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This is the first time he has taken the initiative in the real sense of the word without her request and coercion, kissed deeply, and kissed for a long time, and probably because the lights in the house did not turn on to give him courage, he finally touched her "out of breath", Fang Songqi once thought that he was stimulated by her, and finally wanted to do it with her, after all, he reacted, but he still stopped it in time.

"Don't say such things again, insult yourself and insult me. The darkness also added a rare solemnity to Shen Ye's voice.

Fang Songqi showed his face silently, and Chuan slapped him angrily: "If you don't do it, don't tease me~!"

"I'm sorry......" Shen Ye was stunned, let go of his hand and wanted to get out of bed.

"Don't. Fang Songqi pulled him back. Although she couldn't see it, she could imagine his expression at this time, she must be embarrassed, maybe the roots of her ears were red again, and she couldn't help but laugh again.

"Just sleep here. Her palm pressed to his chest, with a big tone from the eldest sister of the rivers and lakes, "Okay, I know that you are the first time, and you may be more important, I am not strong on you, wait for you to come to sleep with me voluntarily and actively~ I can't always seem to be very hungry and thirsty." ”

"X" is the same as drinking water and eating, it is a kind of human physiological instinct, some people are shy and conservative, some people are enthusiastic and unrestrained, it is everyone's freedom, and they don't need to give birth to anything shameful.

But when she was sold to Lao Goubi before, she was a third child, completely against morality, even if she could use money to do things or X partner to convince herself, every time she did it, she actually felt more guilty in her heart. Now Shen Ye is her boyfriend after breaking away from the old dog, and he is the man she likes, and she longs to have a hearty and free X love with him.

However, Shen Ye cared about something different from her, and she couldn't force him, so let's leave some more time to run in with each other, otherwise she would definitely not be happy.

It's just that she was rejected one after another, and she felt a little lost in her heart.

"You make me feel like I'm not glamorous enough in front of you. Fang Songqi pretended to be aggrieved.

Shen Ye's hot breath sprayed on the top of her head: "No, you are very attractive." Otherwise I wouldn't have ......."

Fang Songqi felt that he was too embarrassed to speak, so he smiled and didn't tease him anymore. I also felt that he still had nothing to say, and she didn't ask overbearingly, and slept quietly in his arms with her eyes closed.

Anyway, she knew that his liking for her was not fake.

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In the reception room of the psychological counseling room, Ma Yi's iceberg face was two points colder than usual: "Mr. Lin let's go, you have found the wrong person, I can't agree to your request." ”

Lin Shinian knew that this matter was difficult, not that he didn't expect to be rejected, after all, the Doctor Ma he was facing in front of him was not Doctor-Luo, who had a friendship with him, and he had a little understanding of Doctor Ma's background before that, so he was not an easy to convince.

But he tried his best to do it again: "Dr. Ma, I know I'm very offended, but I really hope you can think about it again." For some reason, I can't tell you the situation completely, I believe you can understand that since some scars have been removed, there is no need to turn them out again. Isn't it the doctor's duty to relieve the patient's suffering?"

"So Mr. Lin really thinks that the scars have been removed, and Miss Fang is painless now?"

Lin Shinian seemed to be engaged in a fierce ideological struggle, with bright light and deep darkness in his eyes, and said, "Sometimes it's a kind of happiness to not know anything?"

Behind the lenses, Ma Yi's eyes were calm: "Mr. Lin, no one is qualified to make choices for other people's lives." ”

Lin Shinian clenched his fists: "I said that this was the choice she made back then. ”

Even so, Miss Fang now has a different choice. Ma Yi obviously didn't want to talk nonsense with him anymore, walked out of the reception room, and when he reached the door, he glanced back at Lin Shinian for the last time, "Escape is never the solution to the problem, it will only make the problems accumulate more and more, and new problems will be born, and one day they will collapse, but it is only a matter of time sooner or later." Mr. Lin, instead of forcibly delaying until that day comes and dealing with it passively, it is better to take the initiative now. I believe you understand what it means to be 'unbroken, unbroken'. ”

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A great new day starts with a delicious breakfast.

I didn't eat at the Internet celebrity restaurant last night, and in the morning Fang Songqi followed Shen Ye to taste the more famous breakfast restaurant.

An inconspicuous small shop in the depths of the alley, Shen Ye can find it, and the taste is indeed very good.

The stomach and mood were satisfied, and at the same time, Fang Songqi felt that after a night of brain repair, the split personality was further acceptable.

Back at the hotel, Fang Songqi subconsciously glanced at the door next door.

