Chapter 63 - Bye-bye, Loved

"Hello everyone, I'm Li Yan, that's right, it's me, the fiancé who was just dumped by Lin Yidie, the reason why I attended today's press conference is not only that I am Miss Lin's first love, I was once his fiancé, but also the male protagonist of each of her plays, in the future, there will be good plays, I hope Miss Lin will invite me, or I have a good script, I will still find Miss Lin, of course, if Miss Lin is still willing to film, or if you still have time, you know, from now on, I will call Miss Lin Director Lin, thank you, Miss Lin, you have a lot, don't care about my past, and don't dislike my appearance, has been with me for so many years, those youth that I have misunderstood, can you treat it as being eaten by a dog. He glanced at Lin Yidie, as if waiting for her to speak.

"Well, I was eaten by a dog, so, when our Lin family's advertisement found you, can you let your black-hearted agent raise your noble hand and give me a discount, your worth is too high, even our Lin family, the family has a lot of money, and it can't stand the toss." ”

"Yang, did you hear it? In the future, we will discount the Lin family's advertisement, don't be too cruel to others. The reporters present smiled with relief, the atmosphere changed from embarrassment to relaxation, and he paused: "In addition to dissolving the marriage contract here, I also want to clarify some scandals about me, I don't know if Miss Lin minds? Maybe my clarification of the scandal has robbed the protagonist of the limelight, I don't know if Miss Lin will kill me." He glanced at Lin Yidie, Lin Yidie was slightly stunned, and took the microphone: "Who are you and you, for so many years, my fans are not covered, okay? Are you really a vegetarian friend of the media? Which piece of news is more valuable, will they not be able to distinguish it? I still have this confidence." ”

"Wow, it is worthy of being the future Director Lin, he has not yet taken office, he is so imposing, then I am not welcome, here, I want to make a special note, I was raised by Shangguan Yang and the like, Shangguan Yang has the good of Longyang and the like, this is all fake, I am a straight man, a straight man, of course, if you want, Yang is willing to support me, I am very happy, after all, Yang is very good, many girls are worried about him, I am also very distressed, as for my dissolution of the marriage contract with Miss Lin, even if there is no Yang, I still dissolved, as she said, she is so good, I am really not worthy of him, if a love, once there is an imbalance, then we want Witt these horizontal points, It's really difficult, so we have discussed, it's better to let this wrong love end early. ”

He looked at Lin Yidie, paused, stood beside her, and took her hand, Lin Yidie was stunned for a moment, her heart tightened, and suddenly, inexplicably had a trace of fear for the person in front of her, and wanted to break away from his hand, he whispered in her ear: "You said it, if you want to play a full set, what, are you afraid? Who said it, give her first love a good result, why do you want to escape." ”

She was stunned, she looked at him quietly, and stopped talking, just your willfulness, haven't you always been up to you? So, this time, just this time, I hope you remember that I will not love you again Lin Yidie, but Lin Yidie of the Lin family, he smiled, and then said: " I and her, not as much as those news said, nor as you pen a thousand times tossing and turning, just a childhood sweetheart's empty joy, so a year, I fourteen, she fourteen, just in the same campus, the same class with the same good, just look right, just she is beautiful, just when I was young, just had such a surprise first love, I don't know her good, she doesn't know what I mean, year after year, year after year, we have grown up, no longer simple, no longer only tolerate each other in the eyes, no longer just have you by my side, slowly, you look at me unpleasantly, I see that you don't care, grow up a little more, we find, what we are talking about is never what we want from each other forever, we are young, we don't know how to love each other, we thought that if we accommodated, we could finish this life, but walking, walking, we found each other, you want to accompany me to see the day for a long time, I want you to accompany each other through the wilderness, that's just to read the lies in the novel, a person's life, how can we accommodate the slightest accommodation, we all want to let go of our hands halfway, in love, we are like a hedgehog, we give ourselves softness, hurt each other, hurt each other all over the body, we are tired, so, choose to let go of each other, as for Mr. Shangguan to me, he is my benefactor, just when I entered the entertainment industry, He just happened to find a valuable commodity, I took a fancy to his talent, he fancied my market, we take care of each other, support each other, move forward with each other, real brothers, no matter what the outside world says, we believe in each other, that's it, of course, I respect all homosexuals, and I don't reject homosexuality, but this does not mean that I approve of homosexuality, my hobbies, is female, non-male, besides, love has no gender, homosexuality is just falling in love with someone of the same gender as myself, I said this, I don't want to explain anything, I just want to tell every friend present, I am simple, I just want to act well, sing well, play the piano well, because, My fans are worth my efforts, I don't mind you Yaya and I follow Yang, but please don't attack us with ugly language, Yang, he is my brother, my favorite brother, if one day, I find that you have hurt him in your heart, no matter who it is, I Li Yan, I will definitely ask you to return it tenfold. ”

"Brush" Lin Yidie's face quickly turned white, in the end, you still don't forgive me, ten times? If I bear the pain you give me ten times, you can let go of the harm I once did to you, I admit it, Li Yan, you are so ruthless, from now on, we don't owe each other.

