You Zishi has a fear that if he indulges in his home, lives a small life with Su Marriage, and suppresses the unspeakable impulses in his chest in front of them, it is very likely that he will eventually become numb, and before he has time to burn, he will be annihilated in this mediocrity.

Love is love, and fear is still fear.

This is the mood of You Zishi before sitting at the gate of the factory that day and waiting for Director Ni and Director Cao to come out.

"You're standing on this bustling street

Can't find where you're going

You're standing on this bustling street

I felt a panic that I had never felt before

You've had some heroic dreams

It's like a warm light in the night

How can there be no power of hope?

You can only stand up and move forward forever

You're walking down this bustling street

Looking for where you should go

You're walking down this bustling street

Looking for the power you once had......"

The guitar is loud, the singing voice is cruel and warm, but there is a wordless struggle in the lowness, Youzi poems gave this "That Year" to Haizi, to Li Xiang, to Xiaobai, to Su Marriage, and to himself.

In the song, Bai Xiaobo held Haizi's head, and the two stood up together, hugged each other, and danced slowly in the song.

That year, it sounds far away, but it seems to have just happened, and that kind of imprint is still clearly left in people's hearts. It's like a light in the midnight, accompanying everyone looking for the direction they should go and the power they should have......

After the song is sung.

"Youzishi, your song really stumped me, I don't know how to dance with ...... at all," Xiaobai said with a smile.

"So, that's why you pulled Haizi to ballroom dance with you?" quipped.

"yes, otherwise, what else...... Wow, it's so cold tonight!" Bai Xiaobo hugged his arms and stomped his feet like a little girl.

"Then go home!"

"No, I don't want to go back!

"This is not a concert......

"No, I'll just treat you as our radio station now, I order songs, don't play tricks, now such a good atmosphere, we can't lack music ......"

Under the cuteness of the beautiful snake, You Zishi thought about it, so she had to pick up the guitar and sing a song suitable for listening to when her heart was quiet.

Zebra Zebra.

"Zebra, zebra, don't fall asleep

Show me your injured tail again

I don't want to touch the scars of your wounds

I just want to lift your hair

Zebra, zebra you're back in your home

But I'm wasting my cold years

There isn't a single door open in your city for me

I'm going to get back to the road after all......"

It's the same ballad, but it has a vague symbolism. What exactly does a zebra zebra refer to, what it sings, every listener has its own understanding, its own guess, its own thoughts, it may refer to "parents", it may refer to a lover, or it may be other beautiful things......

As for what it is, it doesn't matter, the important thing is that I won't waste my cold years for zebras, and I'm going to get back to the road after all......

If you want to ask me what is the reason, it is nothing else, just because, there is no door open for me in your city, which is also foreshadowed and destined, whether it is rain or shine or sunshine, I and you will not be able to walk together......

No matter how many wonderful intertwines we have had, and how much we have been touched by each other, in the end, you will still return to your home, and I am destined to carry my guitar and go away......

We can't be in the same boat and sail together!

Because you have your path, your dependence and choice, and I have my direction, my stubbornness and persistence, even if we have briefly intersected together, it can only be regarded as an accident, no matter how vigorous the "accident" has bloomed, but we will still miss and separate......

Even if you are reluctant, even if you are lost, there is no need to be surprised or sad. Because life is such a process of encounters, chance encounters, and then rendezvous, and then dispersion, and the cycle repeats, it is not impossible to want everything, but it requires each other to have great courage!

If you don't have that courage, you can only turn it into an accident. If you can't do it, you can only choose to remember or forget!

This accident is like the love between Haizi and Bai Xiaobo at this moment during the burning and fleeing period, and it is also like the poem called "Accident":

I am a cloud in the sky,

Occasionally projected in the heart of your wave --

You don't have to be surprised,

There is no need to rejoice--

In an instant, all traces were wiped out.

You and I meet on the sea of night,

You have yours, I have mine, direction;

You remember,

It's better that you forget,

The light that shines on each other at this rendezvous!

"Zebra, zebra, do you remember me

I'm a fool who can only sing

Zebra, zebra, you sleep, sleep

I'll leave the North with my guitar on my back

Zebra, zebra, do you remember me

I'm a child who is forced to talk about sorrow

Zebra, zebra, you sleep, sleep

I'm going to sell my house

Wandering the world......"

The wandering poem continues to be sung like a troubadour. In fact, the lyrics of the second half of "Zebra Zebra" do have the same tone as "Accidental" in the cognition of the wandering poem, expressing the same meaning and the same mood, "You sleep, sleep", "You have yours, I have mine, direction", I don't know what your world will become in the future, all I know is, "I am a fool who can only sing", so, "You sleep, sleep", "I want to sell my house and wander the world"......

To put it bluntly, cruelly, that is, the Tao is not the same, since the will is not the same, then what is the use of the light of our rendezvous, even if it shines, it is just an accidental encounter, but it is impossible to be in the same boat through thick and thin, enjoy thousands of miles of sunshine......

In the eyes of outsiders, such a story, such a poem, and such a song may sound very romantic, and they may think that there is a strong relationship between the two people in the story, but in the hearts of the people involved, they know what kind of despair this is......

And this kind of despair is shrouded in the hearts of Haizi and Xiaobai, who are temporarily fleeing from the Jade Sea at this moment......

Both of them know in their hearts, they both know the love between them, they also know the problems between them, and they also understand the desires in their hearts, in the real world where they will slowly wake up after falling into madness, Bai Xiaobo knows that what he wants is not as utopian and illusory as in the art world, but really enjoying the lights and madness in this world of flowers......

No woman will ever fantasize about the impossible existence of a castle in the sky, even if they have been able to find that perfection and such a delusion again and again in art, but it does not mean that they want to be 100% immersed in the palace of art for the rest of their lives, unless the palace of art can also bring them the glory of the modern city......

Be able to eat well, dress decently, have fun, and have fun......

"Zebra Zebra", a work by Song Dongye.

(End of chapter)