Shen Ye understood what she meant, and asked her to go back to the room to rest first: "I'll go talk to him again." ”

"Don't. Fang Songqi stopped him, "I don't want to act as if we are particularly demanding from him, I talked to him last night, even if he doesn't give me the medical records, it won't prevent me from seeing a doctor." If he had agreed, he would have come to us. ”

"Let's go, instead of wasting time with him, let's go over to Dr. Ma early and talk to Dr. Ma about my next treatment plan!" Fang Songqi pulled Shen Ye back to the room to pack his things.

Shen Ye has discovered that she has been conquered by Dr. Ma and has become Dr. Ma's little fan sister.

On the way to the psychological counseling room for the second time, Fang Songqi also asked Shen Ye for more information about Dr. Ma because of his interest in Dr. Ma.

Shen Ye told her everything he knew.

Hearing that Dr. Ma's wife is a police flower, Fang Songqi scratched his chin, and his slightly narrowed eyes revealed a sense of annihilation: "Doctor Ma's cold iceberg face that looks like no one is close to anyone, and the more he lacks the aura of the forbidden valley on the surface, once the meat is opened in private, if his wife does not have good physical strength, I am afraid that she will not be able to bear it, if it is a police flower sister, it is indeed a good match." ”

From this point of view, Shen Ye had nothing to say, so he could only be silent awkwardly.

Fang Songqi suddenly came over and bit his ear: "You also have to exercise more, in case you can't sleep with me by then~!"

Shen Ye: "...... cough cough, it's not a competition......

In view of the fact that yesterday arrived earlier than the agreed time, which may have affected Dr. Ma's normal life rhythm to some extent, this time before leaving from the hotel, Shen Ye called the little sister at the front desk in advance.

So when I arrived at the psychological counseling room, Dr. Ma was already in the consultation room, sitting at the treatment table and writing.

Once raw and twice cooked, Fang Songqi was not in a hurry after knocking on the door and entering, and quietly ate the small snacks and tea prepared on the table.

Worried that she would be accidentally hypnotized, she carefully controlled her eyes, trying not to look at the pendulum clock on the wall, but she still couldn't help but glance at it.

After looking at it, I found that the pendulum clock was gone.

Speaking of which, the aroma in the consultation room today is also different from yesterday, if yesterday's aroma is similar to the one she once smelled at Doctor-Luo and Doctor Liu, which makes her feel relaxed, then today's aroma seems to be more refreshing...... refreshing?

At this time, Dr. Ma spoke up: "How did Miss Fang sleep last night?"

"Good. After answering, Fang Songqi realized that what he really wanted to ask might not be this, so he added, "There is no dreaming, and there is no sleepwalking." ”

Dr. Ma simply gave a "hmm" and then regained his quietness.

Fang Songqi took the initiative to tell him that her previous medical records had not been obtained for the time being, and that she might have to wait a few more days, or she might just not be able to get them, and asked him if he could be cured without knowing her past condition.

After about two minutes, Dr. Ma stopped the pen in his hand, raised his head, and pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose: "Miss Fang, today I will continue to popularize some necessary knowledge about multiple personalities to you. ”

"Okay, Doctor Ma, you say!" Fang Songqi nodded vigorously, wishing to know more, compared to reading books by himself, of course, it was easier for Doctor Ma to pick the key points and personally absorb and understand her.

Dr. Ma habitually crossed his fingers on the table and began to preach: "Yesterday, in order to understand what 'split personality' is, I gave you the analogy that this is a person's body that inhabits many different souls. ”

"Yes. Fang Songqi nodded.

Dr. Ma continued, "It's not that you are born with multiple souls in your body, but often as you grow up, especially in your childhood, you encounter traumatic experiences where your original one soul is stripped away and forms another, which we call 'dual personality', or multiple, we call 'multiple personality'. They exist in your body at the same time, and although they are separated from each other and have different personalities and have separate memories and memories of each other, remember that they are not suddenly superfluous, but that they belong to you in the first place, that is, you. It's just that there is a distinction between primary and secondary personalities. ”

It's like a big cake cut into several small cakes, which belong to the big cake anyway. Fang Songqi digested it and nodded.

In addition, it's not that she hasn't seen art works about split personality before, last night she watched some documentary works and cases, some people split dozens of personalities, different ages, different genders, different occupations, different races, different identities, different thoughts, different languages, strangely all of them.

Her situation...... It must not be that scary, right...... anyway, she only knows that there is a Xiao Jiu at the moment.

Dr. Ma gets to the heart of her biggest concern: "Normally, the treatment plan that a doctor will take is to reintegrate the patient into a single personality. ”

Fang Songqi suddenly understood why Lin Shinian suddenly mentioned any "antonyms of split" yesterday.

Now that Xiao Jiu is gone, does it mean that she is now the result of integration in the previous treatment......?

