The house is a little old, and there is still some damp musty smell in the hallway, and near the end of the hallway, on the dark red wooden door, a few white paint numbers are very eye-catching--120.

Yes, it's the numbers that are often found on ambulances, but here, it's not a hospital, but a university dormitory in a prefecture-level city in the north.

Dormitory number 120, to be exact, should be 4 buildings 120.

Looking at the numbers on the door panel blankly, after a long time, Lu Tao took a deep breath, pushed the door in, and there was no need to doubt it anymore, the familiar musty smell, the smell of sweat from the dormitory next to him, and the gray-haired chubby old man at the entrance of the dormitory building had been completely determined.

The dormitory was a six-person room, with only one bed on the left and two on the right, both of which were single bunk beds, and near the window, an old yellow-lacquered desk leaning against the radiator.

"Lu Tao, what are you doing? I see that you are like losing your soul, why are you falling out of love?" Above the bed on the left, Rong Chao was only wearing a **, pouting and lying on the head of the bed, flipping through the villain's book, and the fingers of his right hand were stained with a little saliva on his lips from time to time. Seeing him come in, he glanced at him and said.

Zhang Jian on the lower bunk was not there, the bed was clean, and the quilt was folded into neat squares.

On the right-hand side, two beds were next to each other, and on the lower bunk that entered the door, there were three people, one with his arm supporting his chin, lying on the quilt, one holding the wooden ladder of the bed in his right hand, and the other dealing cards.

"Lu Tao, where have you gone? Hurry up and play upgrades, just send someone. Roommate Li Hong's face was full of pimples and beckoned to him.

"You guys have fun. Lu Tao replied casually, walked to his bed, took off his shoes, and climbed up.

"Huh.... Yikes.... What's going on?Lu Tao, why do you smell so much wine?" Seeing that Lu Tao's expression was a little wrong, and the smell of wine emanated, several roommates pinched their noses and asked.

Lu Tao ignored it, and after getting into bed, he directly put his two feet on the bed frame, pulled the quilt diagonally, covered his stomach indiscriminately, and looked at the top with blank eyes.

Above the eyes, there was a white wall, with a smell of lime, and a picture of beyond was pasted on it, which had been torn up for the most part.

Little by little, things came to mind.

This year, he happened to be a junior.

It was also in this year that his life changed.

Because, he fell out of love!

Falling out of love is not the most terrible, what is terrible is that a person cannot come out of it.

Some people say that time is the best healing medicine, and with time, you can gradually forget everything and let go of everything.

However, many things are easier said than done, and if it is really your turn, you will still be addicted to them and cannot extricate yourself.

The object of the broken love, some people may think it is a little ridiculous, because the one she has never forgotten in her heart, she has only seen photos, and the contact is only through the phone and the Internet. But undeniably, it's real.

Lu Tao clearly remembered that it was such a seemingly ridiculous thing, but it made him sink for 5 years. From the very beginning, I drank and anesthetized myself after class every day, I didn't go to professional classes at all, skipped classes all day, and then I entered a sweatshop where I was a graduate with the bottom of my class at the recruitment double selection meeting.

All of this is because of this incident.

I have to say that people are sometimes very fragile, whether it is physical or mental, even a small blow may pull people into the abyss from which they will never recover.

It feels pointless to do anything, so what if you work hard? Can you go back to the past? What if you make a lot of money? Can you change the fact that she is married?

How many 5 years can there be in life, let alone at this stage when youth should strive for more efforts?

By the time he woke up and wanted to work hard, he had been in society for several years. Later, I adjusted myself step by step, and finally became a chemical engineer six years after graduation.

It sounds very lofty, but in fact the salary is not high, less than 3,000 yuan a month. Life was so-so, mortgaged a house in the city, and it was not until he was 30 years old that he went on a blind date at the urging of his parents, and later married a woman who had been together for less than two months.

I thought that my life would be so dull past, how do I know that the life after marriage is not good, because I don't know much about each other's run-in in the early stage, so I always quarrel, my wife dislikes him for making less money, and he also dislikes his wife who only knows how to play mahjong all day long, and doesn't understand his own joys, sorrows, and sorrows.

Such a day must not last long, and after a quarrel, the two chose to divorce. Frustrated, he has been paying the mortgage alone, tired and sick, and everything is alone.

It's not that he doesn't want a beautiful and sweet marriage, but deep in his heart, there has always been her shadow, and he can't tolerate anyone anymore.

Finally, he couldn't hold on anymore, and sank again, in addition to going to work like a walking corpse every day, he was accompanied by cigarettes and alcohol.

On a rainy night in the pouring rain, I went because of alcohol poisoning.

Looking blankly at the white wall, it was so dazzling. In the groggy head, memories are constantly entangled.

I still remember the class reunion, and the most talked about was what they would do if they could do it all over again.

He will buy a lot of houses and make a lot of money, and when he hears these words, he always smiles lightly.

What he thought about the most was that if he could be reborn again, would he go to her desperately?

Rebirth, the thing that many people look forward to and yearn for, has become very uneasy and apprehensive when it comes to themselves.

What happens when you find her? Will life change?

Maybe there is some expectation, but more than that, there is fear.

If you can't change it, do you want to go through this pain again?

Thinking of this, Lu Tao's heart was a little sad, so he couldn't help curling up, like a wounded hedgehog.

"Lu Tao, what's going on, tell my brothers, what's the hurdle you can't get over, let's think of a way together. “

The voice came from the back, and Li Hong, who was in the lower bunk, leaned his head out of the railing of the bed, reached out and gently pushed his back.

Hearing this, a teardrop slipped from the corner of Lu Tao's eyes, and he was so sad that he was about to suffocate and wiped away his tears directly on the pillow.

The mind gradually became clear, back to reality.

He turned his head, a smile slowly appearing on his face, looking at the familiar good brother.

"It's nothing, it's just too much to drink. ”

He laughed, not because he figured it out, or because he forced a smile, but because of the calendar on the table below.

1 October 1999.

This date is a bit special, because it happened to be the 50th anniversary of the National Day, and a grand military parade was held, and Lu Tao remembered it very well. This also means that the time has not come, and he still has a chance to redeem it!