When a person tries so hard to prove something, in fact, he already vaguely knows the answer, right? The corners of Jin Guangyan's lips pulled up a mocking arc, it turns out that he is so good at deceiving himself.

Now, he was finally willing to admit that the pain he had inflicted on her would eventually pierce his heart like a needle. As much as she hurts, he hurts. Wise and resolute like him, he is so cowardly emotionally that he does not dare to face the problem. So it took so long to convince himself to accept the fact that he couldn't prove that he didn't love Yan Xiaoxiao, because he already loved and loved madly. Although this love is desperate and painful, he is willing to eat it. Who says that all love can only be in a good form?

The smile on Jin Guangyan's lips became more and more bitter, he could love firmly and persistently, but he had no way to accept that her heart did not belong to him. Is it because he doesn't love deeply enough? The male protagonist and even the second male lead in the bubble dramas she likes to watch are the greatest happiness to stay with the heroine, even if her heart is not them, they all feel that it is a great blessing. But he can't do it, love without a response, maybe just feelings without a response will make him go crazy. Hehe, who would have thought that he, who has always been cold, would be such a man who is prone to gains and losses? Jin Guangyan rubbed his temples, still feeling a headache. How should he end up like this? Can he pretend that nothing happened and go back? Jin Guangyan found that sometimes he was so naïve that he wanted to try this kind of work like covering his ears and stealing the bell.

Jin Guangyan still shook his head after all, whether it was Yan Xiaoxiao or his mother, he was powerless to face it. If he chooses to give up, will they and even himself be exempt from this torment? This thought suddenly flashed, and Jin Guangyan's fingers holding the cigarette trembled slightly. He wanted them to be happy, but could it not be this way? He was not so selfless, and he finally found that his life could be so vivid, and he didn't want to go back to dead silence. Yan Xiaoxiao is a miracle to him, he wants to grasp and cherish.

As for the grievances of the older generation, they are too heavy, and he can't afford it and doesn't want to continue to meddle. It's not that he doesn't love his mother, and it's not that he doesn't feel sorry for her, but when is the grievance and resentment? The Yan family has been acquired by him, Yan's father is still unconscious, Yan Xiaoxiao is still homeless, and he feels that his mother can let go of his hatred and start over.

Since he was sensible, he secretly swore in his heart that he would avenge his mother. He felt that he had done it, not because he had given up avenging his mother because of his children's affection, but because he felt that it was enough. Of course, falling in love with Yan Xiaoxiao was an accident. In this regard, he did feel ashamed of his mother. But on the matter, the grievances between the Yan family and the Jin family can indeed be ended, and the mother should no longer be immersed in hatred.

Sometimes he didn't understand why his mother was still obsessed with revenge when she didn't even have the object of hatred or revenge? His mother said that because of Yan Xiaoxiao's mother's instigation, his father misunderstood her and drove impulsively, causing a car accident. The car crashed and people died, leaving their mother and son forever. Her father died without knowing the truth, which was a regret she could never make up, and since then her happiness has become a dream, and he has lost his father's love since he was a child. However, Yan Xiaoxiao's mother passed away many years ago. How can we avenge this revenge? Mother also said that Father Yan shielded that vixen, and if he hadn't exonerated Mother Yan and added fuel and vinegar in front of his father, how could the ending be so tragic? Therefore, Father Yan's crime is unforgivable. Okay, then aim at Yan's father and Yan's. After all, the mother is indeed a victim, and she needs to vent the anger and grievances she has accumulated over the years. And as a son, he naturally has an unshirkable responsibility. It's just that now that the revenge has been avenged, can she be happier? It turns out that he doesn't understand, thinking that his mother will regain her happiness after revenge. However, he gradually discovers that the pleasure of revenge is not even worth the occasional smile of the person he likes. Mother should not devote her energy to revenge, she should find the possibility of happiness. So, is his mother's plan for many years really right? Jin Guangyan doesn't want to veto his mother, but he is really confused, what is good for his mother?

Of course, it was not only his mother who made him anxious, but also Yan Xiaoxiao. If Yan Xiaoxiao was an ordinary girl, he was willing to tell her all the past. He also believed that she would be by his side to help him and his mother. However, she is Yan Xiaoxiao, and the man lying on the hospital bed is her father, can she really be calm when she knows the truth? Jin Guangyan didn't dare to imagine that he really didn't have the courage to confess. It's not that she's not kind and generous enough, but the facts are too tragic, and I'm afraid it's not a question of forgiveness or not. Although the Yan family owes the Jin family, can she understand this way of repayment? In the final analysis, he and she are both children, and they both have people they want to protect. Right and wrong, including reason, are destined to lose to blood and position, right? Jin Guangyan can't overcome the fear in his heart, maybe this is also the reason why he suffers from gains and losses, right? Jin Guangyan only feels weak, he is too insecure, and he is always worried that Yan Xiaoxiao will suddenly abandon him one day. Therefore, as long as there is wind and grass, he is afraid to death.

Jin Guangyan smoked dejectedly, she didn't like him to smoke, and he was willing to quit smoking. But she didn't like him, how could he quit himself? In the smoke, Jin Guangyan's sword eyebrows frowned, how could the two of them get back together? More precisely, how could he dispel the thought in her mind that wanted to fly away from him? Jiang Yue, Jin Guangyan's eyes became deep.

Before you know it, the sky is already dark. Jin Guangyan stood up, just standing in front of the closet in the inner compartment, but Jin Guangyan stopped moving. He hesitated slightly, but still drove back to Yan Xiaoxiao's residence. Changing clothes, isn't this excuse a bit naïve? Jin Guangyan was a little apprehensive, but he still mustered up the courage to open the door.

Yan Xiaoxiao in the bedroom seemed to hear a slight noise, but she just shook her head. How could it be him, he had been listening to the sound outside the door all night and was hallucinating, right? Yan Xiaoxiao turned over and closed his eyes.

Jin Guangyan couldn't tell what he was feeling, he didn't want her to be sad, but he still felt lost when he thought that he was struggling in pain all night, and she could live as usual. But he relaxed and walked into his room. After changing his clothes, he hesitated again. He didn't want to go away like this, at least he wanted to see her, didn't he? He appeared in the living room again, but the newspaper went back and forth several times, and the door of Yan Xiaoxiao's room still didn't move. Jin Guangyan became more and more anxious, but he couldn't find a reason to knock on the door.