Fang Songqi was so angry that he had a myocardial infarction, and the old dog was too tight than his mouth!

Doctor Ma seemed to have insight into her psychology, and said at this time, "Miss Fang, your current personality should not be the result of integration. ”

Hmm...... Fang Songqi's spirits were lifted: "Doctor Ma, how do you judge?"

She just said, experts are experts, even if there are no medical records, they can be calculated through clues like a god!

But Dr. Ma then said, "Mr. Lin came to me last night. ”

The expression on Fang Songqi's face froze, and she immediately thought of Doctor-Luo and Doctor Liu, and her expression suddenly changed: "Is he here to bribe you to let you lie to me and not give me the right treatment?"

Dr. Ma saw through her worries: "Miss Fang doesn't need to be too nervous, I am only responsible for the patients who come to me, and whether or not to treat is all up to Miss Fang, and you will not be interfered with by anyone else." —Of course, there was one only exception (see "Waiting for the Wind"), which was half deceived, and he did not admit that it was he who violated his principles.

Fong Chung-ki felt that Dr. Ma was trustworthy, otherwise Dr. Ma would not have been honest with her about this matter.

However, Dr. Ma revealed to her that Lin had come to the country for the purpose of making a small report. He asked her to confirm: "Mr. Lin is the man you told me yesterday that you once had an intimate relationship with a personality called 'Xiao Jiu' that you knew, right?"

Thinking that Dr. Ma had just said that no matter which personality it is, it is actually herself, Fang Songqi was reluctant to admit it, but finally nodded.

Dr. Ma helped his glasses: "I judged it through a few conversations with Mr. Lin. Miss Fang, the treatment you received at the beginning was incomplete, or interrupted. Therefore, Miss Fang, your current personality is not the result of the success of guided integrative therapy. Miss Fang, your current personality is more likely to be a sub-personality that was born back then, replacing the main personality at that time. ”

Fang Songqi was stunned. She...... Not the ...... of the main character?

This message was undoubtedly a thunderbolt to her.

In particular, the word "replace" made her panic, because isn't this just a love to say that she occupies the magpie's nest?

"Miss Fang, you are experiencing all kinds of uncomfortable symptoms now, the reason may be that the treatment was incomplete back then, it seems that you have lived well in the past two years, but in fact it has not been fundamentally cured, and some unstable factors have occurred. Dr. Ma repeated.

Fang Songqi was in his ears, and combined with his previous words, the focus of his mind was only focused on one place, and he lifted two lips with a white face: "I...... I...... If I am cured, will I have to disappear...... Give the place back to Xiao Jiu......"

"Not necessarily. Although he didn't give a 100% affirmative answer, Dr. Ma was obviously aware of her fear, and his expression was as consistent as his expression without much fluctuation in tone, somewhat reassuring, "I told Miss Fang that this disease is very complicated, there are many factors involved, and the medical treatment is still in the exploration stage. In the existing cases, it is true that most of them are sub-personalities fused back into the main personality, and if they were placed back then, most of them would have treated Miss Fang in this way. ”

"But Miss Fang, your situation is obviously more complicated, now this personality of yours is the main personality, and it seems to have most of the memories of the original main personality, and automatically cultivate another small part of the memory, so that your life seems logically complete, and the other personalities are temporarily gone. Perhaps it can be summed up that the dominant influencing factor is the strength of each personality's consciousness. ”

Fang Songqi was a little relieved, but he was not completely relieved, after all, Dr. Ma's word was "not necessarily".

When it comes to the question of "the strength of consciousness", Fang Songqi thinks of a question: "It seems that every time I dream about the memory of another personality, either I am sick or I am unconscious." ”

For example, her stomach hurts, for example, she is so hungry that she almost faints.

In this way, isn't it when her personal consciousness is weak?

Dr. Ma still did not give a 100% affirmative answer: "It may be the reason." ”

Even so, it is enough for Fang Songqi to pay attention to it. At least it was a "law" that could be followed! This also made her realize in hindsight why Lin Shinian was not allowed to sleep in the nursing home during the rainstorm that night!

Dr. Ma first made a small summary of the above communication: "This is the first point I want to make clear to you, firstly, I cannot guarantee that I will be able to cure Miss Fang, and secondly, if it is cured, I cannot guarantee that I will be able to preserve your current personality Miss Fang. Because there are so many uncertainties. ”

Fang Songqi's hands were clasped tightly under the table and nodded: "Okay...... I understand ......"

"The next thing to say is also very important. Dr. Ma's lenses were reflected for a moment, saying "also very important", but the tone sounded like "more important" to Fong Songqi.