"Na, Li Yan, you are holding my hand and saying the words of guarding Shangguan Yang, it is really excessive, besides, I have already dissolved the marriage contract, for the sake of my future husband or my future reputation, you let go of your hand first, you will make me do everything in vain today." "Let go, at this moment, Li Yan, live well, love yourself well, I have loved the roses in the garden, and I have loved you.

"I'm sorry, the prince and princess in the fairy tale, when they are going to separate, they will give his princess a kiss, then, Miss Lin, I offer my last kiss to you, thank you for the years that have accompanied me. He knelt down on one knee, solemnly held Lin Yidie's right hand, kissed the back of his hand heavily, tears slipped down Lin Yidie's face, she gritted her teeth and said: "You get up for me, don't let me be reluctant anymore, not all fairy tales have a happy ending, and not every fairy tale princess is good, so, Li Yan, thank you." She withdrew her hand and forced back the tears she shed, she couldn't cry in front of everyone, she was the eldest lady of the Lin family, she couldn't cry.

Since I was born, I haven't seriously thought about what I would do if I only had thirty minutes in my life? Or will I do nothing, let the time pass like this, since I met you, Li Yan, I have thought that I ruined your love, and wanted to give you a home again, but what I gave, you don't want, even if I hold my world in front of him, he doesn't care about it.

There are many times when I feel that my life is too long, so long that I can't remember some things, I can't remember some things, I don't want to do anything, I calm down, think about it seriously, only to find that time is sometimes really cruel and terrible, this short period of more than 20 years, I seem to have done nothing, just over, and as if I have done everything, my more than 20 years have not been over, what kind of mood is this, or what kind of mood can we use to short 30 minutes.

Youth is a synonym for cruelty, new life is a representative word of hope, old age is a calm emotional word, but sometimes, this short thirty minutes will become the end of youth, this short thirty minutes will become the life talisman of new life, this short thirty minutes will become a calm collapse, for example, the dissolution of marriage at this time, for example, you who are kneeling in front of me and kissing the back of my hand, or for example, the suicide many years ago.

There are many times, I feel that I only need you enough, I feel that nothing in this world belongs to me, including you, and there is nothing that can keep me, such as you, I feel that if I don't do anything, and I feel sorry for myself, such as possessing you, I have worked hard to come to this world once, it is not easy, compared to those who have no time to open their eyes and see the world, compared to those who have no time to say it, compared to those who are born with disabilities, I have never had bravery.

All of you are clamoring for fairness, including me, have you ever wanted to know fairness, who has ever seen the world, there has been fairness, I am complaining about unfairness, then I have seen fairness, everyone's life is irreproducible, everyone's life is with independent choice, we are choosing all the time, everyone is moving forward, sometimes I have to wonder why people come to this world, why they live, why they live, why they live in the world, every time I think so, every time I dare not think about it, as Haruki Murakami said, we are all in vain, people, what kind of creature is it, talking about contentment, but I keep stealing the time about you, saying that I don't love it, but I never stop looking for traces that you have loved me, even if it is a little bit of love. I said that with you, I was never lonely, but behind the unknown person, I cried silently.

Man, what a contradictory creature.

The old man often said, "It is better to die than to live." ”

Human emotions are always varied, sad, sad, uneasy, unwilling, happy, happy, joyful, selfish, greedy, lustful, dark, stealing, war...... We often say that we should not take the lives of others casually, but there is always such a kind of person who takes the pleasure of killing and attaches harm to others to obtain the pleasure of satisfaction, such as me, if I hadn't met you, would I not have been like this, or, even if I didn't meet you, I would still be like this?

I guess there's a perverted heart hidden behind every soul.

Many people say that when people are about to die, their hearts are good, but sometimes, when I see this, I think it's ridiculous, you say, what's the use of his good heart when he dies? Now I realize that they are right, at least in me, I think this sentence still has credibility.

Will the hurt I have done, the wrong things I have done, the stigma I have placed on others end with my death? I don't think about dying, I don't dare, the man I call my father, how innocent he is, why should he use the little time he has left to remember me, I'm sorry, I can't be selfish.

Time is so long, how can the memory be said to forget and forget, I have hatred, I think if one day, I kill you by mistake, the memory of I love you, will it disappear with your departure?

I know that my light excuse is sorry, but is it useful to you? Is it really useful? I think it's useless.

People's hearts, how can I see what kind of scenery behind it, Li Yanna, I don't want to see the scenery of your future time anymore, I am very tired and don't love it, so, from now on, can we not see each other and not see each other, I am afraid that if I see it, I will not be able to control myself.

Situ Zi always said that it is the fault of people who have become like this, and if you think about it carefully, is it really the fault of people? What is a person, in the final analysis, is it not the fault of people?

Who said that there is fairness between people, what is the ideal love we say, it is really ridiculous to the extreme, in love, can it really be as you wish? I can't help but think of such a sentence, the love network is magnificent, negligent but not leaky, who do you see the sky forgiving?

We always believe that we will get better without the person we love but can't love, and we will get better, every day, every day, deceiving ourselves, will we really get better? Maybe, when you get better, you will be old.