/ In this love, he gave up his self-esteem, he gave up pride, but it may not be a lose-lose situation./

Yan Leng reacted after a long time, Cen Ge should have said a scene that he and Zhao Xiaoya played together, Cen Ge misunderstood, but Yan Leng didn't know how to explain, no matter what he said now, it was a lie in Cen Ge's eyes, but who could blame him? It was he who deceived Cen Ge's love, it was he who deceived Cen Ge's trust, it was he who acted in Cen Ge one good show after another, how could Cen Ge believe him? After being treated like that.

Yan Leng didn't know what he had to do to keep Cen Ge, he didn't know what he had to do to forgive him, as long as he didn't look at him like that, as long as he no longer lived in his cold and lonely world, as long as he was willing to laugh, he could do anything, and he would be willing to do anything.

In fact, what Yan Leng didn't know was that what made Cen Ge feel that he was lying to him was precisely because of his love for Cen Ge.

In Cen Ge's eyes, how could Yan Leng be so affectionate to him, how long had they known each other. In Cen Ge's heart, Yan Leng is like a ray of light in his life, but he Cen Ge is to Yan Leng, it doesn't matter at all. Cen Ge didn't know what he was worthy of Yan Leng to play such a play, he was alone, Yan Leng didn't need to do this.

Cen Ge has never seen Yan Leng crying, let alone seen Yan Leng kneeling to anyone, what is he worth, if he is uneasy and guilty for being on himself, this is even more impossible.

Yan Leng is also a person, one of the three super families in the capital, the Yan family's sister-in-law Dumiao, grandfather Yan Long is the founding general, father Yan Hongsheng is Jiangzhou City Wei Shuji, grandfather Leng Sheng is the chairman of the famous Leng Group, Yan Leng is a veritable young master, from childhood to adulthood, this face is a golden signboard, there is no one who does not recognize Yan Da Young Master, now, how can he do it because of himself?

Cen Ge has an advantage, he has always been able to see himself clearly, he never feels how important he is to anyone, nor does he feel that he is unparalleled in the world, so Cen Ge just wants to say to Yan Leng, you see what you want in me, just take it and let me go.

Yan Leng let go of Cen Ge's hand, which he had been holding tightly, turned around and took out a thick quilt from the cabinet, carefully wrapped it around Cen Ge, closed the heavy curtains, and the light in the room suddenly became very dim.

Yan Leng turned around and saw Cen Ge's slightly wide eyes, he could see the uneasiness in the eyes of this person who had always been so stubborn and strong, he was actually afraid of the dark, he only found out later. He didn't know what kind of torture it was for Cen Ge who gave him his eyes to live in the dark night that made him so afraid, he didn't know how much Cen Ge had suffered, he didn't even know how much hurt he had given Cen Ge, he only knew that in this life, he would protect Cen Ge and love Cen Ge.

Yan Leng turned on the night light on the bedside table, looking at Cen Ge's eyes were no longer as uneasy as just now, but he still refused to close his eyes, Yan Leng lay on the bed through the quilt, hugged Cen Ge, felt the stiffness of the person in his arms for a moment, and whispered, "Sleep, don't worry, I won't do anything." ”

After a while, the light of Xu is night light was too warm, Xu was too warm in the room, and Xu is Cen Ge was too tired, so he slept like this until noon the next day.

Cen Ge woke up and found that Yan Leng was no longer there, and just wanted to sit up, but found that there was still a tearing pain in his lower body, but it was not as weak as yesterday, and if it hurt, he could still bear it.

Cen Ge endured the pain, but there was no change on his face, and found a big sweater and a pair of jeans on the balcony, Cen Ge looked at his still naked body, put on the sweater directly, put on the pants with difficulty, and walked out barefoot without caring about the warm liquid winding down his back body.

He didn't deliberately slow down, and he wasn't scared at all, there was nothing in his life that could make him afraid, being treated like that by Yan Leng, the physical pain was really nothing to him, he just felt pain in his heart, that's all.

Cen Ge walked downstairs step by step, every step was very steady, he didn't see Yan Leng's figure, he originally wanted to say goodbye to Yan Leng, and then he walked far away, never to be seen again, but now he can't find Yan Leng.

