Seeing Wang Jiajia's mother enter the door, Xiao Yao, who was weak-hearted, wanted to run away. But before he could go out, he was stopped by his cousin. She said to Xiao Yao with a cold face:

"Second son, what are you doing here? Jiajia is angry, you still don't give up?"

"I ...... I didn't know my cousin wasn't at home, I wanted to come and discuss homework with her. ”

Xiao Yao's words, not to mention that he couldn't deceive his cousin, even Wang Jiajia's little sister was snickering on the side.

"I don't care what happened to you and Jiajia before, in the future, you don't come to my house to find Jiajia again. If you dare to mess around again, don't blame me for being unkind to you. You go back and tell your mother by the way, don't talk about her proposal in the future. ”

After Wang Jiajia's mother finished speaking sternly, she no longer ignored Xiao Yao, she waved at Xiao Yao like a fly, and turned to go about her own business. Xiao Yao returned home in frustration, dizzy, and didn't know what to do for a while.

Wang Jiajia left quietly, the pain she brought to Xiao Yao and the pain Huang Li brought him were completely different feelings.

What Huang Lili brought him was a loss of love, as if it was a heart-wrenching pain, a very uncomfortable but indescribable taste.

And the pain that Wang Jiajia gave him was a bloody stinging pain, which brought Xiao Yao the feeling of being hollowed out, making him at a loss. Xiao Yao was really confused at this time, and he couldn't figure out what love was and what love was.

Wang Jiajia and Huang Li, for Xiao Yao, are also losses, but they bring him completely different experiences.

He didn't know what kind of feelings Huang Li and Wang Jiajia felt, whether they could be retracted and released freely.

But he couldn't, two kinds of pain were intertwined, and two girls alternated in his mind. Gradually, it all turned into their contemptuous ridicule and disdainful contempt for Xiao Yao.

His immature concept of love was shattered at this time, and his tenderness for girls was ruthlessly erased. Even at this time, he didn't blame Wang Jiajia and Huang Li at all, he only blamed himself for being useless, incompetent, and ignorant, everything was self-inflicted and had nothing to do with others.

Xiao Yao gave up on himself in his room, and Wang Jiajia, who was far away in the provincial capital, was also sitting alone in a small single room. There are thousands of thoughts in my head, and I am full of sorrows.

The night of candles in the cave room and the title of the gold list are the best moments in life. But for Wang Jiajia, on the contrary, after ten years of hard work in the college entrance examination, she experienced a serious blow to her feelings.

Xiao's mother proposed marriage for her younger brother, Wang Jiajia didn't even dare to celebrate the Dragon Boat Festival at home in order to escape her mother's forced marriage, she found an excuse to go to the provincial capital again, and wandered between the cutting training class and her residence every day.

She recalled again and again that Xiao's mother would never agree to her son and marry a girl who was a generation older than herself as her daughter-in-law, and she often regretted herself, why did she promise Xiao's mother to never meet Xiao Yao again before marriage.

Wang Jiajia regretted and despaired, she fantasized and looked forward to Xiao Yao meeting her in the provincial capital, and then took risks, eloped with Xiao Yao, fought for her own happiness once, and cooked raw rice so that all people could not change.

However, this is just Wang Jiajia's dream of being alone in a foreign land, and the development of things is not as full of adventures as she imagined. Xiao Yao had a serious crisis of trust in her at this time, and he thought that his unilateral understanding of Wang Jiajia was wrong.

The next day, Xiao Yao had no memory of his home, and that expectation was gone. After breakfast, he ignored his mother's telling him to wait for her to go with him tomorrow, and went to his father's factory alone. Only there can he get out of his self-isolation and find what little self-esteem he has left.

When he arrived at the periphery of the commune, Xiao Yao set aside the main road, cut the small road straight into the dirt road in front of the Soagong Middle School, and then from the small gate on the west side of the factory, passed the flour mill, and returned to his room.

Xiao Yao left like this, just because he didn't want more people to know that he was coming. He wanted to change the environment first and think calmly about his future. But when he came to the office room, he found that the sheets were very messy, and only half of the thin quilt was on the bed.

This room, most people will not come here to stay overnight, unless a customer comes, the room happens to be empty, and the night stays here. Basically, it is dedicated to Xiao Yao.

Seeing this scene, Xiao Yao was very annoyed. He didn't have a habit of cleanliness, and he didn't care about anyone else spending the night in his bed, but this was the first time he had seen such a scene. If it was in the past, Xiao Yao would definitely shout and even throw away all the sheets.

But today, although Xiao Yao was very annoyed, he just stood for a while, picked up a novel that he had read half of and left the room, and went to Xiao Ling's residence. Xiao Ling was working in the big workshop at this time, and she didn't know that Xiao Yao came over so early.

Xiao Ling's door was locked, but Xiao Yao knew where Xiao Ling hid the key, and after he found the key, he went directly to Xiao Ling's room. The room was also very simple, with only a table, a chair, a bed, and an old wooden cupboard, which was placed in the innermost part of the room.

Although Xiao Ling's room is small and simple, it is spotless and clean up by her, and the air is filled with a faint fragrance, which is a unique fragrance of a girl, which has been in the room for a long time, making Xiao Yao smell very intoxicated.

