Yan Leng looked at Song Renliang in the dark, and felt a little sour in his heart, not for the loneliness of his brother, but for the impermanence of fate.

He knew that Song Renliang did not regret his original choice, because it was his responsibility as a man and as a son, and they would not complain about anything, because this was the arrangement of fate, or rather, this was their fate.

Therefore, Yan Leng just walked over, pressed Song Renliang's shoulder, leaned against the floor-to-ceiling window, curled up on one leg, and sat on the ground.

The neon flickering outside hit Yan Leng, as if he was sitting on the edge of the room, and if he leaned back, he would fall from here, and the flesh and blood would be blurred. Many people don't dare to rely on the window completely, because there will be an illusion that they will fall in the next second, but Yan Leng likes this kind of stimulation that is contrary to the self-protection in people's hearts, he doesn't like to completely obey the instinct of animals to seek advantages and avoid harm, he likes to have a little self-destructive stimulation, and a little self-violation of the struggle, just like he will not be obedient to his own heart, he never knows what obedience is.

Except for Cen Ge.

Because of the guilt, emptiness, guilt and self-torture of the previous life, after being reborn, a person who had his complete spiritual sustenance for nearly twenty years appeared in front of him like this, and he almost couldn't wait to give himself completely to that person, obey that person, atone for his sins, pay off his debts, and ...... Satisfy your love and longing for twenty years.

And Cen Ge, who was working in a small town, never thought that Yan Leng would have such a mentality, just like he never thought that Yan Leng would have such a deep guilt and such a strong love for him.

Because in Cen Ge's eyes, Yan Leng just forced him and imprisoned him for a few days, which was a memory and past that he didn't want to touch at all, and it was also a betrayal of a relationship that was not love. But what is it for Yan Leng? He Cen Ge is actually no different from the women who surrounded Yan Leng before, he can go on when he wants, kick when he wants, coax when he is happy, and force him if he is not happy, but there are some deviations later, that is, Yan Leng seems to like him too, so he regrets it, he shouldn't treat the person he likes so roughly, but what's the point of caring about these for Cen Ge?

He likes Yan Leng, Cen Ge is sure of this, and those injuries are what he doesn't want to remember and touch, he is also sure that Yan Leng likes him now, and he doesn't think it's fake, so what's the point of caring about those?

If Yan is tired, then he will never see him again, and there is no big deal, he Cen Ge is also a tough man, he will not lose Yan Leng, he will wash his face with tears all day long, doubting life, right?

If Yan Leng is not tired, really loves him so much, and really wants to walk with him for the rest of his life, then he believes that he will not love less than him, and will give him equal love in return, and he will not suffer.

In fact, Cen Ge is a very ruthless person, Yan Leng pondered hard for a long time in his previous life before he understood, but it was already too late by then.

Cen Ge likes Yan Leng, it's not fake, but he can leave ruthlessly, even if he can't break his love, even if he is reluctant, as long as he touches his bottom line, he will not look back, turn around and leave, even if the person who hurts is still himself. So that day, Yan Leng knelt on the ground and apologized, bursting into tears, Cen Ge only shed a tear, and after that, he never shed a tear again, not that he couldn't bear it, but once he was ruthless, he would only bury his feelings deep in his heart, and even lied to himself.

Cen Ge is actually self-reliant and inferior, he can move out of the Lin family at the age of fourteen, rely on a pair of hands to eat, and he also feels withdrawn and cold in his heart, and he is not liked. He was able to leave Yan Leng's side in style, but he also felt that he would be better off without Yan Leng. He can confidently give back the same amount of love to Yan Leng, but he silently compares in his heart whether he is worthy or not.

Cen Ge was washing the cup in the town, thinking about himself and Yan Leng, only feeling that the more he thought about it, the clearer he became, and the more he thought about it, the more decisive he became, but from time to time he always thought of so many fat and thin beauties around Yan Leng in the past few days, and also remembered the anxiety and uneasiness when he looked at him.

Cen Ge is really not jealous, he is a big man, not to mention that he just likes Yan Leng, and he doesn't think that Yan Leng is his person, and he doesn't have any ideas when he sees Yan Leng with those women. And Yan Leng has already sued him, these are all to hide people's eyes and ears, eat flying vinegar or something, that can't do this kind of thing.

It's just that the apprehension in Yan Leng's eyes has also remained in his heart, and they haven't had much time alone recently, so even if he wants to give him comfort, he doesn't have this opportunity. Originally, he came to the town to work tonight, just to wait for Yan Leng to come, and the two of them had a good talk, after all, he wanted Yan Leng and didn't want to be so worried.

Yan Leng knew that he was working here today, but he didn't come.

Obviously, his eyes told him that he cared about him, but why didn't he come? Cen Ge couldn't figure it out, and he didn't take the initiative to call Yan Leng until he got off work, because they weren't a couple of lovers who had a quarrel and needed to be coaxed, they were just two people who liked each other but had nothing to do with each other.

Cen Ge walked from the town to the dormitory, one o'clock in the morning, it was his time to get off work, there were no people on the street at this time, only those street lamps that were obviously a lot, but they were still the same lonely, stretching his shadow very long, and it seemed that the road was also very long.