Cen Ge couldn't tell what the feelings in his heart were, he was not a woman who cried at every turn, nor was he a greenhouse flower who couldn't stand it, on the contrary, he was a man who had already left the house and was self-reliant, and there was nothing he couldn't bear.

As for farewell, Cen Ge admitted that he still had some reluctant feelings in his heart, but if he wanted to leave, he would definitely go cleanly.

Cen Ge was about to push open the door with regret and reluctance that he had never said goodbye, when he suddenly heard the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground. Cen Ge was taken aback, and when he looked back, it was the object he wanted to say goodbye to, Yan Leng.

Before he could say something, he was hugged tightly all of a sudden, and the cold on Yan Leng's body made him feel excited, but Cen Ge was a little dazed.

Yan Leng looked a little miserable now, his face was weirdly blue and white, his hair was still dripping with water, and his body was a little stiff from the cold.

In his previous life, Yan Leng always immersed himself in cold water as a punishment, but after a long time, it became a habit. Just now, Yan Leng also pressed his head in the cold water to calm down, but his heart suddenly became uneasy, as if someone had dug out a piece of his heart, Yan Leng was afraid that something would happen to Cen Ge, so he sat up all of a sudden, put on his clothes and ran out, but just as he saw the scene of Cen Ge leaving, Yan Leng ran down the stairs barefoot, and fell to the ground unsteadily. But Yan Leng, who was thinking about Cen Ge in his heart, cared about this, and when he got up, he hugged Cen Ge tightly.

Cen Ge was hugged by Yan Leng like this, feeling Yan Leng's heart beating rapidly behind him, feeling Yan Leng's breath and breath on him, he thought, this is probably the last time they will meet, Yan Leng's embrace is still so powerful, just as it was at the beginning.

At that time, as soon as his mother died, he left the place where he had lived for fourteen years, and left the wealthy family that everyone envied.

At that time, he thought, he should be free, even if he is down.

But he never thought that the wealthy family was so easy to leave, he left the house, but his body was full of the marks of the Lin family.

The Lin family found a house for him, and regularly put a sum of money into his card, if he wanted, he could be a BMW with a car, he could be drunk with money, and he could be a wealthy young master, but he didn't want to.

If it weren't for his mother being in the Lin family, he wouldn't want to stay in that place for a minute.

Can even that place be called home?

So he chose to leave, so he decided that he would not use the money given to him by the Lin family when he died, so he would rather make his hands full of scars, and would rather take the sky as the earth, he was willing.

And the Lin family stopped him a few times and didn't move, yes, he was a child who was not expected, he never expected anyone to really love him, even if it was a penny, even if he liked Yan Leng so much, but he still didn't dare to sue him, not just because they were both men, but because he didn't dare.

Yes, he didn't dare.

Except for his mother, he has never been treated gently, and after his mother left, he was used to being isolated, rejected, and disliked, even if he was strong enough, even if he was good enough, even if he dared to love and hate enough, even if he was not afraid of being hurt, but he resisted those strange eyes and disgusted looks.

When he met Yan Leng, he really didn't know if this was a fate or an ordeal.

I still remember that he often fought with others, since he was a child, he pounced with his fist because others scolded him for being a bastard, and he always lost at that time, because other children would call many people to come, and he was only one person.

Finally, it will be the parents of both parties who will come to visit.

Later, he moved out of the Lin family, but he still didn't win the fight, even if he no longer had to worry about his mother apologizing, even if he didn't have to face the noisy accusations of those people.

But whether it was because of a fight and went into the head teacher's office or the police station, in the end there was only one way to go, to find the parents. And his parents have always been just a random person sent by the Lin family, maybe surnamed Liu, maybe surnamed Zhao, but it will never be surnamed Lin.

In this way, he would rather be beaten than face the three words of finding his parents again.

And his non-resistance is like a synonym for cowardice in the eyes of those people, they embarrass him, but no matter how difficult it is, he has to follow, his bones are hard.

Until I met Yan Leng.