She couldn't help but concentrate more and listened to Dr. Ma tell me—

"Although it is not clear when you started to have symptoms of split personality, Miss Fang, I first mentioned that the occurrence of 'split personality' is often closely related to the psychological trauma you have suffered, especially in childhood. ”

"No matter how big or small the trauma is, it's about whether the imprint on you is deep enough to hit you badly. So that at that time, you were unable to bear this profound blow, and in order to protect yourself, you 'separated' that part of the memory from yourself, so a 'new person' was born to bear it for you. ”

Fang Songqi originally wanted to interject and be confused, but she did not suffer any psychological trauma. If it was Fang Jie and Lao Xu's death, she would remember it clearly.

When she thought about it, she fully understood, and the memories she remembered must not be the trauma she thought. The real trauma is in the memories of other personalities, and she doesn't know this now.

If there is only one personality other than her, it is a trauma. If it's two, that's two wounds, and so on...... is what it means?

Another special thing about her current personality is that she was a sub-personality from back then, but now she is the main personality, the main personality without any traumatic memories?

"Miss Fang, the process of personality integration is the process of talking, communicating, and communicating with every personality in your body. For your personality to merge them means that you have to confront the trauma from which you have escaped. These traumas may be able to be borne by you now, or perhaps, even for you now, they are still devastating disasters. It is also very likely to affect whether you can be cured, Miss Fang. ”

Dr. Ma's voice paused for a moment, and then made a second summary: "This is another point that I have to confirm with Miss Fang, do you have the courage to face the 'lost memory'?"

Fang Songqi didn't speak.

She was a little confused.

From beginning to end, she didn't really care about that part of the lost memory, and she could even say that she didn't want to, because she thought that since she had a reason to lose it, why should she deliberately retrieve it?

So she even hopes that the treatment plan is to stabilize her current personality.

But now Dr. Ma told her that it was impossible, and that if she was to be treated, she would inevitably remember what she had forgotten.

The picture of Fang Jie pushing the mysterious person down in the studio suddenly flashed in front of her eyes. She had been reluctant to dwell on it, and if these dreams were indeed memories of her other personalities, then ...... Isn't the mystery man herself?

Her whole body trembled suddenly, and in just a few seconds, a layer of cold sweat broke out on her back, and Fang Songqi forcibly stopped thinking like an emergency brake.

"Miss Fang doesn't need to answer me now, go back and think about it carefully, the decision is completely up to you. Dr. Ma lifted his glasses, "But I will treat you first, continue to study your case, and start to prepare." Even if you choose to give up, it will be a necessary opportunity for me to learn. ”

Fang Songqi was stunned: "I...... I have one more question for you. ”

Dr. Ma: "Please." ”

Fang Songqi was at a loss: "Since I was originally a secondary personality, if I am the main personality and healed, I will be ...... Is it really me?"

Behind the lenses, Dr. Ma's eyes were quiet and profound: "Miss Fang, I said that no matter how many personalities are split, all of them are you." As long as you want to be yourself, nothing can stop you, you are yourself from beginning to end. ”

Fang Songqi's thoughts fluctuated slightly, and Lin Shinian said a sentence involuntarily appeared in his mind - "You were originally Fang Songqi." ”

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Walking out of the treatment room, Fang Songqi threw herself into the arms of Shen Ye, who greeted her.

Probably seeing that she was not giving up, he chuckled: "Are you sure you still have the energy to play now?" or go back to the hotel to rest for a while, and go back to Liucheng directly when it's time." ”

I have to say, he guessed too accurately.

With such a chaotic mind, how could she still be in the mood to play? It's a pity that she deliberately brought so many beautiful clothes, and it's also a pity that Shen Ye's camera has been useless for the past two days.

When I returned to the hotel, I happened to see the hotel's cleaning staff cleaning up the next room, and after asking, I learned that Lin Shinian had checked out and left.

Leaving without saying anything, combined with his behavior of going to Dr. Ma last night, it can basically be determined that his answer is that he is unwilling to hand over her medical records. Huh. Shameless villain, fortunately, Dr. Ma is an upright person with great professional ethics and professionalism!

Fang Songqi complained to Shen Ye about this matter: "I said that you don't know this uncle of yours too much. I thought he was shaken when he said 'consider considering', and it turned out that people had other plans. It's just that the annihilation plan didn't succeed. ”

Shen Ye didn't comment, and his mind turned quietly.

At around eight o'clock in the evening, the two returned to Liucheng together, and Shen Ye sent Fang Songqi to the apartment.

After saying goodbye, Shen Ye was about to leave, Fang Songqi took his hand and asked, "Do you think I should be treated?"

Shen Ye stroked her hair: "I can't make a decision for you, you can only think it through yourself." ”

Fang Songqi was dissatisfied with his attitude, and frowned: "You don't worry, in case of failure, I will disappear?"

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