, obviously he did it on purpose, but he didn't want Cen Ge to find out that he was such a person who could calculate with his feelings. But he has no choice, he really likes Cen Ge, it's more real than real gold, he obviously said that it doesn't matter if he pays without return, but he really falls in love, but he always wants a little more, a little more, even if Cen Ge already likes him so much.
"Oh, thanks, I love it. Cen Ge looked at Yan Leng's eyes, those cold and sneering phoenix eyes made Yan Leng's heart seem to have nothing to hide, Yan Leng couldn't help lowering his eyebrows, not daring to look at Cen Ge.
Compared to Cen Ge, he is too dirty.
No matter how true his love is, because his calculations and his methods have become cheap.
In Dingxian, he used bitter tricks to force Cen Ge to forgive him.
On the Nanhe Bridge, someone photographed him and Cen Ge kissing, and he threatened the whole family.
In the small town of Paris, the manager was actually bought by him a long time ago, and it wasn't until that day that he came to Cen Ge again that he asked the manager to force Cen Ge to enter the Yonghe Hall.
In Cen Ge's dormitory, he secretly went in and turned Cen Ge's things aside, and also looked at his diary, pretending to be a good person as it was written in the diary.
In the football game, when Cen Ge's face was full of carnival and excitement of winning, and he did that kind of dirty deal behind his back.
In the Potala Palace, he deliberately took those photos to move Cen Ge and make Cen Ge love him a little more.
In Sera Temple, under the heavy snow, there was obviously too much blood flowing, obviously low temperature could reduce wound bleeding, but he deliberately used his body to melt the ice and snow to make the wound freeze and crack, he wanted to die in Cen Ge's arms, he wanted Cen Ge to remember him for the rest of his life.
His selfishness, the despicability of his means, he just wants to hide it forever, he doesn't want Cen Ge to know that he is such a person, because Cen Ge's integrity and unadulterated love will not allow him to survive.
Without Cen Ge, he didn't know how he was going to live.
Yan Leng has never been a good person, and after losing Cen Ge, after regaining Cen Ge, his paranoia has become pathological.
“…… Do you want to go back?" Cen Ge's words were plain, as if he hadn't seen anything, and he didn't seem to have been moved.
“…… Well. Yan Leng's heart was trembling, he wanted to clench his fists and bleed, he wanted to know Cen Ge's verdict, but now he didn't dare to ask at all, he was afraid to ask, so he dispersed.
Yan waited for the end of school coldly, for fear that Cen Ge would tell him lightly that he would not go home with him again, but Cen Ge did not, and they still went home together.
On the way home, Yan Leng was afraid that Cen Ge would move away when he got home, but Cen Ge didn't, and they sat on the sofa together and watched TV.
Obviously, nothing happened, but Yan Leng's heart hung very high, and he didn't dare to put it down, did Cen Ge guess it? So did he take the initiative to confess or was he lucky? Yan Leng tossed and turned on the bed and thought about it for a night, but he didn't make a decision until dawn.
treats Cen Ge, he will never be able to do what he wants, because of the deep love between the two lives.
The next day, Cen Ge said that he was selected as a good student, and the teacher wanted to talk to him and let Yan Leng go first.
If it was in normal times, Yan Leng would definitely be stubborn and refused to leave, insisting on waiting for Cen Ge to go together, but today he only felt frightened in the face of Cen Ge, the wanton ridicule in the past was completely gone, and even the smile on his face seemed to be squeezed out, and the people who saw it took a detour one after another, for fear that Yan Dagongzi would be angry.
Without Cen Ge, Yan Leng didn't want to go home so quickly, in the huge house, it was empty and quiet, and he was a little afraid. Those things that are not so good will always remind him that Cen Ge will not want you anymore, and you will be alone in the future.
Yan Leng bypassed the school and walked in the opposite direction, at this time, Fusong Road should probably be bustling with people, there are so many people, can he feel so lonely and sad anymore.
And on Fusong Road, there are indeed shoulder to shoulder, there are many people, there are big hands holding small hands, there are children playing football, there are old people who are staggering, but supporting each other for a walk, and licking ice cream and talking and laughing little girls, more are a couple, girls are shy to poke the boy with their fingers, or the boy hugs his girlfriend, watching her blushing in his arms, and the girl who pretends to be angry walks quickly, and a boy trottes up to catch up and apologize... …
But in Yan Leng's eyes, he only felt that his heart was cold.
If his methods weren't so despicable, if he hadn't played so many tricks on Cen Ge, would he and Cen Ge also be warm and wishful in the eyes of others, and would they also be the white-headed old man in so many people......
Yan Leng listened to the laughter and laughter around him, looked at the lives of these small people in the market, touched the warm temperature around him, and tears flowed from his eyes.
Without Cen Ge, he would be so lonely.
When I'm alone grief-stricken
Look at the reflection of the reflective tree on your phone screen
There were so many people laughing and walking in front of them
There were bicycles running past me one by one
And in the rest of the city
Maybe someone is like me
I am taking over all my thoughts with loneliness and sadness
But this city of steel and concrete
It's going on and on
Obviously, I used to be under the blue sky with the person I liked
Walk through many places briskly and brightly
I also wrote with him about the world, I have been here
I also put down my pen with him and smiled
But when we separate
When you turn around
It turned out that on the road I walked
Nothing was left
A qiē of a qiē, left to me
Only bitter loneliness and sadness remain