They met during a choral practice in junior high school. At that time, Song Renliang was the accompanist of the chorus, but there was something suddenly that day, so he asked Yan Leng to help take a substitute shift, and Master Yan originally wanted to spend some money to find someone directly, but he was bored for a while, so he went over in person.

During the break in the choral practice, Yan Leng stayed by the piano idly, and no one dared to approach him.

Yan Leng's moodiness, bullying you, you have to pay for his reputation and his good skills are famous. Just when Young Master Yan was struggling with whether this substitute was right or wrong, he caught an incompatible figure, which was the first time he saw Cen Ge.

Yan Leng's junior high school was the best junior high school in Jiangzhou, and he was able to come here either because his background was hard enough or because he was at the top of his studies, and he practiced at a young age. The girls were discussing makeup and name brands, and the boys were discussing games and women, which made Yan Leng feel very irritable and disgusting.

But when he glanced at it casually, he found a different figure.

He was different from the person next to him, he just stood there alone, silent, and the silhouette on the side was so cold and lonely.

Yan Leng suddenly felt very interested in him, and took the initiative to talk to someone for the first time.

Later, the two became friends.

When Pan Wei and the others casually found an excuse to trouble him, Cen Ge hooked the corners of his mouth, and his body just leaned against the wall casually, waiting for the first punch or the first kick. It was just a beating, and those people didn't dare to beat him to death, and they wouldn't break his bones, so he just held his head and curled up in silence. Unexpectedly, Yan Leng, who had only known him for a day, suddenly appeared and knocked those people to the ground, at that time he frowned, complaining in his heart about Yan Leng's nosy.

Later, Yan Leng often went to school with him, and after school, he was unwilling to take Yan Leng's car, so Yan Leng accompanied him, because Yan Leng, no one dared to trouble him anymore. When he was working, Yan Leng didn't stop him like the Lin family, and there was no need to throw him money, he just accompanied him when he was working, waiting for him to go home together.

He didn't know what he was to Yan Leng, he only knew that in that short period of one year, he thanked and loved Yan Leng, and that Chinese New Year's Eve clearly told him that Yan Leng never loved him, maybe Yan Leng just felt novel, maybe Yan Leng just regarded him as a brother, or maybe it was a pass that he wanted to overcome, and now the game is cleared, and the game is over.

From now on, I only hope that Cen Ge and Yan Leng will never see each other again.

"Cen Ge, don't go, don't go......" Yan Leng hugged Cen Ge tightly and refused to let go, he knew that once he let go of his hand, he was afraid that he would never find Cen Ge again, he couldn't let go, and he didn't dare to let go.

"Yan Leng, I'm leaving, you ......" He didn't know what to say for a while, he wanted to say that you have to take care of your body, he wanted to say that you must be very good, but these words should not be said by him, not to mention that Yan Leng should have been a chic and happy person all his life, so he would naturally be very good. So, he just said, "Let it go." ”

Yan Leng, may you be proud and happy for a lifetime.

Cen Ge was ruthless, broke out of Yan Leng's embrace, pressed the handle little by little, opened the door little by little, and walked out step by step.

Cen Ge !!

Yan Leng didn't know what to do, what he had to do to keep Cen Ge, he knew that Cen Ge was actually more ruthless than him, he didn't even look back, and he didn't give him a reason to catch up, such Cen Ge, Yan Leng didn't dare to chase, he could only watch Cen Ge go away step by step, he could only let the knife rip out his heart at once, and other than that, he couldn't do anything.

I couldn't see Cen Ge walking away step by step, Yan Leng held the door little by little, sat on the ground, alone, until the sun rose and set, until the sound of firecrackers on the second day of the Lunar New Year was deafening, until the laughter was full of ears, until the body was so cold that he was unconscious, until his heart burst into tears.

The pain in his body is actually nothing, he thought, it turned out that he lived again and picked up his heart, but he still had to watch him go away and watch his heart crack, which was the real pain. It turns out that living again, such pain, is atoning for my sins.

I was willing to give everything I had, but I didn't expect that the price would be too heavy and too heavy for me to pay for everything.

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