"If you were given a chance to do it all over again, what would you choose?"

The people who attended the funeral left one after another, and in the cemetery, only Li Zheng and Alexa were left standing in front of the tombstone, standing for a long time.

"Will you go to Africa with Bonnie?"

Alexa looked at Li Zheng and spoke again: "When Bonnie went to Korea to look for you, would you still refuse to see her?"

"I ......"

Li Zheng opened his mouth and was speechless.

Alexa asked, "Chris, do you regret it now?"

Li Zheng turned his head to look at Alexa, and the two looked at each other, and after a long time, Li Zheng looked away, but did not answer Alexa's question.

"When Bonnie and I went to see you in Korea, it was a month before she had surgery......"

Alexa looked at Bonnie's tombstone and said calmly: "The doctor told her that the parasite she was infected with in Africa was parasitic in her brain, and due to the peculiarities of the brain, the risk of surgery is very high, and there is a high probability that she will not be able to get out of the operating room." When Bonnie found out about the situation, she asked the doctor: How much time would she have if she didn't have surgery? The doctor told her that it would only be a month and a half at most.

Then Bonnie came to me, and she knew that I was traveling with you after graduation and asked me for your address in Korea, and she wanted to see you one last time before the surgery. ”

Alexa turned her head to look at Li Zheng and said lightly: "Because, she wants to tell you that the reason why she didn't say goodbye was because there was an emergency, not that she didn't care about you." When she and the members of the Red Cross went to Africa, she didn't see the message you sent her because of the poor local conditions and the lack of internet. And by the time she saw it, she couldn't reach you anymore......"

After a pause, Alexa looked at Li Zheng and continued, "Chris, you know what?

A week before the surgery, I dialed your number with her cell phone so as not to leave her regrets, but when your voice rang, she suddenly hung up. When you call again, she looks at your number, stares for a long time, but doesn't dare answer. She said that if she could get off the operating table, she would take the initiative to go to Korea to find you. But if she wasn't that lucky, she didn't want to be alone outside the operating room and worry about her.

She is always used to thinking about others, but she always neglects herself, so she is not destined to live happily like you and me.

Because, she only has others but no herself in her heart, while we only have ourselves and no others.

Chris, this is the reality: selfish people will always live longer and get more than others. ”

Alexa looked at Li Zheng: "Chris, do you think I'm right?"

Li Zheng staggered his gaze and remained silent.

Alexa looked at Li Zheng and didn't continue to ask, but looked at Bonnie's tombstone and said calmly: "That day, when Bonnie was pushed out of the operating room by the doctor, looking at the cloth cover covering her, I thought I would be sad and cry loudly, but strangely, I was calm at the time, just like now." Looking at the body of my best friend, my mood was so calm, I didn't have any sadness, I didn't have any pain, I was thinking: Ah, this is death!"

Alexa looked at Li Zheng again: "Chris, am I very perverted?"

Li Zheng did not speak and continued to be silent.

Alexa didn't seem to want Li Zheng to answer, she turned her head to look at the tombstone again, and continued: "Who am I, where do I come from, where am I going?...... I've always found philosophy fascinating and interesting. That's why I was admitted to the philosophy department at Yale University.

There are many philosophical questions about life and death, and I have thought about this question many times before.

What is life and what is death?

When I face life and death, what will I feel?

All of this suddenly came to me when I saw Bonnie's body.

Ah, that's death!

The answer to everything turned out to be as simple as that.

I remember that you explained to me a passage in a Chinese philosophical classic: a disciple asked his teacher about ghosts and gods, and his teacher told him that you have not yet done human things clearly, and what kind of ghost things do you want? The disciple asked him about the teacher's death, and the teacher told him that he didn't know what was going on with 'life', and what else was 'death' talking about.

When I saw Bonnie's body, I suddenly thought of this passage.

What is life, what is death, and what is philosophy?

Is what I'm after, what I'm exploring, really meaningful?

What is life and what is death?

I used to think it was complicated, but it turned out to be so simple.

To live or to die is not to think about it at all.

For the one who is alive returns to the pre-life, and the one who dies to the after-death. When you live, you don't have to think about what will happen after death, that's something you will naturally know after death. After death, people naturally don't have to think about their lives, because that is already a thing of the past. Living in the moment and living happily is what we need to pay attention to the most. ”

After finishing speaking, Alexa turned to look at Li Zheng again, and suddenly asked, "Chris, if you were given a chance to start again, what would you choose?"

"I ......"

Li Zheng looked away and bowed his head slightly: "I don't know." ”

"yes. ”

Alexa smiled wryly: "I don't know either." ”

She looked at Bonnie's tombstone and whispered, "After Bonnie died, I thought about this too. If I could go back in time, if I could change everything, if that accident hadn't happened, if Bonnie hadn't contracted the parasite, would the ending have been completely different?

……

But the reality is that no one can go back in time, so if only if. ”

Alexa stepped forward, crouched down, reached out and gently rubbed Bonnie's tombstone, and asked softly, "Bonnie, if you were given a chance to do it all over again, what would you choose?"

However, the tombstone was silent, only a gentle breeze blew through it.

"Chris, do you regret it?" Alexa suddenly looked up at Li Zheng again.

"I ......"

Li Zheng looked into Alexa's eyes, then turned his head to look at Bonnie's tombstone, and after a long time, he said in a low voice: "I, I regret it." ”

"Really?"

Alexa raised the corners of her mouth, as if mocking and then just smiling: "It's a pity...... It's too late to regret it. ”

After finishing speaking, she stood up, turned her back to Li Zheng, and suddenly stopped at the moment when she was about to leave, then took out a letter from her bag and turned around and handed it to Li Zheng: "This is a small poem written by Bonnie before he died. She said that if she can't wake up, if you come to the United States, she asked me to pass this poem on to you. ”

After finishing speaking, Alexa looked at Li Zheng, suddenly stepped forward, opened his arms, and gently hugged Li Zheng.

"Chris, goodbye. At last...... I wish you happiness. ”

After Alexa left, Li Zheng was the only one left in front of the tombstone, holding the letter paper in his hand, looking at Bonnie's tombstone, and after a long time, he bowed his head slightly and slowly opened the letterhead in his hand.

The title of the little poem on the letterhead is only one word - short.

Underneath the head, there are several lines of deep handwriting.

Short!

The day is short, too short to embrace the early morning, and already hold the dusk!

A year is very short, too short to taste the early spring to the red dou green, you have to put some plain autumn frost!

Life is very short, and if you don't have time to enjoy the good years, you are already in the twilight!

It always passes too fast and realizes too late, so we must learn to cherish and cherish what we can have on the road of life......

Because

Once you pass by, you may never meet!