Xiao Yao stood at the table, and before he could sit on the chair, he saw a diary in the innermost corner of the table, which was slightly larger than the textbook, and the bright red plastic cover was very conspicuous in Xiao Yao's eyes.

Xiao Yao was surprised, he had never heard Xiao Ling say that she had the habit of keeping a diary, let alone seen her have such a diary. He picked up the red diary and looked at it, and found that it was still brand new.

He didn't know if Xiao Ling wrote a diary in it, so he didn't open it, and put it back in place casually. Peeking at other people's diaries is the most shameful act. Xiao Yao wants to see it, and he will wait for Xiao Ling to come back and ask for it, even if Xiao Ling doesn't show him, he won't care.

Although Xiao Yao was low-key when he entered the factory, when he entered Xiaoling's room, he was still seen by Master Wang in the small canteen. When he passed by the big workshop, he told Xiaoling the news.

Xiaoling was busy for a while and didn't come over in time. On the eve of getting off work, Xiao Ling hurried back to the room. At this time, Xiao Yao leaned on the head of her bed, holding a novel in his hand, saw Xiao Ling come in, looked at her and said lightly:

"I don't know who slept in my room, so I came to you. ”

"I'll tell you where the key is, so that you can come to me at any time to rest. ”

Xiao Ling didn't listen to his explanation, she didn't need any reason, and she wouldn't object to Xiao Yao resting in her room. Xiao Yao's explanation made her feel unhappy.

"There are many people who want goods after the holiday, the factory has a day off, the inventory is not enough, there are customers waiting in the factory last night, your father let him sleep in your room. I'll help you clean it up later. ”

After Xiao Ling finished speaking, she sat down next to Xiao Yao's bed. Xiao Yao didn't know why, he suddenly felt uncomfortable, he put down the book, and hugged Xiaoling tightly into his arms.

A burst of sadness made Xiao Yao almost want to cry. Physical injuries can be endured by a man, but the masochism from the depths of the soul can only be endured by a fool.

Xiao Ling felt the throbbing of Xiao Yao's body, and she snuggled in Xiao Yao's arms very obediently and did not move. After a while, she asked softly:

"Xiao Yao, what's wrong with you?"

Holding Xiaoling's sense of fulfillment, Xiao Yao's heart gradually calmed down. He didn't want Xiao Ling to peek into his thoughts, so he looked at the diary on the table and asked:

"When did you start journaling, and how do you use the color red?"

Xiao Yao heard Xiao Ling say that she, like Xiao Yao, prefers light colors. All of her clothes and supplies are not bright red.

"I didn't keep a diary, I didn't buy it. Be....... ”

Xiao Ling heard Xiao Yao ask about the diary, and she lied a little in her heart. This diary was sent by Zhu Jiuyong after Xiao Yao went home, Xiaoling didn't accept it, but he left it and ran away.

She didn't chase it out that night to return it, because she didn't want to alarm others. She has always wanted to find an opportunity to return it quietly, but this time is relatively busy, Zhu Jiuyong often goes out during the day, and she delays this matter during the holidays.

Xiao Yao heard that it was not bought by Xiao Ling, and said that he did not write a diary, so Xiao Yao took the diary in his hand and looked through it. Xiao Ling didn't stop it, because she had opened it at all. Xiao Yao stretched out his hand to open the bright red plastic hard shell, only to see that the title page read:

Gu Ling:

This red diary represents a fiery heart of mine. I give it to you, and I hope you will record the bits and pieces of our future together.

The following inscription: Zhu Jiuyong, who will love you forever. The bottom row is the date of the days leading up to the Dragon Boat Festival.

Xiao Ling also stretched out her head to the side and saw the message written on the title page, and her beautiful handsome face turned pale with a "swish".

"Xiao Yao, it's not like this, don't listen to his nonsense, I've never dealt with him. ”

Xiao Ling didn't finish her words, and the tears in her eyes flowed out like a fountain. And he looked terrified and trembled. Xiao Yao hugged her, kissed and sucked the tears from the corners of her eyes, and then said indifferently:

"Look at you, why are you crying so hard? You should be happy that someone likes you so much. If you're something that no one wants, I'm not unusual. ”

"Woo...... Xiao Yao, don't you blame me? I was just too busy to pay him back, and I forgot about it. ”

Xiao Ling couldn't believe what Xiao Yao said, in her subconscious, in the customs of the countryside, girls are chased by boys, that is, girls are inappropriate and don't know how to be reserved. She thought Xiao Yao was just comforting her.

"You have been so good to me, and you have not blamed me, what reason do I have to blame you? Besides, I promised a long time ago that I would help you solve this matter, so you can leave this matter alone, and I will help you return it to him tomorrow?"

"Okay, yes, but first I have to tear up the mess he wrote, I don't want those words to be left on it. ”

Xiao Ling took the diary and was about to tear it up, but was blocked by Xiao Yao.

"I'll let him tear this up tomorrow, and if you tear it, you won't return it intact. ”

Xiao Ling heard that Xiao Yao said that it was reasonable, so she no longer insisted on tearing up the title page by herself, and slammed the diary to the ground.