When Yan Leng was not there before, he would not walk back to the dormitory alone, because the road was too long for him to finish, so he would take the newspaper, find a doorway, sleep all night, and wait for the earliest bus the next day.

Later, when Yan Leng was there, the two of them walked to the dormitory together, because it was not so far from the high school, and the dormitory was also close.

Now, it's my own walk back, it doesn't matter, I'm a man, I'm not afraid of robbery, and the dormitory is very close.

Without Yan Leng, Cen Ge didn't feel uncomfortable, Cen Ge was still Cen Ge, he hadn't changed, he was just a little puzzled, why Yan Leng didn't come to him for peace of mind, not why Yan Leng didn't accompany him on this not very long road.

Cen Ge never needed to be accompanied, and loneliness was a taste he was more familiar with than companionship.

The next day, as before, there was no intersection between them, and there was no communication, Yan Leng told Sù to restrain himself, while Cen Ge did not change much.

After school, Cen Ge and another boy in the class stayed to take out the garbage, and when they came out, they were almost gone.

Cen Ge was going to squeeze the bus as usual, and then go to the place where he worked, but as soon as he left the school gate, he was strangled by the neck and taken to the corner of the alley that was only separated from the school by a wall.

Cen Ge looked at the people surrounding him and smiled contemptuously, Pan Wei and his lackeys. They can be regarded as old acquaintances, and they fought with them when they first entered high school, the reason was just because they refused to wolf bèi with them, and they did evil, and that time they won and lost each other, although they were a bit numerous, but they didn't please well, especially Pan Wei directly wore red and hung colors, a circle of black eyes and two lines of nosebleeds, it looked like a very wolf bèi.

Pan Wei is also a bastard, he doesn't report this matter to his family, he doesn't poke him in the head, and Cen Ge is not called to the office. Just two days later, he found more people to surround him, and this time, he suffered a big loss, fractured a rib, lay in the hospital for two days, and took a lot of money. And those people were just flesh wounds, and they got better quickly, and within a few days they came to trouble him again. There were many of them, and Cen Ge was injured, and he didn't want to fight cocks and lackeys with them all day long and have nothing to do, so he could only protect his head and ribs and curl up and be kicked.

Later, as soon as Cen Ge saw them, he directly found a place to lean on, and when they were tired and left, he patted the ashes and left. In this case, he only suffered some flesh wounds, at most bruises, not to hurt the bones, and he didn't have to go to the hospital, it hurt for a few days, and Pan Wei didn't focus on him alone, he came every day.

Later, Yan Leng protected him. At first, he helped him fight, then he used force to suppress, and then later, Pan Wei didn't dare to trouble him.

Now, I don't know why these people are here again, I haven't seen them for a long time, and I feel that my face is raw, and I almost can't recognize them.

"Yo, isn't this Cen Ge, why did you leave alone? What about Yan Leng? Tut, look, look, how pitiful, just like a stray dog. What's the matter, the master doesn't want you anymore?" Pan Wei walked over and patted Cen Ge's face with a look of ridicule.

Cen Ge tilted his head and looked at Pan Wei coldly, as if he was looking at a bedbug, without saying a word, his temper was very cold and hard.

Pan Wei made Cen Ge look bored, and felt that this person was wronged by saying that he was a stray dog, and he had seen this one with such a hard temperament. He originally thought that he had been protected by Yan Leng for a year, and then he should be soft, but it turned out to be this stinky temper.

Pan Wei also inquired before, after the start of this semester, Yan Leng and Cen Ge suddenly became estranged, it has been almost a week since the start of school, and he has not said a word, Cen Ge went out to work alone yesterday, and it is said that he also came back alone, it is estimated that he broke with Yan Leng. This Pan Wei dared to come to block Cen Ge, if Yan Leng was still there, he wouldn't dare to move him.

Pan Wei stepped back, waved his hand, and the yellow, green, and purple hairs surrounding Cen Ge all came up, punching and kicking Cen Ge, who was already in a posture and ready to be beaten, this process was not only familiar to Cen Ge, but also to them.

Cen Ge protected his head with one hand and his ribs with the other, his face was facing the wall, he felt the heavy blow on his back and legs, and stuck all the sounds in his throat, no shouting, no screaming, just quietly next to each other, even thinking that these fists and feet were still the same, not strange at all, and not uncomfortable at all.

He didn't resist not because he felt that he was guilty and that he deserved it, but because he felt that these children who had not yet entered the society, but who worshiped the underworld, were very naïve and pitiful. He did this not to give in, but because he didn't want to see the annoying faces of the Lin family, let alone give in to the Lin family.

Because he is still living on the poverty line, he can hardly afford any additional expenses. If he continues to be injured, he will be forced to die, or forced to kneel down to the Lin family to compromise, this is his dignity that he cannot compromise, and it is his last perseverance, even if he dies, he cannot change.

So he can only stand next to each other, and he can't resist, not because he is afraid of more people, nor is he afraid of pain, but because he is afraid of losing the life he still cherishes, or his last dignity.